Chapter 7: Confusion

Zhang Weiping and Li Yaling's first love really started that night.

That night, Zhang Weiping and Li Yaling sat by the fire again and talked. Not long ago, a patient left here. It was a patient with a cold and fever, and Li Yaling gave the patient a fever-reducing injection and prescribed medicine. During this period, Zhang Weiping has been accompanying Li Yaling. After the patient left, Zhang Weiping said: Look at you cold, bake the fire for a while before leaving.

In this way, Li Yaling followed Zhang Weiping to the brigade headquarters next door to the health center. The incandescent lamp was very bright that night, and the fire was also very strong, Zhang Weiping took a corn cob, and from time to time rubbed a few grains of corn on the corn cob and put them on the stove to pop corn, popping several grains, he carefully picked them up and put them in Li Yaling's hand. The corn from the stove was fragrant, and the two of them talked casually. At this moment, the power went out, and the sudden darkness made the two people relax at once, and they seemed to inadvertently, look at each other, and suddenly separate again. This is a very popular expression of the first relationship between men and women with affection and righteousness, but in their respective hearts, it is like a stormy wave.

When Zhang Weiping stretched out his hand to hand Li Yaling corn again, he didn't know where he got a sense of courage, and suddenly reached out and grabbed Li Yaling's hand, which was hot and wet. She said in a strange voice: God...... It's getting late, it's time for me to go back.

She said that, but her body didn't move.

He used some strength in his hand, and Li Yaling fell into his arms. Almost at the same time, they hugged each other. At this time, the sudden light made them leave each other like lightning, and she blushed, her head lowered, and her eyes were foggy. She stumbled and slurred, "I should go back."

This time she really stood up and habitually carried the medicine box over her shoulder. Zhang Weiping didn't speak, silently picked up the flashlight and followed her to see her off. Along the way, they didn't speak, until they came to the door of Li Yaling's house, she stood on her feet, turned her head, and glanced at him, he saw that her eyes were still a little blurry, and then she walked towards her house without looking back.

It wasn't until Li Yaling walked into the room that he came to his senses and strode back. Tonight was a great night for him, and the window paper had finally been pierced. He firmly believes that Li Yaling also likes him. Zhang Weiping, who is in his twenties, is full of revolutionary romantic feelings for the vast world of the countryside, and at this moment, he has found the happiness he yearns for in the romantic revolutionary practice, he runs in the snow, he wants to sing, he wants to dance, so he whistles. For some reason, he actually blew a song called "Guerrilla Song", which provoked several dogs to bark endlessly in the dark.

Since then, their rendezvous is not at the Brigade Headquarters, which is not safe. Maybe someone will come at any time, or the phone will ring after a quiet day or two. So they left the brigade headquarters, and love is private after all. Their rendezvous place is under the old willow tree by the river today, and tomorrow it may be under the canal bridge. When they are dating, there is more physical communication than verbal communication. They hugged each other and kissed regardless of it, and the cold of the night made them shiver in the cold wind, but they still loved each other happily.

At this time, their ideas are also at odds. Zhang Weiping thought that his life in Fangmagou would be very happy and warm in the future, and if Li Yaling could really marry him, he would take root, blossom, and bear fruit in the countryside. He would devote all his ideals to the cause of the revolution and let his dreams flourish in the countryside.

Li Yaling didn't think so, because she knew that Zhang Weiping was from the city and the son of Deputy Commander Zhang of the Military Region, and one day he would leave this remote countryside, if he really married Zhang Weiping, the day Zhang Weiping left the countryside would be when she entered the city. Half of her love for Zhang Weiping at this time was her love for the city, which was transformed into a more fierce love for Zhang Weiping. Speaking from the heart, Zhang Weiping is attracted to her, and what Zhang Weiping has is not available to rural youth, such as Zhang Weiping's courage, as well as the well-informed and well-informed way of thinking of people in the city, and the kind of romantic temperament that Zhang Weiping does not have in any rural youth.

In this obsession, Li Yaling thought of Liu Shuanglin again. Liu Shuanglin joined the army five years ago after leaving the Open Magou Brigade, and Liu Shuanglin was two grades higher than Li Yaling when he was in school. At that time, Li Yaling was very arrogant in her bones, and her father was still the branch secretary of the Fangmagou Brigade, and he was almost a high-ranking cadre in the countryside. Li Yaling is not only proud of these, she is proud of her beauty and excellent learning. At that moment, she was so arrogant that she didn't pay any attention to anyone.

Liu Shuanglin encountered difficulties when he was a soldier, and he had an older brother and a younger brother at home, and his parents were struggling to get along with their three children. Liu Shuanglin wants to become a soldier after graduating from high school, which will inevitably have an impact on his family's income, but Liu Shuanglin is determined to become a soldier. The first dream of rural youth was to recruit workers to the city, and in those days, there were very few recruitment targets for rural areas in the city. As a result, the only way out was to become a soldier. If you are a soldier, you will have the hope of joining the party and being promoted, but if you do not join the party, you will be promoted to a cadre for a few years, and if you have been trained in the army for a few years, and returning to the rural areas is also a capital, at least you have a wide field of vision, and if you talk and do things, others will look at you differently, and even the targets of the program will have the capital to pick and choose. Liu Shuanglin, like all rural youth, is eagerly looking forward to jumping over the dragon gate. But Liu Shuanglin's family background made it impossible for him to be a soldier, it was an evening a few days before the conscription, Liu Shuanglin came to Li Yaling's house, carried two bottles of bulk wine, and knelt in front of Li Yaling's father, who was the branch secretary. That night, Liu Shuanglin burst into tears. Li Yaling came home from school and was shocked by the scene in front of her. She was shocked and stepped over the kneeling Liu Shuanglin and walked into the back room. Perhaps it was Liu Shuanglin's sincerity that moved Li Zhishu, and in the end, Liu Shuanglin joined the army as he wished.

Two years later, Liu Shuanglin returned home to visit relatives, and at that time, Li Yaling had graduated from high school and was studying barefoot doctor at the commune health center. They met unexpectedly on the village street. At that moment, Liu Shuanglin was standing under a big willow tree to scatter cigarettes for the villagers, and while scattering smoke, he talked endlessly about what the troops had seen. Liu Shuanglin deliberately spoke with a southern and northern accent, with a red light on his face. At this time, his gaze and Li Yaling's gaze met unexpectedly. Now Li Yaling is even more beautiful than two years ago, and in Liu Shuanglin's eyes, she is already a big girl. At this time, she remembered the scene when Liu Shuanglin knelt down for her father two years ago, and as soon as she remembered that scene, she felt a fever on her face. She turned her face away, Liu Shuanglin seemed to have forgotten the embarrassment two years ago, he was kind, warm, and knowledgeable and greeted Li Yaling: Yaling, I heard that you are going to be a barefoot doctor, it's really good, let's talk when you have time.

Li Yaling didn't know how to answer Liu Shuanglin's greetings and invitations, and walked over with a red face and a white face.

Liu Shuanglin seems to be very scheming, and he looks like he will not give up until he reaches his goal. During the ten days that Liu Shuanglin visited his relatives, he had to pick up Li Yaling, who was studying at the commune health center, every evening. It is about five miles from the location of the commune to the Fangmagou brigade, and it takes half an hour to walk briskly. At the beginning, Li Yaling didn't accept Liu Shuanglin's love, she went her own, and Liu Shuanglin followed behind.

He said: Yaling, why are you in a hurry? Let me talk to you.

Li Yaling ignored him and walked forward on her own.

He followed behind, no matter whether Li Yaling liked to listen to it or not, he blindly talked about what he had seen and heard during his two years as a soldier.

He said: There are more than 1,000 people in our regiment, and our regiment commander is a hero who fought on Zhenbao Island.

He also said: Our regimental headquarters is in the city, but it is lively.

He also said: "From us to our troops, we have to change trains twice, which adds up to more than 10 hours."

A few days later, Li Yaling no longer rejected Liu Shuanglin so much, and the two of them could walk side by side and say something.

Liu Shuanglin said: Yaling, I have written it into the party application, and I joined the regiment after half a year as a soldier.

Li Yaling glanced at him.

He said, "Really, I don't lie to you."

Li Yaling looked at him again.

Liu Shuanglin also said: If someone can join the party this year, I will start working hard in the next step.

Li Yaling said: Is it so easy to do it?

He said, "Of course it's not easy, you have to work hard."

The two of them walked forward again, and at this time the sun was setting, dyeing half of the sky red.

Liu Shuanglin also said: If I can do it, I can bring my family members in the future.

When he said this, Li Yaling's heart "pounded" twice. Leaving the countryside is what she dreams of. Thinking of this, she blushed. He saw it, and when he saw that the time was ripe, he said: Actually, I have another idea when I visit my relatives this time, that is, I want to solve my personal problems.

Li Yaling glanced at him with a red face, and immediately turned her head away.

It is not surprising that Liu Shuanglin had this idea, the service system at that time was three years in the army, and he could visit relatives when he reached two years. There are so many soldiers who want to join the party and be promoted to work is really more difficult than ascending to the sky, and many people wear military uniforms to go home to visit their relatives in dignity, just to settle their family affairs, and if they wait for demobilization to come back and then find a partner, it will be much more difficult. Liu Shuanglin also had this idea when he came back this time, and when he saw Li Yaling for the first time on the village street that day, he suddenly had the urge to approach Li Yaling.

Needless to say, Li Yaling's beauty is important, the important thing is that Li Yaling's father is the secretary of the brigade and a village cadre during the "social education" period, and his qualifications are very old. If he can become a family with Li Yaling, he will not be able to join the party, he will not be able to do it, and when he returns to his hometown, he will have a future in the brigade and commune in the future. After he thought about it like this, he had the urge to approach Li Yaling.

Thirty years in the east of the river, thirty years in the west of the river. He has forgotten what happened two years ago, he is already a dignified soldier of the People's Liberation Army, wearing a red star on his head and the revolutionary red flag hanging on both sides. He thinks that he can be on an equal footing with Li Yaling.

Liu Shuanglin had to go to the commune hospital every evening to pick up Li Yaling, and a few days later, Li Yaling was moved by Liu Shuanglin, and her attitude towards Liu Shuanglin changed intentionally or unintentionally. Two years of army life have turned Liu Shuanglin upside down. In the past, Liu Shuanglin always wore the old clothes that his brother worn, and those clothes were patched, especially the two patches on his buttocks, like he had two eyes, and he walked up and down. At this time, Liu Shuanglin's military uniform was brand new, his body exuded the smell of the barracks, and his face was also red, like a lone sorghum in the field.

Li Yaling gradually accepted Liu Shuanglin's courtesy, and the two of them walked on the sandy road under the slanting sun. A touch of the setting sun shone on their faces, and their faces were hot, and fine sweat oozed out, which hung very moist on their cheeks.

Liu Shuanglin said: I should join the party when I return to the army this time, and I have written the application three times.

When Liu Shuanglin said this, he actually didn't have any bottom in his heart, there were more than 100 people in the company, and there were only one or two indicators for joining the party every year, not to mention that he had only been a soldier for two years, and many soldiers had served for three or five years, and they were all waiting to join the party and work hard. Those veterans also grabbed brooms and helped cook with the recruits, and they had already done the good things they could think of, Liu Shuanglin had just written three applications for joining the party, and those veterans had written more than a dozen, and some even bit their middle fingers and wrote the oath of joining the party with blood. Although Liu Shuanglin didn't have any bottom in his heart, when he said these words to Li Yaling, his voice was loud and his tone was firm.

Li Yaling asked: Can you really do it in the future?

Liu Shuanglin said: When you join the party, you will not be far from the day of being promoted.

In those years, a rural child could be promoted to work in the army, even if he was a cadre with a deputy platoon position, he could be regarded as jumping the dragon gate. Even if they are transferred to other jobs and leave the army in the future, they are still state cadres, and they will be arranged by the state in a unified manner. That is to say, as long as you dry it, you can leave the countryside facing the loess with your back to the sky forever, and the carp will jump the dragon gate.

For Li Yaling, if she can marry an officer, she is also a dignified military family, and she can join the army in a few more years, and her household registration will become a town household registration. Those days were what every rural youth in that era longed for. The future scene depicted by Liu Shuanglin deeply moved Li Yaling. Her feet unconsciously moved closer to Liu Shuanglin, and intentionally or unintentionally, Liu Shuanglin's shoulders touched Li Yaling's shoulders, and he smelled the fragrance of a mature girl emanating from Li Yaling's body. He was a little intoxicated, so he said dreamily: It's a matter of time before I do it, and I, Liu Shuanglin, am also a figure in the army.

Visiting relatives after two years is a grand event for any soldier, because they shoulder the heavy responsibility of going home to do great things. This big event is to engage in the object, wearing a military uniform to go home, and the scene is different. Some of them borrowed a pair of leather shoes from the platoon commander, or borrowed a watch, and those who had a better relationship with the platoon commander could also borrow the platoon commander's cadre uniform to wear it. If they can get their marriage done within ten days of visiting relatives, it will be their victory, and if they can let their fiancée come to the army and stay for three or five days before demobilization; And in these three to five days, it would be best if you could make raw rice into mature rice. According to the veteran, it is a sure thing to take down his fiancée and become his veritable wife. Of course, it's okay to cook raw rice and cook immaturely, people know that you went to other people's troops in the name of your fiancée, and you stayed for three or five days, who can tell what happened in those days? Rural people naturally have the opinion of rural people, that is, the demobilization of the soldiers has returned, and the woman regrets it, but her own status is already like this, and she is embarrassed to propose to break up with others, whether she is willing or unwilling, and in the end she is a wife and a mother. The idea of jumping the dragon gate has since died, and he can only sing a lament for his beautiful dream.

Liu Shuanglin is a true legend of a veteran, and the first thing he did when he returned to his hometown this time was to find a partner. When he left as a soldier, Li Yaling was still young, but she didn't expect that two years later, she would become a beautiful big girl. When he saw Li Yaling for the first time on the village street that day, he was determined to take Li Yaling down.

After a few days of hard work, he was confident that Li Yaling had begun to move, which greatly stimulated his ambition and fighting spirit. He secretly made up his mind that before he left the open horse ditch, the matter with Li Yaling had to be settled.

That evening, in the bloody sunset, Liu Shuanglin was bold and stretched out his hand to pull up the scattered hair for Li Yaling. What he didn't expect was that Li Yaling didn't stop it, but accepted it silently. Liu Shuanglin, who was encouraged, hugged Li Yaling's shoulders with both hands, and he wanted to kiss Li Yaling. At this time, Li Yaling seemed to be sober, she used some strength, put her arms against Liu Shuanglin's face, so that her body would not be completely past, she raised her face, and said very clearly: Can you really lift it?

At this time, Liu Shuanglin was already stunned, his face was warm and heartbeat, and he said with a sigh: No problem, if I go back this time, the leader will report to me.

Under Liu Shuanglin's swearing, Li Yaling finally gave up resistance and threw her soft body into Liu Shuanglin's arms. At that moment, Liu Shuanglin's heart was full of joy, and he thought that the most difficult first step of the Long March had been taken.

On that hazy and charming night, Liu Shuanglin panted and said: Yaling, when do you think I will go to your house to propose?

The love of rural people, the willingness of both parties is not recognized, and only when the parents of both parties approve it, then it will be recognized. Li Yaling didn't speak, she looked at Liu Shuanglin very calmly, she couldn't bear her father's attitude, in the Fangmagou Brigade, Dad is the leader, Daddy's heart is very high, although Liu Shuanglin has been a soldier for two years, and he came back wearing a military uniform, but whether Dad can take a fancy to him, she is a little uncertain.

Liu Shuanglin saw that Li Yaling did not react, so he said: I will go to your house tomorrow, do you think it?

Li Yaling still didn't say anything, and she had completely calmed down at this time. She returned home that night with a heavy heart.

The next day, Liu Shuanglin came to the commune early, bought two bottles of wine and two boxes of pastries in the store, and then waited for Li Yaling. Liu Shuanglin walked back excitedly, and he said as he walked: I will go to your father tonight.

After thinking about it for a day and a night, Li Yaling had already considered it maturely, and said calmly: You have to promise my father that you will be able to stay in the army and be promoted.

Liu Shuanglin said with a smile: That's natural, as soon as I return to the army, the leader should give me a report on Tigan.

Li Yaling said again: You tell my father well, don't be in a hurry.

Liu Shuanglin said: I'm not in a hurry, I want to say it well.

Before the sunset, they came to Li Yaling's house. Li Zhishu put on a dress and was standing in the courtyard smoking, he looked like a branch secretary, and he looked very much like a cadre.

He saw Liu Shuanglin at a glance, and what Liu Shuanglin was carrying, and then, he saw his daughter Yaling, and he analyzed the problem in the shortest possible time. He has been a branch secretary for decades, and he knows exactly who is talking about what he wants to say in Fangmagou. At this time, Li Zhishu's face was a little unsightly, gloomy.

Liu Shuanglin put the things in his hand on the windowsill, turned around and saluted Li Zhishu, then stretched out his hand and said: Zhishu, I, Shuanglin, have come to see you.

He meant to shake hands with Li Zhishu, who was now a glorious PLA soldier. In terms of identity, you can also call the party secretary comrade, and shaking hands between comrades is a kind of etiquette.

Unexpectedly, Li Zhishu didn't stretch out his hand, but put his hand behind his back, his nose just snorted, and he didn't look at the gift that Liu Shuanglin put on the windowsill.

Liu Shuanglin was hit, but he was not discouraged, took out a box of cigarettes from his pocket, handed one to Li Zhishu, Li Zhishu groaned, and still took it. He didn't put it in his mouth, but put the cigarette in his ear. Liu Shuanglin lit the match until the end before he threw it away. Psychologically, Liu Shuanglin is half a cut short. When he first entered the door, his waist was straight, but at this time his waist was bent, and he didn't know where to start if he had thought about it before.

He looked at the branch secretary and said over and over again: I am about to join the party, and the day of Tigan is not far away.

He said it several times in a row, and then he felt his mouth dry.

Li Zhishu looked very impatient, pacing around the courtyard with his hands behind his back and Liu Shuanglin's cigarette in his ears. Liu Shuanglin looked like he didn't know what to do, and his eyes followed Li Zhishu.

Li Zhishu finally spoke: The weasel greets the chicken, and if you have something to say, say what you want to do.

What Liu Shuanglin didn't expect was that two years of army life still did not change Li Zhishu's view of himself. Li Zhishu is very majestic, and the tone in which he speaks to everyone in the Fangmagou Brigade is like this, although Liu Shuanglin is not a person from Fangmagou for the time being, but a soldier of the People's Liberation Army, Li Zhishu still treats him like a villager. Liu Shuanglin thought of all the difficulties, but he didn't expect Li Zhishu to treat him like this.

Li Yaling, who was standing on the side, couldn't stand it, she called her father and said: Shuanglin came today to tell you something serious.

Liu Shuanglin's legs bent, and he knelt down for some reason, and he said in a trembling voice: Uncle, I want to marry Yaling.

This time, Li Zhishu stood still, he bent down to look at Liu Shuanglin and said: Marry my daughter? Joke! Who are you?!

Liu Shuanglin said: I will join the party immediately, and I am not far from Tigan.

Li Yaling also said: Shuanglin can really do it, Dad, you can believe him once.

Li Zhishu was happy, he straightened up again and said: Okay, wow, then wait for you to do it, and then get engaged to my daughter, and then I will raise my hands in approval.

Speaking of which, Liu Shuanglin could only get up from the ground, and he screamed again: Uncle, I'm leaving in two days, can you let me and Yaling get married in advance?

Li Zhishu waved his hand and said: Let's talk about this when you mention it.

After speaking, he went back to the house and left Liu Shuanglin aside.

Liu Shuanglin stood stiffly for a while, glanced at Li Yaling, turned around and walked out. Li Zhishu suddenly shouted: Stop!

Liu Shuanglin stopped.

Li Zhishu came out of the house like a style, lifted those gifts and put them in Liu Shuanglin's arms, and said: Take the things back and honor your mother.

Liu Shuanglin didn't pick it up, it didn't either, and finally caught it aggrievedly, shrugged up, and walked into the night in a gloomy way.

Li Yaling also felt aggrieved, and she cried out with tears: Dad, you shouldn't treat him like this.

Li Zhishu said: I have seen a lot of such people, who are nonsense. I dare to say, in two years, he still has to go back to our Fangmagou, and you are willing to marry such a useless person?

Li Zhishu has already made a final decision on Liu Shuanglin's coffin, and Li Yaling has no idea.