Qiao Nianchao had that feeling of being alone in the wind, and it was a little tragic. He understood that the time had come to really test him. Mafila had an accident, he was the party, and Mafila had an accident for love. He thought about running away, avoiding the Mafilah, as before, and they each walked on their own trajectory of life, and in the first two days he tried to do so, but all he could open and close was the shadow of the Mafira. Sometimes he woke up in the middle of the night in a dream, and the eyes of the muffila were still fixed on him, lingering in front of his eyes. Qiao Nianchao knew that he was in a catastrophe this time.

It was at this time that he felt something in his heart wake up suddenly, and he could choose to escape, but he couldn't, and absolutely not, otherwise he wouldn't be Qiao Nianchao. He understands that his father's blood flows in his bones, and his father has never chosen to escape in his life, and his father has come all the way. Father faced the test of life and death on the battlefield in the past, my father chose to move forward bravely every time, this is the responsibility of a soldier, he is also a soldier now, when such an unexpected thing comes, he can't, and can't choose to escape, he wants to be like his father, hold his head high and go brave.

If there was no such thing as Ma Feila, maybe there would be no later story between them, in this matter, Qiao Nianchao had a deep self-blame, that is, as a man, he did not protect Ma Feila, and he felt blushing and ashamed. At that time, he hated himself, why didn't he do his best to fight those three hooligans, if that was the case, maybe nothing would have happened to Mefira. After thinking about it, he felt that Ma Feila's accident was entirely because of him. He said over and over again in his heart: I want to be worthy of her, and in this life, I will always be worthy of her.

At that time, Qiao Nianchao didn't realize that when he made these confessions in his heart, he had fallen deeply in love with Mafila.

Ma Feila completely became a different person in Qiao Nianchao's eyes.

That accident was an important beginning in the stage of Ma Feila's life, in her previous life, the sun was shining everywhere, including her pursuit of Qiao Nianchao completely according to her own understanding of love, she liked it, she wanted to get. She was born in the sixties, her ****** is far away, in her childhood, she experienced *****, but the cultural revolution did not leave much mark on her, she has been in the army compound since she has a memory, everything is so simple and carefree. By the time she grew up all of a sudden, the ***** was over, and as soon as she graduated from high school, she ushered in the college entrance examination, so she was naturally admitted to the military school. Qiao Nianchao and they needed to put in a few years of hard work, and she completed it overnight and achieved it. Life is so beautiful and beautiful in her eyes. In this beauty, she fell in love with Qiao Nianchao, at the beginning, she was still a junior high school student, every morning when she went to school, she came to the gate of the army compound early, and then grinded at the gate of the compound, until Qiao Nianchao came out of the compound, she quietly followed, and walked to the school. At that time, she was in a good mood all day, humming a song in her mouth and her eyes were shining. On campus, Qiao Nianchao's figure still appeared in her sight from time to time, every time it would make her heart beat, and she couldn't tell why this was happening, a young girl's face was hot and her heart was beating, and then there were bursts of confusion. At that time, she couldn't tell why she liked Qiao Nianchao, she just wanted to see him, and if she could be with him, it would be a wonderful thing that made her unable to sleep.

Once, the school held theatrical performances, and more than a dozen literary and artistic backbones were selected from all grades, and after she was selected, when she conducted the first rehearsal, she found that Qiao Nianchao was also in their group. In those days, she was dizzy and didn't know how she got here.

Qiao Nianchao plays Li Yongqi, and she plays Xiao Changbao. She called him dad in the play. At first, she couldn't shout. She looked at "Li Yongqi" in front of her, she couldn't open her mouth, her face was flushed, and she couldn't call him "Dad" several times. The tutor said: This is acting and it's not real, if you can't do it, you will be replaced.

Her eyes were full of tears, her lips trembled, her head was lowered, and she blushed and said, "Let me try again."

She finally cried out, and that time she was shaking and tears were streaming down her face. Qiao Nianchao, who played Li Yongqi, seemed to have nothing to do, and seemed to have waited for a long time for this shout, and then happily agreed, and turned around and winked at his companions, and then smiled evilly.

Ma Feila couldn't tell what it was like in her heart, and she looked at Qiao Nianchao with watery eyes. At that time, she only had one idea, as long as she was with Qiao Nianchao, she could do whatever she wanted. In those days, her brain was in a state of hypoxia all day long, dizzy, and those days were both happy and hard.

Qiao Nianchao didn't seem to know anything about her behavior, she looked heartless, she talked and laughed with those classmates in their senior grades, but she didn't associate with these students who were a few grades lower than them, and she didn't even want to look at her, only during rehearsals, they could be regarded as communicating through the words.

At that time, Fang Wei was also in the propaganda team. Ma Feila looked at Qiao Nianchao and Fang Wei's enthusiasm, and felt so uncomfortable that she wanted to die. At that time, she thought: How good it would be if she were Fang Wei. But she is not Fang Wei after all, in their eyes, she is just Ma Feila. Her name is far from theirs, Qiao Nianchao was born after the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea, and his parents named him Nianchao in order to commemorate the Korean War. The name of Macafila, of course, also has another meaning. The result of the analysis is that Asia, Africa, and Latin America are all developing countries, so the people of these three continents can unite and are good friends of the Chinese people. At that time, there was a very popular song, which sang: Children from Asia, Africa and Latin America, hand in hand on the road to revolution...... This is enough to prove how close the people of Asia, Africa and Latin America are. The Chinese people, who were in poverty and white, under the call of Mao **, sent medical teams and railway construction teams to enter the land of Africa with great fanfare. The people of Africa are a force that can be united, but of course this is a different kind of diplomacy.

It was at this time that Mefila was born, and she has such a historic and monumental name. As the name suggests, there's a long way between them. Qiao Nianchao ignored her for a reason.

Most of the rehearsals of the school's literary and artistic propaganda team are in their spare time, and when they come back from school, most of them are in the evening. Qiao Nianchao, Fang Wei and the three of her all the way. For safety, the teacher deliberately arranged for the three of them to go together, but Qiao Nianchao and Fang Wei were as if they didn't have her. Like a little tail, she followed them inconspicuously. When they get on the bus, they look at her, consciously or unconsciously, and after making sure she's on the bus, they don't look at her again. Qiao Nianchao and Fang Wei whispered affectionately and mysteriously about their age.

Only once, they went to another school for exchange performances, and Fang Wei was ill that day and did not go to the performance. After the performance, Ma Feila and Qiao Nian Chao got on the bus. When getting in the car, Qiao Nianchao also took special care: Get in the car.

After getting in the car, Qiao Nianchao ignored her, and sat down in an empty seat with a double seat, she followed behind him, saw him sit down, hesitated, and finally sat next to Qiao Nianchao. It was a night bus, and there was no one on the bus anymore, and a few people were also sitting there, dozing off with their eyes closed. It was the first time for Ma Feila to be so close to Qiao Nianchao in real life, at that moment, her body temperature suddenly rose several degrees, she found that her face was already hot, fortunately, she had not removed her makeup, and her face was still painted with oil paint from the performance, she was sitting on her lap, not squinting, but every cell in her body was awake, and all the cells were excited for today at this time.

At this time, how she wished that Qiao Nianchao could say a word to her, even if it was a word. Qiao Nianchao didn't speak, she wanted to talk to him, and after thinking about it all the way, she didn't think a word, the car arrived at the station, she was still thinking excitedly, and he suddenly said: Get off.

At this time, she came to her senses, and the car had stopped in front of the compound of the military region. She panicked out of the way, saw Qiao Nianchao get out of the car, and then came to her senses and got out of the car herself. She followed him into the compound and then to the family quarters. She stood in the shadow and watched Qiao Nianchao walk back to her building, and when she entered the building, she couldn't see it anymore, so she covered her face and walked home. She felt happy and annoyed that night. They were alone, but she didn't say a word to him. That night could not calm her excited heart, she came in a half-asleep and half-awake state.

This is the unrequited love of Ma Feila when she was a girl, this kind of girlish complex has always accompanied her to grow up, but when she grows up, many things and people have changed a lot, and her belief in loving Qiao Nianchao has not changed. She still loves Qiao Nianchao as much as she did when she was a girl. This kind of love is more fervent and stronger than it was when she was a girl.

In order to get close to Qiao Nianchao, she heard that Qiao Nianchao was escorted to the Army Academy, so she resolutely applied for the Army Academy.

She was finally with him, and of course, he also treated her as an adult. Her courage and boldness finally gradually won Qiao Nianchao's love, and she seemed to have seen the dawn of their love. That's when the unexpected happened.

That night, she ran to the house, fell headlong on the bed, covered both beds, and cried all night. At that time, she realized that she would never be able to walk with Qiao Nianchao, she was a broken person, how could she still be worthy of Qiao Nianchao? She was desperate, utterly desperate.

That day, she cried all night, and the next morning, when her mother was about to take her back to school, she knocked on the door for a long time and did not see her answer, so she pushed the door open, and she was still lying under the quilt. The mother, not knowing what had happened to her, lifted the quilt and was startled to see her appearance, and reached out to touch her, she was having a high fever. No matter what her mother said, she didn't say a word, her eyes closed.

That time, her mother called the Army Academy and asked her to take a week off.

In the course of a week, it seemed that Marfila had grown up all at once, and she had learned a lot and understood a lot. She even had the idea of giving up on continuing her school. Before the start of school, she wrote a very long letter to Qiao Nianchao, more than a dozen pages, which was a letter she boldly confessed to Qiao Nianchao, starting from her secret love, it was a girl's feelings, and the process of progressing to a mature woman bit by bit. She wrote it over many nights. She originally planned to hand it over to Qiao Nianchao on the train on the day of school, but the night before her departure, that incident happened, and all her beautiful yearning and her feelings as a woman were closed. In those days, she could not see her future, let alone her happiness. She took the letter and lit it with a match in the bathroom, watching the pages of the letter soaked in her own blood crumble to ashes. She shed her tears of parting in the ashes.

A week later, she boarded the train back to school. At this time, her state of mind is no longer the Mafila of a week ago, when her heart was filled with fiery love and a happy future, and her heart is empty at this moment.

The mood of Mafila who returned to school was no longer human.

Qiao Nianchao seemed to have a dream, from the starting point of the departure, after a circle, he came back. In his heart, Mefila was like a seed that was inadvertently blown by the wind, and it took root and sprouted in just a few days. Ma Feila was not unforgettable in his heart at all, and even he always thought that Ma Feila was the little girl who didn't grow up a few years ago, lively, willful, and sometimes a little rude. She came into his life overnight, causing a few ripples in his otherwise peaceful life. He was too familiar with her, she grew up little by little in his eyes, she said she loved him, he didn't think it was true, and even a little funny. Later, he gradually discovered that she was serious, and there was a little bit of infatuation, and his mood was also wet and wet, leaving not too many traces. Because of this familiarity, he didn't think he would have anything to do with Mafila. He was happy with her, and the pleasure was a little perverse when a man looked at a little girl in his eyes. He used to read many books, which described a lot of steadfast and childhood love, and when he read those books, he was often moved by the love described. Now he knows that those loves are just a beautiful imagination of the writer. It is really difficult for a couple of men and women to grow up from childhood to adulthood. Distance produces beauty, and he and Mafila can be said to have no distance at all. He has always grown up looking down on Mafila. She was waist tall at first, then to his neck, and almost as tall as his ears, she was supposed to be an adult. The so-called adult is physiologically speaking, and in his heart, she will always be that heartless and naughty little girl.

Mafila came into his life, he undeniably brought much pleasure to his life, he was with her, it was more of a friendship, and sometimes he didn't think of her as the opposite sex. It's the kind of friendship that is very buddy. He didn't reject her, but he could feel the oppression she was constantly on, and this oppression was understood by him as an ingredient of a game. He was with her without a trace of tension, urgency, and desire. It was so calm that even he was surprised.

When he faced Mafila again in the new semester, he couldn't tell why, he couldn't forget Mafila anymore, the more she avoided him, the more he wanted to see her, and the relationship between the two was completely reversed. He couldn't tell what it all was.

Every morning, when they lined up to go to class, he could see Ma Feila from afar, and her spirit was no longer that of the girl with a relaxed face, her pale face showed a hint of melancholy, and there was also the thoughts written on her face. It all made his heart tremble. Until he entered the classroom, Mephila also entered his own classroom. He thought of her now whenever he could, her voice and smile vividly before his eyes. Sometimes, he sits there thinking so stupidly, forgetting the time and place.

Sometimes I dream of her, and she is still so naughty and handsome in his dreams. He woke up in a dream and found that it was a dream, and his heart was empty, and he couldn't sleep for a long time.

When he fell in love with Fang Wei for the first time, he didn't seem to have this feeling, he just wanted to see Fang Wei, and after seeing him, he was happy. There is no such thing as an unforgettable, unstoppable, or even occasional feeling of heartache. He had this feeling at this time, he couldn't tell if it was love, anyway, he couldn't let go of Mafila. In those days, Qiao Nianchao was like a little boy who had not grown up, he broke into his first love in a daze, he became distracted, and often stood outside the window of the dormitory in Mafila. He stood there regularly during this time, and he attracted the attention of the female soldiers in the Malafra dormitory. One day, a female soldier with a tomboy haircut poked her head out and said, "Hey, that boy in command, who are you waiting for here?"

This sentence alerted Qiao Nianchao, and he smiled embarrassedly at the girl, and left as if nothing was wrong. Not long after, he appeared there sleepwalking again. As soon as he appeared, several girls in the dormitory in Mafila blew up the nest. They said, "Look, the boy is here again." So they squeezed their heads against the window and looked at Qiao Nianchao horizontally and vertically. Before this, Ma Feila already knew that Qiao Nianchao was looking so infatuated downstairs. She just looked at it and never looked again.

The girls discussed: Do you look good, it's very impressive.

Then someone wondered: who the hell is he coming to see?

Others say: He is unrequited love.

……

Everyone laughed, but Mafila didn't laugh, and he did what he had to do, and everyone came back to their senses in surprise and ridicule. Because they found that this semester and the last semester in Mafila are simply two people. They never found the reason, but now they finally found it. They surrounded the Mayphila at once, and then speculated.

Someone said: Are you out of love, who tortured you like this, is it the stinky boy downstairs? If so, you say, we'll splash him with water upstairs.

Someone else said: That kid downstairs must be waiting for you, you don't want to go quickly, if you don't go, we can go.

Others said: Do you agree or disagree with Mafila, if you really don't agree, don't blame us for snatching him away.

……

No matter what these girls said, Ma Feila looked indifferent, and when she was in a hurry, she said: What nonsense are you talking about?

Then he went around the window, pretended to look down, and said: I don't know him at all.

A girl exposed her on the spot: No, I obviously watched you and him intimate last semester, why don't you pretend not to know him now?

Someone else said: Don't you want to follow him anymore? I'll go downstairs and tell him to let him go.

After saying that, I really went downstairs. The girls saw that a good show was about to start, and they lay in front of the window one after another to watch the scene begin.

The girl went downstairs and came under the tree.

Qiao Nianchao found the girl walking over, he pretended to be looking for something, bent over and looked for it on the ground.

The girl said, "Hey, don't pretend, what's missing?"

Qiao Nianchao said: It's the key, the key to the dormitory.

The girl said again: I lost the key to open the heart of Mafila.

Qiao Nianchao's face flushed.

The girl said: Tell you, Mefila is not interesting to you, you should hurry up and think of other ways, don't work on a tree, make Mafila so painful, you can bear it?

When Qiao Nianchao heard this, his face suddenly turned white. He looked at the girl in front of him in some surprise, and said incoherently: It's her, she asked you to tell me.

The girl said: What she said is what I said, and what I said is what she said, understand.

Qiao Nianchao raised his head and glanced at the window of the girls' dormitory again, turned around and walked forward step by step.

The girls crowded in front of the window and chattered: gone, he really left.

The other said, "You look so sad about him."

When they looked back, they found that Marfila was in tears. They didn't understand what was happening. She suddenly threw herself on the bed, pulled over the covers, and whimpered in them.

The girl who had just come downstairs saw such a scene as soon as she entered the door, and she stood there stupidly, not knowing what to do for a while. She raised her head and saw the blaming eyes of everyone, and said helplessly: I, what did I do wrong?

She came to Mafila's bed and whispered, "Mafira, if I do something wrong, I will bring him back to you, no, invite him to our dormitory."

After saying that, he was about to go downstairs again, and Ma Feila choked up and said: You don't have to worry about my business.

Ma Feila made a choice in pain, since she found Qiao Nianchao standing downstairs in the girls' dormitory, her heart was bleeding, if before, she would have flown with joy, and then desperately threw herself into his arms. However, now she cannot, she doesn't even dare to look at him, she is afraid that she will not be able to control herself. When others talked about Qiao Nianchao, she pretended to be indifferent. When the kind girl went downstairs, she heard her words and knew that Nian Chao was finally gone. She didn't see it, but she could think of his lost look. During this time, she knew that Qiao Nianchao had been silently watching her, in the queue, on the dining table in the cafeteria, and in the library...... Although so far away, his gaze seemed to bend, and wherever she went, his gaze followed. She forced herself not to look at him, and if one time her gaze met his, she knew she would not be able to bear it and do something ridiculous. But she couldn't bear not to look at him, she had to spend a lot of effort, always alerting herself, and this restraint sometimes made her tremble all over.

The day after the dormitory incident, she finally saw Qiao Nianchao on the steps in front of the library in the evening. Qiao Nian clipped a few books under his armpit, and he stood there as if it had been thousands of years. He greeted her, waiting for her with a stern and somewhat pale face, and she inevitably met his gaze. At that moment, she was still telling herself in her heart: ignore him and walk over. She lowered her head, looked at her toes, and counted her steps.

She'd been a step or two past him. He suddenly said, "Maphira, stop."

It was as if she had heard an order, and she stood still, but did not look back.

He turned and walked a few steps in front of her, and she glanced at him hurriedly, and hurriedly twisted her head to the side.

He said: Mafila, you tell me today, do you still recognize me Qiao Nianchao?

Qiao Nianchao has been tortured by his thoughts and can't bear it anymore, and today he must make it clear to him, otherwise he will have trouble sleeping. Yesterday he barely slept all night, and he thought clearly, and he must ask Ma Feila in front of him.

This sentence made Ma Feila tremble, and she didn't know how to answer Qiao Nianchao. In her heart, she has loved Qiao Nianchao thousands of times, but the reality tells her that she is no longer worthy of Qiao Nianchao. At this moment, she made a choice, and she couldn't help but be sad and hesitant.

Qiao Nianchao said: You speak, if you don't admit it, I will leave without delaying you for a second.

She bit her lip and looked at him, unable to speak.

He glanced at the sky, took a breath, and then slowly turned around and walked down the steps.

At this moment, Ma Feila cried out heartbreakingly: Nian Chao!

When Qiao Nianchao turned around, he saw Ma Feila covering his face with his hands and crying in a low voice. He walked over and took Mafila in his arms at once. Ma Feila's body softened suddenly, and he let Qiao Nianchao hold it like that.

Many people who passed by the front of the library stood there in amazement at what was happening in front of them. They don't know what's going on.