In the autumn of that year, Liu Shuanglin was finally allocated a set of camp housing. Next, Liu Shuanglin moved out of Fang Wei's parents' house, and his mood was both urgent and excited.

Before that, Minister Fang was hospitalized again, and his illness became more serious, and he stayed in the hospital for more than 20 days. This time, Minister Fang himself proposed to be discharged from the hospital, and he seemed to have realized his illness. At this time, Minister Fang was no longer the previous Minister Fang, and his illness had completely changed his appearance. When he realized all this, he strongly asked to be discharged from the hospital, and the reason for his discharge was that he had to go home, and he could only stay at home.

Because before this, there were already many old comrades-in-arms who could still eat and drink before being hospitalized, but as soon as they walked into the hospital, they never came out again. They endured the pain and finally said goodbye to their loved ones and the world in the hospital. Minister Fang is not afraid of death, from his youth to the present, he has died countless times in his life, most of the comrades-in-arms who participated in the revolution with him have died, only a small number of them have survived, life is picked up for them, and one more day of life has earned a day. Therefore, he has long been indifferent to life and death. But he didn't want to live in a hospital and die like a patient, he wanted to live like an ordinary person until he couldn't open his eyes.

After Minister Fang was discharged from the hospital, his temperament seemed to have changed a lot, he began to be nostalgic for everything around him, everything was pleasing to the eye, and his attitude suddenly became gentle. When he was in the hospital, he asked the doctor about his condition, but the doctor still did not tell him about the cancer, and answered his inquiry with an ordinary illness.

After returning home, he calmly asked Aunt Sun and Fang Wei. He said, "I know my own disease, do I have some terminal disease?"

Aunt Sun said: Don't think nonsense, didn't the doctor say it, you have high blood pressure, coronary heart disease, a common disease for the elderly.

Minister Fang smiled, his face pale, and he looked very calm.

He asked his daughter Fang Wei again: Girl, don't hide it from Dad, Dad understands everything, people have to die sooner or later, either this disease or that disease comes to bully people, and in the end people can't survive the illness, and their lives will come to an end, which is normal.

When her father talked about life and death, Fang Wei was sad, she said: Dad, don't think nonsense, take care of your illness, and after a while, you will be alive again.

Father smiled again, surprisingly calmly. He said again: Girl, I'm not afraid of death, it's been so many years, the wind and rain, what haven't my father seen? I am relieved to see you young people happy and peaceful in our country.

Since then, Minister Fang has never asked about his illness, he only asks what he can do and never asks others, he treats every day calmly, as long as his body allows, he has to go out for a walk, or stand in front of the door and watch those people he knows walk in front of him one by one.

One day, Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao walked by the door, looked at Minister Fang's sick face and said: Old Fang, what are you doing?

He said: No problem, little problem, in a few days, let's have morning exercises together.

Deputy Chief of Staff Qiao said: Okay, I'll wait for you, don't be sick.

After a while, Deputy Commander Zhang came over again. Deputy Commander Zhang said with a haha: What's the old side, why did it get like this? If you can't do it, go back and lie down, don't get cold here.

Minister Fang pretended to be tough and said: You can't do it, don't look at my health now, I can still fall with you in half a month, do you dare to compare with me?

Deputy Commander Zhang laughed and said: What are you wrestling like this, pull it down.

Fang Wei faced her father, her heart was both moved and complicated, she was proud to have such a father, and at the same time, she felt sad and sad that her father was about to leave her relatives. She secretly vowed that she would take good care of her father during his lifetime and accompany him through his last days.

It was at this time that Liu Shuanglin proposed to move, and his behavior was of course strongly opposed by Fang Wei. She said: My dad is like this, let's move out, how can you bear it?

Liu Shuanglin said: Anyway, I live in a courtyard, and it's not far away, when will I come back?

Fang Wei said: Don't forget, how the organization transferred us back.

He said, "These are two different things.

Fang Wei said: If you want to move, you will move, anyway, I won't move.

The relationship between Liu Shuanglin and Fang Wei became so tense. Liu Shuanglin still didn't forget to clean up the house that had just been assigned, he cleaned the room, bought a bed and curtains or something, and waited to move.

He has his own plans, he moves out by himself, that home is his own, and he has the final say on how he lives, unlike Fang Wei's parents, he is uncomfortable no matter how he lives, and even depends on the face of his father-in-law and mother-in-law.

Aunt Sun seemed to see through the son-in-law in front of her, and her face had never been sunny to him. When they first lived together, Liu Shuanglin rushed to do any work at home in order to express himself, looking hard-working. As time passed, Liu Shuanglin seemed to have lost his enthusiasm in this regard, he knew that there would be no result if this continued, and besides, Minister Fang had already retired, and he didn't seem to be able to borrow anything from him, so what was the use of being so tired. And no matter how hard he tried, he didn't seem to be able to make Aunt Sun and Fang Wei happy. simply, he gave up this kind of useless effort, and he loved it.

Aunt Sun asked: What's wrong with you and Xiao Liu? Why don't you even say anything.

In front of his mother, Fang Wei didn't want to keep anything, so he said that Liu Shuanglin wanted to move away.

Aunt Sun said: What's the matter, I'm right, Xiao Liu, this kid came into our house for an impure purpose, seeing that your father is useless now, he wants to leave us and leave by himself.

Fang Wei didn't speak, snorting angrily.

Minister Fang said: Don't say it so seriously, I think Xiao Liu's essence is still good. Just move out, I'm in good health, not to the point where you have to take care of it.

At Minister Fang's repeated insistence, Fang Wei finally agreed to move out with Liu Shuanglin.

Those days were Liu Shuanglin's happiest and happiest days. He walked from one room to another with his hands behind his back, and muttered: This is also his own home, it's so good, it's so comfortable.

Fang Wei came back from work every day, finished cooking, hurriedly ate a bite, and went to visit his father, and did not return to Liu Shuanglin's side until he was resting. Liu Shuanglin didn't say anything about all this, he still did what he should do.

Soon, Liu Shuanglin wrote a letter to his family, asking his parents to come and live. The letter was sent out, and he said to Fang Wei: In a few days, my parents will come to live with us.

She had never heard him say it before, so she looked at him in astonishment.

Liu Shuanglin said again: My parents have suffered a lifetime of sin, and they should enjoy a few days of happiness.

Liu Shuanglin's parents are coming over, what can Fang Wei say. His parents, she had met, were honest farmers. She didn't think about it, and she didn't say anything.

A few days later, Liu Shuanglin received a telegram from his parents, which indicated the number and time of the train his parents were going to come here. Finally, Liu Shuanglin took his parents to his home very ceremoniously. The camp housing itself is not large, and there are two more elderly people in the family at once, which makes it crowded and lively.

In the early days, Liu Shuanglin's parents should have been very polite to Fang Wei, shouting for warmth, in their hearts, their son can marry a girl from a high-ranking family as a daughter-in-law, and he is already burning high incense.

The arrival of Liu Shuanglin's parents gave Fang Wei more reasons to stay on her parents' side for a long time, and as soon as she saw Liu Shuanglin's parents, she remembered her parents. In this way, Liu Shuanglin's parents were not very happy, and they demanded Fang Wei according to rural customs.

They said, "Your daughter-in-law is away from home all day, and it's not good to stay at her mother's house all the time."

Liu Shuanglin said: Her father is sick.

They also said, "Her father is sick, and we are not in good health." Marrying a chicken with a chicken, marrying a dog with a dog, you can't be based on your mother's family, everything depends on the face of your husband's family. According to rural customs, Fang Wei is obviously not a qualified daughter-in-law in their eyes. Besides, it's been so long, and they haven't given birth to a boy and a girl to the Liu family.

The mother said, "What's the use of looking like a vase, you can't even give birth to a child."

The father said, "Son, now that you have entered the city, you will take root in the city, and there will be no child who will not even inherit the household registration book in the future."

Liu Shuanglin's face turned red and white for a while.

Of course, all this was said behind Fang Wei's back, and Fang Wei didn't know all this.

The three of them united the front, and it seemed that they had a common enemy, and this enemy was Fang Wei. In this family, Fang Wei is a foreigner, and they are the authentic Liu family.

When Fang Wei was at home, Liu Shuanglin's parents often locked themselves in their rooms, and they didn't talk to Fang Wei about something, but called Liu Shuanglin to their room to mutter for a while. Actually, they didn't say anything, just those things at home, nothing more than firewood, rice, oil and salt, or the question of whether to have children, Fang Wei felt awkward.

Once, after Liu Shuanglin came out of his parents' house, Fang Wei said: Don't act like a spy in the future, if you have anything to say out loud, okay?

Liu Shuanglin said: You can stay in this house for a few hours a day, my mother asked me to buy rice, and the rice at home is gone.

Fang Wei said: If you buy rice, you will buy rice, so what is the mystery for?

Liu Shuanglin stopped talking.

Because of Fang Wei's dissatisfaction, Liu Shuanglin's parents became more and more critical of Fang Wei.

They used the standards of rural daughters-in-law to demand Fang Wei. For example, doing housework, Fang Wei finished making breakfast every morning, sometimes he ate a bite when he had time, sometimes he didn't even have time to eat, so he left in a hurry, and when he got home in the evening, it was already after six o'clock, so he brought some vegetables outside. Sometimes she cooks, sometimes Liu Shuanglin's mother does, no matter who does it, after she eats a few bites of food, she goes to her parents' house to take care of her father, and she comes back when the lights are out in the whole compound.

Liu Shuanglin's parents are of course very unhappy about their daughter-in-law, in their eyes, Fang Wei is a woman who can't live, and she doesn't even want to have children. They felt sorry for their son.

One day, his parents enlightened Liu Shuanglin like this: What's the use of being good-looking, and what's the use of high-ranking children?

Liu Shuanglin didn't speak, and he looked at his parents sadly.

Mother said again: Shuanglin, depending on your current conditions, go back to our hometown to find a daughter-in-law, and you can't choose, whoever you fancy is her blessing.

Liu Shuanglin said: Mom, don't say it.

The mother also said: Whoever you find will give birth to a son for you, so that you can live a good life, so that you can work outside with peace of mind.

Liu Shuanglin's expression became grim, and as he got married, and later came to work in the military region, he gradually realized that Fang Wei was a woman, and the kind of reverence and mystery he used to have for her gradually disappeared. He and Fang Wei felt powerless from beginning to end, nothing could be Fang Wei's home, he was being led by Fang Wei's nose.

In the past, Fang Wei was the son of a high-ranking official in his eyes, but now he is just his wife. In the past, Fang Wei's father was the head of the logistics department of the military region, but now he is just a patient. He thought that after he was transferred to the military region, he would rely on Minister Fang's relationship to rise smoothly, but what he didn't expect was that he was still him, just an ordinary staff officer.

Liu Shuanglin felt a kind of crisis as soon as he entered the agency, when he was in the division, he thought that he was okay, more than the upper and lower than the bottom, and only after arriving at the agency did he realize that he was no longer comparable with others. Everyone else is so good, whether it is family or work, Liu Shuanglin feels that he is beyond reach. He can only obey orders, obey the arrangement, and do whatever he wants, and his attitude determines everything. After working for a period of time, he was a little afraid of walking into the agency, invisible pressure, and an emotion that he couldn't explain. Every day, he always walked into the office with the sound of the trumpet to go to work, and then left the office with the trumpet, and when he walked out of the office, he let out a long breath.

In the first days, he felt uncomfortable even when he returned to the minister's house. When he got off work, Fang Wei hadn't gotten off work yet, he didn't want to face Aunt Sun's cold face, sometimes he walked around the flower beds in the courtyard, or he was standing under a tree and smoking, until it was time to go back, he didn't walk back hard, as soon as he walked into that home, he felt depressed, he couldn't tell where this depression came from, anyway, he was uncomfortable, and he couldn't even breathe well. Looking forward to the stars and the moon, he finally got a house, and at that time, his first wish was to bring his parents to live with him. Now that his parents are finally here, he feels more grounded than ever. Fang Wei was no longer so important to him, because Fang Wei's appearance would break the atmosphere of their lives.

When Fang Wei didn't come back, his parents were talking and laughing with him, as if they were back in the field where Fangmagou was back, but as soon as Fang Wei came back, his parents turned cold, wiped back and went back to his hut, and the air immediately froze. Not only did he feel uncomfortable, but Fang Wei was also uncomfortable. This sentiment on both sides makes the other feel a kind of danger.

After Minister Fang's illness stabilized again, he insisted on coming over to see Liu Shuanglin's parents. After all, it is a family of in-laws, and it should be very close according to the old reason. When Liu Shuanglin's parents came, it was when Minister Fang was seriously ill, and the two sides naturally couldn't meet. Minister Fang wanted to see Liu Shuanglin's parents, but Aunt Sun objected.

She said, "They are not sick or sick, they will not come?"

Minister Fang said: They are them, we are us, two different things.

After Minister Fang finished speaking, he walked out, and Aunt Sun was not worried about Minister Fang's body, so she could only follow behind. From the west courtyard to the east courtyard, a distance of several hundred meters, Minister Fang walked for more than half an hour, and his head was sweating. In the past, this distance was five or six minutes enough for him, and when Minister Fang wiped his head and sweat, he said in his heart: As for people, it seems that they can't fight against nature.

Minister Fang's arrival surprised Liu Shuanglin's parents, who looked at Minister Fang and his wife in surprise, not knowing whether it was cold or hot. Before this, they also had some opinions about the other minister's wife, thinking to themselves, they have been here for so long, and they don't even show their faces, doesn't this obviously look down on the peasants? Besides, what happened to the peasants? They are also the parents of their children now, and there is nothing lacking and nothing is lacking.

At that meeting, the two sides had the following dialogue.

Liu Shuanglin's parents said: What's the matter, is the illness better?

Minister Fang said: When people are old, that's it.

In the eyes of Liu Shuanglin's parents, Minister Fang and his wife should not be like this, in their impression, senior cadres should be full of light and good conversation, but in front of them, Minister Fang is a sick old man who is riddled with serious illness. After they were disappointed, they had a sense of superiority, so there was a different flavor in the conversation.

Liu Shuanglin's mother said: "My family, I heard that we live in the same hospital, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult to meet once."

Minister Fang said: It's all because my body is not angry.

Liu Shuanglin's father said: You are the chief, we should have gone to see you, but the threshold of your house is high, and we don't know if it is suitable or not, so we didn't go.

Minister Fang was giggling, and she wanted to say something, but Aunt Sun dragged Minister Fang out with a tug. She said: Lao Fang still needs to take medicine when he goes back, so he will come to see you, so he won't bother.

As soon as this comes and goes, there is content. After they left, Liu Shuanglin's parents closed the door and had the following conversation.

My father said: I don't think anyone who is high or high is not much better than me, a rural person.

Mother said: What kind of girl is there with parents, look at Fang Wei and her mother, as soon as I entered the door, I felt that shemale way.

The father said, "Alas."

Mother said: It seems that our family's Shuanglin will have a long hard life in the future. With the conditions of our Shuanglin, what kind of can't we find, how can we find such a home?

After Minister Fang returned home, he also had the following conversation with Aunt Sun.

Aunt Sun said: You have always said that farmers are good, duty, this is duty?

Minister Fang said: It's nothing, we should have gone to see people earlier. If you go so late, can people not be careful?

Aunt Sun said: You are a patient, not a good person, they should come to see you first.

Minister Fang waved his hand, looking like he didn't want to continue.

Aunt Sun said again: When Fang Wei was looking for a partner, as soon as I heard that it was from the countryside, I didn't want to, you can be good, but you raised your hands in favor, I see how Fang Wei can live in the future.

Minister Fang: Let's not get involved in children's affairs, Fang Wei is also older, she knows how to live.

Both of them stopped talking, and they both felt a little unpleasant for this trip.

Fang Wei has also been thinking about her marriage during this time, and she has been thinking about the process of getting married with Liu Shuanglin. During the whole process, she has been passive, and sometimes, she really can't tell whether she loves Liu Shuanglin or not. Liu Shuanglin blindly treated herself well, at that time, he was a cadre, she was a soldier, and she had a sense of intimacy. Later, it can be said that she was moved by a kind of persistent goodness, and she felt that she should marry Liu Shuanglin, so she married her. She didn't know if she loved him or not, and it wasn't until she got married that she realized what it was like to love someone and what it was like not to love someone.

For a while, she unconsciously always wanted to think about Qiao Nianchao, when she snubbed Qiao Nianchao, her mood was very simple, that is, because Qiao Nianchao was backward, in that environment, everyone wanted to be competitive, she couldn't be with people who were backward in thought, she was afraid that he would bring that bad mood to herself, it was as simple as that.

Later, she heard that Qiao Nianchao and Ma Feila were married, and she didn't know anything else. But she still thinks of Qiao Nianchao, and she uses her marriage to compare with Qiao Nianchao.

The current Fang Wei is no longer the Fang Wei of the past, and it was only at this time that she seemed to understand what marriage is and what life is. In the past, because of her background, it was impossible for her experience to have so many complicated thoughts about life, and when others were complicated, she was simple, and she was destined to pay the price for this simplicity.

Gradually, after she got off work, she often went directly to her parents, and she became more and more unbearable at that home. Liu Shuanglin's parents deprived her of the right to cook because they were not used to eating the food she cooked, but she couldn't swallow the food they cooked. Liu Shuanglin looks very sweet every time he eats, and when he eats, Liu Shuanglin's face is full of oil, sweat is leaching from his nose, and he looks extremely happy. He didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, buried his head in the bowl, shook his head and said: It's delicious, it's delicious.

Fang Wei could only put down the dishes and chopsticks, looking at the sweet appearance of the other three people, she felt that she was an outsider. Her heart was a little cold.

The three of them treated her lukewarmly, after eating, closing the door, the three of them talked and laughed in the room, and there were always so many endless words.

Fang Wei could only go back to her parents, and at first her parents said to her: This is not good, you are a family person, and you always run back like something.

Later, he didn't even say anything like Minister Fang.

In the evening, Fang Wei said: Mom, I live at home today.

Aunt Sun sighed and prepared a bed for her.

Minister Fang and Fang Wei had such a conversation.

Minister Fang said: Girl, when you got married, I supported you, it seems that I was wrong.

Fang Wei said: Dad.

Minister Fang said again: Girl, you are not too old now, you have to rely on yourself to make an idea for everything, and Dad will not stop you.

Fang Wei looked at his father and didn't speak.

Minister Fang also said: No matter how good your parents are, they can't accompany you through your life, and you will have to face life independently in the future.

Fang Wei's tears flowed down, and she shouted: Dad-

After Fang Wei experienced a marriage, she understood what the marriage she needed, and she understood it after experiencing it.

She filed for divorce from Liu Shuanglin shortly after her father's death.

Minister Fang really didn't go to the hospital again, he died at home. Later, cancer invaded Minister Fang's whole body, and at this time, his biggest enemy was pain. Fang Wei took the medicine back home, and in the end, those painkillers couldn't relieve Minister Fang's pain, his sweat soaked his clothes and bedding, Minister Fang didn't snort, gritted his teeth and persevered.

Fang Wei took her father's hand, she choked up and said, "Dad, just snort if you hurt."

Minister Fang said: Girl, Dad will tell you a story. When Dad was twenty years old, he beat the Japanese devils, Dad was also injured, a piece of cannonball skin pierced into the thigh bone, the doctor operated on Dad to take the cannonball skin out, there was no anesthetic, Dad bit a towel for surgery, for two hours, Dad heard the sound of the doctor's knife scraping the bones, Dad didn't snort.

Fang Wei's tears flowed, she called her father, and she couldn't go on.

Later, Minister Fang sang loudly, first singing the "Internationale", and then singing: The big knife cut off the heads of the devils...... Sing again: Majestic and high-spirited, across the Yalu River...... His voice went from high to weak, and finally his lips moved.

Fang Wei's two elder brothers also came back, and they stood silently at the head of their father's bed, and shouted: Dad, we are back.

Minister Fang opened his eyes and glanced at his son in front of him, and he smiled.

The sons raised their hands and saluted their father.

The son's tears fell on the father's raised hand.

Liu Shuanglin also came to see Minister Fang when Minister Fang was dying, and when he saw Minister Fang's uncomfortable appearance, he said over and over again: Why don't you go to the hospital, everyone is like this.

He walked on the ground two times and then squatted there.

Minister Fang glanced at him, and his gaze quickly shifted to his three children. In the end, he fixed his eyes on Aunt Sun's body, Aunt Sun had no tears at this time, she was looking at Minister Fang intently, she wanted to look at him more, and look at him again.

Minister Fang said: Thank you, Lao Sun, for giving birth to these three children for me.

Aunt Sun choked up and said, "Old Fang, don't thank me, if you want to thank me, I have to thank you."

Minister Fang finally looked at the children's faces for a moment and said: Children, you remember, you are a veteran's child, no matter what you do in the future, don't discredit me as a veteran, Dad is satisfied in this life, Dad can't live, you have your dad's blood in your body, you can live well for Dad......

Minister Fang just went, he was very calm, as calm as if he had gone on a business trip and would be back in a blink of an eye.

Shortly after his father's death, Fang Wei proposed to divorce Liu Shuanglin.

Liu Shuanglin didn't look surprised at all when he heard the word divorce, as if if if she didn't bring it up, he would bring it up. That night, two people sat in the garden of the compound of the military district and spoke very calmly about all this.

He said after a while: Maybe it was a mistake for us to get married in the first place.

She calmly looked at the stars in the sky.

He also said: We are actually not the same kind of people, only after getting married, I found out, I am tired, you are also tired.

She said: Don't talk about these things, you will only understand when you have experienced them.

In the end, Liu Shuanglin stood up and said to Fang Wei: However, I still want to thank you.

Fang Wei looked at him puzzled.

He said: If I don't marry you, I won't come to the military region, and I won't stay in the provincial capital in the future.

She asked: You want to change jobs?

He nodded and said: I have thought about it, I will propose to change jobs this year, and I am tired of working in the military region, but in fact, I am not suitable for working in an organ.

She asked: What do you want to do when you change jobs?

He said: Find a job that I can do, and then make a living. Marrying an ordinary woman, that's all. What should belong to you in your life is yours, and it is useless to fight.

She listened to his words, looked at him seriously, and found that Liu Shuanglin in front of her was changing.

Soon, they went through the divorce formalities.

Fang Wei lives in her own home, her brothers have returned to their jobs, her mother needs her, and her mother's emotions need her. Although her father went, she still felt that her father was still there, and there were things that her father used everywhere in the house, and it seemed that her father had just gone down to the army to inspect the work, and in a few days, the family would hear her father's laughter again.

One day when she came back from work, she saw Qiao Nianchao and Ma Feila on the road. The two of them also saw her, and they were both stunned for a moment.

Qiao Nianchao changed jobs, and in order to take care of Qiao Nianchao's life, Ma Feila also changed jobs. Regarding the death of Fang Wei's father and the changes in his marriage, Qiao Nianchao had already heard about it.

She stopped, as did Qiao Nianchao and Ma Feila. She said: You have been back for so long and have not seen you.

He said, "I'm running at work."

She said, "It's going well, right?"

He said, "It's okay."

Ma Feila said: Sister Fang Wei has time to come to our house to sit, and we haven't seen each other for a long time.

Fang Wei said: Okay, I will definitely go.

Qiao Nianchao said: If there is anything in the future, you can say it, don't be bored alone, don't forget, we all grew up in the same college.

Fang Wei's eyes were red, and she whispered "um".

Qiao Nianchao walked forward with the support of Ma Feila. Qiao Nianchao's legs were a little crutches, but he and Ma Feila walked together, and it was not obvious.

Fang Wei kept watching the two of them walk away, and finally disappeared from her sight before she turned around and walked back. The taste in her heart was very complicated, and she couldn't explain it for a while.

Liu Shuanglin changed jobs and was assigned to the Commercial Bureau. On the day he went to report to the Commercial Bureau, Director Wang of the Commercial Bureau talked to him once.

Director Wang said: Are you from the military region?

He said, "Yes, Director."

Director Wang: Do you know why I want you?

He looked at Director Wang, not knowing how to answer.

Director Wang said: Because I am also a demobilized soldier and have also worked in the military region.

His eyes widened and he looked at Director Wang with some surprise.

Director Wang said: I was just a soldier when I changed jobs, you know? I worked as a guard for Minister Fang, and when he died, I went to see him.

Liu Shuanglin's mind was "buzzing", and he didn't know where he was for a while.

Director Wang said: Since you have changed jobs, you should do a good job, and don't embarrass the soldiers.

He said, "Yes."

He withdrew from Director Wang's office, and there was another layer of yin and yin in his heart, which spread around him invisibly and intangibly.

After a long time, Liu Shuanglin figured out that after divorcing Fang Wei, he wanted to live a stress-free life, although he was divorced, the shadow of depression was everywhere. At this point, he was tormented by a different kind of confusion.