Ma Bayi has found a sense of self-motivation, and after more than a month of hard work, he has stood on a total of eight night shifts, and fainted twice due to severe lack of sleep during the daytime training. At the platoon meeting, Ma Bayi was praised twice by the platoon commander, and the platoon commander Wang Changgui's expression of praising Ma Bayi was not grand at all, and it was still a bit of an understatement in Ma Bayi's opinion, which was Ma Bayi's regret. But the platoon commander praised him after all, which he was pleased with. Not only that, but also in exchange for a platoon commander to talk to him personally.

Platoon Commander Wang Changgui talked to Ma Bayi in the evening of one day, and the time was about 7 o'clock, and this time was a free activity, because from 1 to 8 o'clock it was time to organize political study again. As the sun went down, there was a lazy mood in the courtyard of the division headquarters, where men or women stood under trees or talked somewhere, and some cadres and soldiers were reading hard with "Mao Xuan" in their hands. It was in this atmosphere that Wang Changgui had a conversation with Ma Bayi, and the two talked while walking, which was called a walking conversation at that time.

Wang Changgui said: Ma Bayi, you are the son of a high-ranking cadre.

It was only at this time that Ma Ba realized that it was not a good thing to be called the son of a high-ranking cadre, and it became synonymous with backwardness. If Ma Bayi doesn't seek to be motivated, loves whoever he loves, and leaves after three years, then it's another story, because the current Ma Bayi is asking for progress, and the platoon commander calls him the son of a senior cadre, which seems to be as uncomfortable as slapping him. Ma Bayi whispered: Platoon commander, don't get me wrong, I'm just an ordinary military family.

Wang Changgui ignored his words, and continued to say: I know, you are a backdoor soldier.

Ma Bayi's sweat came down, his red head and face rose, he was a little special when he joined the army, their batch of soldiers came to the army two months after he joined the army.

Wang Changgui also said: You look good.

Ma Bayi listened to the platoon commander's words, and he didn't know whether to praise him or criticize him, so he could only call the platoon commander hard. Wang Changgui said again: You don't need to make progress.

Ma Bayi was really confused this time, he stood there all of a sudden, looking at the back of the platoon commander's head. He didn't understand the true meaning of Wang Changgui's words at all, and it wasn't until after he was demobilized that he gradually understood. Wang Changgui, these rural soldiers, worked hard and hard, in the final analysis, they wanted to change their identity and live the same life as the city people, and they relied on their own sacrifices to close the distance between them and the city people. Although Wang Changgui has been promoted, they do not have too high hopes for life, that is, they hope to leave the army in the future to live the life of a city person. They can't imagine how much they want to do in the army, and they can't do it. Sacrificing ten or more years of hard work is in exchange for the same life as the people in the city in the future.

Wang Changgui has a very complicated feeling towards a soldier like Ma Bayi. Emotionally speaking, he hated Ma Bayi, the children of high-ranking cadres, because in the eyes of Wang Changgui, Ma Bayi was a group of people who could harvest without labor. In addition, Wang Changgui is still a little afraid of Ma Bayi, not Ma Bayi, but Ma Bayi's parents. Ma Bayi's parents are both senior officials in the military region, not to mention Wang Changgui, even the division commanders and regimental commanders, and the fate of some people is also controlled in the hands of the army chief, and a casual word or order will change their fate.

Wang Changgui didn't want Ma Bayi to progress, because that would rob Wang Changgui of his job, but he couldn't turn a blind eye to Ma Bayi's progress, which caused Wang Changgui's complicated mentality. When it comes to classes, the two kinds of people represent two classes. Platoon commander Wang Changgui stood on the standpoint of a rural soldier, and he knew the joys and hardships of being a farmer's son. Wang Changgui said that he was an orphan, he was brought up by his uncle and aunt, and that he had no home in the mountains, and the army was his home, and he wanted to contribute his youth and life to the army. Wang Changgui's resolute attitude and thorough behavior made the leaders and soldiers who heard this unable to help but look at Wang Changgui with admiration. In other words, Wang Changgui is ruthless, all the difficulties and dangers are no longer a problem, Wang Changgui wants to be a person who lives in the army, and death is a ghost in the army.

That night, Wang Changgui said to Ma Bayi again: Stand on the night post, don't affect the progress of others.

Ma Bayi understood that platoon commander Wang Changgui did not want Ma Bayi to improve, because if he improved, others would regress in comparison, and if it continued like this for a long time, it would also affect normal training.

After platoon commander Wang Changgui finished talking to Ma Bayi, Ma Bayi's mind became a mess. Ma Bayi has never suffered much since he was a child, and according to his father Minister Ma, their father's suffering has endured for them. Minister Ma walked out of the backing mountain at the age of 16 and participated in the Liaoshen Campaign until the liberation of the whole country, and later participated in the War Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea, and only now has he become the Minister of Operations. Ma Bayi had no choice but to be born in the army, grew up in the army, he did not suffer anything, everything went well, he came to join the army after graduating from high school, in the army for Yang May he worked hard and asked for progress, he suffered all the hardships he had not thought of, but he still could not satisfy the platoon commander, the platoon commander represented the highest organization of the guard platoon, and if the organization was not satisfied, then the direction of his efforts would be confused. Just when Ma Bayi was confused and didn't know whether to advance or retreat, a major event happened between Wang Changgui and Yang May.

When the end of the year came, the 21st Division organized a speech group of Maoist activists to report to the military region. This lecture group gathered all the elites of the 21st Division, and of course, it also included platoon commander Wang Changgui and female soldier Yang May. This group of deputies left before New Year's Day and returned in the middle of January, and they not only went to the military region to give speeches, but also gave speeches to friendly and neighboring units.

Ma Bayi found that when the platoon commander Wang Changgui came back from this speech, he was in good spirits, he always walked with his waist straight, and the pair of leather shoes with three knots on his feet did not leave his feet. Wang Changgui usually doesn't wear those leather shoes, only for major festivals or events or something, he finds them out of the box, and after the event is over, he puts them back immediately. Usually, like the fighters, he walked in rubber shoes. This time, Wang Changgui was unusual, he didn't take off his leather shoes immediately when he came back, and when he went to the military region, he took the time to nail the leather shoes with iron palms, and walked on the concrete floor with a click. Wang Changgui, who wore nailed palm leather shoes, walked with his chest upright and radiant. This was discovered by Ma Bayi. Not long after Wang Changgui came back, he specially summoned Ma Bayi to his dormitory and office for a heart-to-heart talk.

That night, Wang Changgui said with a radiant face: I heard that you and Yang May in the outpatient department are classmates?

Ma Bayi said: It's a junior high school classmate.

Wang Changgui: You have been in the compound of the military region since you were a child.

Ma Bayi: Yes.

Wang Changgui: Yang May's father is Minister Yang of the Logistics Department of the Military Region?

Ma Bayi replied: Yes.

Wang Changgui smiled, very satisfied, as soon as he was satisfied, he used his little finger to pick his nostrils, which made Ma Bayi uncomfortable, and he looked away.

Wang Changgui said: Yang May is the pride of your high-ranking cadres.

As soon as Wang Changgui said this, Ma Bayi became sad. The better Yang May is, the farther away from Ma Bayi. After Yang returned in May, Ma Bayi saw him twice from afar. Yang got a haircut in May, and his hair was cut shorter, and he looked more neat.

On that occasion, Yang May said to him from afar: I saw your mother when I returned to the military region this time, and your mother asked me to tell you what I lacked and what difficulties I had to write to my family.

He was at the sentry post that day, and Yang May stood in the distance and said these words to him. He only nodded, Yang May, who came back from the speech, was different in Ma Bayi's eyes, Yang May's expression and demeanor were like stars, and he was a little further away from Ma Bayi. Ma Bayi didn't know what Wang Changgui was asking for, until soon after, Ma Bayi heard that Yang May was going to be promoted, and Wang Changgui kept going to the outpatient department, and Yang May went to the guard platoon every once in a while to find Wang Changgui to exchange learning experiences. It was only then that Ma Bayi realized that the relationship between Wang Changgui and Yang May was not ordinary. This was a fatal blow to Ma Bayi, and his good hopes died forever. The desire to be motivated is stopped because there is no goal.