Since when?

Mr. Xia Ming in his eyes once again turned into that weird, bizarre and indescribable appearance.

It looks like a mass of humanoid flesh stacked with different colored blocks and blood clots.

Perhaps, in the eyes of spiritual beings, whether human beings or other creatures, they are nothing more than this clumsy lump of flesh of unknown shape.

Just like in the eyes of human beings, spiritual life is also so weird and terrifying, full of horror and weirdness.

Ming Nanyan took advantage of Xia Ming's inattention, and covered his head in some pain.

At first, she also thought that the will in her body was once again creating a false illusion for her, trying to accelerate the progress of her personality collapse.

She tried to close her eyes and tell herself, as she had done before, that it was just another false deception.

As long as she is firm in her heart and will, she will definitely see the handsome and heartwarming Mr. Xia Ming when she opens her eyes.

But no.

When she continued to make psychological hints, kept taking deep breaths, closed her eyes and opened them again, Mr. Xia Ming in front of her was still the inexplicable pile of meat.

It's not the will in the body that's at work.

But as she used more and more spiritual energy, and used more and more power to protect Mr. Xia Ming, the way she looked at things and the world became more and more involuntarily closer to the direction of spiritual life.

If the spiritual realm is a deep and vast ocean, the present realm is a completely different land.

She is like a fish that barely lives on the shore, relying on her love for Xia Ming to barely absorb the nourishment she relies on to survive, and maintain her personality from being disintegrated.

The landscape of the land is different from that of the ocean, and the way that life on land and the life that lives in the sea is completely different from the way that people who live in the sea perceive and see the world.

She was the sea creature who barely managed to live on land.

As she continues to use her spiritual energy beyond the limit, it is like returning to the ocean again and again but still forcing herself to go ashore, but her body and soul can't help but want to return to the deep and cold ocean, to return to the place where she should really live.

Even though she used to live on land, as a sea creature, once she experienced the comfortable environment of the ocean, once she saw and understood the real underwater scene, everything she saw on land became strange and incompatible.

Recently, I have seen less and less of Mr. Xia Ming's human appearance in my eyes, and the appearance of this irregular humanoid piece of flesh in front of me has become more and more.

And it is foreseeable that this situation will get worse.

This time, it was not the will in her body that was at work, but the instinct from the spirit world, the body and soul, destroying her personality and will, and wiping out the last trace of her true spirit that was incompatible with the ocean.

The more she exerts her power, the more this situation will intensify.

In the end, Xia Ming in her eyes will completely lose her handsome appearance and heart-warming figure, and permanently become an insignificant speck of dust in the eyes of the spiritual life, a dust that slightly makes the spiritual life feel disdain and even a trace of disgust.

But she couldn't stop.

She couldn't even choose to leave Mr. Xia Ming as she had done before, to avoid danger and find him.

Because after the battle in the town, not only her, but the Ming family must also have a grudge against Mr. Xia Ming, and it is impossible to let him go.

The current Mr. Xia Ming's body is broken, and his psionic rank has dropped greatly, and choosing to leave will only make Mr. Xia Ming, who has lost his strength, die soon under the revenge of the Ming family.

Apart from her, who else wants to protect Mr. Xia Ming so unreservedly and oppose the Ming family?

If she gives up using her power, she won't be able to protect Mr. Xia Ming.

Choosing to use power, she is on the verge of self-collapse at an accelerated pace.

If people want to gain something, they often have to lose something and sacrifice something.

Ming Nanyan has never had such a profound experience and understanding of this truth at any time.

But it doesn't matter.

Just like even if I became a monster with two faces, four arms, and wings, Mr. Xia Ming would tolerate me and accept me.

Even if Mr. Xia Ming is permanently turned into a pile of meat in my eyes, I will still love him all the same, and I will be equally happy with his kisses and touches.

Ming Nanyan kissed Xia Ming's lips hard, even though the scene in his eyes had already turned into a strange appearance that was difficult for humans to understand, but the temperature on his lips could not deceive people, and Mr. Xia Ming's smell and taste could not deceive people.

Although she could sense that the large and chaotic will in her body did not seem to have really awakened, the previous blinding of her senses and vision seemed to be just an instinctive act of the will's unconscious.

Even if that will really awakens one day in the near future, it will destroy her consciousness like a flood and tsunami.

But as long as she can still feel these things, feel these smells and tastes that belong to Mr. Xia Ming, she will never be defeated by the instinct of the spiritual life, and she will never lose to another will in her body.

But......

What if one day, she can't even feel the smell and taste?

…………

Ming Nanyan has something on his mind.

Very heavy on my mind.

Xia Ming is sure of this.

A month and a half of intimate relationship, not only for Ming Nanyan's body, but also for her thoughts, Xia Ming has become more and more aware and recognized.

Therefore, even if the smile on Ming Nanyan's face did not change after every missile bombardment, even if the game between them at night was still so enthusiastic and full of joy.

Xia Ming was still very sure that she was hiding something from herself.

Actually, he guessed a little bit more or less.

From Ming Nanyan's occasionally ethereal and empty eyes, from the slight movements of her hands that occasionally seemed to see some strange scene, there are many, many details like this.

Ming Nanyan thought he was hiding it well, but he couldn't deceive Xia Ming's eyes.

"Nanyan, what you see in your eyes has become the same as before, right?"

On a night after helping each other vent, Xia Ming asked lightly kissing her on the lips.

Ming Nanyan was silent for a while, and said with a smile: "No, Mr. Xia Ming, you are too worried." ”

"You're covering up again, you're hiding it from me again!"

Xia Ming pulled the corners of her mouth up as unhappily as usual, but this time his hand was grabbed by Ming Nanyan's hand, and he held it down gently and hard, and he couldn't do anything wrong on her face anymore.

Ming Nanyan was now a fifth-order, and he no longer had the strength to bully her wantonly.

"Mr. Xia Ming don't have to worry so much, I really don't have any problems."

Ming Nanyan's other two hands gently patted his back, as if to comfort the baby's mother.

"Now I'm protecting Mr. Xia Ming, Mr. Xia Ming, you just need to enjoy my service as carefree and comfortable as an obedient baby, and the adult's affairs will be solved by the adult, okay?"

Xia Ming was furious.

This Ming Nanyan, relying on his strength now being a few points stronger than me, wants to turn over and be the master, what kind of adult and child, thinking that I can't bully you by pressing my hand?

He lowered his head and bit her lip hard.

"Ming Nanyan, if you do this again, don't want to play games with me at night in the future!"

"It's okay, I can be satisfied as long as I can smell Mr. Xia Ming's scent."

"You pervert! Then I, then I will ignore you in the future, you don't want to get any more care and tenderness from me, if you come over, I will scold you and beat you! ”

"It's okay, even if Mr. Xia Ming stepped on my face and scolded me for being cheap and shameless, in my opinion, he is just as cute and handsome."

It's over, it's over!

This perverted pervert has evolved, and my tricks won't work for her!

Xia Ming's heart was cold.

In the past, he was the savior of Ming Nanyan, his strength was far above Ming Nanyan, and he could bully her as much as he wanted.

Now the offensive and defensive forces are reversed, no matter what tricks he uses, it is useless, it is Ming Nanyan who can do whatever he wants to him now!

"Okay, don't you say yes! You don't say yes, do you! ”

Xia Ming repeated it twice hatefully, and then bit Ming Nanyan's other lip hard, and said angrily:

"Look how I punish you at night!"

Punishment?

Ming Nanyan just looked at him with an affectionate smile, no matter what he did to her, she was willing.

At night, Xia Ming punished Ming Nanyan severely.

This time the punishment was worse than before, more severe than all the previous punishments.

Xia Ming used all his tricks, even if he was tired and panting, even if he wanted to squeeze out the little spiritual energy left in his body, he used all his strength to make Ming Nanyan completely immersed in the ocean of pleasure, and even so cool that he passed out.

Is this what Mr. Xia Ming punished me?

This is obviously a reward!

Before the coma passed, Ming Nanyan thought about it with happiness and joy.

But why is it so happy and happy...... Faintly uneasy?

This kind of uneasiness made the joy of happiness not stay in Ming Nanyan's body for too long, she only fell asleep and woke up suddenly after a moment.

The night breeze is cool, and the night is miserable and cold.

And beside her pillow, in her arms, the kind and handsome man has disappeared without a trace.

"Mr. Xia Ming!"

Ming Nanyan reacted violently.

It's obviously a punishment, why does Mr. Xia Ming make her feel so much happiness.

Obviously, his body was already tired, why did he still work so hard, trying to make her even comfortable to the point of passing out.

Because, if he wants to say goodbye, he will be the same as her before.

Ming Nanyan was completely panicked, patrolling around in the dark night, shouting loudly, so nervous that tears were about to flow.

"Mr. Xia Ming! Mr. Xia Ming! ”

There was no response in the night except for the bleak sound of the wind.

The darkness around him was like an abyss, and Ming Nanyan's heart fell into the abyss like this, and he was in a hurry.

She didn't dare to imagine the days after Xia Ming left her, and she didn't dare to imagine what the scene would be like after Mr. Xia Ming left her and was discovered by the Ming family.

She was scared.

She regretted it.

She shouldn't have taken care of Mr. Xia Ming's heart, and she shouldn't have chosen to deny it in order not to worry him.

Mr. Xia Ming must be very sad and sad, I concealed him like this, I denied it in order not to worry him, but isn't this another deeper hurt?

She finally understood what Mr. Xia Ming's mood was after she chose to say goodbye that night.

She finally understood why Mr. Xia Ming was so angry at that time.

Tears flowed down her cheeks, and she went crazy looking for Xia Ming's figure everywhere in the dark field, over and over again, until she saw Xia Ming's figure on the side of a hill with flowing streams.

"Mr. Xia Ming!"

At this moment, the joy of lost and regained filled her empty and sad heart.

Her pupils widened suddenly, and she rushed over excitedly, hugging Xia Ming tightly, hugging him who had been lost and regained, and shedding tears of joy.

Xia Ming actually didn't leave too far at all, and he didn't think about leaving her completely.

said that he would punish this pervert who had the strength to know the height of the sky and the earth and couldn't tell the difference between the top and the bottom, and he must give her an unforgettable lesson.

Let her also taste the taste of abandonment!

While wiping the tears from Ming Nanyan's cheeks, he looked at her calmly and asked:

"Do you dare to hide it from me now?"

"No...... Don't dare. Ming Nanyan hurriedly shook his head in fear.

Xia Ming snorted lightly, his expression became a little better, and he patted her ass skillfully.

"Now you know who's the adult and who's the baby, right?"

“…… Got it. ”

Ming Nanyan hurriedly pressed his two faces together and gently rubbed his cheeks.

"I will listen to Mr. Xia Ming in the future."

Xia Ming smiled with satisfaction.

Scold.

Little pervert.

Want to roll over and be the master and crush me underneath?

It's not like I've taken it down easily!

Xia Ming stroked Ming Nanyan's smooth back like a cat, and said, "Okay, now you can tell me, the true situation of your body." ”

Ming Nanyan didn't dare to hide it anymore, so he could only tell it one by one.

The more she spoke, the more her body trembled, and the more she spoke, the more she felt a sense of fear, insecurity, and fear of the future.

"It's okay, Mr. Xia Ming, even if your appearance in my eyes will be like that forever in the future, I can still smell your scent, and I can taste the same taste when I kiss you, my will will will not be swallowed up like this, and my love for you will never change, never."

"But Nanyan, if one day your body completely distinguishes my smell into another taste, and even my lips recognize it as another taste, can you still hold on?"

Xia Ming's words accurately hit the deepest and most fearful weakness in Ming Nanyan's heart.

He gently stroked her cheek: "Nanyan, your eyes were so firm when you said this, but your body was trembling and afraid." ”

"Summer ...... Mr. Xia Ming ......"

In the end, even the last trace of strength could not be maintained, Ming Nanyan completely unguarded in front of Xia Ming, and cried like a fragile child.

"I don't know Mr. Xia Ming, and I don't know either, so I'm afraid! I decided early on that even if my cognition was affected by my body, Mr. Xia Ming, I would always remember your appearance in my mind, but now I am about to lose my memory of what you looked like before, Mr. Xia Ming! ”

"The body and soul are influencing me, and the will hiding in the body is also awakening more and more active and powerful, they are all wearing down my personality, destroying my will, I even feel that cold and huge will is now quietly watching me cry and cry in this body, watching me on the verge of collapse, Mr. Xia Ming, I don't know, I really don't know if I can hold on to that day......"

"Already...... To this extent and to the point where it has been? ”

It's just that the intense games every night, those affectionate kisses and venting, are no longer enough for Ming Nanyan to maintain the stability of his personality.

She may ...... has been holding on to the brink of collapse for a long time.

"Really...... I can't help it. ”

Looking at Ming Nanyan, who was breaking down and crying, Xia Ming hugged her body tightly and kissed the tears rolling down her cheeks with great pity.

He finally made a decision in his heart.

"Nanyan ......"

He leaned over and whispered in her ear:

"We ...... Do it? ”