Chapter 486: You're Not Worthy
It's not that Du Wei didn't let innocent people die...... He even did it himself.
But at this moment, looking at the innocent tailor in front of him, looking at this man with tears in his eyes, that kind of weak cry, the sadness of not being able to control his fate...... Suddenly, Du Wei felt that he couldn't say a word.
What can I say?
Did I tell him that he was sacrificing his ego for the sake of the overall situation? In order to prevent the royal family and the church from having a chance to turn their faces, in order to prevent the evil religious forces from continuing to expand, if the church overwhelmed the emperor's majesty, then the church would further make it impossible to raise its head in the future? Or did I tell him that by dying him alone, more bloodshed and friction could be avoided?
Yes, that's a big deal. Even for a period of time, Du Wei has even become accustomed to standing on a "high position" and looking down on the people below, and then using these "great truths" to judge, measure, and then make some decisions that he thinks are noble: decide who to sacrifice and who to leave to be preserved.
Yes, sometimes, Du Wei struggled, hesitated, and contradicted. But afterwards he gradually became numb, and he convinced himself in his heart: These are all right! I am "looking at the overall situation."
But......
Now looking at the Groom in front of him, looking at the tears of this innocent tailor, he suddenly felt that the so-called "taking care of the overall situation" was really difficult to say.
Groom's words are actually very simple, very straightforward, and have no depth to speak of - but this is the depth. So that Du Wei couldn't answer, or even say a word:
"I don't understand, I'm a good person. I didn't do anything missing. I dedicate myself to my work and I love my family...... But why, do I have to die inexplicably? Yes, I am a little person, a little ant. But I live on earth. But you can be deprived at will?"
Just because I'm a little person. It's an ant, so I'm going to be sacrificed?
Can my life be taken away at will?
Why?
Who gave you this decision of "who to sacrifice" and "whom not to sacrifice"?
Who gave you this power?
The thought crossed Du Wei's mind. All of a sudden. He was in a cold sweat!!
Looking at the tears of the tailor in front of him, the powerless despair, the anger......
Du Wei couldn't help but ask himself: judging and deciding a person's fate so casually...... What am I?
Such a me. Such a prince of the earth. So we ...... What's the difference with that bitch of the Goddess of Light?
Yes, we are high up and look down on all beings. With what we think of as the "big truth" to determine the fate of the following ant lands.
But what are we? Are we God? Do we really have the power to take away anyone's life?
Considering the overall situation, so we have to sacrifice? But what about the will of the person who is sacrificed? Can we ignore it?
And what about the so-called "little people" like Groom? He just wanted to live his life in peace. It's just a matter of preserving your humble life...... Where did he go wrong?
All the time. Even Du Wei himself already felt it very clearly: he has a heart. It gradually gets cold and hardens. Become cold-blooded. Become cruel.
But in the same way, Du Wei himself has always felt that there is nothing wrong with this. That's the way the world is. You don't eat people. Then just wait to be eaten. A lot of things. If you are soft-hearted. Then what awaits you is an even more tragic ending.
So. When he sent the beautiful woman to the prairie, the bright eyes like the bright moon did not make Du Wei's heart soften. Although he struggled internally afterwards, he still strongly encouraged himself: this is a last resort. That's right!
Perhaps, today. met Groom, a more mediocre, more innocent person. It suddenly made Du Wei's already cold heart. Suddenly there was a hint of warmth restored.
Yes...... The girl in the beginning, she went to the land without hesitation. She did not refuse, but went to the ground with a sacrificial mentality...... So, Du Wei doesn't seem to have thought so deeply.
But. What about Grum? He was forced! He was forced. He can't go if he doesn't go. He didn't want to die. But he had to die.
And this time. Although the person who made the decision was not Du Wei, he was a faithful executor.
"Looks like I'm still not tough enough. "After pacifying the poor tailor. Du Wei walked out of the main hall. The day's hard work was not in vain, at least Du Wei was full of confidence in the banquet the day after tomorrow.
But when the night wind blew on his face, he didn't feel any light.
Yes, relented......
Even Du Wei himself couldn't tell what he was thinking at the moment. Perhaps, it was just a momentary burst of pity.
He looked up at the sky. He quickened his pace and decided to go back to the room to change his clothes first, and then he had to go back to the Duke's Mansion tonight, because he had already sent the guard elder Yan to invite Mr. Lan Haiyue.
But when Du Wei returned to his temporary residence in the palace, as soon as he entered this courtyard, he suddenly slowed down!
In his originally squinted eyes, a hint of jīng flashed, and he subconsciously looked at the two palace attendants in the courtyard, the two young waiters were holding brooms to sweep the snow in the courtyard, and saw Du Wei walking in from a distance, and hurriedly bowed and saluted, their faces were as usual, and there was no change.
Du Wei, on the other hand, stared at his bedroom closely.
Looking back, the palace guards outside the courtyard were also very calm......
With an imperceptible smile on his face, Du Wei walked over slowly and waved his hand to the two waiters: "Go out, don't let people enter the courtyard without my order." ”
With that, he strode to the door of his room, pushed the door and walked in.
In the dark room, Du Wei strode to the wall and lit it first
+: Rushed over to meet you. I didn't expect you to come here first. ”
He turned around when he was behind. On a bench softly. Lan Haiyue looked at Du Wei with a smile. The old body was wrapped in a blanket. Curl up in a soft chair.
Du Wei lit the fireplace. The old man stretched his neck at the warm flame, sighed, and said slowly, "It's better to light a fire to warm up." Alas, people are old. The body just can't do it. ”
"I didn't expect you to come to see me first. Du Wei thought about it sideways: "Didn't I ask you to wait for me in my duke's palace?"
Lan Haiyue blinked: "But." Lord Duke, didn't you write the word 'urgent' on the palm of the hand? I'm idle anyway, so I'll come over first. And you. But the important minister of the country. ”
Du Wei snorted, snapped, and unscrewed a wine bottle. He gestured to Lan Haiyue. The old man shook his head: "I'm old." Wine is not for me. ”
Du Wei raised his head and poured a big mouthful of it himself. Only then did I finally breathe a sigh of relief. It seems to exhale all the depression in my heart with this breath. He glanced at the old man, "When you come in." No one notices?"
Lan Haiyue smiled slightly: "I'm afraid there are no strong people in the palace who can detect my whereabouts now." ”
Du Wei nodded: "That's right." ”
With Lan Haiyue's ability, he is one of the three major disciples of Daxue Mountain. There is more of a world than any other people. You can count it on a few fingers. Throughout the dìdū, maybe there is someone in the temple who can make Lan Haiyue jealous. But in the palace - there is not even a holy order now.
"I have a long, long story to tell you, sir. Du Wei put down the bottle. With a wry smile, "I need some wise advice right now." Or rather...... Steer. I can't think of anyone else who has the wisdom of the sea as deep as you. ”
Lan Haiyue smiled peacefully. The eyes, which did not correspond to his old age, were as bright as stars.
Du Wei was not polite to the university scholar, and he didn't even have the slightest intention of being wary. Straight to the point.
He began to tell about the sinful land in the north. Then he said that the Dragon Sacred Mountain had fallen, and the huge number of sinners would invade in the near future......
When he finished this paragraph, he paid attention to Lan Hai's expression. But the old man's face was very calm, as if there was no trace of surprise.
"You...... You know?" said Du Wei.
"Should I behave surprised?" Lan Haiyue's voice was very calm: "I know some ancient legends, and there are some ancient records on the Great Snow Mountain. And, plus in recent years. The empire suddenly changed its previous procrastination, and first wiped out the Northwest Army by thunderous means to stabilize the interior. He also spent a lot of money on military expenses to expand the army. And in the north, at any cost, money has piled up such a 'Kaspersky Line' - oh, by the way. The name is your origin. It's ugly. Well, in any case, smart people can see that you have put so much effort into the north. Naturally, it's ready to deal with whom. Think about those legends again...... It's not hard to guess the answer. And, don't forget, Philip was my student. ”
Du Wei shrugged his shoulders: "I know." ”
"I only have three years. Du Wei smiled bitterly: "Of course." Now, more than half of the three years have passed. I had to be ready for the rest of the time. The more prepared the better! I had to do it in the shortest possible time. Pull out all possible unstable factors! I have to take some unconventional approach to the way I do things......"
"You mean some despicable, dirty, and cruel methods?" Lan Haiyue asked nonchalantly.
"......" Du Wei was stunned for a moment. Nodding: "But that's it." ”
Subsequently, Du Wei quickly told Lan Haiyue about the sudden death of the old emperor this time, as well as his current problem on the ground.
When he said that now Prince Chen and he conspired to prepare a stand-in to cover up at the banquet the day after tomorrow, at the same time, he mentioned this poor tailor named Grum, and also talked about his own unbearable.
"When he said 'unfair,' I really felt a little weird. Du Wei sighed: "I suddenly couldn't understand what I was doing. Even...... I had some doubts. Hmm, can you see what I mean?"
"Probably understand. Lan Haiyue's tone suddenly had a bit of mockery: "Suddenly my conscience discovered, is that so?"
“...... Sort of. Du Wei heard the other party's mocking tone, but he didn't care.
He looked at the wise old man in front of him, his eyes full of anticipation.
After a long time, Lan Haiyue moved his body and moved his body closer to the fireplace, and then his eyes looked at the flames in the fireplace, but he sighed, and said softly in a disdainful tone: "It's a pity, it's a pity...... Du Wei, I thought you had become a true leader by now. At one point, I was pleased and appreciative of your progress. But...... Hmph, judging from your words today, you are still far behind!!Compared with Prince Chen, you are simply a child who has not even grown hair. I really want to advise you, if this is really the case, you might as well take advantage of the fact that you are still favored, resign your position as the lord of the northwest to Prince Chen, hand over the military power, and then move your family to a small city in the south and live the life of a mediocre farmer. Because...... You don't deserve it!"
This mean and harsh rhetoric made Du Wei stunned.
He stared at Lan Haiyue and asked in surprise, "Did I hear me right?" Mr. Lan Haiyue, I asked you for some guidance, but you scolded me?