55. Those hidden pasts
"I don't blame that grandma, she has the limitations of the times, how can she know that a group of orphans also need to pay attention to mental health when she is old?"
Qin Yu recalled.
"So, did that grandma ask you to draw the image of your parents?" Wei Xiaoyu asked.
"It's drawn." Qin Yu's eyebrows and eyes were wide, and his eyes were full of sentimentality.
"My mother should be a very gentle person, she has long black and thick hair, her eyebrows and eyes are gentle, her nose is straight and delicate, her lips are not thick or thin, and when she laughs, she should be very healing."
Qin Yu said about his imaginary mother.
Wei Xiaoyu sat next to him, and just listening to him quietly tell him about this, he almost burst into tears.
Because in reality, he had never seen his mother at all, because in reality, his mother was not gentle at all, if she was gentle, how could she just throw away Qin Yu?
"What about eighteen? What happened at the age of eighteen? Wei Xiaoyu asked softly.
"At the age of eighteen, I met Ji Nuolan."
"I remember the day I went to Jiao Tong University to report, I dragged my box and stood in the shade of a tree to enjoy the shade. She got out of her father's Mercedes Benz, she was wearing a long white dress, she also had black and shiny hair, and she was eighteen years old, shining in the sun. โ
"It was also on that day that my imaginary mother had an exact image." Qin Yu said softly.
Wei Xiaoyu next to him was speechless in shock.
"So, you just think Ji Nuolan's temperament is like your imaginary mother, so you like her so much?"
"Isn't it weird? I lived a strong life for eighteen years, but when I saw her that day, I was alone in the shade of a tree crying. โ
"Thinking about it now, I probably felt that all fantasies had a definite anchor point at that time."
Qin Yu let out a long breath.
"After that day, I fell hopelessly in love with her, four years of college, one year of graduation and work, we decided to talk about marriage, at that time I felt that everything was very beautiful, I felt that I Qin Yu was going to have a home, I would definitely treat Ji Nuolan well, and when she had a child in the future, I would definitely love that child."
"But, just a month before I'm about to get married, why would you do that?" Qin Yu's eyes were bloodshot.
Wei Xiaoyu didn't dare to look him in the eyes.
"After a night of absurdity, I was immediately scared, at that time when you said that you were going to make trouble in front of Ji Nuolan, I almost didn't kill you, you know?"
"Although you didn't make a fuss in the end, I was always afraid, afraid that one day she would find out about it and leave me. So I put up with Ji Nuolan in everything, originally in my plan, at the latest and at the latest, I was going to be a father last year.
But Ji Nuolan has become more and more excessive in my forbearance, she doesn't care about my feelings at all, she works every day, goes home to eat the meals I cooked, and then when her physiological needs come up, she asks me to solve them.
I'm her husband, and I want to run a good family with her, but she makes me feel like no home at all.
As a result, my mind became unbalanced, and I began to feel depressed. โ
After Qin Yu finished speaking, he took a hard puff of his cigarette.
"I'm sorry." Wei Xiaoyu said in a choked voice.
"Needless to say, I'm sorry, in fact, I've figured it out, if you want to say how much love I have for Ji Nuolan, I can't answer, I actually put her in my mother's position.
A perverted orphan like me, who lacks a mother's love, can only seek in her the affection I have always longed for. โ
"But Ji Nuolan, she's not my mother, she's just Ji Nuolan, so she didn't give me the feeling I wanted."
"Whew." Qin Yu spat out a puff of cigarette.
"I've been holding these words in my heart for a long time, but unfortunately no one has been talking to me, but I didn't expect that in the end, I told you everything."
Qin Yu turned his head away, tears flowed in a place where Wei Xiaoyu couldn't see.
Wei Xiaoyu stood up and walked over.
His hands wrapped around Qin Yu's neck, pressed his head to his abdomen, and kept touching his head with both hands.
The man in the white shirt hid his face in the abdomen of the woman in front of him, and Wei Xiaoyu just hugged him like that, comforting him silently.
In that scene, there was no lust.
Some are just Wei Xiaoyu feeling sorry for Qin Yu.
Like a silent mime.
The night breeze on the banks of the Nile River blew gently, and Wei Xiao's raincoat fluttered.
Wei Xiaoyu wore delicate makeup on her face, her lips were like fire, and her eyeliner was demonic. But the corners of Wei Xiaoyu's eyes drooped, staring at the man who was holding her and crying silently, and the whole person looked gentle and compassionate......
She was as gentle as the mother he had always dreamed of......
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After a long time.
"It doesn't look like the men are all made of mud, you see, I'm all soaked here."
Wei Xiaoyu kept the skirt on her abdomen and teased Qin Yu.
The skirt wet with tears was attached to Wei Xiaoyu's beautiful figure, clearly outlining her butterfly waist and lower abdominal muscles.
"Fuck off, you got it yourself." Qin Yu couldn't help but blush.
Maybe I felt embarrassed to drop Jin Doudou in front of Wei Xiaoyu.
Wei Xiaoyu was also interested, and didn't say anything more.
She doesn't dislike this man. The skirt was just like that.
"Yes, I just got it myself. At that time, I knew that you liked Ji Nuolan, and I wanted to come over. โ
Wei Xiaoyu opened a new round of topics.
"At that time, I was an exchange student from Taipei, and I didn't understand many things when I first came here, so Jiaotong University asked you to be my life assistant, do you remember?"
Wei Xiaoyu smiled bitterly.
Qin Yu: "Remember." โ
"The boys on the mainland are very locomotives. Especially you. โ
"That's what I really thought when I saw you."
"I thought to myself, you are really a stinky fart, the school arranged for you to be my life assistant, and you actually ignored me and dragged me."
"That's because you're rich, you're really rich, and I can smell the smell of a rich lady on your body at that time. And the school arranged for me to be your life assistant, in fact, at that moment, I felt that I was greatly insulted. โ
Tonight's Qin Yu and Wei Xiaoyu completely revealed their hearts!
Beside the banks of the Nile, where the wind roams, the two recount the past.
"I guessed that was the case later." Wei Xiaoyu smiled bitterly.
"At that time, you were so handsome, the school asked you to be my life assistant. You're such a lonely person, of course you're unhappy, and you hate me, aren't you? โ
"Yes."
"Qin Yu, you said that if we didn't meet in that capacity when we first met, would there be any difference between us now?"
"If I just get along with you as an ordinary exchange student from Taipei, and I don't sneer at you because of my superiority, but communicate with you as an equal, will you accept me?"
Wei Xiaoyu's eyes burned.
"There are no ifs." Qin Yu told the cruel truth.
"yes, there are no ifs. But Qin Yu, do you know? When I realized that I was in love with you, can you imagine how much I regretted it? โ
"Tell me honestly, did you hesitate when I confessed to you? Except for Ji Nuolan, you really haven't been tempted by me at all? โ
Wei Xiaoyu pulled Qin Yu's arm, and now it was her turn to cry.
Qin Yu turned his head and wiped away her tears with his hand.
"Heartbeat."
"That's good."