182. Dilemma

After the banquet, all the forces in Kyushu, under the guidance of the Great Qin envoys, all returned to their residences.

The night is dark, the streets of Daqin have long ceased to be prosperous during the day, every house is closed and locked, the streets seem to be emptied, the night wind blows, sweeping off a few yellow leaves, leaving a little desolation. Only the watchman walked alone in the streets and alleys, carrying the faint lights and gongs. Faintly, the sound of a few gongs can be heard, which makes people's hearts slightly warm.

At this moment, Li Ling was sitting alone by the window, the window was slightly raised, and through the crack in the window, he could clearly see the scenery outside. Because of the Kyushu Heroes Conference, Emperor Daqin began to implement a night ban a month ago, as soon as the sun sets, everyone in the imperial capital will rush back to their homes, if there is nothing urgent, they will not go out again.

Li Ling's clear eyes looked out of the window blankly at the moment, and there seemed to be more melancholy and doubt in his eyes. At this time, his heart was depressed and abnormal, as if he had pressed a boulder, depressed and heavy!

Just today, on the palace of the Great Qin King, the moment he saw Mu Shengnan again, his whole heart seemed to be rejuvenated, a heart "plopped" and beating, and the feelings and thoughts that had already been deposited in his heart gushed out like a torrent in an instant, and even he himself was frightened.

In Li Ling's heart, there is no doubt about his feelings for Yun Kexin, and he has always believed that only Yun Kexin is the love of his life, and his heart has already been completely handed over to Yun Kexin. But the moment he saw Mu Shengnan today, Li Ling really felt that his heart was not as firm as he imagined, and perhaps in his heart, there was already a shadow of another person.

At this time, in Li Ling's heart, he asked himself countless times, is he still a person? obviously likes Yun Kexin, but he has a trace of indescribable affection for Mu Shengnan, until today, when he and Mu Shengnan say goodbye, he can no longer deceive himself. In his heart, he already has the position of Mu Shengnan, but in this way, how should he face Yun Kexin?

The most fragile thing is feelings, and the strongest thing is also feelings. Yun Kexin was born kind, how could Li Ling bear to make her sad and sad, but Mu Shengnan lived and died with him, shared hardships and hardships, and was also infatuated with himself, how could he bear to let her down. Now Li Ling is in a dilemma, and he doesn't know what to do.

Li Ling slowly stood up and slowly paced around the room.

Suddenly, someone knocked on the door, the voice was soft and careful, Li Ling's heart moved, and he knew that it was Yun Kexin who came. After all, only when Yun Kexin knocks on the door, he will worry about disturbing his rest, so he knocks on the door with a very light force.

Li Ling slowly opened the door, but saw Yun Kexin smiling, holding a tray in his hand, but on the tray was a bowl of hot porridge.

Without waiting for Li Ling to speak, Yun Kexin spoke: "Brother Ling, I heard Yu'er say that you drank a lot of wine at the banquet, but you didn't eat much, so I specially prepared a bowl of hot porridge, you can drink a little." ”

Looking at Yun Kexin in front of him and the hot porridge in Yun Kexin's hand, Li Ling suddenly felt sad, he didn't have a time to hate himself more than now. Yun Kexin treats her wholeheartedly, but he sees something different, how can this be worthy of Yun Kexin's true feelings.

Thinking of this, Li Ling made a decision in his heart. "Hey, when you have the opportunity, let's make it clear to Miss Mu. After all, Miss Mu also treats me sincerely, but it's a pity that I already have a heart, and I can't have extravagant hopes. When the judgment continues, it will be chaotic, and in the end it will only harm others and yourself! Now that I have a heart, I can't delay Miss Mu anymore! ”

Thinking of this, Li Ling suddenly felt a tingling pain in his heart, although it was only a short moment, but it was painful in his heart, which was difficult to resist.

Li Lingxin said, "What happened just now? Why do I suddenly have more heartache......" After thinking for a while, I don't know why, Li Ling didn't think much about it.

At this time, Yun Kexin on the side saw the cold sweat oozing from Li Ling's forehead, and his heart was suddenly raised, and he hurriedly cared: "Brother Ling, are you okay?" ”

Li Ling smiled faintly and said, "Xin'er, I'm fine!" ”

"But you just ......"

"Oh! Maybe I've drunk too much wine and I'm a little dizzy, but it's not in the way! ”

Yun Kexin heard this, but his brows furrowed slightly. Although Yun Kexin's cultivation is still shallow, he also understands that for a master of cultivation like Li Ling, the influence of wine on them is too small, if Li Ling can get drunk by drinking, I am afraid that no one in the entire Yunshan will believe it. But at this time, Yun Kexin was silent, and did not get to the bottom of it, just nodded knowingly, and then stopped asking.

This is Yun Kexin's smartest place, no matter how much a man loves a woman, he also wants to have his own space, and some things that he doesn't want people to know, men will always hide them well. Although Li Ling loves Yun Kexin deeply, he also has his own secrets in his heart, and he doesn't want to let Yun Kexin be hurt because of himself.

Yun Kexin is not only kind, but also always avoids some problems at the right opportunity, leaving Li Ling an independent space. This not only made Li Ling feel a little relaxed, but also gave Yun Kexin a chance for himself. In this way, instead of blaming Yun Kexin for not caring about himself, Li Ling will feel that Yun Kexin is generous, decent and empathetic.

If a woman blindly demands on her man and wants to get to the bottom of everything, it can only make the man more disgusted and disgusted with her, which is the so-called degree. And Yun Kexin's cleverness is reflected in the correct grasp of this degree.

"Well, it's okay! Brother Ling, let's drink less bars in the future, after all, drinking too much will always hurt you! ”

Li Ling nodded and said, "Well, I know!" ”

At this time, Yun Kexin looked at the hot porridge in his hand, couldn't help frowning, and said, "Brother Ling, we have patronized and talked, this porridge is cold, I'll go and give you a hot one." ”

"Don't, I think this porridge is just right!" After saying that, Li Ling took the bowl and drank it in a big gulp.

After a while, Li Ling drank all the porridge in the bowl. Then he wiped his mouth and said with a smile: "Well, the porridge made by Xin'er is delicious." ”

Seeing this, Yun Kexin also showed a smile on his face, and then said, "Okay, Brother Ling, I'll leave first, you can rest early." ”

"Well, I know! Xin'er, you should rest early! ”

"Hmm!" After nodding, Yun Kexin put away the dishes and exited the room.

After Yun Kexin left, Li Ling changed his playful attitude, his face was solemn, and he said to himself: "Xin'er, don't worry, I will never be sorry for you in my life!" I swear! ”

After saying that, Li Ling also turned around and went to bed to rest.

……

In a quiet courtyard, Mu Shengnan, dressed in black, stood under the cold night, and just like that, he had been standing motionless for almost two hours.

At this time, Mu Hongsleeve slowly walked out of the room, his eyes were full of love and concern.

"Boy, it's time for you to go back and rest!" Mu Hongsleeves said with a deep love.

"Master, the apprentice is not tired, I want to stand for a while!" Mu Shengnan spoke lightly, but there was not the slightest emotional fluctuation between the words.

Seeing this, Mu Hongsleeve's face froze, and he suddenly sighed faintly, and said, "Man, when did you become so angry when you talked to your master?" Are you blaming the master? ”

Hearing Mu Hongsleeve's words, Mu Shengnan's face changed slightly, and then he turned around, his eyes as pure as clear water looked straight at Mu Hongsleeve opposite, but there was an indescribable emotion flashing in his eyes.

"Master, don't dare! The apprentice was raised by the master since he was a child, and the master not only has the grace of nurturing me, but also the love of master and apprentice, and the grace of passing on the art, how dare the apprentice blame the master? ”

"Do you know what I see in your eyes, man?"

Mu Shengnan was stunned for a moment, then shook his head and said, "I don't know!" ”

"Man, you were brought up by me, and I know your temperament better than anyone!" Speaking of this, Mu Hongsleeve suddenly sighed and said: "You seem to be cold, but you are cold on the outside and hot on the inside, if it is something you recognize, even if it is a master, I am afraid it will not be able to change." It is precisely because of your temperament that the master is most worried! ”

"Master, what do you mean?"

"Man, you have a strong temperament and a passion in your bones. It's fine if you're not emotional, but if you're emotional, you'll be out of control. But you know what? The men in this world are all hypocritical, insidious, and irresponsible, and if you are deeply in love, you will definitely hurt yourself, do you understand? The master can't bear you to repeat the mistakes of the master, and he has taught you the magic of forgetfulness and carelessness since he was a child, just hoping that you can forget your love and avoid emotional injury! ”

Hearing this, Mu Shengnan's body trembled, as if he had mustered up all his courage, and said: "Master, a word of love, I don't know what to do, I go deep, and I can't help anyone at all." Besides, not all men in the world are unlucky! ”

Seeing Mu Shengnan's excited expression, Mu Hongsleeve sighed faintly, and said lightly: "Yes, you are right." Li Ling, that stinky boy, disregarded his own life, and was willing to test Gu for you, just in terms of this affection, it really surpassed many stinky men in the world. But man, you have to understand that people will become! Maybe now, he is infatuated with you, but when you are old, it is inevitable that he will not empathize with you and abandon you......"

But before Mu Hongsleeve finished speaking, Mu Shengnan shook his head and said, "Master, don't say it, I know that Brother Li is not that kind of person." ”

"Man, I know you like that stinky boy in your heart, but the master still has to remind you, don't let your feelings control your heart, you have to stay sober at all times, don't be deceived by those stinky men's rhetoric, do you understand?"

"Master, I understand."

"Hey......" At this time, Mu Hongsleeve sighed again and said, "Okay, I hope you can understand the master's hard work." Originally, this time the master took you down the mountain, and it was precisely for this matter, if you don't completely solve the entanglement with that stinky boy, I'm afraid your cultivation will be difficult to make progress! ”

After saying that, Mu Hongsleeve slowly went back to the house, leaving Mu Shengnan standing there, letting the merciless night breeze blow on his body.