That day was the third time in Shen Jianan's life that he felt a headache and dim day......

Shen Jianan, who found out that he was betrayed by two friends and his boyfriend one after another, resigned from the internship company, left City C, and came to City B.

She originally thought that she could find a new hope and a new life here, but she didn't expect that just her appearance would be struggling in this economic first-tier city.

I was harassed by my male boss when I was looking for a job, and I was excluded by someone who had a heart when I made friends.

finally got a job, and because he was a little closer to the man on official business, he was accused of being a junior, shameless, and purposeful......

In the end, I bumped into a new city for a year, and my job was finally stable, and I met Zhou Lu, who was also betrayed by others and was quite sympathetic to himself, and was also very good to Shen Jianan.

The situation in life seems to have just improved a little, but I met Xu Kun again.

Xu Kun, who threatened to like Shen Jianan and chased Shen Jiannan for a month, wanted Shen Jiannan on the first night of dating, but Shen Jianan, who had been betrayed, raised his fear, saying that he hoped to give him his body after he was sure of marriage.

In order to get Shen Jianan, Xu Kun tried his best to make Shen Jiannan believe that he was going to marry her, and gave Shen Jiannan a love necklace.

Until, the day we want to meet again on a date.

Shen Jianan wore a dress that he hadn't worn for a long time, dressed beautifully, and wanted to hand himself over to this entrusted man who said he wanted to marry him that night.

So she was so happy that she even ran to buy flowers.

As a result, I saw Xu Kun enter the hotel door with other women in his arms......

What's even more ridiculous is that Shen Jianan didn't know that Xu Kun's friends thought that Xu Kun got Shen Jianan.

As everyone knows, it is Xu Kun's self-esteem that is at fault, every time he goes on a date with Shen Jianan, even if Shen Jianan actually just says a few more words to himself, Xu Kun goes back and tells his fox friends how Shen Jianan is and how well he serves himself in bed.

Over time, even Shen Jianan's company had a lot of Shen Jianan's debauched words.

Shen Jianan was still strange at the time, how could those words come to the company, but now I think about it is mostly because of Xu Kun.

After all, after the breakup, he spread rumors that he said that the disgusting thing of seducing the son of the Xu family and wanting to take the throne was done by Xu Kun.

And Zhou Lu, the only one who believes in himself, is also struggling in the company, and he has no way to defend Shen Jianan, so he has to listen to those rumors getting stronger and stronger.

Until Shen Jianan's desk was emptied, those colleagues who had believed in those broken words no longer concealed their disgusting and disdainful eyes towards Shen Jianan.

……

[So, what is true?] ]

18-year-old Shen Jianan, in City C, where he has grandparents, spent elementary school, junior high school and then the difficult first and second years of high school with those gossips that have been used since childhood.

Adolescent children have restless personalities.

The male classmates in the class either coaxed Shen Jianan, or the rhetoric discussion was too filthy.

And the girls squeezed out Shen Jianan.

Until he met Ruan Junyu, who transferred from the third year of high school.

After everyone bullied Shen Jianan, he would come over gently and tell Shen Jiannan that he didn't believe those foul words.

That's the light of youth.

It shone into Shen Jianan's heart.

That was her first heartbeat.

At the graduation party at the end of the college entrance examination, Shen Jiannan plucked up the courage and decided to accept the love that Ruan Junyu had expressed to him that night and go to college with him.

But it's just around the corner of a hallway.

Shen Jiannan saw Ruan Junyu, who was leaning against the wall and kissing with a girl who often bullied him in the class, and both of them were about to take off their shirts.

……

So, what's true.

“……”

Shen Jianan thought about the past, looked at the sky that had darkened in the distance, and the night lights lit up by the river, and smiled a little.

She felt unlucky, but she felt lucky.

She lost her father since she was a child, in fact, she has always hoped that a man can come to her like a god, give herself full of love, take herself away from all anxiety, and stand up and say that he believes in her when those evil words hurt her.

So as soon as others are kind to themselves, she feels that it is salvation.

But everyone who came with a beam of light finally pushed Shen Jiannan to another abyss.

Apart from......

"Don't cry."

Looking at Shen Jianan, who was in a daze by the river, Lin Qin's voice suddenly appeared in his head.

"Are you comfortable...... Happy? ”

"Those people weren't kind to you because of your change. It's going to get worse, isn't it? ”

"Have you ever thought that it is because your character is too weak and easy to handle, so that no one dares to say bad things about you and everyone dares to bully you."

"In fact, no matter what you do, in any field, there will always be some people who stand up and throw garbage at you."

"All you should do is get rid of the garbage! Or throw them back! ”

"You should be confident, and there is no need to retreat for the sake of narrow-sighted people."

……

"Some things in the past have passed, there is no need to keep worrying about yourself, and there is no need to punish yourself for the mistakes of others."

"You should be as flamboyant as you look."

"Don't tell anyone, you're a bully."

——

The evening breeze at night was like a baptism, blowing Shen Jianan's hair and Shen Jianan's uncomfortable past.

Lin Qin, who was willing to tell her those words, was the reason why she recently felt that she might be lucky enough again.

The seven-carat beauty ring on his hand becomes more dazzling under the contemplation of the night.

It's like Shen Jianan himself sitting there without speaking.

Her beauty is so sparkling.

It's just that her character, which has been worn out since she was six years old, made God reward her with a very aggressive and unbridled appearance, and was imprisoned by her personality.

——

After returning to his grandparents' house at the age of six, Shen Jiannan and his mother suffered from the white eyes of the neighbors around them.

There were even words such as saying that Shen Jianan was a wild seed that her mother was giving to others as a junior outside.

When Shen Jianan's mother was young, she was a bright and moving beauty.

is a lonely mother and widow, and no one has ever appeared in the father's house, so it is inevitable that people will speculate with bad intentions.

And Shen Jianan's own grandfather also fought with others because of those people's broken mouths, and was even angry and sick.

But Shen Jianan, whose father is no longer alive, even if she has the love of her grandfather, she and her mother have no way to prove to those people that they are good children.

After his grandfather died, Shen Jianan's life was even more sad.

Since school, if a classmate in the class loses something, others will frame Shen Jianan's head, and the children in the school always bully her, a child who has no father and makes her grandfather angry.

But Shen Jianan knew his mother's suffering, so he never said anything when he was wronged at school.

There have been many men who fell in love with Shen Jianan's mother, but the mother loved Shen Jianan's father deeply, and she did not choose to remarry for Shen Jianan's sake.

In this way, Shen Jiannan went from elementary school to high school at his grandmother's house.

Anyone who knows Shen Jiannan will bring the unwarranted but dirty words that belong to Shen Jianan and her mother to her new environment.

Mother and grandmother were all the pillars of Shen Jiannan at that time.

In the end, through Ruan Junyu, Shen Jiannan suffered the first betrayal, signed a distant university, and stayed away from those who were before, but stepped into the bowl of Fang Qianqian and He Xiaoting, until now.

……

[Would it be disappointing to let his father see his daughter live like this?] ]

Shen Jianan sat on the garden chair and thought so.

She had forgotten what her father looked like.

But she knows that her father is a very warm existence, otherwise her mother would not have loved him for the rest of her life.

And when her father was there, it should be the happiest time for herself, although she no longer remembers those days because of the stimulation that affects her memory.

But she felt that it must have been her happiest time.

……

Shen Jianan sighed, thinking about his father and mother, slowly stood up from the garden chair, stretched out his hands against the blowing evening breeze, and gave the breeze a big hug.

[As long as you can meet it, it's not the worst.] Shen Jianan, you can still come on! ]

In fact, she has been thinking about it all the time and saying goodbye to her former self.