88 silly girl
I don't know why Chen Yu'an subconsciously looked in the direction where Gu Xuecen was, but Gu Xuecen didn't look at him, and his intuition told him that this matter had a lot to do with Gu Xuecen.
Chen Yu'an has always wanted to find a way to get close to Gu Xuecen, but he has never had a chance, Huo Jinye has an oppressive gaze that falls on him from time to time, so that he does not dare to act rashly, and finally he waited for the opportunity, Gu Xuecen was alone, and directly blocked Gu Xuecen on the rooftop.
"Did you do tonight's thing, Gu Xuecen, why didn't I find out that you still had such a means before?"
"Of course it's me. I don't have any friends in business, isn't that what you often tell me? It's just fair competition. Gu Xuecen sneered, took half a step back, and distanced himself from him, so as not to touch him.
Looking at the sanctimonious person in front of her, she only felt that her eyes were dirty.
"Just because I took the initiative to divorce you, are you going to take revenge on me like this?"
Looking at Gu Xuecen's expressionless side face, I don't know why Chen Yu'an's heart is very uncomfortable.
He always felt that it shouldn't be like this, obviously Gu Xuecen was so infatuated with him before, why did he suddenly change his attitude now?
"Young Master Chen, you think too highly of yourself, and divorce you, but I have made the most correct decision. After all this time, you don't think I still like you, do you? ”
Gu Xuecen looked at Chen Yu'an a little strangely, and couldn't help but feel funny.
"Wake up, how can you be worthy of me like this? I am the little princess of the five major families, since I was a child, I have been held by the stars and the moon by everyone, and I have been held in the palm of my hand, since I fell in love with you, you all kinds of PUA me. ”
Thinking back to all the absurdities of the past, Gu Xuecen could no longer suppress the hatred in her heart, her smile became colder and colder, and she approached Chen Yu'an step by step.
"You don't really think I'm stupid, do you? How can our Gu family be pure stupid and sweet? Gu Xuecen smiled strangely.
"The reason why I believed in you and was infatuated with you before, I didn't have the slightest suspicion of you, because I really liked you then, but I don't like you now, what are you?"
Gu Xuecen's face was full of confidence and pride, and at this moment she was incomparably radiant, like a proud little peacock, so that people did not dare to look directly at her light.
These words inevitably annoyed Chen Yu'an.
He is a person with strong self-esteem, and Gu Xuecen said this, and gritted his teeth.
"I see, it turns out that you came into contact with Huo Jinye for this reason. Huo Jinye compared to me, do you think there is any essential difference between us? I've been his opponent for many years, and I know everything he does, do you think he and I are not the same kind of people? Gu Xuecen, why are you still so simple? If he really loves you, how can he not tell you all his secrets? ”
Chen Yu'an watched Gu Xuecen's face change and become more and more proud, he walked into Gu Xuecen step by step, and his voice was as pervasive as a demon.
Gu Xuecen is still doing psychological construction for himself, Chen Yu'an's words can't be fully believed, he is a hypocrite, but his words are still pervasive.
I have to say that it is not for nothing that he was able to defeat many of his brothers and get to where he is today.
Gu Xuecen, you are really stupid! How can loving someone have secrets from the other person? It's like I don't love you, so I don't want to tell you anything about my plans, and you're just a pawn to me. ”
After Chen Yu'an finished speaking, he left with some pride, and glanced at Gu Xuecen not far away, just like this, Gu Xuecen still wants to fight with him, is it worthwhile? What he wants has always been the position of the head of the Gu family, so he will do whatever it takes to get this position, even if everyone spits on him and dislikes him, he doesn't care.
Huo Jinye searched for a long time in the banquet hall, but he didn't find Gu Xuecen's figure, until he came to the balcony, only to see Gu Xuecen standing silently on the balcony alone, not knowing what she was thinking, her face was almost blending with the night.
He felt that Gu Xuecen, who was so skinny, seemed to be about to jump from here in the next second, Huo Jinye twisted his eyebrows and walked over quickly.
"Didn't you just say you wanted to go to the toilet? How is it here? ”
"Brother, you're coming to me." Gu Xuecen looked back at him and reluctantly raised a smile.
Suddenly, her eyes were red, and she threw herself into Huo Jinye's arms with some emotions out of control, hugging him tightly.
"Brother, you know what? I just wanted to be with you from the moment I got out of the marriage. Knowing that I've done a lot of nasty things before, you can't believe it. When I was 16 years old, from the first time I saw you, I thought you were a bad person. ”
This is the first time that Gu Xuecen has openly mentioned the 16-year-old thing since she was reborn, and she has always known better than anyone that the 16-year-old thing is a scar that they can't get over in their hearts.
Every time Huo Jinye mentions these things, his emotions will fluctuate greatly, just like now.
They only know that if the scars are not torn apart, they will never be able to face the past.
"I didn't meet a few people at that time. I saw that you pushed Chen Yu'an into the water, and I had such an idea. I'm always targeting you in all kinds of ways, hurting your heart in all kinds of ways, I can't see you, and I look like I look so obscure. I couldn't read your eyes before. ”
Gu Xuecen slowly stretched out her hand and stroked Huo Jinye's good-looking eyes, Huo Jinye has a unique appearance, he is God's favorite, but he is not God's favorite. As a member of the Huo family, he bears a heavy responsibility, and there is always no time for a little happiness.
Recalling the days when he met Huo Jinye, she didn't even remember the last time Huo Jinye was relaxed and happy.
"Gu Xuecen, why are you suddenly telling me this? That's all in the past. ”
Huo Jinye felt that Gu Xuecen's mood was a little strange now, he thought of what the psychiatrist said, and was afraid that she would go to extremes again.
"I've long forgotten these things. As long as you're okay, I don't care about anything else. ”
These are the words from his heart.
He knew that he shouldn't have any delusions about Gu Xuecen, so he learned to die.
People are such strange creatures, once their desires are minimized, they will suffer the least damage.
"No, in the past, these things, it just crossed between us, and we couldn't get by. Knowing that you don't want to believe me, you think I'm still the same one I didn't deserve to believe, because that I would hurt you. It's that I've changed a long time ago. I had a dream once upon a time, and it was a ridiculous dream......"
Speaking of the absurdity of her previous life, Gu Xuecen's tears couldn't help but flow, after so long, she still couldn't let go of what happened in her previous life, her heart was full of hatred, and she walked towards the dark abyss step by step, but she longed to stand not far away, Huo Jinye with light behind her, so she tried her best to hide herself, for fear that Huo Jinye would find out that she was actually a little devil, and she was not as good as Huo Jinye imagined.
At this moment, she wanted to confess to Huo Jinye what happened in her previous life, no matter what, she was willing to face it.
Yes, in fact, she has already lived a new life, what can't she over?
People can't be trapped in hatred forever, she has to love this other person hard, and she wants to compensate Huo Jinye for all the love she lacked in her previous life, so no matter what choice Huo Jinye makes, she will gladly accept it, and then unswervingly catch Huo Jinye's footsteps and go through this long life with Huo Jinye.
"Brother, listen to me. I had a dream in which I got married to Chen Yu'an, but I didn't live the life I was supposed to live in. When I was 22 years old, I was buried in the fire, but after I died, I found out that someone had hidden my body, and that person was you. Give me a bouquet of roses every day. Hey, I only know that it seems that you and he are fighting fiercely, at that time I have already broken my family, and the Gu family no longer exists. ”
Gu Xuecen looked at Huo Jinye's expression and gradually became firm: "Then I woke up from this dream, so I decided to withdraw from the marriage that day." Whether it was just a dream or something, I saw you that I hadn't seen before. ”
It's also funny, when she was young, she always wanted to chase the sun, and always felt that the sun was the most dazzling thing in the world, enough to illuminate his body, and later found that the little star not far away was just as bright.
People are always like this, they don't know how to cherish what they can often see around them, but they are always easy to ignore, and the more things they can't get, the more they become obsessions over time.
"I've done very excessive things to you, I've hurt your heart, I don't know how you watched me make these choices again and again, but now I just want to tell you that no matter what you want to do to me, I want to live this life with you unswervingly."
Huo Jinye listened to his girl say such pious words, and he felt as if he was in a dream.
It's not that he hasn't had similar dreams for so many years, but after waking up from the dream, he saw the disgust in Gu Xuecen's face clearly, and he gradually understood that maybe some people were born destined to be destined.
Therefore, he has long recognized his status, as long as he can silently protect Gu Xuecen.
It was later that Gu Xuecen took the initiative to approach him, and they got married by accident, he didn't know if the current Gu Xuecen wanted a kind of warmth, wanted to be protected, or really loved him.
"Xiaoxue, when you didn't know, I went to consult a psychiatrist, and the psychiatrist said that your current psychology is very abnormal, saying that you are because of trauma, so you urgently need to find someone to get emotional comfort."
Huo Jinye didn't want to tell Gu Xuecen this, but when faced with these words, he couldn't control his feelings.
"So I promised you to get married, and I want you to live a carefree and happy life in this life. I don't care what kind of person you want to be, what choices you make. I've known for a long time that I'm probably just a passerby in your life, so I won't have those empty dreams. ”
"You have your own long life, and your life should be different from mine. Gu Xuecen, maybe you think I'm good now because you've encountered a low point in your life, but when you wake up, you'll find that I'm still the kind of person you hate. ”
Anyone knows his past and knows better than anyone else that people like him are actually unpleasant, so he gradually learns to let go of those delusions in the past.
Gu Xuecen guessed why they got married, but she didn't expect the truth to be like this.
Huo Jinye gave him all the love in this short life, how hard did she have to work to be worthy of his love?
Gu Xuecen's emotions were a little out of control, and she stretched out her hand to hug Huo Jinye.
"Brother, you fool, the biggest fool in the world, I don't deserve you to do this to me at all."
"I'm really afraid that the love you gave me will suddenly be withdrawn one day, I'm afraid that you think I'm not worthy of your liking, I'm afraid that you'll find out that I'm not as good as you think."
Maybe the psychiatrist was right, she really walked into a narrow dead end.
Every night he fell into a deep nightmare, all the things that were haunting her, like a pair of hands holding her so tightly that she couldn't breathe.
"Silly girl, you are the best in my heart."