Every man has a river and lake in his heart, every man's dream of the rivers and lakes has his own surprise and treachery, and every dream of the rivers and lakes has his own fresh clothes and angry horses.

At the beginning of my dream, I should have ventured to climb the fragile roof between the roof of my old house and the beams when I was eight years old, and found a worn-out mimeographed traditional version of "Tunnel War" from above, as well as a yellowed scroll, and later learned from my old father that the yellow scroll was the title deed issued to my family by the government of the Republic of China, and the title deed was not only a property certificate for my family's hard work for several generations, but also recorded the vicissitudes of my ancestors for several generations.

Since then, I have been reading the traditional Chinese "Tunnel War" word by word, until I actually read through the "Tunnel War" a month later, I still can't imagine how to deduct the pronunciation and meaning of each traditional Chinese character by myself with the literacy level of the second grade of primary school, maybe it is a potential motivation for curiosity and desire!

It was from that book that I saw the images of mighty and invincible heroes, who played without missing hair, and fought ghosts and souls. This was the first heroic narrative I experienced!

After two years, I read "Shooting the Condor", "Blue Blood Sword", "Smiling Proud Jianghu", etc., and realized that in addition to the happiness and hatred of the rivers and lakes, brotherly chivalry, there is also the history of the family and country, and the national feelings permeate between the lines of the author's words.

Later, when I read Gu Long's writings, the white narrative technique in his pen permeated a deep emotional burden, which made me feel a kind of heaviness and compassion, but I forgot the swords and swords in the book and the love between children and daughters. I know, where Gu Long is writing about Li Xunhuan, writing Jing Wuming and Guo Dalu and Wang Dong, Gu Long is more like changing his life role and angle to write about himself.

After entering the city to study, I participated in work, because I often traveled on business, I walked outside, and I personally experienced some hooligan ruffians picking provocations, being intercepted halfway, hotel theft, station fraud and other miscellaneous matters, although most of them calmly dealt with and solved, but also made me feel a sentence: people in the rivers and lakes, involuntarily, life in the world, the rivers and lakes are inseparable!

I also want to write about my parents who have passed away due to suffering, my grandmother who lost her husband and son in middle age, my grandmother who was also young and widowed but joined the underground party, my father who left his hometown to participate in the construction of the third line in the northwest, the people and things around me, and the hardships and vicissitudes of personnel buried in my family's land deed. However, these may not be possible for a while, and maybe, you can see their shadow projection in my book!

Sunday, February 19, 2023