005: Before losing completely
August is approaching, and the sycamore and camphor are swaying on both sides of the campus path, fading away from the restlessness of summer, and the slow and gentle autumn is slowly approaching.
The campus was quiet in the afternoon, with only two people walking in the direction of the music classroom. Lin Zhao had a performance in the evening, and he heard that Chen Ji'an could also play the piano, and wanted him to help accompany him.
She wanted to change the music to a solo piano that would be more appropriate for her theme tonight.
"Chen Ji'an, this is for you."
Chen Ji'an turned his head, Lin Zhaowan didn't seem to reject him so much during this time, and his attitude was much gentler.
He looked down and saw a maple leaf in her palm, which had been made into a leaf vein bookmark.
"I'm not as skillful as you, so I can only make a leaf vein bookmark."
She had seen the model airplane he had made, and it was vivid beyond words.
The small plane was obviously just parked in a corner of the gymnasium, as if it had been soaring in the blue sky, free and magnificent, like a young aspiring eagle, spreading its wings to find its own blue sky.
It's good that there are such talents in the country.
She was in London, and at that time she heard a lot of anti-China remarks, saying that there were no technical talents in China, and that the country was not as good as abroad, and she would always feel bad.
In her heart, she has always longed for the motherland to have all kinds of outstanding talents. Even if it is to study abroad, the purpose is to come back to shine for the country and better win glory for the country.
Therefore, she still chose to return to China in the midst of various unsupportive voices.
After seeing Chen Ji'an's works, her "prejudice" against him gradually began to warm up like spring when the first snow melts.
He would understand her, just as she was beginning to understand him.
Guan Wei told her that Chen Ji'an almost went to Germany twice.
The second time, in the last two years.
Lin Zhaowan unconsciously said what was in his heart: "For whom did you give up the opportunity to study abroad?" It's a bit of a pity. ”
She believes that Chen Ji'an will go abroad to study and come back, his skills will definitely be better, and when the time comes, when he returns to China, it will be more than the current level.
"Think I'm miserable?" He laughed, no wonder she was so abnormal today.
It turned out that it was sympathy for him.
"You're not the one who won't let me go abroad," he looked at the maple leaf, the corners of his mouth turned up, and his eyes were dizzy with an indescribable sourness, "What's so sorry for me?" ”
Oh, yes......
Lin Zhao realized it later, what did it matter to her?
Her eyes flickered left and right, and she changed the subject: "Then let's go, show your piano playing skills, Teacher Chen." ”
"Damn, is this Lin Zhaowan so easy to chase? Why are some people chasing for more than ten years not as good as others for more than ten days......"
The girl was small and thin, hiding behind the two of them for so long, using a tree as a cover, that she was never discovered.
She lowered her head and sent out all the pictures.
"If you don't come back, there's really no chance!!"
"Damn, wait for you!"
The loyal dog Jin Zhu sent a panda head emoji with gnashing teeth.
The girl put on sunglasses and sighed how could there be such a miserable man in this world, even if she was weak and sick since she was a child, it would be fateful to chase a girl when she grew up, and she didn't wait for a confession, and she was stolen by someone after going out for a few days.
Miserable!
Chen Ji'an played Jay Chou's "Sunny Day" on the piano, which is very suitable for the theme of this story. Lin Zhaowan bent over, his hand that was wearing dancing shoes paused for a second, and his eyelashes fluttered.
She seemed to remember that there was a person in her memory who also liked Jay Chou, but she couldn't remember who that person was.
She took off her little blazer and wore a white tulle skirt, which rippled gently and wantonly under the background of the sun. His fingertips kept jumping, and every note seemed to speak.
It seemed to be raining heavily in the classroom, so heavy that it was impossible to see how a hazy relationship could have an ending.
The girl didn't dare to want to get close to the man she had a crush on, from the young age to the age of standing, how far she walked, she had to ask in her heart, when would she be able to walk to that person?
Longing, fear, unwillingness, struggle, the deeper the annual ring, the more painful it is.
The dance came to an abrupt end.
Lin Zhaowan gasped for breath, watching the beads of sweat fall to the ground, she suddenly began to be afraid, she didn't want the same ending as the protagonist!
She sat on the table, the purple curtains were blown up by the gentle wind, and she looked at him sideways, her three-dimensional facial features were superior, revealing a cold and bright beauty, and her graceful dancing posture was put together, it was hard not to be moved.
is such a heart-warming girl, from adulthood to the present, there have always been suitors who have followed her, but they can't impress her.
Like, she's been waiting for someone......
When he lost his mind, she suddenly opened her mouth and asked as if nothing had happened: "Why did you give up the opportunity to go to Germany a second time?" ”
Why?
When she asked, he said, as if there was an outlet for his emotions: "Because I have a sister, if she needs me back, I can only come back, I owe her so much." ”
Younger sister? Why didn't she find out?
"That's my neighbor's sister," he explained. ”
She was a little surprised: "What about your future?" ”
He looked away: "The future is not as important as her life, and I will die without her." I felt as if she had done something stupid, and this is the guilt of my life. ”
“……”
Lin Zhaowan was silent, so, does Chen Ji'an like that sister or not?
Her mood jerked for a moment, she couldn't tell what it was like, it wasn't loss, but it was lower than loss.
She made an excuse and walked out.
Chen Ji'an was quiet for a long time, his heart went from quiet waves to turbulent worship, and after Lin Zhaowan walked out of the classroom, he played a song Jay Chou's "The Secret That Can't Be Said".
He, Chen Ji'an, is a jerk.
He fell in love with a girl who was nine years younger than him.
In the memory, the girl dragged him hysterically, crying and yelling: "Chen Ji'an, you are not my brother!" I like you, you want me to say a few times I like you, I'm not a kid anymore, don't you understand? ”
After playing this tune, he laughed self-deprecatingly: "What kind of thing am I, Chen Ji'an, and what qualifications do I have to accept your feelings?" Lin Zhaowan, I can't delay your life, why are you so stupid to punish me by jumping off the building......"
He took a deep breath, his brow furrowed, and his heart ached.
If she knew the whole truth, would she hate him, or would she understand and forgive him?
The phone rang.
He picked it up, and the one who should have come also came: "Chen Ji'an, I'm back." Lin Zhaowan, don't think about moving. ”
He was not flustered, the corners of his mouth rose slightly, his bony hand held the mobile phone, and said in a firm tone: "Chu Yuxi, I have been waiting for you for a long time." ”
The cicada song above her head took her back to a certain summer day, Lin Zhaowan's skirt was flying, and she was caught in the whirlpool of summer, but she didn't know which summer day?
This feeling that something seems to be missing in my heart, is it that I can't find that piece of loss again, which makes people's hearts feel uncomfortable.
Now, the more she gets to know Chen Ji'an, the more she believes that he is a good person.
Even......
Her hand reached to her chest, and the heart was pounding at the thought of him...... Is this feeling called heartbeat?
Why is she so excited?