Lin Zhaowan's appearance of "showing anger on the outside and inside" made Chen Ji'an admire.

He couldn't use that word on her, but she did. However, he was faintly happy in his heart, indicating that she still cared about herself, she was jealous with Su Mingwei and wanted her to leave him.

Su Mingwei pointed at her: "You remember it for me!" ”

Su Mingwei was so angry that she stomped out of the ward, Lin Zhaowan looked at her back and sighed, she learned one more thing-

Don't use your own judgment to glorify or belittle anyone, only when you know this person, can you know what kind of person the other person is?

She thought that Su Mingwei looked like a gentle and bright little girl when she heard her name and read the words, but she didn't expect that she would be diametrically opposed to what she thought.

Lin Zhaowan turned his gaze to Chen Ji'an, and asked seemingly indifferently: "Are you okay?" ”

In fact, she is also very worried about him, obviously under the same roof, but he doesn't even tell her about illness, doesn't it mean that there is a problem in the relationship between the two people?

"I'm fine," his eyes stayed on her, explaining, "I know you have your own things to do during this time, and my problem is a small matter, and I don't want you to worry about it, so I didn't tell you at the first time." ”

But he didn't want to, Lin Zhaowan just picked up an orange, stood next to him and peeled it.

The moment the orange peel peels off the flesh, you can hear a sweet white noise. But his mood was not a little quiet and relaxed, but grasped it tighter, for fear that she would be angry again because of her "goodbye".

He remembered the trick that Eubero told him: it is best to be a coquettish man.

He felt a little awkward at first, but at this moment, he felt that there was nothing to be afraid of, and a dead horse was a live horse doctor.

Chen Ji'an raised his hand and pulled her sleeve: "Don't be angry with me, okay?" Before, I knew it was wrong. ”

At that moment, Lin Zhaowan looked back at his coquettishness, and he had the impression that Brother Ji An, who had been chasing and running since he was a child, was completely different.

She even wanted to tell him: "Chen Ji'an, if I tell you that I am so angry when I think of everything, do you believe it?" ”

Angry that he didn't want to tell her anything, he had endured so many things, did he know that she would blame herself and be heartbroken?

After becoming his girlfriend, she wants to face more difficulties with him, even if it is birth, old age, sickness and death, she can accept it. But he chose to bear it all by himself, as if her girlfriend could only share the joys and sorrows, but not the sorrows.

She also hated herself, obviously he came back safely, she was happy, but she still pretended to be indifferent, just so that there would be no more accidents in the future.

Their world finally calmed down, and she was really scared to lose him again......

The orange peel is peeled, but the hustle and bustle has not yet calmed down.

She looked at him and, with his other hand, which he didn't grasp, handed the orange over: "Eat it." ”

"I haven't been coquettish, you're the first, can you look at this, don't be angry with me?" He took the orange, but he still looked at her like a kitten in the rain, so he was not aggrieved.

In the past, Lin Zhaowan, who had amnesia or had not yet lost his memory, would definitely laugh.

But now, she can't laugh.

She was so calm that she didn't seem to feel heartache at all: "Chen Ji'an, I just blame myself, I don't have the ability to understand you, should I let you find someone who understands you better to take care of you, instead of someone like me who will affect you." ”

If she hadn't pestered him when she was a child and hadn't met this group of people from the Chu family, Chen Ji'an wouldn't have had to live such a hard life......

These things, like nightmares, trapped her from time to time after she regained her memory, making her helpless and anxious.

She turned her head to look at him, a helpless smile rose at the corner of her mouth, pale as sad as a cloud: "But Su Mingwei definitely can't, if you have a better person to choose from, you give up on me and go find your own life......"

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The yellowed night light in the ward sounded "sizzling", and time seemed to travel back to many years ago, and now Chen Ji'an can finally understand the entanglement and sadness of her girlhood, and the sadness and helplessness of being pushed away by him.

As if God was going to punish him, she began to back down after he wanted to give up his love with all his heart.

Fate seems to be telling him with his actions that in the past, he didn't consider the feelings of others, indulged in his own world, and thought he was good to others.

"I'm sorry......" He let go of the hand that was pulling her sleeve, and his own hand slowly hung down, like the heart, falling into the deepest part of the heart lake.

All the memories came to mind at once-

After he first noticed her intentions, he was also upset by the family's urging to marry, so he simply used this as an excuse to drive her away.

He was so cold that it was more icy than the rushing river under his feet, and he didn't dare to look her eyes, but he dared to say to her: "I may find a suitable girl to marry because my parents are urging me to get married." ”

He wanted to chase her away and tell her that he wasn't worth it.

He didn't know how many tears she would shed when she went back.

At that time, he even realized that she was no longer a minor and had the right to chase the happiness he longed for. And he, obviously had a good impression of her at that time, but he didn't dare to move forward at all, so he could only interrupt her "forbidden love".

And every time she is like a sunflower, returning to him with sunshine.

Her desire to choose a school was denied by the teacher, and she was discussed crookedly by her classmates, and he even said to her disappreciatively with the attitude of an adult: "If you fall, you have to stand up by yourself, only you can rely on yourself." ”

At that time, Chen Ji'an felt that he would leave her sooner or later, and more importantly, cultivate her ability to be independent and strong.

Even if one day he is gone, she will be able to face the difficulties of life. The only thing he has to do is to solve the biggest obstacle and keep her safe and healthy.

But at that time, she must have been sad to listen to, he had never given her tenderness and comfort.

Before the college entrance examination, she bought him a carton of milk, soda crackers, and self-heating rice. I'm afraid that he is busy with his studies and work and has no time to take care of himself.

And he didn't say a word of "thank you", and first denied her caring behavior.

His cold words revealed his need, and at that time, she also felt that she was a problem in his life.

He said to her: "The college entrance examination is the only thing you should prepare for, not to spend time with me, I don't need to." ”

Chen Ji'an just hopes that Lin Zhaowan's eighteen-year-old should chase his dreams in a dazzling way, and not waste time with a flower that wants to be thanked.

He is too self-righteous, he is not mature at all, trapped in the order of this society, but he is proud that it is her life.

She's alive and shouldn't even have a chance to try.

But it is precisely because he likes her that he cherishes her too much, and he is reluctant to let her give up her original plan for life for herself, and she is reluctant to be public opinion by others.

More importantly, he hadn't told her yet.