He Qiqi felt a little messy.

Looking at the 23 minutes and 07 seconds after Eubero's back left, she walked out of the dance studio sweating profusely.

Outside the window, there was an iris bent over.

He Qiqi stumbled out the door, his feet numb from the strenuous exercise. At this moment, her nerves were also a little tired, as if someone had sucked her bone marrow.

In fact, in this life, she has never thought about love anymore.

Why......

She stood in the doorway, leaning against the wall, her eyes blank. The weakness of her legs caused her whole body to slide down, and she picked up her knees.

It hurts a lot...... It's the wind blowing, right?

Why did this relationship that she had longed for in the past, but she didn't get it, and now she had given up, when she felt that she had pursued the desired success, suddenly appeared?

The image in the memory made her chest rise and fall a little uncomfortably.

"I warn you, be at school and don't disgrace me." During the parent-teacher conference, he put on a straight face, pulled her hair to the back blackboard, and pretended to be gentle.

Actually, it really hurts.

But it's much better than what he's done before.

Winter is the season she fears the most. Because there is no favorite iris growing outside the window, it also welcomes the most scared people to go home for the New Year.

From childhood to adulthood, her mother taught her a guideline: obedience.

He Qiqi has forgotten what year it is, and in her vague memory, she is probably not even eight years old. Huang's face and hands had already been frozen with a few sores, she didn't know how to go to the doctor at that time, she only knew that it hurt, and she still remembered the feeling of pain when she grew up.

In winter, Xiao Qiqi received a basin of water from outside the dilapidated house, and when she turned around and wanted to go to the room to warm up, a familiar voice came from the room again.

The voice that scared her.

For the sake of good face, my mother always wanted to make the people in the village feel that they were doing well, and she never let others interfere with these problems, and pretended that they were very affectionate.

She stumbled backwards, and was too frightened to stand still, and fell down, but she quickly put the basin in front of her.

Suddenly there was a wet smell in front of me.

Xiao Qiqi's whole body was wet, and his ass sat on the heavy snow.

Fortunately, although she was drenched in water, the basin did not hit the ground and made a noise, so as not to attract the bad guys to hit her.

She looked at the few blue and red marks on her arms, trembled, and reminded herself like crazy: "You can't pass, you can't pass, it's dangerous, it's dangerous!" ”

Immediately afterward, she turned around and ran into the woods.

She was not timid, and it was not that she didn't want to save her mother, but thinking of the previous few memories, she really didn't dare to go inside.

Trying to save his mother, the end result was only a more painful beating.

The mother's whole body was on her, and the sound of the whip whipped on their bodies, and the mother was used to being beaten, and she did not say a word. At that time, she was still young, and she dared to cry until—

"Her father is so good to her, and she doesn't know how to be satisfied."

"She looks so beautiful, and she doesn't know how to be grateful to her mother for giving birth to her so beautiful."

"I heard that Xiao Qiqi's father is going to buy her a house in the future, but she doesn't even call her father, what's the use of having this kind of daughter?"

During the Chinese New Year, there are a few relatives in the family who always look at her with eyes that make her hateful. She was ordered by her mother to give them biscuits, sweets, and blessings with the most beautiful smile during the holidays, but these people did not seem to want to accept her "unlucky" blessings.

The sound of them pointing at her has not stopped since she was a child.

When he was young, He Qiqi didn't understand how ridiculous this was, until he grew up...... I have encountered more and more pain, and I have received more and more education, and I have realized what kind of life I used to live.

She stopped crying.

Crying doesn't seem to work.

Instead, you will appear more embarrassed and clumsy.

But fortunately, they just talked about her lightly: "This child has an intimately relationship with his father, and it is really unfilial." ”

I don't know how long this has been going on, so long that she has almost forgotten who she is?

Looking at the smiling faces of other classmates, she will wonder: why are their lives so happy?

But she didn't dare to say.

Her face was as calm as stagnant water, like a doll in an antique store, dressed in beautiful clothes, but placed in a dark corner, thinking that she could get the sun through the glass window, only to usher in the gray day after day.

When she was a child, He Qiqi felt that even if she was a "family", there were really so many bad people around her.

She didn't know what her life would be like when she grew up...... Confusion and uneasiness permeated her.

"Mom, shall I take you out?"

This is the first time He Qiqi has tried to tell his mother about the escape plan.

This time, she remembers it very well, when she was thirteen years old. Because she was worried that she would go to boarding school and what her mother would do alone, she took the initiative to talk to her mother about the divorce.

She wanted to take her mother away.

But the mother just turned her head like a doll on a music box while sewing clothes, and said stiffly, "You said you were leaving?" ”

"yes." She took her mother's hand, "We can run away from this person, this one who will only beat us." ”

But the mother immediately withdrew her hand, and slapped her hard with the free hand, and she stood there in disbelief.

She actually looked at herself in disbelief: "That's your father, how can you think about running away from him?" ”

She held her face: "But is he really good to you?" ”

Her mother's smile was so terrible that even if the needle in her hand was about to hurt her, she probably wouldn't feel anything.

She seemed to be a doll that had been completely placed in an antique store, and she unconsciously repeated: "This is your father, if you dare to do such a thing, I won't love you." ”

Terrible......

At that moment, she seemed to be thrown into a dark dry well, and she couldn't stop falling...... Later, she learned that her mother had a serious psychological problem.

"Mom......"

Why is this happening......

She wanted to ask, but her white lips couldn't do it.

Since then, she has barely had contact with her family. Maybe they're doing well now, but that place, she never wants to go back to.

Because the scars of the heart can no longer be repaired.

Many years later, she learned that her mother had psychological problems. But I don't know if I was forced by my father, or if she forced herself for so many years.

As for getting married and falling in love, He Qiqi didn't dare to dream like this since he was a child.