Wotan can never forget that moonlit night, it seems to be not long before the Mid-Autumn Festival, but that year's autumn came very urgently, in the memory, several cold rains have passed, and the scenery in the garden has been a little bleak.

She was still cardamom age at that time, very carefree, although she knew that the teacher was slightly infected with a slight illness because of the autumn coolness, but she thought that since there was a "magic stick" in the Shangqing Temple, the teacher's illness would not be a big problem, so she played with Shen Hook and others as usual, she remembered that day, just in time for the last forbidden drum, she returned from riding outside, and happened to meet Lan.

On his grandmother's birthday, Lan was also a guest, and Wotan recognized him.

At that time, she had always believed that everything on the teacher and Lin Xiao was rumors, but when she saw the Lan family coming to the door, she suddenly felt threatened.

So she took it upon herself to block it and not let the Lan family in.

Although the ban on drums was exhausted, it was already dark that day.

The overcast and cold sound of the wind fell obliquely from among the autumn leaves and flowers, and the bright light of the ever-bright lamp shone on Lan's miserable white face.

But at that time, she was still soft, her eyebrows were graceful, and although she was sad, the timbre when she spoke was like a string song.

She was anxious, it was because of Wu Dan's obstruction, she seemed to know that her request was a bit ridiculous, she couldn't persuade the golden branches and jade leaves in front of her to let her in and disturb the real person's peace, so she knelt down, and didn't care whether Yingyang Zhenren could hear her request or not, she raised her voice and poured out, no matter what, she didn't want to be helped up by the servant woman of Shangqingguan.

Wu Dan was also shocked by Lan's behavior at that time, so she didn't react, it turned out that she didn't come to Xingshi to ask for guilt.

"Real person, real person, concubine Lan clan, kneel down and ask real person to see the last face in the sky, everything is the fault of the concubine, the concubine has long regretted it, but the concubine is obsessed, obsessed!" Lan was crying and in pain, her emotions were obviously on the verge of collapse, and even a little upside down: "In fact, at that time, the concubine and her mother were in Kyoto, because the concubine lost her father, the father took pity on the concubine and the widowed mother, and after the concubine was removed, the father took the mother and the concubine to the capital, one for the convenience of taking care of it, but also because of the sky, thinking that if the sky could reach the first, it would be able to immediately promote the marriage of the concubine and the sky." ”

"The concubine and the sky are the finger marriage, since the two families are good, and the concubine's father is the master of the sky, so there is a friendship between childhood sweethearts."

"When the concubine was young, she had to be trained in a high court, and she already regarded the sky as her husband."

"The concubine has always been friendly in the sky, so the concubine never thought that there would be a change in this marriage."

"But I never expected, I entered Beijing in the sky, met a real person, and met a confidant, so I was ashamed to have another belonging, and frankly said that I had been like a brother and sister when I treated my concubine, if I didn't know a real person, I might not know what love was...... The concubine knew that the admirer in the sky was not a concubine, but she forced her to die and threatened the sky to fulfill the contract. ”

"Real person, although the sky can't bear to ignore the concubine and marry the concubine, the concubine knows that he has never forgotten the real person."

Two years ago, the study accidentally walked into the water, and the sky rushed into the fire regardless of his life, and took out the painting intact.

"The real person, the sky suddenly contracted a serious illness, there is no cure, the concubine knows his wishes, and looks forward to seeing the real person again, and the concubine begs the real person to ......"

Lan kowtowed again and again, and Wu Dan was at a loss.

And looking back, she saw the teacher, just standing in a lamplight, his face was whiter than Lan's, it seemed that even his soul had been out of his body, and Wu Dan's heart was full of fear, because she had never seen such a description of a real person, not a single tear, but it seemed that standing there was only an empty body.

"What's wrong with him......"

Nothing matters, love or not love, just the sudden critical illness of that person, the parting of life and death, and it comes unexpectedly.

What's wrong with him, these four words are so concise, but the affection and panic contained in them made Wu Dan suddenly moved.

At that time, she knew that the teacher's life had taken a sharp turn for the worse since then, and there was no joy again.

That year, the grape trellis in the backyard of the Lin Mansion seemed to be newly built, and it was not fruitful.

Wordan remembered that she had followed the teacher to this simple mansion without saying a word, and the teacher's arm had been trembling slightly, but his expression was extremely calm, until he saw the man on the sickbed, in fact, he was not skinny, but there was no sparkle in his eyes, like a broken candle, crumbling to extinguish.

He obviously didn't see Wodan clearly, but he seemed to sense the person he had been secretly missing.

He struggled to look at it.

A bitter smile, with endless amazement, was not surprised by this long-lost reunion: "Why are you here." ”

At that moment, Wu Dan almost thought that the Lan family was suspicious of a dark ghost, this man had never been emotionally attached to the teacher.

But she saw the pain on the man's face when the teacher held the hands.

"At this point, are you still going to lie to me?"

It's not a question, it's more like a sweet talk between lovers, if you ignore the choking that can't help yourself.

"In my life, I am the only one who has failed you, how can I be worthy of your ......" Even at this time, there was no sweet confession, the man's desolate tone, only guilt and apology.

"Maybe there are many regrets in this life, but I'm still very lucky to be able to meet you."

It was a long silence that almost made Wodan, a bystander, unable to bear the deep sadness in the silence.

The man finally sighed, but then he smiled, laughing as much as he could, as if he was like a first acquaintance, through the flowers, but he was still shocked by such a beautiful her, and couldn't help but smile at the corner of his lips, even if he was just watching from afar.

"Since you're here, give me a painting, I've known each other so far, and when I think about it, it seems that you haven't given me a painting yet."

"Okay." There was only one simple word, but Waddan saw the teacher's tears dripping on the fingers that were clasped.

She couldn't bear to look at it more, and asked the servants to prepare the pen and ink, she watched the teacher's hand holding the pen tremble violently, and she couldn't put down the pen for a long time, she finally couldn't help but feel sad, and simply avoided this parting of life and death.

It's close to the Mid-Autumn Festival, and it's not a waning moon in the sky.

But the moonlight of that night, in Wodan's memory, was extremely cold.

When they left, Lin Zhai was already crying, but Wu Dan remembered that although the teacher's eyes were bloodshot, there were no tears.

For many, many days, the teacher didn't cry.

But like the walking dead, the teacher no longer felt hungry, nor even thirsty, and she just kept her eyes open day and night, watching the sunrise until the moon moved.

Master Lang Yu was so anxious that one day he took out all the wine from Shangqingguan with blood-red eyes, picked up a jar, and stuffed it directly to Wu Dan: "Girl, you have to get Yingyang drunk today, I would rather see her drunk to death than see her look like this!" ”

So Wu Dan finally heard the teacher's drunken words, and confessed his regrets over the years, and the pain of his lover's death.

After sobering up, the teacher seemed to be back to normal.

But she smiled less, dined less, began to refuse to meet guests, and she closed herself off day by day.

She didn't mention Lin Xiaoshang again, nor did she ever paint freehand again, she didn't let people get a glimpse of her sadness, she locked the two of them in a person's memory.

For many years, Yingyang actually didn't have any dealings with the Lan family.

Wu Dan once complained about the Lan family.

She could see that the Lan family also had a deep love for Lin Xiaoshang, otherwise she, as Lin Xiaoshang's wife, would not cry and beg the teacher to see Lin Xiaoshang for the last time, but Lan's admiration is somewhat selfish, although Wu Dan will not force Lan's adult beauty, but since she has got her wish, why bother the teacher's original free and easy life?

Wu Dan stubbornly thought at that time that if the teacher didn't know that Lin Xiaoshang also had affection for her, maybe the regret and pain would be reduced a little, and he would not be so sad and lonely after Lin Xiaoshang died.

But today's Eleven Niang vaguely understands that even if the teacher has been kept in the dark, when he is separated from his lover forever, he will not be able to talk and laugh.

She also remembers deeply, after the teacher was drunk that year, he recited Lin Xiaoshang's poems for her paintings, word by word, and never forgotten.

Even though they have never met, the teacher has been secretly paying attention to Lin Xiaoshang's life.

When, what advice did he write, and those advices, word by word, the teacher could recite them.

Actually, it's not that I never have regrets, but the teacher's open-mindedness lies in the fact that if he is well, I will be happy.

But if he is gone, this defect can no longer be remedied.

Eleven Niang even imagined that even if the teacher and Lin Xiaoshang finally became married, when Lin Xiaoshang could not avoid his untimely death, the teacher would still be so bitter.

Therefore, this desperate love, even if no one fails anyone, can only cause pain in the end.

And how can she not be afraid?