He didn't dare to move his hand holding the cigarette, for fear that if he moved, everything in front of him would be a dream and would be shattered.

Even though the scarlet smoke burned his fingers, he didn't move.

Sheng Chaodui, who was still blowing his hair, took away the scarlet cigarette butt from his hand in time, and he was shocked to realize that the muscles around him were numb.

Sheng Chaodui pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray and sat down across from him.

She looked at him and asked, "When did you get this disease?" ”

"I can't remember."

Sheng Chaodui frowned: "I can't remember, it's a long time ago, isn't it?" ”

The man lowered his head, unable to make out the expression on his face.

He hummed lightly and said:

"I only remember that the first time I cut my own skin with a blade was when you were 17 years old when you pursued Xiao Yu. At that time, you seemed to like him so much that you wanted to lose weight for him. At that time, you had one hundred and thirty pounds, because Xiao Yu said that you were fat, and from the day you beat you, you didn't eat dinner. You don't eat well,

I had stomach problems and went to the hospital for an infusion, I was your bodyguard at that time, and I accompanied you to the infusion at night, and you shouted pain to me with tears in your eyes, I don't know why, I couldn't stand it at the time, so I hid in the bathroom and cut myself with a blade, I felt very comfortable cutting myself like that......"

Sheng Chaowan was speechless in shock.

She was 150 pounds when she was the fattest when she was a girl, but it is the nature of girls to love beauty, and she lost weight entirely because she wanted beauty, not for who she wanted to pursue.

The man's words continued.

At this time, he raised his head, and his black phoenix eyes looked at her for a moment.

"Later, whenever I can't get rid of depression or irritability, I will do it!"

Sheng Chaodui pursed her lips and asked, "What did the doctor say?" In your case, it should be depression ......"

"It's not just depression, it's dissociation. When I was at the height of my dissociative episodes, I didn't know myself at all, and I didn't have consciousness at all......"

Sheng Chaodui nodded and said:

"Then your situation is indeed worse than I thought." In a faint tone, "Let's take a look." In any case, the body is its own, and if the body and spirit collapse, then it is completely nothing. ”

After her words fell, Fu Huaijin remembered what Lu Shaoyan had said to him, and said:

"Lu Shaoyan said that when you were producing small candy, you also had a very severe depression, and you had a hard time during that time, right?"

Sheng Chaodui nodded: "It's quite difficult." But for me, the most painful thing is not that time, but now. ”

Fu Huaijin's pupils shrank suddenly, "Now? ”

Sheng Chaowan snorted and said:

"yes. I feel like the worst time of my whole life, except for the time when my family was ruined, is now. ”

After a pause, he added, "Ah Jin, you have made me more and more selfless, more and more humble and difficult. ”

Fu Huaijin's heart trembled violently again.

Sheng Chaodui gave him another hard blow at this time, and said:

"Ah Jin, if possible, you let me go and give me a way out, I will be grateful to you. I thought about it and thought that our children are all together and we can raise them together, but frankly, I really don't think we need to continue to live together. Let's break up, shall we? ”

"Scattered? What does it mean to be scattered?

Sheng Chaodui pursed his lips, "Breaking up is breaking up, except for the problem of children, basically do not interfere with each other's private lives." ”

Fu Huaijin's throat rolled, he stood up suddenly, and condescendingly pronounced a sentence to Sheng Chaodui:

"I can't disperse. From beginning to end, you provoked me first. Five years ago, you faked your death and the golden cicada came out of its shell, and five years later you made a comeback, every time you make a decision, it is based on hurting me, so the rules of this game can only be set by me. Either I lose my wife, or you will treat me honestly with the title of Mrs. Fu. ”

Sheng Chaodu's heart sank, and his eyes were red:

"But your grandfather will never agree to us being together, your mother died because of me, for your grandfather, I am the culprit who killed his daughter, and he will not let my ......"

Fu Huaijin interrupted her:

"He's him, I'm me, it's me who wants to entangle with you, he can't live for a few years with an old bone." paused, "What's more, with me here, who dares to hurt a single hair of yours?" ”

Sheng Chaodui laughed at his words:

"That's so nice? When your aunt pointed at the tip of her nose and scolded me for being a bewitching scourge, weren't you powerless? Isn't it better for your old lover to bring your daughter into the house than to stab me with a knife? ”

Fu Huaijin pursed her thin lips, "I thought you had no heart or lungs, and you didn't care about these ...... at all."

Sheng Chaowan didn't want to continue to fight with Fu Huaijin:

"You think about it, don't make a decision in a hurry." After a pause, "I'm tired, let's go to sleep first." ”

After speaking, Sheng Chaodui climbed into bed and covered the quilt, as if he was really tired and wanted to rest.

Fu Huaijin looked at the direction of the bed for a while without saying a word, and finally turned off the light, leaning over to kiss her......

(End of chapter)