The first time Wu Dan heard the word "marriage" was probably from the mouth of the Xue family's mother. is still very ignorant and ignorant, she was about a little stubborn at that time, and she usually "took care" of Lu Li, who was quite shy at the time, for fear that he would be teased by several cousins from her grandfather's house, and the boys' plays, she also joined in, and often fought unevenly, debunking the little tricks of Zheng's cousins to steal and play tricks, and the dispute was too loud, which alarmed the elders, her mother blamed her for being naughty, but Xue Shimu smiled and hugged her in her arms: "Wu Niang is defending my family, these two children, has always been closer than ordinary people, and they should have this fate, Wu Niang will give us Lu Li as a daughter-in-law in the future? ”

She didn't know what "daughter-in-law" meant at that time, she only saw Lu Li running away uncomfortably, and even when she saw her two moments later, she still blushed.

When she was a little older, she finally understood the meaning of marrying a wife, and she and Lu Li had become close friends, not only did she not feel contradictory in her heart, but even felt that such an "arrangement" was very agreeable, so she didn't want to spend the day with the rest of the men who had never been masked because of their parents' orders, God knows that person's temperament and conduct, will it be a person who makes her despised, if the words are not speculative, and they must live together, how should this long life endure?

Lu Li is different, they have the same preferences, the same yearning, they can know each other, they can stay together, even if they go out of the pavilion and marry a wife, there will not be much difference from the time when they are in the boudoir, she can still be at ease, living with Lu Li, she will definitely not feel bored, so that the day is like a year.

Wu Dan even started planning early, she said: Brother Lu, in the future, we can set up a residence in Nanshan, in the hot summer, we can hide in the mountains, take mountain springs to cook wild tea, stroke the qin and zither under the moon, you can plant green bamboo, you can also catch fish, not only the elegance of poetry and wine, but also the desire of ordinary people.

She also said: Maybe we can go farther, visit the famous mountains and rivers, and rely on the relics and historic sites.

She talked endlessly, planning all kinds of desirable lives, Lu Li just listened silently and smiled: good, good.

Wu Dan wants to marry Lu Li, but he has no love.

Therefore, when she learned that Emperor Dezong gave her marriage, she regretted and resisted, but she did not have the determination to die rather than marry others, and the sacrifice she made was a beautiful and comfortable life in the future, not love.

Even she didn't feel that she had failed Lu Li at all, because she thought that Lu Li was the same as her, and regarded her as a close friend, and the marriage of a man and a woman would not actually change the friendship between them, and she even thought that Lu Li had nothing to lose, because the wife he married was her little sister, and they were also extremely familiar and had similar temperaments, and their married life would still be the same as they longed for.

She has always believed in this, until she returned from the netherworld and became an eleventh mother to start her life again, she was obsessed, for revenge, knowing that Lu Li was not keen on officialdom, but she still pulled him on this road of fighting for power and profit, and then she married He Ye, Youzhou achieved a great victory, she held a banquet in the Jin Palace, Lu Li, who was already too drunk that night, was also drunk, when she went to visit, but was pulled by the drunk and sleeping man's wrist.

He said, "Don't go, don't let me watch you and marry someone else again."

It was only then that it dawned on her, but everything was a foregone conclusion, and time could never be repeated, she knew the affection he had been forbearing, but she could only act as if she had never seen anything, she must, and could only stubbornly go to the path she had planned, and could not respond to this man, the man who almost became her husband, who never gave up, she was such a ruthless and unrighteous person, knowing that she had failed a lot, but still hard-hearted.

She is a person, the trauma and sorrow she brought to Lu Li can never be remedied, how can she be worthy of his protection and companionship in two lives and two lives?

At this time, this man, lying quietly on his back, has come to an end and a destination, but even the last face before parting, she is still the first to turn around, she can defend herself, claiming that she has never realized that life and death will come so suddenly, but even if she is conscious, what can she do?

Knowing that it shouldn't, knowing that it's too late, knowing that it shouldn't be to keep the soul that has been liberated, but to let him go without worry. Eleven Niang couldn't hold back her remorse and grief at this time, she trembled and held Lu Li's palm that had become cold and warm, and tears burst into tears: "Xuanzhi, this is the second time I have called you like this, I still remember the first time, it was my uncle and grandfather who just gave you the words, you wrote it down and showed it to me, and I read it, I still remember that your eyes were exceptionally bright at that time, but I thought it was because you were very satisfied with this expression...... Xuanzhi, in the past, I always thought that I was the person who knew you best in the world, but then I thought about it was ridiculous, you used two lives to accompany me, but I was ignorant. ”

"I think if I really understood you, I shouldn't have hesitated to obey that scroll of divine decree at that time, even in that life, we would only have a short period of peace, at least in this sad world, and we could still feel some comfort. Now that you're gone, I'm saying this, and even I find it ironic. ”

She suddenly couldn't speak anymore, only to feel that her throat and eyes were blocked by a dull pain.

can only hold palms, kneel in front of the couch, and silently send him off for the last time.

But even such a solitude is quite short-lived, Lu Li's family heard the funeral news, and came one after another, although it is not unreasonable to personally mourn after hearing the news about the friendship between the emperor and Lu Li, but they can't understand why the emperor is waiting outside the room, only the queen has been crying for a long time beside the funeral bed, such a violation of customs and etiquette, Eleven Niang can only get up and leave under He Ye's persuasion, but she did not return to the palace immediately, at such a moment, she has no intention of worrying about whether He Ye will be suspicious, she asked: "The concubine has a few words, I want to tell Ah Zhao separately and hope that the saint will be accommodating. ”

She met Xue Zhao in Lu Li's study before her death, but seeing the white walls on both sides, hanging a lot of Lu Li's handwriting, Eleven Niang couldn't help but feel sad in her heart, tears quickly blurred her vision, and it was difficult for her to see those clear words.

"Auntie's Day mourning." Xue Zhao's depressed persuasion, but his eyes were also full of tears.

Eleven Niang tried to suppress her sadness, and it took a long time before she could ask: "What did you Aya say to you before she died?" ”

"Aya left a few boxes of calligraphy and paintings, and specially told Zhao to be sure to submit them to his aunt, these paintings and calligraphy are all Aya spent ten years of wasted time, writing and painting, but Aya collected it very carefully, and Zhao did not see the content." Immediately afterwards, Xue Zhao presented a brocade box: "Among them, there is a letter written by Aya to Auntie. ”

Eleven Niang was not in a hurry to dismantle it, because she was really worried that in front of Xue Zhao, she couldn't help her grief again.

"Auntie, as early as more than a year ago, Aya asked the Holy Lord for this mansion, and she had already told Zhao's true background, and Zhao didn't know until then...... It turned out that Zhao was not from Aya himself. The young man who has become an adult and married his wife, knowing that the man who bears the blood feud on his shoulders, can't help choking up and crying at this time: "Aya told Zhao that when the grievances of his father and ancestors can be redressed, Zhao should recognize his ancestors and return to his ancestors, and establish the world after the surname Pei, and should learn knowledge and knowledge since childhood, assist the saint to return the world to the world, and live up to the hopes of his father and ancestors." ”

"It's a responsibility on your shoulders." Eleven Niang sighed: "But Zhao'er, you have to remember that although you are not Brother Lu's own son, he treats you better than your own person, even if you recognize your ancestors and return to your ancestors in the future, don't forget that Brother Lu is also your parent, to him, you should always be a filial son." ”

Since Banniang passed away, Lu Li never married, she initially thought that the reason why Lu Li was single was because he had to avenge the secret of the Pei Zheng clan, and because he felt guilty about Banniang's death.

But since hearing the drunken words, Eleven Niang knew the real reason why Lu Li did this, because of her stubbornness, he had to bear his affection, but he no longer refused to marry someone else against his will, he insisted on hopeless love in this way, in his life, all his hard work, are paying for her wishes, he regards his brother's blood as a parent, and would rather bear the infamy of spoiling his concubine and killing his wife, he has no way to tell, and he never cares about loneliness under his knees, she owes him too much.

"Zhao doesn't dare to live up to Aya's kindness." Xue Zhao said resolutely: "Zhao has decided, no matter what happens in the future, Zhaozhi's eldest son should be surnamed Xue and Bai Aye as his grandfather." ”

Lu Li doesn't care if there are children and grandchildren to continue the incense, but Eleven Niang thinks that she will not let Lu Li have no successor no matter what, this can't be called compensation, let alone repayment, this is what she should do.

"It is so."

At midnight, Eleven Niang returned to Penglai Palace, of course He Ye accompanied him, but he knew Eleven Niang's mood at this time, he didn't want him to soothe and release, he also understood that Eleven Niang needed time to be alone at this time, so he didn't leave an inch, went to the study, and had no intention of doing any more work for a while, and sat alone.

Eleven Niang didn't open the letter Lu Li left for her until this time.

—— City Insider: Seeing the words is like the face.

Just look at the beginning of the line, and the tears will soak the ink.

"City Guest" is the trumpet that Wu Dan prepared for himself when he was a teenager, but this number didn't even know about Eleven Lang, Banniang, etc., she only told Lu Li.

At that time, she was infatuated with the idle demeanor of Wei Jinshi people, and longed to hide in the valley of the world, but she also knew that such an expectation could never be realized, and wanted to hide in the city.

She herself almost forgot, it turned out that Lu Li had always remembered that this last letter of pen and ink, he should not be willing to be called "queen" or even "eleventh sister", but it needs to be seen in pen and ink, in order to be cautious, naturally he will not use the "fifth sister" to be commensurate, so he uses the old name, a title that only the two of them know.

After all, he doesn't want to be estranged, but he is careful to still bear his affection, she has always treated him as a close friend, and he has always treated him as a close friend, even if it is time to say goodbye, he does not want to add a little shame to her, Lu Li, you are affectionate, how can I be embarrassed?