After the whole book was sent out very abruptly, I read every comment, most of them scolded me, here, I apologize to everyone first, and talk to you about the reason by the way.

It may be a bit long, please be patient and read it through.

To be honest, after this book is finished, it feels completely different from the previous book, the last book is the kind of daughter who has been raised for many years and gets married, and the full heart suddenly becomes empty, and I don't know how to get good for a while.

It's the feeling of the finished book.

And this book, without that feeling, is a kind of trepidation and uneasiness, and a hint of relief.

Because the book is not finished, it is only halfway written, and if I were asked to write it, I could have written it, but I .....

In short, I would like to thank you all for your support and love in the past few months, and thank you to those friends who are willing to spend money to read my book.

In fact, I have long been disappointed, since the day I went to work, I have already lived up to everyone's love.

I remember that at the beginning of the North Korean plot, there was a book review that said that the more I wrote, the more I wrote, the more I wrote, the more I wrote.

I've said many times that I'm a very slow codeword, and I used to code words at home full-time, and after I finished a chapter, I would read it myself once or even several times, and I would write down the next chapter when I thought it was okay.

But since I went to work, I went to work at half past eight every day, got off work at seven or eight o'clock in the evening, and sometimes got off work until nine o'clock, or even ten o'clock, and then went to code words after I came back, I had the feeling of writing homework as a primary school student.

What does it feel like for elementary school students to write their homework, rush to work, and finish their tasks?

At the end of the day's work, I went to the code word, I couldn't find that state, what I was thinking about was to finish writing, hurry up and write tomorrow's update, hurry up and finish writing, so as not to delay the next day's work.

I fished once or twice at work, three or four times, and the boss couldn't find out, but I could write a novel, and as long as I fooled a little, the reader would feel it.

So it became what everyone saw during that time, the quality of the whole book fell off a cliff, one by one, and sometimes even I didn't know what I was writing.

All I know is that I'm cheating people out of their money in a way that is passive.

Poor writing, bad writing, it's a matter of ability, and I have a problem of attitude.

I thought about adjusting my mentality, but I found that I couldn't adjust it, leaving work at the company, coming home at 8 o'clock, 9 o'clock in the evening, and sometimes even sometimes 10 o'clock, 11 o'clock.

I turned on the computer, and then went to the code word, time is urging me, the next day to go to work this sentence, like a knife hanging in the air, I can't wait to calm down, I want to hurry to the code, as much as possible to fool.

When I'm done, I have to go to bed quickly, or I'll miss going to work.

Do you think I feel guilty? Yes, but there is, I didn't dare to read everyone's comments during that time, and I was embarrassed to speak in the group.

I talked to my friend the other day, and we talked until four or five o'clock in the morning that night, and by the way, she was reading my book.

I talked to her about my resignation, I wanted to be a eunuch, and I wanted to do something, and then I told her, I'll find an opportunity to finish the book.

Find a node to finish the book, at least better than the eunuch.

Some people may have to ask, why don't I quit my job and concentrate on writing a book, I really thought about it, but resignation can't be now.

So why should I find a class?

I know that I can't concentrate on writing books after work, but I still have to go to work, is it a brain disease? Actually, no, it's because of my family, I live at home, and that day my mother suddenly told me that I was at home like this every day, so she couldn't hold her head up.

Other people's children all have classes, jobs, and girlfriends, and I am the only one who squats at home, she said, now I am famous in this area, and those old ladies and long-tongued women know me.

They always use me as a negative teaching material to educate their children.

For example, ah, do you see, everyone in that family just doesn't study hard, and as a result, they can't find a job, so they can only squat at home, and they can't even find a daughter-in-law.

Knowing this, my feelings.... Well, I can't say that.

My mother urged me to find a class, I was reluctant at first, I told her, I squatted at home, but it doesn't mean that I don't have income, gnaw the old, the next time you hear those long-tongued women talk about me, you will say this to them.

My mother said that people don't care about you, they only want to say what they want to say.

Yes, human eyes are very subjective things, and they only want to believe the so-called truth they see.

Especially middle-aged women, old ladies and other species, they can chew their tongues.

People are always influenced by external factors, my mother is like this, and I am like this, so I started to go to work, so that those old ladies and middle-aged women can stop a little and stop using me as a negative teaching material.

And then it became what everyone saw.

I'm fooling, I'm cheating everyone out of money, I'm failing everyone.

Let's talk about the deformity of this book, what I wanted to write at the beginning was a kind of daily historical text, and the heroine was just a background board, and there wouldn't be too many scenes.

Later, I gave my hair to the editor, who said to write about ancient dog food, and by the way, he helped me give it the name "My Lady Meng Mengda".

At that time, I already had tens of thousands of words in the manuscript of the book, and I didn't delete it, so I just sent the book and started writing.

But on the way to write, I found that I couldn't write, because of the heroine's personality problems, her character can't hold too many scenes, and she can't even write about the interaction between the appearance and the protagonist.

Because she is too well-behaved, she will do whatever the protagonist says, okay, that kind of unconditional obedience, she is different from Xiaoqi, Xiaoqi will scare people anyway, and have her own ideas, she won't, she doesn't, she will only be an echo worm, like an obedient puppet.

Such a heroine can't extend down at all, and her character can't be a heroine of dog food at all.

The more I wrote, the more I felt that I couldn't write, so I had to make a big change, how to change, set tasks for the protagonist, set changes, set up to climb up, and set a series of goals and pursuits.

But he deviated from his original intention, as everyone said, he didn't have the right book for this book, and he was a telecom fraud.

I know these situations, but I can only reduce the appearance of the heroine in this way, and then the whole book is like completing one goal after another, and the protagonist is completing one task after another.

He's no longer a fictional character, he's become a puppet in my pen, moving forward exactly according to the storyline.

The characters drive the plot, and the plot drives the characters, and the two complement each other, but my novels, my characters, he has become a species that jumps on one leg.

I don't want to do that, but with the development of the plot and the extension of the plot, this book is like the end of a dynasty, which has accumulated too much to change by man.

Even I, the author, can't do anything, so I can only continue to write, to extend, and intersperse such and such storylines, to try to make this goal-accomplishing template less conspicuous, and to hide all of this.

But with the promotion of the story, with the deepening of this model, one day it will not be able to hide, and when that day comes, everyone will suddenly sigh that this author is writing something very hanging, he is writing puppet shows.

Having said so much, these are just the reasons and reasons for my failure, my problem, my ability, my attitude, not everyone's problem, and it can't solve the crazy mentality that everyone reads and sees the sudden end in the middle of the book.

Again, let me write down, I can continue to write, but I don't want to do this, I don't want to cheat everyone out of money with this attitude of slacking off and completing tasks.

When I say this, people may laugh and think that I have flaunted myself too much, and that all this is just a matter of data and income.

But it's really not a matter of income, the last book only had two or three hundred subscriptions, one or two thousand a month income, and the last book I only had five or six hundred subscriptions, and only two or three thousand a month income, these two books, I have written each one steadily.

But the average order of this book is five or six times that of the previous book, and the difference of 300 orders is a fine product.

The monthly manuscript fee is more than 10,000 yuan, why don't I write it down, even if I am passive and slacking off, there will always be seven or eight thousand a month.

I could fool around a million words for months, but is that really good?

This is irresponsible to the reader, and it is also irresponsible to the book.

I don't want to be fooled like this, everyone spends money to read my book, it is an affirmation of me, it is a love for me, I should show the best attitude to write every chapter as best I can, at least I am satisfied with it, even if you are not satisfied, but this is the limitation of my ability.

And now, it's not a matter of my ability, it's a matter of attitude.

The question of ability can be forgiven, it can be slowly improved, but the attitude, it is unforgivable and irrefutable.

It will make me feel guilty, make me feel sorry for everyone, and make me feel like I am on pins and needles.

So I'm done, I'm relieved.

Let's talk about the next book.,This book has made all kinds of problems.,I'll carefully polish the character design in the next book.,I'm at work during this time.,I'll think about a story synopsis first.,Take your time.,Polishing the character design well.,Don't make the problem of the heroine of this book.,And then I can save some manuscripts.。

Open the book, wait for the day I resign, I should still concentrate on writing a book, even if I earn less, but I think I should go all out to do one thing well, instead of doing two things.

I'm going to move out of the house, so that my mom doesn't say that I'd have to work for three months if I go to work, and now I've been working for about a month, and I still have two months, and when it's time for the summer vacation, I'm trying to quit my job and start the book.

As for what to write next, I haven't figured it out yet.

Anyway, take your time.

I chatted so much with you unconsciously, the preface does not match the afterword, there is no coherence, everyone may be tired to watch, but thank you for the friends who are willing to see here.

Finally, I apologize to everyone, if you are still willing to read my book, I will notify you on the day of the book.