Pushing open the door, a strong wind blew in front of him, and the man had to tighten his collar. After looking back to make sure that no one had noticed him, he gently closed the door to the rooftop.

He walked to the small dining table where he usually eats alone, saying that it was a dining table, but in fact, it was just four beer crates that he went to the convenience store downstairs to beg the proprietress for when he first joined the company more than ten years ago, taking advantage of the company's lunch break. Fill the inside of the beer crate with bricks, stack them on top of each other, cover them with a wooden board, spread a tablecloth, and a simple dining table is formed.

Looking at the small dining table in front of him that had accompanied him for more than ten years, Xiao Suo was slightly stunned. I think back to how high-spirited I was when I first joined the company! How... I don't know how thick the sky is.

Blowing the cowhide on the ground during the lunch break here later became a topic of conversation for colleagues to ridicule him after dinner. He slowly became withdrawn, and every day he went here alone after work to smoke a cigarette was the only chance he could breathe a sigh of relief, but he had to get up and rush home because of his wife's urging on the phone.

"Grandson! Your yellow-faced woman is calling again! ”

"Huh! Even the ringtone of my phone is scolding me." Xiao Suo laughed at himself. The phone in the suit pants rang again, and when I picked up the phone, my wife was asking why she didn't go to her son's parent-teacher conference, why the washing machine he asked someone to repair hadn't been repaired, and why the air conditioner at home had been turned on all the time, and whether he didn't plan to live a good life!

That's right, Xiao Suo doesn't plan to live anymore! Or rather, he wasn't going to live anymore ...

He finally made himself the most disgusted person in the movie, just like the passerby A in the movie. The pressures of life had overwhelmed him, and he felt as if his life had come to an end since the day he was born.

But why... Why does the miserable person have to be me? Why is it a luxury to simply want to sit here in your spare time, sitting in this short space that belongs to him and smoking a cigarette quietly?

Xiao Suo looked at the roof of the building opposite, where a group of young people were gathering. The sound of champagne, pools, and music seemed to knock the whole sky upside down, as if that was what a man of their age should do. That's nice! Xiao Suo thought so.

Then he got up, straightened his collar, pulled out the cigarette in his pocket, and walked to the edge of the rooftop. Looking at the busy traffic downstairs, Xiao Suo suddenly found that the Zebra County under his feet was no longer the dilapidated small county town he had been, and the difficulty of building his hometown better and being ridiculed by his colleagues turned out to be secretly completed in his sinking.

lit the last cigarette, probably because of the distraction, Xiao Suo was actually choked. He was stunned, as if he remembered the last time he was choked on a cigarette was when he was only 18 years old. It was the first time he learned to smoke, and in that scrap steel factory, a teenager in a school uniform, with a hint of childishness and trepidation in his eyes, excitedly lit a low-quality cigarette. The boy didn't grasp the gist at all, and he sucked in sharply, choking on him without accident.

"Hmmm! It's choking, but it's fragrant. Xiao Suo smiled, with a cigarette in his mouth, as if he was still making a final choice.

The smoke burned out unconsciously, and the accumulated soot could no longer fall on his shoes. Xiao Suo threw away the cigarette butt and looked at the broken stone plank road of the company downstairs, which is called the "Youth Corridor".

He can often see passers-by feeding stray cats there after work. "Will I hit a passing kitten if I jump?" Xiao Suo suddenly said to himself, "Damn, I'm going to die and still be so kind." ”

Life will always get better! Life won't be so unlucky all the time! Life... Isn't that how it is? Ideals are born in the ordinary, and expectations are killed in reality. But why...... Or am I still unwilling?

"Uncle! Jump if you want! I'm still waiting to shoot the material and get ready to explode! A young man on the other side, holding the girl's waist with one hand and a mobile phone in the other, yelled at him, and then burst into laughter.

The laughter was familiar, he had been living in such ridicule all along, harsh and chilling.

Maybe death is also a relief! The hard-earned defense line in his heart was once again easily defeated, and Xiao Suo had completely fallen into the abyss.

He smiled faintly at the other side, raised his middle finger, and then closed his eyes and jumped down.

"Good night, Xiao Suo. Good night, this beautiful world that I can't love. This smoke is so choking! ”

Finally freed, but why... Why don't I feel pain? Jumping off the building doesn't hurt at all, no wonder those people like bungee jumping, which should be more exciting than bungee jumping. So be it, it's all over.

……

What's going on? Why am I in bed? Isn't it, jumping off the eighteenth floor can save life, and the level of hospitals in Zebra County is already so high?

Xiao Suo opened his eyes and found that he was not dead. Hurriedly struggled to get up, and found that his body was safe and sound, without a trace of injury at all. Punch yourself, it hurts! Not a dream!

"Still sleeping! I'm going to take the college entrance examination and sleep all day! How do you sleep at this age! A familiar and unfamiliar voice sounded outside the door. Xiao Suo froze in place, and his palms began to sweat.

"Hear me! The college entrance examination is going to be in three months, and if you don't work hard now and wait for the results to come out, you won't be able to sleep even if I let you sleep! If you want to be able to sleep well every day in the future, start working hard now!"

A middle-aged woman with wavy hair and heavy makeup opened the door and walked in while chattering. was about to continue to wake up his son, but he was stunned.

In front of him, his son, who was already a head taller than him, was looking at him with red eyes. The woman panicked and didn't know what to do. The two hands that were originally crossed on the ground didn't know where to put for a while, so they hurriedly stepped forward and hugged Xiao Suo: "What's the matter, son!" Mom shouldn't yell at you like that! Isn't it too much pressure lately? It's okay, let's combine work and rest, rest today, and mom will go out for a walk with you. ”

"Mom, you're so beautiful today!" Seeing his mother, who had died in his previous life, standing in front of him, Xiao Suo held back his tears, and hugged his mother tightly with his backhand, he was afraid that this was a dream, another joke played by fate on him. At the moment, he only hoped that this moment could stay a little longer, even for a second!

"Ouch! It hurts me, stinky boy, why haven't I seen your mouth so sweet before! It's okay, get out of here and go to school! Come back in the evening, mom will make dumplings for you to eat. Xiao Fengxia patted her son's back and scolded with a smile.

Xiao Suo has realized at this moment that he is like the protagonist of those bloody online texts in his previous life, and he has crossed over! He calmed down, answered with a smile, and then went out with his school bag.

Walking out of the house and looking up at the same dilapidated residential building in front of him as twenty years ago, Xiao Suo gave himself another punch.

Damn, it really hurts, it's not a dream, I really crossed over! But...... What about Goldfinger? Where's my goldfinger?! Isn't it true that after each protagonist crosses over, he brings a cool golden finger like an invincible super T-Rex in the universe? Why don't you have anything?

After ten minutes of constantly chanting incantations to the air, knotting ninjutsu handprints, and outputting turtle school qigong to the sky, which was actually nothing, Xiao Suo finally couldn't bear the disdainful eyes of the tattered uncle at the gate of the community, and walked away.

The bus to the school was number 318, and Xiao Suo remembered it very clearly. Because at that time, the teacher always told the classmates: "Xiao Suo is still very enviable." Because after graduation, he can take bus No. 318 directly to his mother's hair salon to help his mother collect money, and he doesn't need to think about the tuition and travel expenses of going to college in the future. Because Xiao Suo couldn't be admitted to college at all! ”

Each such insulting ridicule is often followed by laughter from the whole class. At first, Xiao Suo also resisted, arguing and fighting with the teachers and classmates who laughed at him. But when he found out that this kind of incident ended with his mother bowing and apologizing every time he came to school, Xiao Suo gave up.

He couldn't stand his mother's sneering and ridicule, and he couldn't stand others saying that his mother was a widow, so he chose to give in, maybe then those people would let him go. He fantasized that he had to succeed, that he had to make his mother look up and be a man, that those who had sneered at him had to line up to apologize to his mother, and that he had to let the scum who had abandoned their mother and son get the end they deserved.

But what about reality? The reality is that he slowly turned patience into a habit, he kept comforting himself that life would be fine, and constantly forced himself to believe that as long as he was willing to work hard, there would always be sunshine in life, and he kept and on.... Until he died.

The noise around him interrupted Xiao Suo's memories, and the classmates were all talking and laughing and getting off the bus. Xiao Suo realized that that his previous life was like hell for him.

"Anyway, I have a chance to live again. Even if it's a dream, I'm going to give it a good time! After trimming his collar and no longer having the inferior tie from his previous life on his neck, Xiao Suo smiled and strode into the school with his head held high. The morning sun was like a warm satin, gently draped over Xiao Suo's shoulders. And this young man, at this moment, has re-embedded the bravery and self-confidence that he had lost or never had in his previous life.