"Seriously, I think I'm a happy person," Xiao was happy and smiling, "I was born a pervert, my only hobby is to kill, the position of a temporary worker gives me the opportunity and rationality to kill, I can do whatever I want, how free and happy is this?" ”

"If it weren't for what I was carrying, I wouldn't have had to do this kind of superfluous thing, I've said it before, I never felt that I was abnormal," Xiao Zizi shook his head and restrained his smile, "But if I think about it carefully, if I hadn't carried these burdens and had not had this precious experience of Buddhist practice, I am afraid that I would have sunk into this impulse to kill people a long time ago, just like an addict who would pursue stronger stimulation." ”

"So my current state must be the best state I can do on the road of my destiny, and the rest is life, but if there is no life, how can I still be there?" Xiao Zizai paused and looked at Li Chengzhen, "This is the so-called fate, my master once told me that fate is far from being as mysterious as people in the world imagine, its occurrence is natural, it is silent, and it is inevitable on the road of development." ”

"Destiny ......"

"That's right," Xiao Zizi nodded, "All destiny must come from human nature, the so-called country is easy to change, nature is difficult to change, what kind of person he is will definitely lead him to what kind of path, this is the inevitable in the seemingly accidental, most of those face-to-face hands are like this." ”

"But people's fate can be changed, provided that someone is willing to help you, in the words of Buddhism, someone is willing to cross you, originally a cruel person by my nature, will definitely go to the abyss, but my master crossed me, gave me a new chance, a chance to go further, I have the road, have happiness, have life, such me, can not be said to be unlucky!"

Xiao Zizi said very calmly, but Li Chengzhen listened, but he was a little embarrassed.

What he said was simple, how much willpower does it take to restrain one's own evil nature, to seek universal values, and to embark on the ascetic path of restraining one's desires? Lee Seung-jin couldn't imagine it.

The desire he restrained is not those who want in normal life, the desire he restrains comes from necessity, and only this can be called nature, people want to eat when they are hungry, and drink water when they are thirsty, Xiao Zizi is equivalent to a person who is hungry, after years of such practice, the suffering can be imagined.

Only those who have experienced hunger can know how painful the feeling of hunger is, and how strong the test of will is.

Feel at ease! Where's the comfort?

……

“…… Brother Xiao," Li Chengzhen sighed, "I understand your thoughts, in order to change your fate, this disease, I want to cure it radically, but I have never been optimistic about whether people's root nature can be changed, and outsiders can't help with this matter, and the real decisive battle is still in my heart." All Bodhisattvas ascend to the ground, reach the truth, cut off self-attachment, and endure the hardships of life and death, I wish Brother Xiao you, as soon as possible. ”

Li Chengzhen looked at Xiao Zizai sincerely, he hoped that Xiao Zizai could succeed, a person like him who is a great good person is rare, and there are even fewer people who can still adhere to great goodness in the midst of great evil.

Xiao Zizi was silent for a long time.

"Little Brother Li, have you read the Heart Sutra?" Xiao Zizi suddenly asked a question about the donkey's lips and the horse's mouth.

"Yes, the Prajnaparamita Heart Sutra, after all, is such a famous book, I naturally have studied it." Li Chengzhen nodded, a little puzzled, I don't know what Xiao Zizai meant when he mentioned the Heart Sutra?

"Since you have read the Heart Sutra, you naturally know that the Heart Sutra begins by saying that when the Bodhisattva is in the Bodhisattva, he walks in the depths of Prajnaparamita. Seeing that the five aggregates are empty, and all suffering is overcome," Xiao Zizi thought for a while and continued, "It is probably to say, observing the inside, seeing the bodhisattva, practicing deeply, and spending all the suffering, you need the five aggregates to be empty, form, lust, thoughts, behaviors, and hearts, the most important thing in Buddhist practice is Wukong, emptiness is freedom, but it is impossible for people to reach the state of emptiness for a long time, emptiness is the supreme that seems to have nowhere to be real, and when it is reached, it is the way of harmony, that is, the saint, the Buddha, and the immortal." ”

"That is to say, as long as you are still a human being, it is impossible to have real freedom, I said, only those who are bound are called people, since this bondage can be imposed on us by the outside world, why can't we put it on ourselves, so I put it on myself, and put myself back into the category of people, so I can think that I am happy, I am free, and I have the right to bind myself."

"Feel at ease! Maybe one day, I will also have the opportunity to become a Buddha and experience the true freedom of color, heart and wisdom, but who dares to say that I am not at ease now? ”

Xiao Zizi's face flashed with a look of intoxication, with a happy glow.

In fact, there is a contradiction in his words, but he is a contradictory person, after all, how can great good and great evil exist in a person at the same time? This in itself is also contradictory.

"In this way, I am obsessed," Li Chengzhen smiled and shook his head.

Hahaha," Xiao Zizi shook his head, "It's just some idiotic words of a perverted person like me, bothering Brother Li to listen to it, you don't have to take it to heart, it's okay to forget it after hearing it." ”

"Brother Xiao, what you said, if you have anything else to say in the future, you can contact me at any time, I would be happy to listen," Li Chengzhen smiled, "I am a play, playing a god with a face, if I don't see all living beings, my god, even if I have more faith, it is also a silver-like wax gun head, tangible and godless, bullshit kung fu!" ”

"Little Brother Li is a wonderful person," Xiao Zizi smiled, "Leave a contact information, if you have any trouble in the future, you can also tell me, just make me a friend of yours, I rarely make friends with people, after all, most people are like food in my eyes." ”

What loaf of bread?

Li Chengzhen always felt that this description was weird, but it was inexplicably normal when it was placed on Brother Xiao, after all, the image of a lonely gourmand like Brother Xiao is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.

……

Li Chengzhen nodded and exchanged contact information with Xiao Zizai.

"It's late, let's go back." Xiao Zizi greeted Li Chengzhen.

Li Chengzhen nodded, and the two went down the mountain together, returned to the city, and parted ways.

The matter here finally came to an end, Li Chengzhen breathed a sigh of relief, got on the high-speed rail, and returned to the capital.

That's when he received a call he didn't expect.

(End of chapter)