Reminiscences

Thinking about life is like a dream, a dream is like a butterfly, and a butterfly is like Zhuang Zhou. The past is fluttering, hanging branches and leaves, and changing into autumn. The cold wind and rain are difficult to control, and the frost and snow are white. Gradually, the earth is unified, yin and yang are reversed, and the years are collected.

Youyou, half a life, sighing that Wu Wei Anbang, Wen rebelled and cleared the stream. Always put ordinary things into Liu Bang's opening of the Han Dynasty, and Cao Wei planned. Plant flowers and trees to stay in the moon, and climb willows to be golden hooks. If someone comes, leave him in the jade building every day.

This "Reminiscence Tour" was originally written by Li Youlan, but for some reason it hung in Chu Yuxing's study. At this moment, he was so immersed in the beauty of poetry that he completely forgot what he was kneeling behind him

Chu Zihang.

"Such a good writing is actually from the hand of an alcoholic"? He slowly turned around, helped Chu Zihang up, and let him stand next to him, as if he didn't mean to blame him at all, and he didn't say a word about Sang Gan's defeat.

But he didn't know that the more he understated, the more terrible Chu Zihang felt, the so-called companion is like a companion tiger, and now he knows. His knees went limp, and he knelt down again.

Seeing his appearance, Chu Yuxing couldn't help frowning, asked the deacon and eunuch to move a chair, helped him up again, asked him to sit down, and sat down behind the bookcase himself, and continued the topic.

"It is said that this is still his work when he was proud", he said, and looked at the poem again: "You see what he wrote" Always put ordinary things to do Liu Bang to open the Han Dynasty, Cao Wei plan", these sentences obviously mean that I regard the things of living at home as Liu Bang fighting the world and Emperor Wu of Wei Pingheshuo to do such things. The feelings of nostalgia are on the paper. The last sentence is even more desolate, as if to say, "But whenever a man comes with me, I get drunk with him every day, that is to say, I don't even have a friend now,—is it not written in a strange loneliness"?

Chu Zihang sat on the chair, his soul had already flown out of the clouds, trembling, where could he still listen to what he said? It's just a vigorous nod of yes, and there is no calmness.

Chu Yuxing didn't seem to notice his crampedness, and still said to himself: "This is talented, it's a pity", he suddenly changed his words and said to Chu Zihang: "What does the emperor think, how is this drunkard's poetry?"

Chu Zihang didn't watch out for his sudden question, he couldn't help but be shocked in his heart, and his speech actually stumbled: "The minister, the minister thinks, the minister thinks that although he is greedy for wine, he is only a fine line, if the general direction is acceptable, he can be a capable and wise man."

"Well said, well said"! Chu Yuxing clapped his hands and laughed, and then stood up: "Brother Huang's discussion is really very exciting. Qi Huan Gong is greedy for wine and lustful, and he is still the head of the five tyrants, and his great achievements have been unmatched so far. Li Taibai has hundreds of poems about wine, drunk and drunk books, he is the first poet in the world, and no one has surpassed him so far.

Chu Zihang hurriedly nodded yes, not daring to say more. The two of them talked about poetry for a while, and Chu Yuxing stood up and said to him: "It's boring to sit and talk in vain, you and I might as well go outside for a walk, what do you think?" Without waiting for him to answer, he commanded outside: "Come, go to the Imperial Garden." Then he picked up Chu Zihang, held hands with him, and walked out.

"The grass is glorious and the grass is withered, the flowers fall and bloom, when the big Sima Huan Wen went to the north, passed the golden city, and held the willows planted by Langya in the past, he couldn't help but burst into tears, and said the sad words "The tree is still like this, how can people be worthy"? I want everyone to be like this, look at the things in front of you, look at the past, and can't be without sadness." Chu Yuxing couldn't help but think of this story while looking at the weeping willows on both sides as he walked.

"The ancients compared life to a white horse passing through a gap, and the clouds rolling up. In an instant, it is easy to lose, and the so-called can't stay, can't go back, can't change, there are these three difficulties. Zhuangzi Qi Peng's death, a death and life, is nothing more than knowing that life is incomprehensible, death is irreversible, and there is no trace to follow in the meantime, so it has to be placed in the same position and classified as nothing."

Chu Yuxing nodded yes, and then said no more. Now that the two of them have their own thoughts, they feel that the road is long, and they sit in the sedan chair for a long time to the imperial garden.

"Do you remember my brother"? Chu Yuxing walked to the side of a rockery, pointed to a stone cave, and said with a smile: "When I was young, you and I were tired of playing, and we often came here to enjoy the shade, and when we were bored, you often told me some rumors and interesting stories in the market, and sometimes I secretly brought in some things for me to eat, once or twice, and I fell asleep here."

Chu Zihang was very emotional when he saw his recollection, and the nervousness in his heart was a little lighter, so he echoed: "It's also here, the emperor also rewarded me with a little palace maid!"

Recalling the previous situation, Chu Yuxing couldn't help laughing: "It's a pity that you didn't use it at the time, and after a long time, you couldn't find the way, but you made the palace maid anxious, and said loudly, "You can't do it, if you don't hurry up, I have to go back, I still have something to do over there!" And you didn't make it in the end." After speaking, he laughed again, and the entourage also laughed, and Chu Zihang naturally laughed twice.

The two of them bypassed the Lotus Pavilion, walked through the corridor, and came to the Shiyu Pavilion, where they often played chess.

"Brother Huang's chess skills are superb, today, no one can match, I have the honor to play against you often, it can be said that it is a blessing!" He laughed again, and Chu Zihang had to laugh.

"How about you and I play another game today"?

"But by His Majesty's command"!

Someone has already put on the chessboard and taken the black and white pieces.

"Please also ask Your Majesty's men to be merciful"! Chu Zihang made a pun, but Chu Yuxing was silent as if he hadn't heard it.

The two of you come and go, and after a game, it's noon. He looked at the sun, ordered Hong Zexuan to drive, and had dinner with Chu Zihang in the Xuan, and after the meal, he rested here. When I got up in the afternoon, I still went with him to the racecourse, the library pavilion, the duty room and other places. These places are either places that the two of them often visit, or places that they have visited occasionally, but have left unforgettable things.

Chu Yuxing was very interested, and did not return to the palace with him until it was dark.

"Today you and I live together, sleeping together like when we were young, what does the royal brother think"?

Chu Zihang was worried about this day, and he couldn't guess what he wanted, but at this time he finally couldn't bear it, and knelt on the ground with a "poof", and said with tears in his eyes: "Weichen has the grace of God, and it is difficult to redeem death, I hope that Your Majesty will look at the past feelings, and for the sake of the minister's father, forgive the minister's capital crime, the minister's life should be the title ring, and the death should be the grass, and I am very grateful"!

A nameless anger was burning in Chu Yuxing's heart. The expression on his face had become distorted, as if he was suffering great pain, but he did not have a seizure, and after a moment of silence, he said to him in an extremely calm manner:

"Okay, you get up, such a good night, don't let it down, how about you and I have a drink"?

Chu Zihang had no choice but to get up by himself, force a smile, and drink with him. The two of them drank until midnight and then slept in the same bed. When he woke up the next day, Chu Yuxing still didn't go to court, and took him to Cining Palace to say goodbye to the Queen Mother.

"In the blink of an eye, you are so old", before she finished speaking, she had already burst into tears, Chu Zihang was her favorite child, even Chu Yuxing had to be listed in the second place, and I couldn't tell how sad I felt when I saw him come like this today.

Chu Zihang couldn't help but burst into tears, and his whimpering cry was about to rise.

"Don't leave the palace today, call your mother in, let's get together." She was talking to Chu Zihang, but her eyes were looking at Chu Yuxing.

"The emperor's family is difficult to complete the private affairs of his children", Chu Yuxing's face was solemn, his tone was low, but he said politely: "And my brother has just come back, his body is tired, and it is too much to accompany me for a day, how can he let him work again?" Wait for another day."

"What day is the other day"? The queen mother's expression was slightly stunned, and her tone was a little stiff: "The old man is nearly seventy years old, and I don't know how many tomorrows there will be." The emperor can't give up this moment to comfort the momentary joy of my dying man"?

Chu Yuxing saw that the queen mother was angry, and hurriedly knelt down: "The queen mother's longevity is boundless, and extraordinary people are comparable." There is a son in everything, but please rest assured and think about it."

The Empress Dowager looked at Chu Yuxing, then at Chu Zihang, sighed, tears rained down, waved her hand at him, and asked him to stand up.

"You go down first, let's talk to the two of us, and in an hour, you can come and pick him up."

Chu Yuxing had no choice but to retreat, leaving her henchman eunuch Mulan Zhou to serve on the side.

When Chu Zihang came out, his eyes were already swollen from crying. This time, he didn't go to see Chu Yuxing, for him, everything was over. -- He will never see the sun tomorrow again.