The young and beautiful Lu Shanshan felt a sense of loss every time she watched the hot water slide down her youthful and energetic skin. It was a feeling of watching youth slip away from his fingers, but he was helpless after all. Zheng Huang is a good person, gentle and kind. But every woman would rather be her father or her eldest brother than her husband. The T-bone bark is really not worthy of her creamy and smooth fragrance. But she had no choice, so she had to fall victim to the jealousy of their men, like a tender green branch that was cut from a big tree and casually inserted into a small and humble tree.

When she was also like the young woman in her neighborhood, she hugged and chased the heroic warrior of Su Island who was surrounded by cheers with her obsessive eyes, did she ever think that a few days later, when she pushed open the wooden door of the house to greet her second uncle, what kind of heartbeat would she have?

I believe that after Zheng Hyun was deeply shaken by her beauty, the first thing that came to his heart was not joy, not gratitude to God for giving his brother such happiness, but uneasiness. Anxiety in life often comes from disharmony. The difference between the sister-in-law's beauty and brilliance and the brother's wood and blunt is too big. If she is a woman who does not allow her brother to be harmed, the reason may not be so sufficient, right? If she is really a gentle woman, then how can her family feel her kindness like this? can only become more and more helpless. This family affair was originally a wrong thing. yes, who's to say it's not?

However, he can only believe that his brother has always been such a gentle and honest person. After the days passed by their lives, the sister-in-law could feel the goodness of her brother.

The days passed smoothly like this, and the family respected each other like guests and was warm and warm. The spring flowers are no longer gorgeous, the autumn leaves are beginning to drift, but Zheng Xuan's gradually calming heart began to faintly notice some abnormalities, which spread quietly in the occasional glance of the sister-in-law, and began to make him uneasy.

Therefore, he didn't dare to look at his sister-in-law again. But the sister-in-law looked at her and slowly stopped dodging, and even began to blur.

She carefully cooks meals every day and waits for Zheng Xuan to come back early to eat. On the table, it was very restrained at first, but then finally let go, from persuading wine to pouring it hand in hand.

When she saw that the snow was already falling outside the window, she thought of sewing a winter coat for Zheng Xuan. When her slender jade fingers fluttered on his tiger body, Zheng Xuan seemed to be unable to stop her blowing.

Late one night, in the middle of the moon, Lu Shanshan wrapped in a bath towel and secretly ran to Zheng Xuan's sleeping place, she glued her gaze to his strong and heroic tiger body in a daze, and felt the man's snort stupidly......

Zheng Xuan brushed his clothes and left!

The eyes have cooled a spring feeling.

As soon as the iron door is crossed, it is bound to make a woman in the prime of life lock her youth in the gloomy attic, day and night watching the noisy people outside the window, the cars coming and going, and letting it wither, extinguish, rot in moldy time year after year, what kind of tragedy is this?

The people of Koh Samui are simple and simple, and they pay the most attention to the rituals and religions, and Zheng Xuan of that era could not tolerate his brother's wife, who had been bullied and suffered, to like him. It doesn't matter what kind of woman it is. At the same time, for a man whose life is rooted in the rivers and lakes, the only way to solve this kind of problem is usually to draw a knife, although for others, drawing a knife is far from the best solution.

However, Lu Shanshan can't care so much, she just wants to find a heroic and dashing man to burn her past, dying, and dying youth. Since Zheng Xuan rejected her, let the others who are always patrolling under the small building come. It's just hateful that jackals often wear human skins. By the time she realized this, there was no turning back. So the distortion and deformation of a woman ran over all the way through time and space. She indulged in lust, she murdered her husband, and she couldn't take it back.

Similar to Xu Zhimo. This romantic and talented man in the early twentieth century, regardless of his relationship with Zhang Youyi, his friendship with his friend Wang Geng, his mentor Mr. Liang Rengong's earnest admonition, and the pain of both parents, will want to marry Lu Xiaoman. He himself thinks that he will not hesitate to break all the snares in pursuit of his ideal love, but regardless of whether it is the true love you want - when your actions inevitably hurt others, when you are going to hurt many innocent people, can you still draw a double-edged sword so without hesitation?

Heaven and earth are unkind, and all things are dogs. Zheng Huang is undoubtedly the most innocent and tragic character in this tragedy. But who told you to marry her in the first place? Do you really not understand that you can't get what you shouldn't get? There is no room for betrayal in this world. Betrayers must pay. Xu Zhimo is like this, Lu Shanshan, Ximen Qing is like this, and Zheng Huang is also like this.

Everything ends by the light of the sword.

The ordinary people around were all frightened and cramped by the two human heads dripping blood on the offering table. In Zheng Xuan's cold gaze, who can really understand the deep pain?

Even the police were impressed by his spirit. When the people on both sides of the long street stood solemnly to see him off, the autumn breeze seemed to be particularly sluggish......

Three

Zheng Xuan's life may belong to the rivers and lakes after all. The boldness and warmth of the big brothers he once befriended, such as the eight-faced god Jiqing and Huang Siniang, made Zheng Xuan sweep away the pain and laugh. When he raised his fist and shouted at his opponent's face, "Grandpa Zheng Xuan, one can do five", a sense of pride rose to the ground......

Whether he wishes to merge his life with the turmoil is unknown. However, Heaven once again gave him a truly carefree life, so that even if he dreamed of being a teenager, he might not be so calm and happy.

That was his original eldest brother who conspired with his opponents to kill him in order to get rid of him, and wanted to assign the most prosperous territory in Bangkok to him. He didn't know what the plan was, but he didn't accept it. After insisting to no avail, he agreed to just escrow. Later, I met a woman named Deng Lan, who was no less beautiful than her sister-in-law, although she was not as charming, but Wen Shu had it. I don't understand why Zheng Xuan rejected such a woman. Perhaps it was the first encounter with a beautiful woman in his life that hurt him so badly that he was afraid.

Deng Lan is careful and thoughtful, but also very measured to take care of Zheng Xuan's daily life. Again and again, she lifted her clear eyes from the top of the paddle washer, staring at her brother who was practicing guns and sticks in the courtyard. He was so brave and handsome, and it made her proud. Zheng Xuan's food and clothing are taken care of by such a good sister, so naturally there is no need to worry. On weekdays, I also eat and drink in the market and go to the mountains. The days are as light as water, but they are as sweet as water. The sweet flowing water was like the jade hand of an immortal, soothing the scars in his heart. He began to change his mind about the world. Before, the only thing that supported his world was brotherhood. Now, he found that women, beautiful women, are actually not so scary, so femme fatale like sister-in-law. He began to leave the important place in his heart to Deng Lan, and she may be regarded as his last flesh and blood relative in this world. So, Zheng Xuan lay comfortably on the bed and said to Deng Lan, who was sorting out his clothes for him, "If anyone dares to bully you in the future, just tell your brother." He even gave her the key to his house. In fact, it is only his face that is cold, his heart is not only gentle, but even full of childishness.

The more she saw her brother being so good to her, the more Deng Lan became at a loss. Because she finally had to obey Boss Zhang's orders. No matter how kind and gentle she is, she doesn't have the courage to follow her brother, who is still very strange to her. Because after all, she is just a girl who grew up on the island, an ordinary girl with no experience and no world.

When Zheng Xuan was tied up, when he found out that it was his good sister who framed him, what was enough to show the anger and pain in his heart? He struggled, he roared, his angry gaze squeezing out of the cracks in the stick, trying to hold Dunlan's dodgy gaze. All the happiness and trust of the past have become a mockery, and no one can bear this contrast. A person who has nothing does not feel much pain, what is really painful is that what was once cherished is suddenly torn to pieces by the cherished person, and falls like snow in front of his eyes; And what is especially painful is that he Zheng Xuan finally woke up from the deep trauma of his life, thinking that God had given him such a beautiful happiness as compensation, but he didn't know that this malicious joke was so cruel. So he only howled, like a very wounded wolf howling in the wilderness.

Zheng Xuan was seriously injured and weak, killed the seven killers sent by the boss in one fell swoop, and returned to Koh Samui in the starry night, killing Boss Zhang's family and the opponent's whole family. When Deng Lan died, he tried his best to squeeze out a sentence "Brother, I'm ...... I'm sorry for you......" Zheng Xuan didn't look back, and sneered miserably, "Brother......" At the beginning of the lightning, Deng Lan's eyes were no longer angry, and he was filled with endless confusion.

The lightning rises again, Zheng Xuan's blood book: The murderer Zheng Xuanye. Covered in blood, with a shawl, cold eyes, and bloodshot knife light, he resembles the Asura in the "Eight Divisions of the Heavenly Dragon".

To be sure, not all of them deserved to be killed, but their presence had become a testimony to one of the most unbearable episodes of his life: a testimony to how the Divine had mocked him.

Zheng Xuan has fallen into such a field, and the only thing he is fortunate about is that he still has some real friends around him. Ji Qing and Huang Siniang were willing to risk their lives and spend their money to help him. Such true feelings in the world have painted his life with a rare bright color. Perhaps, he should really think about his own way of living. The two peaceful lives that used to end in tragedy, is it that ordinary days are inherently not suitable for him Zheng Xuan?

If the lives of Zheng Xuan, Ji Qing, and Huang Siniang are essentially rooted in the rivers and lakes, then can they get real stability in their lives by wandering through the treacherous and turbulent rivers and lakes? Since then, the wandering has been given metaphysical significance by Zheng Xuan's short gun and loose long hair. A lone wolf is a lone wolf, and walking in the world is a walk. Did he understand how similar the journey of his life in this half of his life was to the wolf howling that led the practice?

Wander the rivers and lakes and gather in Bangkok. When the guns rang out and fell again and again, they smeared the once wounded heart with blood; In the noise of "eating meat in large pieces and drinking wine in large bowls", I forget that my life is actually very lonely and miserable.

Since then, he has never been seen to laugh again. In fact, it is especially good not to laugh, and most of the laughter is a miserable sneer, with two rows of long hair scattered on both shoulders, and the cold gaze swept obliquely, it is really chilling.

Later, they joined the army, and at night, the soldiers who had fought for a day were all exhausted and staggered. Huang Siniang brought wine and meat, and watched her husband and Zheng Xuan's brothers eat with relish. Suddenly, Siye sounded the sound of Xiao Se's low flute. Everyone listened attentively. The three of them may only now deeply understand that in this world, everyone is actually so helpless. Many things are far from being solved with Ji Qing's generosity, Huang Siniang's wisdom, and his Zheng Xuan's short gun.

Zheng Xuan tried his best to capture a battalion commander on the other side, but lost half his life. Recuperating from his injuries in Chiang Mai, he said to Zheng Huang, who came to visit: "I have long had the idea of becoming a monk, but I was ruthless and unrighteous because I left my eldest brother halfway, and now that it is done, I can rest assured." ”

"No! …… Even if it's back, I'm going to carry you back! Zheng Huang burst into tears.

However, Zheng Xuan closed his eyes calmly and resolutely.

Only the mountains outside the window were left galloping like thousands of horses.

Many times, Zheng Xuan really felt that the sound of chanting and the smoke of incense and candles in circles could calm and soothe the injured soul in a real sense, and it was very good to purify and tranquillize the noisy soul in a real sense. The past is no longer there, Zheng Xuan can only look forward to the next life, praying for the Buddha to give him a good afterlife.

However, is there really an afterlife?