In the fall of that year, Lang received an invitation from the Department of Psychology at Eukendance University in Portland, asking Lang to return as a visiting professor for three months. Lang Zhisong has not returned to China for more than ten years, so he gladly accepted the invitation.

During the three months at Eurendax University in Portland, every day a group of studious young students came to Lang's residence to chat or discuss their psychological problems. Lang Zhisong also told them about the actual cases that Lang Zhisong had encountered and the scientific research results of foreign countries in psychoanalysis. These students are very smart, and often stand up to interrupt Lang Zhisong in the middle of his speech to come to their conclusions. Lang Zhisong praised their vast knowledge, but also made it clear that subjective assumptions were the enemy of psychoanalysis. "Never add your imagination to your analysis." Lang Zhisong emphasized.

"Teacher, can you give us a practical example – so that we don't have to 'imagine' the true meaning of what you just said?" The students demanded in a challenge.

Lang Zhisong was not mentally prepared for this request, pondered for a while, and suddenly heard a depressed man's voice in his ears: "...... What's the point of living like me...... What's the point! "It's him, how do you think of him! Lang Zhisong shook his head, trying to shake off the wry smile that floated to the corner of his mouth. The students all looked at Lang Zhisong curiously, and couldn't think of any other examples for a while, so Lang Zhisong had to open the valve of memory and told them the following past events:

"What's the point of living like me!" This was said by a man named Jin Xingxin. He complained like this every time he called Lang Zhisong, so Lang Zhisong still remembers it vividly. Jin Xingxin was Lang's classmate at Eukdans University in Portland and later went to the United States. After he went abroad, he only had contact with Lang Zhisong, and many classmates only knew that he went abroad, but they didn't know how he mixed up later. People have the impression that Jin Xingxin has a huge head, likes to wear a black coat, has long and messy hair, and speaks loudly and accompanied by violent gestures when excited.

What impressed everyone the most was the philosophical debate that took place in the café before graduation and now seems meaningless. Jin Xingxin stood on the position of rebellion, and fought against the Confucians. Although Lang Zhisong knows nothing about philosophy, he has to admit that Jin Xingxin's views are clear and the evidence is abundant, and although the theoretical basis is doubtful, no one can refute it. In the dimly lit and noisy café, Jin Xingxin splattered saliva and gave a speech; One moment jumping from the ground to the stool, the next from the stool to the table...... The passion, the boiling blood, the fanatical ideals of the young man burst forth in this unassuming genius, making him as memorable as Lenin in 1918.

But what made Jin Xingxin really famous was not his heroic philosophical stance. Just like Lang Zhisong and a group of male students who lingered in the café back then, they didn't go to drink a cup of bitter and inferior coffee. There are some beautiful waitresses in the café, and one of them is named Xiaoxue who is especially beautiful. Jin Xingxin usually doesn't go out of places like cafes; Lang Zhisong even wondered if he had seen any girl. But that night, after he finished the battle triumphantly, his eyes swept over the audience, and suddenly he met a pair of innocent, adoring and loving black eyes in the audience, and his eyes could no longer be separated from her. What happened after that, just like in the movie, the heroine with a white hairband on her head came out of the corner where she was hiding, and the male protagonist jumped off the table, and the two came together, intentionally or unintentionally......

Lang Zhisong didn't know Xiaoxue. There are many rumors about her. Since she got along with Jin Xingxin, she has said everything. It's no wonder that a woman as charming as her, if she has a big money, I'm afraid there will be less gossip; It's Jin Xingxin, who has no wealth and no appearance, and everyone says that a flower is inserted into cow dung. Some people say that Xiaoxue and Jin Xingxin are procrastinating for a few friends' boring bets, but in the end it is just a joke - for this Jin Xingxin registered his marriage with Xiaoxue as soon as he graduated. After another few months, Jin Xingxin suddenly gave up the position he had won with great difficulty and went to the United States to study. Lang Zhisong had immigrated to the United States because of his father at that time, and was worried about the way out in the future, and when he heard the news that he was coming, he thought: It's over, this person is going to bury his bright future like Lang Zhisong! Lang Zhisong's girlfriend in Beijing at that time told Lang Zhisong that a certain head in Jin Xingxin Hospital had fallen in love with Xiaoxue, and there were many big money and embezzlers outside the hospital who had nowhere to spend their money, and it would be very difficult to live if they didn't run outside.

That's what happens when you marry a beautiful woman! Lang Zhisong's girlfriend at the time happened to be very beautiful, and Lang Zhisong heard about Jin Xingxin and decided to break up with her. By the way, she really married a lot of money later and lived a life of greasing and powdering.

After Jin Xingxin arrived in the United States, Lang Zhisong rarely contacted him and occasionally made phone calls. Later, I heard a rumor about Jin Xingxin, saying that he had social phobia, especially afraid of taking his wife out for socials; He always felt that others didn't look at his wife right, so he simply locked Xiaoxue at home all day.

A woman who is alive and kicking, where can he keep it? -- This is a false rumor. Lang Zhisong thought so, and later listened to Jin Xingxin confiding intermittently on the phone, only to know that his wife had not learned to drive in the United States for five years, and it was really difficult for him to step out of the house alone; So, Jin Xingxin goes to work in the laboratory every day, won't the lively Xiaoxue die of loneliness?

"No! She now has a godson to accompany her! Jin Xingxin said with a sneer.

Lang Zhisong didn't hear that they adopted a child! was puzzled, and he refused to say more, so Lang Zhisong was not good at getting to the bottom of it. Maybe it's Lang Zhisong's respect for Jin Xingxin's private life that enhances his trust in Lang Zhisong, or maybe Jin Xingxin has no other friends in the United States, in short, he has been calling more since then. However, Jin Xingxin always seems to want to say something on the phone that he wants to say but shouldn't say, and many times the words are cut off again when he reaches the key point, and he turns to talk about something irrelevant.

Lang Zhisong thought that he was not very happy in life, especially insecure in love.

After a long time, Lang Zhisong gradually guessed some outlines about the changes that occurred in Jin Xingxin's family, and vaguely knew that Jin Xingxin's family did have an extra "godson". Jin Xingxin has no feelings for this child, and whenever he mentions the little guy with a flat face, a flat nose, and rolling eyes, he always grits his teeth with hatred; It's Xiaoxue who loves him very much.

Lang Zhisong was studying a book on psychoanalysis at the time, so he made a speculation about Jin Xingxin by the way: the couple had a child in their family for some reason, and although the child was ugly, he was very loved by his wife, which caused her husband's jealousy. However, because the other party was just a child, the husband couldn't blatantly vent his jealousy, so he had to restrain and suppress these bad emotions from Lang Zhisong. Over time, psychological disorders arise.

Of course, Lang Zhisong's speculations were never told to Jin Xingxin. Lang Zhisong was reluctant to let him know that Lang Zhisong thought he was a mentally ill person.

Then one day, Jin Xingxin called, his voice trembling and painful, and he no longer hid his dislike for the child:

"Dude, I can't tolerate him anymore! This guy is raised by my wife every day, and he grows fatter than me...... If you see his ugly appearance with a flat face and a round belly, I can guarantee that you will not be able to stand it...... All in all, he eats and drinks all day long, and his momentum is strong, and he doesn't take me seriously! …… What? How did I have this experience? - Tell you that when he was thin and weak, we met face to face in the hallway, and he avoided me no matter what. And now, he is fat and pampered, and when he sees me, he no longer avoids me; On the contrary, sometimes I don't want to touch him and give way to him; After he passed with his head held high, he realized that he had the upper hand, which was really ......"

"Jin Xingxin, don't worry about this kind of thing...... In principle, you are still the head of the family, and your whole family still depends on you to earn money alone? Isn't your wife still in charge of you? That's it! He sees that your wife is afraid of you, and he is under your wife's control, so it is not all under your control! Lang Zhisong persuaded him indiscriminately, and at the same time thought in his heart: This child has nothing to do with Jin Xingxin, it is better to give it away as soon as possible, otherwise something will happen sooner or later - because he felt that this guess was not very auspicious, so he did not say it.

Finally one day, Jin Xingxin made Lang Zhisong feel that he could no longer hold the golden mean. The tone on his phone had become resentful and angry, and the scene he described had convinced Lang that his mind was no longer normal. He complained that his wife was now more and more contemptuous of him, sometimes sitting on the couch watching TV without even looking at him. "—especially hateful—the two of them were sitting on the couch, and the guy was pouting with a fat face and a pair of thief's eyes, and went straight into my wife's arms. She was also shameless, hugged him and kissed him, and muttered some affectionate words...... Phew, in front of Lang Zhisong, it's really disgusting! Lang Zhisong thought that Jin Xingxin had been led to a dead end by his jealousy, so he resolutely warned Jin Xingxin that he couldn't go on like this: "You either give him away, or consider having a child of your own......" Lang Zhisong really couldn't think of any other better way at that time.

Jin Xingxin listened to Lang Zhisong's suggestion, was silent for a long time, and hung up the phone.

According to the age of Jin Xingxin and his wife at the time, it was neither too early nor too late to have a child; Financially, although Xiaoxue has no job, Jin Xingxin has been holding a very generous scholarship for more than five years, and the two of them usually live very frugally, and they do not pay taxes, so it is estimated that they have saved a lot of money. Jin Xingxin once privately told Lang Zhisong that if he had three longs and two shorts, the money left for Xiaoxue would be enough for her to "pick and choose and spend three years doing nothing to find a husband", but he then added: "Of course, I promise that she won't wait that long, and she will ......marry again in two or three months."

Lang Zhisong thought that if he was Jin Xingxin, he would definitely let Xiaoxue have a child. Women, let them be idle sooner or later and get into trouble. Jin Xingxin is a smart person, and the hero sees the same thing. When he called again, his mood really changed 180 degrees, and his tone of voice also increased a little bit of manhood: "Hey! It's me! When Lang Zhisong picked up the microphone, he heard him say hello happily.

"How?" Lang Zhisong asked cautiously.

"Very satisfied!" He replied. This was followed by a brief silence. Lang Zhisong could feel that he wanted to express his gratitude for his last proposal, but he didn't say it for the sake of face. "I'm going to defend my thesis next month." He changed the subject.

"Congratulations!" Lang Zhisong said. "Have you started looking for a job?"

"Of course. There will be two interviews next week...... Hey, I said your dude should also consider finding a partner to marry! ”

Lang Zhisong smiled and thought: It's not Jin Xingxin's turn to worry about me. However, Lang Zhisong is very happy for Jin Xingxin's change, and Lang Zhisong has more or less credit for this. Psychoanalysis is a noble profession, and it makes one feel like a magician who is drunk and sober. Lang Zhisong is determined to embark on this path.

Once the goal of survival is determined, Lang Zhisong gets busy. While preparing for the medical licensing exam, Lang Zhisong met a Singaporean woman who had already obtained a license as a psychiatrist and was a forensic consultant at the police station. Her years of medical experience and clear analytical mind quickly made Lang Zhisong hooked on her. In this way, Lang Zhisong fell into the double vortex of review preparation and love, and his head was full of medical terms and women.

Jin Xingxin has not heard from him for a long time, Lang Zhisong occasionally thinks of him, fully understands the multiple pressures of him having to defend, find a job, and caress his wife, and thinks that the various problems in his life have been basically solved, and can't help but count the days of eating his red eggs with joy.

With Lang's solid medical skills at Portland's Eukendan University and the help of a talented female physician, Lang successfully passed the licensing exam at the end of October. After the last grade, Lang Zhisong's girl invited Lang Zhisong to her high-end apartment in the city center to drink and celebrate. After a few glasses of gin, look around, and the city glows enchantingly in all kinds of neon lights at night; Not far away, the ships moored in the bay of the Black Col sway with the swaying of the water, forming a dynamic and evocative oil painting; Lang Zhisong's girl's eyes full of tenderness and sweetness are even more intoxicating......

"Honey, you haven't told me that story yet...... "The sweet girl began to pester Lang Zhisong. Well, by the way, Lang Zhisong promised her to tell her the story of Jin Xingxin if she passed the exam - Lang Zhisong always thought that it should be the starting point of Lang Zhisong's career, although the storyline needed to be processed.

With seven points of drunkenness, Lang Zhisong began to tell the story of Jin Xingxin: from his lone debate at Portland Eurendix University to fascinate the school flower Xiaoxue, to his desperate situation and having to leave the capital; from the strict control and torture of his beautiful wife after he came to the United States, to the love and reconciliation of husband and wife; From his unhealthy jealousy of his adopted son, to his acceptance of Lang Zhisong's enlightenment and taking positive measures to save the marriage...... Lang Zhisong described Jin Xingxin in the past as a perverted husband with a serious psychological disorder, and described Jin Xingxin as a healthy and mature man after receiving Lang Zhisong's enlightenment (equivalent to amateur level psychotherapy). Lang Zhisong used his imagination to the maximum, trying to impress Lang Zhisong's talented and intelligent girl, without taking into account that he hadn't heard anything from Jin Xingxin for several months.

After listening to Lang Zhisong's narration full of a sense of achievement, the girl sitting opposite didn't say a word, and looked out the window with a contemplative demeanor. Lang Zhisong knows that his experience is shallow, and he can't compare with the erudition of female doctors, but he still hopes that Jin Xingxin's story will make her feel fresh and interesting and please her. After all, this is the only case worth mentioning that Lang Zhisong has encountered himself.

"I know the man you're talking about." When the female doctor spit out this sentence, Lang Zhisong was shocked and stiffened his head

Pi asked, "How did you know him?" ”

"Not only do I know him, but I also made a special trip to S University two months ago to do an appraisal for him."

"Huh?! What happened? ”

"His wife charged him with murder...... But don't worry, it's all over. He didn't go to jail or go to the psychiatric hospital here. They divorced, and he went back to his hometown in Thailand. ”

Murder! Lang Zhisong broke out in a cold sweat. I can't imagine that the kind-hearted Jin Xingxin would do such a thing, it's unbelievable!

The female doctor glanced at Lang Zhisong with a sly gaze and said, "Actually, the child you mentioned also has a problem. Jin Xingxin once fell in love with his wife, and he saw it, and the two sides became enemies from then on. Later, he scratched through the new leather shoes that Jin Xingxin was going to wear for the interview, peed in his clean panties and socks, and bit his draft essay to pieces...... Jin Xingxin's anger is also understandable, do you say? ”

"Yes." Lang Zhisong echoed. The female doctor crossed one leg and sneered mockingly at Lang Zhisong. "So, how much of your analysis was correct in this case?"

In front of this powerful woman, Lang Zhisong is like a primary school student who failed the exam by the teacher, Lang Zhisong is unwilling to lose his manly prestige, and tries to make a final defense for himself: "Lang Zhisong originally predicted that they would have an accident sooner or later - it's still good; It's just that I didn't expect the child to be so jealous of Jin Xingxin - now I think it's probably due to the mother-love complex. It seems that everything should be considered in terms of the worst-case outcome, rather than subjectively speculating on the best outcome, which often does not happen in real life. ”

"The best ending doesn't happen in real life......" the female doctor repeated, starting to bite her fingernails. Lang knew that this was her habitual action when making some kind of difficult decision. She eventually bit off a small piece of her fingernail and said, "You're absolutely right, the best ending doesn't happen in real life." You know that I haven't been married until now, not because I'm not good enough, but because I'm too good and too good. I'm looking for a man who is smarter than me, more capable than me, to be my husband – and then I met you, and I thought you were the person I was looking for, and I helped you, and I worked on you...... But it was all in vain; Once again, I looked at the wrong person. You're too subjective, too self-righteous, you think you're very intelligent, and you're not much smarter than a pig...... I look down on you and can't live with you...... I'm sorry I had to break up with you. ”

Lang Zhisong was stunned by her series of mean words! Since childhood, Lang Zhisong has never been so humiliated, especially women! Lang Zhisong only felt that the alcohol in his stomach was like a river overturning the sea, and the blood in his head was surging...... Lang Zhisong didn't know himself

Should I just leave, or rush up and choke her slender throat and strangle her...... Thinking of her queenly proud head gasping and losing its blood color under Lang Zhisong's powerful iron claws, Lang Zhisong felt a sense of sinful pleasure in his heart, and a murderous light appeared in his eyes.

"Hahaha! Look at your stupidity! The girl bared her snow-white teeth and laughed, "I don't want to torture your conscience, but before you leave, I'll tell you the truth - Jin Xingxin killed a cat raised by his wife, a cat with a funny flat face and round eyes!" Hahaha! ”

She smiled uncontrollably, her limbs trembled, her delicate eyes squinted from under her eyelashes, and her fluffy hair hung down her shoulders—like a cunning cat......

Speaking of this, Lang Zhisong stopped. The students around them waited with their mouths half-open. However, the memories made Lang Zhisong very much

Painful, Lang Zhisong was reluctant to talk about it anymore. Lang Zhisong even regretted telling them this story, just like he regretted to the girl back then

The doctor told the story of Jin Xingxin the same.

No matter how the students later entangled, Lang never mentioned any ending to the story.

One day after returning to Lang's U.S. residence from U.K. University in Portland, the FBI came with two uninvited guests. "Here's the thing," they said to Lang Zhisong in the gentlest tone possible, "that Dr. Kenna died in her apartment five years ago. The conclusion at the time was suicide; However, now we have received some new clues, the situation does not seem to be so simple, and further investigation and evidence collection are needed, and we hope that you will cooperate......"

The neighbors heard a hoarse cry coming from Lang Zhisong's apartment that day: "No one murdered her...... What are you going to do?! You can't arrest me for a cat......" After that, they never saw Lang Zhisong again—or rather, Lang Zhisong never saw them again.