Chapter 35: Blindness (Part II)
There was the sound of soft footsteps in the room, and a familiar white figure approached me.
"Oh, mighty, my heart aches! It turns out that the loss of a loved one will hurt so much! I really don't want to have this experience again. I hugged the approaching mighty and confided in it. Now he is mighty, and he looks more and more handsome and martial, and his white hair as white as snow faintly glows silver in the moonlight.
He rubbed his head on my face twice and whined as if to say that no matter what happens in the future, it will be with me. Then it stuck out its warm tongue and licked the tears from my face.
But I couldn't control myself anymore, so I hugged Weiwu and cried loudly. Although it is intelligent and spiritual, it does not know that its lifespan is much shorter than that of humans, so how can it accompany me forever? Even if it is a human being, as noble as the father and the crown prince, who can live forever? In a few years, I will lose these loved ones again!
Perhaps my suppressed emotions were completely vented because of this crying, and gradually my heart became calmer. I know that the Enlightened Spirit in Heaven doesn't want us all to grieve for her. I, as the daughter of my father and the younger sister of the crown prince, should shoulder my due responsibility.
My father was so grieved by Mingda's death that he had been unable to eat and drink normally for several days. All the ministers and imperial physicians were anxious, because after the death of the eldest Empress Sun a few years ago, my father and emperor were also so sleepless, remembering her without eating or drinking for several days. The phrase "Wangling ruined the view" came from the father's remembrance of the eldest grandson and queen. Although his father was evaluated by the world as long-term and single-minded, he was inevitably criticized by the courtiers because of this matter.
In the past, I never thought that the powerful father would also have a weak side in his heart. Yes, in addition to the identity of the emperor, he is also a husband and a father, and he has all the emotions of all husbands and fathers in the world.
I can't just watch my father damage his dragon body for the sake of enlightenment. Although my father did not attach importance to me, I still respected, admired him, and loved him as always. Maybe my love for my father can soothe the pain of losing his beloved daughter in my father's heart.
I began to serve my father personally, even though there was no shortage of people around him to take care of him. Every day, I always bring him snacks or dishes that I have made myself, and I make my own tea for him. Although my craftsmanship is not as good as one ten-thousandth of Mingda, I am doing everything I can for my father with my heart.
My father was indifferent to any of my actions, and sometimes even wept silently when he saw me. I know that my father thinks of Mingda because of me, because my father once said to me: "Changshan, I understand your filial piety, and I also know that the people of Jinyang cannot be resurrected after death, she cannot return to my side, and it is useless for me to be sad." But I really can't control myself. Sometimes when I see Chang Shan, I have the illusion that a miracle has appeared, and Jinyang is back. ”
I knew that I would never be able to replace Mingda's place in my father's heart. I was not discouraged, and although my father did not accept me, he did not reject me either. I believe that through my efforts, one day, my father will come out of the shadow of losing his enlightenment.
There is another person who needs my comfort and care more than my father, who has gone through countless ups and downs.