Before leaving, Shao Xi took out a collar of silver from his arms and stuffed it into Hao Yi's hand.

"You take these five taels of silver, before the school is ready, you make decent clothes for yourself and these children, eat better, these children are the age of growing their bodies, I will send someone to pick you up within a month."

Hao Yi's hands were shaking when he took the silver, he couldn't say that he had never seen five taels of silver in his life, he could only say that he had never really owned it, and now Shao Xi handed it to him casually, and it was only a month's expenses, you must know that they can't spend all these five taels of silver in a year on weekdays.

"Childe, isn't this too much? We don't need that much. ”

"I said that you and the children should make decent clothes, and I said decent clothes, not the coarse cloth clothes you are wearing now. Also, you have to eat better, look at your face now, and see how thin these children have become? You can count the money, but I ask you to spend it within a month. ”

When Hao Yi heard Shao Xi's request, a mouthful of old blood almost spurted out, he had only heard that the boss forced employees to save money, but he had never heard that the boss forced employees to spend money, and the five taels of silver could not be spent in a month!

It can only be said that poverty limits his imagination, and the pocket money that Shao Xi throws to Lao Wu on weekdays is two collars, but today it is more economical.

Because he was so excited that he didn't know how to express his gratitude, Hao Yi simply called all the children over and took the children to kneel down and kowtow to Shao Xi, which made Shao Xi panic, you can thank you no matter how you want to kowtow, Shao Xi is most afraid of this.

Shao Xi and Mei Ruoyan pulled up Hao Yi and the children who were kneeling on the ground one by one.

When leaving, the plasterer and carpenter had already rushed over, Shao Xi asked them to repair seriously, and the wages would not be less than theirs, these craftsmen were all invited by Shao Xi before, so he naturally knew that Shao Xi was generous, so he agreed to come down.

After leaving Dongshi Lane, Shao Xi originally planned to send Mei Ruoyan back to Mingfengfang, but when she passed the Lotus Pond in the Neicheng River halfway, Mei Ruoyan asked the carriage to stop, and after getting off the car, she walked to the Lotus Pond and looked at it by the railing, but there was no lotus in the pool this season, and Shao Xi didn't know what she was looking at.

"Childe must wonder what I'm looking at, right?" Mei Ruoyan suddenly turned back to Shao Xi and asked.

"I really don't know what the girl is looking at, although there is some warmth now, but the lotus flowers in this pool have not opened, maybe the girl came early."

Mei Ruoyan smiled sadly, "What the little woman wants to see is not the lotus flower in this pool, but the peach forest on the other side of the pool." When I was a child, my sister and I often sneaked out to play by the pool, and my sister would be very happy every time the peach blossoms bloomed on the other side of the pool. ”

"It's a pity that the peach blossoms bloom for too short."

After saying this, Shao Xi secretly regretted it, because he knew that Mei Ruoyan was thinking about his sister, so he was looking forward to the peach blossoms, and his words were tantamount to telling her that the time for her and her sister to get together would be very short, and it was indeed inappropriate to say such things at this time.

Mei Ruoyan did not show displeasure, but said to Shao Xi with a smile: "I also said this to my sister, but my sister told me that the peach blossom is like our life, although it is very short, but it has been gorgeous, and the gorgeous life does not care about the length, do you think my sister is right?" ”

I agree with that! Some people live a lifetime like a piece of rotten wood, but it is worthless to survive, and some people's lives are short, but they are brilliant, not only illuminating themselves but also illuminating others, such a life is the most valuable life, is a life that respects life. ”

"Childe actually said the same as my sister said at the beginning, Childe is really different from others."

"Sister Ling must be a beautiful, elegant and kind woman like the girl."

"My sister is better than me, she should be the best woman in the world, but it's a pity that her life is as short as the peach blossom in her mouth."

Hearing this, Shao Xi regretted that she had pulled the topic to Mei Ruoyan's sister, evoking those painful memories in her heart.

So he hurriedly changed the topic and asked, "The girl just said that I am different, so what does the girl think is different about me?" ”

A hint of expectation appeared on Mei Ruoyan's face, and she said softly: "Expressing praise and longing for another woman in front of a woman without subtlety, I'm afraid only someone like Gongzi who is decisive and unexpected can do it, right?" ”

Shao Xixin said: "Women are really animals who like to compare with each other, what are you competing with someone who has passed away?" She has her good, you have yours, this is not contradictory! ”

"I didn't mean to praise her in front of the girl, nor did I mean to let the girl know how much I missed her, because it all came from my heart, because she deserved to be praised and missed, and even that was not enough."

"Oh? Listening to Childe's words, that woman must be very special, otherwise a person like Childe would never praise an ordinary woman so much, or even never forget it. I remember that Childe promised me that she would tell me her story, can you tell me about it right now? ”

Shao Xi was silent for a moment, he couldn't tell if he was recalling that past or trying to suppress that sad emotion.

After a long breath, Shao Xi spoke: "Actually, there are many similarities between her and you, she is as proficient in music and rhythm as you, can sing and dance, make a living in the art workshop, and especially likes to wear a red dress and tie her hair with a red ribbon, she is as beautiful, elegant and kind as you." ”

Mei Ruoyan smiled and asked a little jokingly: "Childe, are you praising her or me?" If it is true as Childe said, I wish she was a perfect woman, then wouldn't I have become perfect even if I was similar to her? ”

Shao Xi couldn't help but laugh and cry, "It's not that I mean to please the girl, but that the two of you do have a lot of similarities, so I will unconsciously compare the two of you, which is rude, and please don't care about it." ”

"Now that I know that she has a lot in common with me, what did she do? What happened to her? ”

Gradually, Shao Xi fell into memories......

The time that passed in the past was not long, but it was not short, it seemed to be a long, long time ago in Shao Xi's heart, but Shao Xi remembered every detail and never forgot it.

……

When Mei Ruoyan heard the tragic scene of Ye Ziyuan's suicide, her body seemed to tremble unconsciously, I don't know if it was because of shock or excitement? Mei Ruoyan's face turned pale, as if she had completely lost her blood, her slender jade hands clenched her fists tightly, and the joints on her hands were also white.

"Why? Why do good people always have to be cornered? Why can't they be given another choice? This world is too cold and ruthless, and it always drives good people to a dead end. ”

Shao Xi was sensitive to the fact that Mei Ruoyan used "they" instead of "she" when she said this, and the other person in this "them" might be his sister, right?

"There is no why, in fact, all the answers are in front of you and me, but we are powerless to fight, so we choose not to face it. This cold and ruthless world cannot be changed with kindness many times, so sometimes we need to use extreme means, with more cold and ruthless means than this world to change all this. ”

"Change? Can it really change? My sister and I have been decided, and we have no choice, let alone change. ”

"Of course it can be changed, and maybe the price to pay in the process is extremely expensive. Just like the purple kite, she didn't give up until she died, maybe you think suicide is a very tragic and sad thing, but she didn't give up at the last moment of her life to change her fate, and she finally ended her life in the way she chose? ”

Mei Ruoyan seemed to understand something all of a sudden, and said with an excited expression: "Childe is right, maybe many people can't make their own choices in their lives, and they can't change anything in their lives, but never give up to change This is a choice in itself, a change in itself, what people are most afraid of is becoming numb, becoming content with the status quo, becoming abandoning choice and change, Purple Kite girl is amazing, I am not as good as her." ”

Shao Xi nodded silently, "Yes!" Zi Yan finally made her choice and fulfilled her wish. Her greatest wish when she was alive was to redeem herself, and at the end of her life, she finally regained her freedom, so she chose her life and completed the changes she wanted, and she finally did it. ”

"Actually, I think Childe should also choose to change, if Childe always presses this matter like a boulder in his heart, Childe will never be truly happy, I think Purple Kite Girl doesn't want to see you like this now, you should choose to put this matter down and start your life again."

"But her figure often appears in front of my eyes, especially her last appearance, which I can never forget. You said I should put it aside and start my life again, and I thought about it, but I didn't know where to start. ”

Mei Ruoyan smiled faintly, "You don't need to forget her, you just need to put her in the depths of your heart, let her live in your heart forever, but it won't disturb your life, if you don't know where to start, I think I can help you." ”

As she spoke, Mei Ruoyan grabbed Shao Xi's hand at a very fast speed, and quickly untied the red ribbon with a bow in his hand before Shao Xi could react.

"Actually, it's not that you can't let go, but you don't want to let go, you tie it to your hands every day like the purple kite girl is by your side every day, always reminding you that her death is because of your negligence, when do you blame yourself like this? If you want to start over, you can start by letting go of this self-blame and guilt! ”

Shao Xi looked at the red ribbon held up in front of Mei Ruoyan, the bow was gone, and the bow that Ye Ziyuan gave him with his own hands was gone.

After a period of colic in his heart, Shao Xi gradually calmed down.

"Maybe, you're right......"