Ah Shi sometimes likes to go to his biological mother's former residence to sit down. Sometimes I can't help but think: why did she give birth to herself in the first place? Why did you give birth to him even if you didn't want your life?

He knew he wasn't in good shape. He also knew that he would almost not survive after he was born, so in this way, he even didn't understand, what was the purpose of such a risk?

The woman in the portrait does make him feel kind, but it is also strange at the same time.

Someone told him that the reason why she gave birth to him was to revitalize the Gu family and wanted the position of prince.

He wanted to ask his mother, but he didn't dare to ask. He was afraid that his mother would say the same, or that his mother would lie to him. He didn't want anyone to know that someone had said something like that to him. On several occasions, the people who served him disappeared without a word and never returned, and he knew why. But he didn't dare to ask.

And now, he doesn't want the people around him to disappear for no reason, so he can't show anything different. He's a big kid, and there are some things that he should decide.

What does this woman who desperately gave birth to her want him to do?

It's just that only she knows about this matter, right?

On this day, Ah Shi secretly went to Gu Qingyu's residence again. But I didn't expect to hear a deep voice as soon as I entered: "Ah Shi." ”

Ah Shideng froze, stood up obediently and twisted and called: "Father." ”

"I've heard you've been here a lot lately. But what are the ten things that bother you? Zhu Li sighed and asked softly.

Ah Shi didn't dare to speak much, and even his heart was so weak that he didn't dare to take a breath.

And Zhu Li guessed Ah Shi's thoughts: "Is it related to the Gu family?" Or do you think that your mother gave birth to you in the first place, why? ”

Ah Shi looked at Zhu Li in surprise, but he still mustered up the courage: "Why did my father ask like this?" Do you know what's going on? ”

Zhu Li shook his head, and sighed in his heart that Ah Shi had indeed grown up, and he knew that he was playing tricks with him.

It's a pity, but I don't know that he is more exposed to his thoughts in this way. But he didn't pay much attention to it, the child was older and had his own ideas, which was a common thing. And that's not what he's here for.

Zhu Li took out something from his arms: "Ah Shi, this is something left to you by your biological mother." ”

But it was a letter sealed with fire paint. On it turned out to be Gu Qingyu's notes, which read: "My son is personally enlightened." "It's just that the handwriting is old, and the envelopes are a little yellow and brittle.

Ah Shi was stunned for a long time before taking the envelope. I just held it in my hand, but I didn't dare to open it for a long time. He looked at Zhu Li a little bewildered, never thinking that Gu Qingyu would leave a letter for him.

"Just open it and take a look. If you don't understand something, ask me again. Zhu Li didn't mean to follow along to take a look, just let Ah Shi see it himself.

Ah Shi opened the letter in a daze.

This letter was written by Gu Qingyu in the last month of her pregnancy with Ah Shi.

Gu Qingyu knew her body better than anyone else, so she had wanted to write this letter for a long time. It's just that I had a little hope before, but now I have completely given up hope.

She gave birth to Ah Shi for a purpose. One wants to be a mother, but the other is for the Gu family.

The Gu family has come to the end of the road. She knows better than anyone else that her mother's ambition, arrogance, and her father's calculations are all reasons for accelerating the collapse of the ancient family. If there was no her, the Gu family would be suppressed by Zhu Li sooner or later. The inaction of the Gu family, as well as the domineering and arbitrary nature of the Gu family, even if Zhu Li is not ruthless, the Gu family is also the fate of decline.

She is the daughter of the Gu family, so she can't let the Gu family be destroyed like this. The Gu family made a thousand mistakes, but they gave birth to her and spoiled her for so many years.

Even though she knew that she was actually the one sacrificed by the Gu family before she entered the palace.

She is not in good health, even if she finds a husband to marry, she will not be able to bring any benefits to the Gu family. And it just so happened that the meaning of the palace let her enter the palace.

So the Gu family's final decision was to sacrifice her.

She can't have children...... It's been known for a long time. But on the day she went out into the palace, her mother gave her a small baggage, which contained prescriptions and pills for fertility.

At this moment, she suddenly understood that the Gu family wanted her to have a child no matter what. Even if it's for her life.

She had pinned her hopes on Zhu Li. But since Yang Yunxi entered the palace, she suddenly understood that Zhu Li was not her reliance. At least this kind of thing is to love each other, but it is absolutely impossible for her to be with Zhu Li. Zhu Li respected her and respected her, but there was no such thing as a man and a woman.

So she made a deal with Zhu Li, she wanted a child. And Yang Yunxi is her bargaining chip, she can help Zhu Li let Yang Yunxi enter the Taisun Palace willingly.

At that moment, she was envious of Yang Yunxi. Has anyone ever asked her if she would like to enter the palace?

The first child, in fact, was blamed on Hu Cao when she knew that she couldn't keep it. Hu Cao may be very wronged, but Hu Cao also made those small actions. If not, how could she have wronged Hu Cao? But I didn't expect Hu Cao to be pregnant.

At this moment, she was both jealous and had to sigh at the turn of fate. She didn't know what complicated feelings she had in her heart, she just felt that she was almost crazy. Everyone thought she was suffering from the loss of her child, but no one knew, she was just jealous. It's just jealousy.

She was even jealous of Yang Yunxi. She even thought about taking away Yang Yunxi's child. Later, she was glad that Yang Yunxi only gave birth to a girl.

She thought about telling Yang Yunxi about her deal with Zhu Li countless times, and she was even afraid that there would really be that kind of thing between Yang Yunxi and Zhu Li. It's just that every time, when she wants to act, she doesn't dare.

Yang Yunxi's trust and friendship are like the last thing that makes her survive in this world.

But the last thing was finally gone, although it was destroyed by herself, but at that moment, she was still in great despair. As if overnight, she lost even her last hope of survival.

She knew that she shouldn't be pregnant again, but at this moment, she suddenly felt that if she died like this, it was better to desperately have a child, and then let this child live well for herself.

In this way, the Gu family will also survive, and she will not have to face such a torment again.

Therefore, she used her position to make a deal with Zhu Li again. She wanted a child, and she wanted the Gu family not to decline completely—at least in Zhu Li's lifetime.

Zhu Li agreed, so there was Ah Shi again. But he has no regrets in this life. It's just that she doesn't want Ah Shi to face the problems she once faced in the future. She owes the Gu family, but Ah Shi doesn't. She wants Ah Shi to live the life she wants, the world is big, why is she trapped here?

Therefore, she left this letter.

After Ah Shi read it, he couldn't speak for a long time. Zhu Li didn't ask much, and only let Ah Shi leave.

Ah Shi went to see Yang Yunxi, and he didn't say much, but said softly: "Mother, Gu Qingyu said, but she owes you a word of apology." I owe you a thank you. ”

I'm sorry for the use at the beginning, I'm sorry for killing the possible happiness with my own hands, and trapped Yang Yunxi in this deep palace. And in the same way, thank you to her for raising Ah Shi.

At the beginning, it was just one more sentence, but who knew that it would give birth to so many implications. I don't know, will Yang Yunxi regret what he said to her at the beginning? She has no regrets. Until she died, she also felt that the first encounter and the later intersection were the most brilliant and precious existences in her life.

(The Sixth House is here and completely finished!) You can go to see Ayin's new book "Ronghua Road", which has been fattened and can be slaughtered~ Finally, thank you for your companionship and support along the way! ）