26. Split consciousness
Ever since being cleaned up by that guy from Lohin, we, no, maybe our bodies, seem to have undergone some strange changes.
It was originally a whole of Cruso, but in the following time, he always became hesitant because of some small things. For example, when he was hiding from Luo Xin's re-roundup, he could only flee in a hurry.
And in order to make his body look at least human, he must also use some money to maintain the most basic, human-like life. After all, if anyone sees a homeless man on the street who behaves strangely, cowers and hides, everyone will think she is a strange person.
However, I don't have any money on myself, and I can't get paid for any work, so there are fewer ways to get money. For example...... Beg?
However, for the first time, I felt hesitant because of such a concept, because it was as if there were several opposing consciousnesses constantly fighting in my mind, as if I wanted to judge a clear right or wrong of my decision.
One of them seemed very disdainful, but it still understood its own thoughts: this kind of behavior of relying on other people's handouts to survive is really not in line with its own identity.
However, the other immediately retorted: as long as you can survive, there is no sin in any way, and what is the point of begging?
The two opposing consciousnesses seemed to be about to fight, and they kept muttering and shouting in their minds. I made my head hurt sharply for a while.
It hurts so much. This feeling. It's like the body is about to split into two halves, and there is no way to control his body well, but he staggered to the side of the road, but even so, they still don't stop arguing with each other.
It seems that after a long time, he was finally found by a human on the side of the road, and it seems that he should not be a guy who wants to have any inappropriate thoughts about himself.
Hm. Now that they are covered in dust and covered with wounds, they won't attract the attention of any of the opposite sex, most of them, they can't even recognize their gender.
A middle-aged man with a beard, although he looks a little vicious, but his eyes reveal concern for strangers. Looks like he must be a nobleman, at least he got off the carriage.
Helping the poor in general is a necessary cultivation for the aristocracy, but it is because of the instinctive aversion to the weak in the heart. They basically won't put down their bodies to do this kind of thing.
"Are you alright?"
The man shook his body, not minding that the dust on his body would stain his clothes.
This idiot. It's not sludge, it's blood.
But...... At least this person should be trustworthy by now.
"Chance?"
What...... Sound.
"Rob him of a qiē, so you don't have to be a beggar or starve." ”
Sound...... The voices in my head, no, these are not the two voices I felt before. It's more like ......
[What are you talking about!Is it good to rob someone who helps you like this?]
[Why rob it, wouldn't it be better to just get rid of him?] Crusoe, even if you are injured like this now, you still have the ability to do it. 】
"You see, if you continue to quarrel like this, there will never be an end, will you?"
The voice that was different from the previous one wrapped around his body like a demon, constantly lingering in his ears, whispering, trying to make himself obey the words of the monster-like guy.
"Absolute good and absolute evil are both under the responsibility of others, and they are originally one, so here, using the most neutralized 'evil' is the best way, Cruso. ”
That's not the case, is it...... Even if it's yourself, you shouldn't think like this when you're facing someone who wants to help you in times of need.
Indeed, because of the "polluted" relationship, I can't help but have a lot of strange thoughts, but I still retain at least a little bit of dignity. However, what is wrong with me now, the thoughts in my body seem to be separated.
The good part is so kind that it even forgets its own safety. The evil part is so evil that it makes itself feel incredulous about its thoughts.
And now, it seems, there is another idea in between...... It seems reasonable and does not violate "good" and "evil", but in fact it is more insidious and cunning than the simple two.
"Hey, are you okay?"
"Hmm...... Yes...... Do you think I'm good?"
Forcibly suppressed those strange ideas in his heart, and tried his best to communicate with this human in the most amiable way in his life, although he was stunned for a moment after hearing his words.
But...... It's strange why I seem to have become much calmer now, as if those three consciousnesses have taken away the most filthy part of my heart.
"Ah, haha, I don't think you're in very good shape. ”
After a brief moment of stunnedness, the cheeked man laughed and squatted down to help himself up.
"Hey, that's blood, not mud. ”
“...... Ah......h
The man withdrew his hand for a moment, but immediately dragged himself to his back.
A macho guy...... Really, I'm afraid, what's the point of forcing these in front of myself.
"Haha, it's okay......"
“......”
Speechless, to be honest, the first time I had such close contact with humans, I didn't know what to do.
But now I can at least be sure that after suppressing those three consciousnesses, I am much more refreshed.
"Well, where are you from?"
"North, what's wrong?"
Maybe it's because he took off the hat of his cloak and showed his red hair, but the man who saw this obviously began to be stunned, and then his tone became tentative.
"Well, I heard that there is a war going on between the countries in the north, and you are ......."
"I'll give you the ...... if you escape. Hunted down. ”
I'm not a fool, and I won't just talk about Luo Xin's business.
Moreover, even if he said it, it would be impossible for this guy to believe it, human beings, will always take some facts that they dare not imagine as a joke, and the reason is because of their own lack of strength.
But that aside, this guy can really put himself at ease for a while.
"Yes, where can you take me to rest?"
(I'm in a bit of a hurry because I'm too late to get home today, sorry.) (To be continued......)