Chapter 1148: A Moment of Despair
Icy cold, suffocating.
The water is extremely dark, and the biting chill is chilling.
Weakness, weakness.
Su Bujin was in a trance, she felt her body sinking continuously, and her body gradually became numb in the cold water.
Su Bujin reluctantly opened his eyes, and he couldn't see a trace of light at all except for everything that was dark.
Hell and heaven, in the blink of an eye.
"Is it going to fall?"
At this time, Su Bujin seemed to have returned to before he was twenty years old, back to that period when he had no cultivation and could only be an ordinary person.
That kind of powerlessness, that kind of insignificance as a mortal is something that Su Bujin never wants to experience again in his life.
However, now, she can only watch herself continue to sink and fall into the endless abyss, and she is powerless to change anything.
The icy chill made Su Bujin's consciousness quickly blur, and she felt that her brain was about to lose consciousness, and she was afraid that it would not last long.
"Su Bujin, where is your way?"
The ethereal voice sounded again, and if it weren't for Su Bujin's strong willpower to support her, she would have passed out long ago.
Where is my word?
This question again.
The ethereal voice seemed to repeat only the same question.
What should my Word be?
Taking advantage of the last trace of clarity left in his mind, Su Bujin asked himself over and over again.
Finally....... What is it?
As the blurring of consciousness increased, bits and pieces of the past surfaced in front of Su Bujin's eyes.
.......
Under the sunset.
Ten-year-old Su Bujin and the Purple Dragon Emperor sat side by side on the grass, and the two looked at the sunset that was about to set.
The Purple Dragon Emperor earnestly admired the sunset, his eyes full of melancholy and emotion.
And the ten-year-old Su Bujin had a boring face, with a grass in her mouth, her eyes were not honest at all, she shook her legs and shoulders from time to time, if it weren't for the majesty of the Purple Dragon Emperor, she would have run away to have fun.
Suddenly, the Purple Dragon Emperor spoke: "Don't be careful, starting tomorrow, you can follow the ape elder to cultivate spiritual power." ”
Xiao Su's face changed instantly when he heard this, and he hurriedly said, "Don't!" ”
The Purple Dragon Emperor said solemnly: "You can't cultivate your true qi yet, cultivating spiritual power is your only way out, otherwise, will you be idle all day long?" ”
Xiao Su muttered in a low voice: "It seems that I can cultivate in the future, I really don't understand why you keep forcing me to cultivate?" ”
The Purple Dragon Emperor said: "Because you need to understand a truth. ”
Xiao Su whispered: "Talk about big truths every day, and when you take out those big truths in your stomach, it is estimated that they will weigh more than ten pounds." ”
The Purple Dragon Emperor glared at Xiao Su and said, "What I want to tell you is that men should be self-reliant!" ”
Xiao Su suddenly rolled his eyes when he heard this, and said, "Huh? It has something to do with me, and I don't have a cock. ”
The Purple Dragon Emperor said: "I just want you to understand, whether it is a man or a woman, old or young, a human or a demon, there is no difference at all, if someone wants to kill you one day, it will not change because of your gender, age, race, strength and weakness, which is why you need to cultivate self-improvement." ”
Xiao Su lay on the grass with his head up, and said softly, "But I'm a freak." ”
The Purple Dragon Emperor sneered and said, "Freak? Don't put gold on your face, freaks are two-headed pigs, three-legged toads and the like, what kind of freak are you? You just can't cultivate yet. ”
Xiao Su pursed his lips and said: "Everyone else can cultivate, but I can't, why do you want to do this, it's not reasonable at all, doesn't the saying say that existence is reasonable?" ”
The Purple Dragon Emperor said: "No, there are many unreasonable things in this world, even if they are unreasonable, they still exist, they were born in this world smoothly, until they die, they are no different from ordinary people, this is because....... Whether they are in this world or not, they all have a reason why they must exist in this world. ”
"And for this reason, you need to find out for yourself."
.......
Memories came to his heart, and every word that the Purple Dragon Emperor said to him that day, Su Bujin still remembered it clearly.
Isn't he the unreasonable being?
Even if it's not a freak, it's a special existence.
So, what is the reason for my existence in this world?
"The reason for my existence ......."
Su Bujin slowly closed his eyes, and suddenly, all the emotions he had ever felt came to his heart.
Joy, grief, regret, anger, sorrow.......
At this moment, Su Bujin's whole person seemed to understand something, and he only felt that the whole person had become transparent.
Su Bujin suddenly opened his eyes and said, "I understand, this world exists because of me. ”
"Oh?"
The ethereal voice suddenly sounded, only this time, he didn't repeat the question.
Listening to the ethereal voice asked, "It is a well-known thing that the world does not exist because of individuals, why do you say this, don't you think your statement is too arrogant?" ”
Su Bujin said: "I don't mean to be arrogant, I'm just talking about the facts, all my perceptions of the world are my personal feelings, the important thing is not the world, but the person I am, I live, this world exists, if I die, this world will disappear, then the Tao will no longer exist, in a word......"
Speaking of this, Su Bujin's eyes shone brightly and said: "The Tao is me, I am the Tao!" ”
The Word does not come from heaven or earth, but from "me".
I am here, and the Tao is there.
I'm dead, and I'm gone.
The ethereal voice spoke, "It's remarkable to be able to recognize yourself in a desperate situation. ”
Hearing this, Su Bujin breathed a long sigh of relief and was able to relax.
"But ......"
Suddenly, the ethereal voice took a turn for words.
"This is your insight into the existence of the Tao, and you have not found out what your Tao should be, and this is not the Tao."
Su Bujin heard this, and his expression froze on his face.
Still not right?
However, I have already said everything I can think of.
What else is there?
At this time, countless chains extended from the bottom and wrapped around Su Bujin's body.
At the same time, a figure appeared in front of Su Bujin.
Su Tianzi.
Su Tianzi grabbed Su Bujin's neck and laughed fiercely: "Su Bujin, you loser, I will continue to live in place of you in the future!" ”