Chapter 51: Reflection and Gain and Loss
A small space formed by the walls of several houses, a sideways wall that connects it to the street outside.
There is a extinguished bonfire in the middle, and three bunks and a large amount of household debris are scattered around it.
This is a treasure shared by several homeless people, and it is the home they rely on for their livelihood.
However, now they have all lost their lives.
One had his throat slit and fell face down on the bed, blood staining most of the bedding; One was stabbed in the heart, lying on his back on the ground, and the blood fainted on the ground; Another man fell in front of the crack in the wall with a dagger stuck in the back of his neck until it had no handle.
It was in such an environment that Varina regained her sobriety.
"How did I end up here?"
He sat against the wall, reaching out and rubbing his forehead, relieving the still-throbbing headache as he reminisced.
"By the way, I'm going to kill Kent......"
"The mirror!"
The thought of that mirror naturally reminded Varina of information about it.
"Mirror of Companionship":
Source: Formed by a young "listener" who lost control;
Purpose: Listen to the whispers of the true Creator and awaken the depraved personality of the mirrored man;
Negative effects: people are dominated by feelings of emptiness and loneliness, and desire to be filled and satisfied;
Sealing Method: Be accompanied by a close person approved by the mirror for at least one hour a day.
"Huh? This is...... How could I suddenly know this? ”
Varina rubbed her forehead and suddenly reacted, "By the way, it came from babbling. ”
There is not only extreme madness in the whispers of the true Creator, but also a great deal of knowledge.
"But all I got was the mirror? That's a loss, isn't it? ”
After resting for a while, Varina felt much better, and had the energy to take a closer look at her surroundings.
Only then did he realize how important information he had missed from a hurried glance when he first woke up—
There were three dead people lying on the ground!
After a brief inspection, Varina's face turned a little pale, "They seem to have been killed by me?!" ”
"My dagger is still around his neck."
He felt a heavy weight in his heart, and he couldn't believe the ironclad facts of the scene.
"How could I kill them? It shouldn't be! ”
Varina muttered as she walked around this small space for a long time, digging through her memories and finally identifying one thing.
He lost his memory for a while.
He pulled the silver pocket watch out of his trouser pocket pocket and found that it was past nine o'clock in the night.
That is, he lost his memory for almost two hours.
Varina analyzed the clues at the scene and said that he should have passed by the rooftop, and when he found that it was safe, he jumped down, killed the three people, and then fell into a coma.
He didn't know how he had escaped Kent's quarters, or how far he had gone, but he had to go back to make sure.
Using his lightness abilities, Varina jumped onto the roof of a house that was more than 6 meters tall and observed where he was after jumping twice against the wall.
With his excellent eyesight, he soon saw the riverbank in the distance, and then he found Kent's quarters.
It's not far from here.
Varina estimated that he would have been able to complete the stretch in less than 10 minutes if he ran a straight line from the rooftop.
Standing on the eaves and hesitating for a while, he decided to go back and see the situation first.
……
More than ten minutes later, Varina returned to the homeless hideout where he had woken up.
He found nothing in his residence in Kent, not even the full-length mirror, so he had to find a tool and come back to collect the body.
Varina buried them right in the middle of the clearing.
……
At eleven o'clock, Varina returned to her accommodation.
After running for such a long distance at night, he finally got rid of the state of being stuffed with paste in his mind and regained some of his ability to think.
He summed it up and guessed a general course of events:
During the time when he lost his memory, it should have been another personality who was mastering the movement of the body, and the only thing that was uncertain was whether he was able to appear by relying on the power of that full-length mirror.
Obviously, he saved himself and killed the three homeless men.
As for what else happened in the Kent house, and why the full-length mirror disappeared, it was completely unclear.
Because of this incident, Varina became wary of awakened memories and personality for the first time.
Why is Yu Yue's personality so indifferent?
Is he really myself?
Varina compares his own experience with Klein and finds a huge difference that he once overlooked-
When Zhou Mingrui came possessed, the original Klein had already shot himself, but he didn't.
He awakened his memory in his sleep!
So, if Klein in the story is mainly Zhou Mingrui, then what is he?
Half of Varina and half of Yuyue?
Varina who absorbed Yu Yue's memories?
There is another question, what are the special abilities that Yu Yue brings, those awakened abilities?
I can't find an answer to this question.
In the end, Varina came to only one conclusion -
He is not such an indifferent person who disregards life, and he does not want to be that indifferent.
So, he had to find a way to prevent a situation like today's from happening again.
He reflected on his gains and losses in this incident.
The first is a huge lesson.
The initial cause of this incident was that he did not abide by the first acting rules he summed up.
He took it for granted that this kind of lowest-level gang would not involve the transcendental, so he didn't make any decent preparations at all.
Not only did he put himself in danger, but he also killed three innocent passers-by.
The second is the progress in the digestion of potions.
Varina could feel that this incident had digested most of the "assassin" potion in his body, and he was only a little short of completely digesting it.
This must be the difference brought about by killing those three innocent passers-by!
Varina thus summed up a code of conduct that he was not so convinced of-
"Assassins" should be indifferent to life and death, and ruthless...... After deciding on the target you want to kill.
He didn't dare, didn't want to, and couldn't be truly indifferent, so he added a precondition to this rule.
Varina vaguely felt that as long as he could comprehend one more key, he would be qualified to be promoted to the "instigator" of Sequence 8.
And then there's the knowledge gained from whispering.
The message of that full-length mirror was only the information he received incidentally from his whispering, and what he really received was an extraordinary knowledge of psychic communication.
While he didn't get new abilities as a result, his strange "connection" skill was enhanced.
Varina can now make connections between herself and others as a way to peer into the thoughts of others.
Of course, this is a two-way ability, while he is spying on others, others can also spy on him in reverse, so this ability should be used sparingly.
After some careful consideration, Varina decided to fine-tune the plan she had set up with a sense of crisis.
In order to achieve his goal, he had to be more radical.