When Gu Yunji woke up, it was already evening, he was sweating all over, and his memory of the fever period was very vague, and he was stunned for a while before he realized where he was. Looking around for Xu Shuhua and not seeing him, he asked Xu Dong: "Where is the young lady?" ”

Xu Dong said: "The young lady went out at noon, and only came back a quarter of an hour ago, and she was in the main room at this time, saying that if you woke up, you would go to the main room to find her." ”

Gu Yunji said unexpectedly: "Shuhua went out?" What did you do? ”

Xu Dong hesitated for a moment and told him everything that happened today.

After listening to the whole story, Gu Yunji's eyes darkened a little, and he said in a deep voice: "Well, I know." If Shuhua makes up her mind, you can't stop her, you don't blame you for this, you go down. ”

Xu Dong responded: "Yes." ”

When he came to the main room, Xu Shuhua sat alone at the table, the lights in the room were dim, and the earth dragon was burning warm, just like last night. It's just that Gu Yunji knows that tonight and last night are completely different.

Gu Yunji hid his feelings, and walked in with a smile: "Why don't you light two more lights?" The light is so dim that it hurts the lady's eyes, what should I do? ”

Xu Shuhua looked at him quietly, and when he approached, he said straight to the point: "Don't you have anything to say to me?" ”

Gu Yunji paused, and his smile faded: "Don't you all know about it?" ”

"I know, you won't say it?"

"You know everything, does it make sense for me to say?"

"I know what I know, but I want to hear from you."

"I don't know where to start."

With a "snap", Xu Shuhua put the bag of medicine residue on the table and raised his eyes to look at him: "Then let's start with this medicine." What kind of medicine is this? ”

Gu Yunji said: "This is a medicine that can cause men to be sterilized. This recipe has never existed in the world before, I invited famous doctors in Beijing, and studied it at home for half a month. ”

"Unlike other medicines, this prescription does not harm the man's function, and it is okay to have sex. However, it is especially important to take it for half a year, during which if the intercourse is interrupted, the effect of the medicine will be reduced. ”

Xu Shuhua said: "That's why you want to share a room with me?" ”

Gu Yunji said: "Yes." ”

After a moment of silence, Xu Shuhua asked again: "Why do you want to hide it from me?" ”

Gu Yunji said: "The medicine of sterilization will damage the body, you will not agree." ”

Xu Shuhua looked at him and suddenly smiled: "Why don't you hide it now?" ”

Gu Yunji didn't dare to look at her eyes, and lowered his head: "You know everything, you don't need to hide it anymore." ”

Xu Shuhua smiled desolately, with tears in his eyes: "If I don't know, how long are you going to hide it from me?" ”

Gu Yunji had a hard time spitting out words: "On the day I finish drinking the medicine, I will tell you everything." ”

"Why don't you just hide it from me for the rest of my life?"

"The lady is smart, I can't hide it from you for the rest of my life. Even now, it has exceeded my expectations, and I didn't expect to be able to hide it from you for so long. ”

"No, you're wrong."

Xu Shuhua looked at him with tears in his eyes, his voice was soft, and he was still smiling: "If it was someone else, I would have noticed it a long time ago, and I wouldn't have been able to hide it from me for so long." But you're my husband, and no matter what you do, whatever you say, I'm willing to believe you, even though it's full of flaws. ”

Gu Yunji's throat was blocked, and he suddenly choked up, crying uncontrollably.

Xu Shuhua walked over and gently wiped his tears: "Why are you crying?" ”

"I'm ashamed of my mother."

"Where is the shame?"

"Live up to the lady's sincerity."

"No, you're wrong again." Xu Shuhua took his hand and put it in his heart, "Yunji, do you know how much my heart hurts now?" ”

Gu Yunji's fingers trembled: "I know." ”

"You know, why do you choose to hide it from me? You know, why do you take medicine secretly? Do you know why you should damage your body? Xu Shuhua was so painful that he could barely breathe, crying blood, "Can you imagine what it was like when I learned the truth from Lang Zhong?" ”

The five thunders thundered to the top, as if the soul was withdrawn.

Lang Zhong said that although this medicine tiger and wolf have tried their best to reconcile, it is impossible not to damage the body, not to mention that this is still a prescription once and for all, and the impact will only be deeper. The difference is only in the severity of the injury or the severity of the injury.

If it is mild, it is weak, and it is easy to invade by disease; If it is heavy, it will lose its longevity, and the years will not last forever.

Xu Shuhua didn't know how he came back, but he remembered that there was white snow all the way, and it seemed to have no end. She went home in a daze, until she heard her daughter's hungry cry, as if she had realized who she was.

Xu Shuhua's tears were like beads with broken threads, and they smashed on the back of Gu Yunji's hand in big drops, and he choked and said, "Lang Zhong said that this medicine is harmful to life." Do you know? Loss, longevity! ”

"In order not to get me pregnant, in order to cut off my fertility pain forever, do you just abuse your body like this, Gu Yunji?"

Gu Yunji was so distressed that while reaching out to wipe her tears, she couldn't stop crying: "I, I'm not...... I just want you to stay with me forever, grow old with me, and stay together for the rest of my life. ”

"When a woman gives birth to a child, she is like passing through the ghost gate. You only gave birth to Xi'er one, and then you had a difficult birth, I can't imagine what will happen if there is a second time...... Maybe the probability is very low, maybe we won't meet a second time, but I don't dare bet, I really don't dare bet......"

Gu Yunji cried until she lost her voice, and it took a while to adjust her emotions, she could hold back her tears, and looked at her pleadingly: "Back then, my mother-in-law didn't even have a difficult birth when she gave birth to you, but she died a few years later. You always say that you pity the teacher for losing his wife and being lonely for half his life, so what about me? Can you bear that I am like him? ”

Xu Shuhua raised his head suddenly, and said with red eyes: "So, you want to transfer this pain to me?" You don't want me to abandon you, but you yourself have drunk the medicine of the heir to lose your life for half a year, do you think I want to see you go before me, and then leave me alone, pulling Xi'er to grow up? ”

She was heart-wrenching, and every word was a knife inserted in Gu Yunji's heart, and he defended palely: "It's not like this...... I asked the doctor, this medicine is not so serious, and people like me who are physically strong generally have a little illness and disaster, so as not to lose their life. Take 10,000 steps back, even if it is a loss of life, at most three or five years, not decades, I will not go before you. ”

As he spoke, he paused and said with some difficulty: "It's just sterilization, it won't die early, and it won't affect your and me's husband and wife life...... Compared to losing you, I think it's a good deal. ”

"A good deal? Do you think this is something that can be measured by trade-offs? ”

Xu Shuhua sneered and said abruptly: "Since you said this medicine so well, why don't you give it to me?" Pregnancy and childbirth are a matter of husband and wife, your sterilization is effective, my sterilization is also effective, if you really want to talk about it, there are more types of child avoidance decoction for women to drink, and you don't need to ask famous doctors to study for half a month. ”

Xu Shuhua took a few steps forward and forced him to step back: "Compared between you and me, or is it more cost-effective for me to drink, why don't you let me drink it?" ”

Gu Yunji pursed his lips and tilted his head not to answer.