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Pick up where we left off:

Today's work is a bit busy, the lottery that was profitable all the way also happened yesterday Waterloo, changing to a new unit, interpersonal relationships are also a little awkward, sitting by the window, the ears will be the intersection of cars driving by and pedestrians chatting.

The report from the superior was urgent, and several emails that needed to be replied to were about to expire.

The phone rang suddenly, an unfamiliar number.

"Hey, hello, whoever."

After a few seconds of silence, I guess it was some kind of harassing call.

"Brother Chen, it's me, I'm getting married."

It's been a long time since no one called me Brother Chen, and after work, I will either be Xiao Chen or Director Chen;

I didn't know how to say it for a while.

"5.20, in Yangzhou, are you coming?"

"Congratulations, red envelopes are definitely indispensable, but I've been very busy lately, and I'm not necessarily free, so I'll definitely go over if I can."

It was the best answer I could come up with at the time, and although my current department taught me to be cautious before I spoke, I didn't seem to have gone through my brain this time.

"Actually, I don't mean anything else, I really hope you can come over, okay?"

"Okay, don't worry, I'll be there when I'm free."

I forced myself to sit in front of the computer and write down the report in my hand, and during my lunch break, I lay on the couch in my office, reminiscing about the first time I met her that year.

......

In 21 years, I graduated two years ago and worked a 9-to-5 job in Suzhou.

The slogan that I wanted to take root in this water town in the south of the Yangtze River forced me to become a social animal.

After all, I was born in the countryside of northern Jiangsu, and I want to be recognized by Yaoyao's parents in this city and give her a beautiful vision of a home.

Chen Yao and I went from sophomore year to graduation, she is a Suzhou fisherwoman, and I am a mud leg in northern Jiangsu.

In the four years of college, I didn't seem to realize the gap between me and her, we lived like a fairy couple, and I used the money to write novels to spend a very happy time with her at that time when the price was not too high.

But the cruelty of society is far from being comparable to that of universities.

I think I study hard, am willing to endure hardships, and am not afraid of getting tired.

But it seems that the job you can find is not so ideal.

I get up early every day to squeeze the bus, and work overtime at night to draw in the design institute, but the wages I can get, pay the rent, and accompany her to eat, it seems that there is not much left.

In fact, I hated her at that time, why couldn't I accompany me to endure hardships on the premise that I knew that I had limited money, and if I waited for a few more years, would I be able to let her live a good life.

But now that I think about it, it's so childish and cute, she was born rich, why should she lower her standard of living because of me.

Our arguments started to get more and more, and I tried to save as much as I could, just to be able to afford the gift she wanted for her birthday.

I work overtime day and night, just hoping to earn a little more.

But sometimes, the direction is wrong, and no matter how hard you try, it's useless.

She was born in Rome, and I have no right to ask her to live with me in the countryside and live with me in a cheap rental house, and no matter how hard I try in Suzhou, it seems that I can't keep up with the skyrocketing housing prices.

I broke up with Chen Yao peacefully, there was nothing unseemly, and she even paid me the rent for that year before leaving.

"She loved spending time with me, but we didn't have a future," she said. ”

"Yes, I don't want you to suffer with me anymore, let's get together and disperse, and we will still be friends in the future."

She's gone, and I'm as strong as a piece of wood.

◇

Isn't it just a broken love, isn't it just a breakup?

Without Chen Yao, I am full of food alone, and the whole family will not worry!

Women, I'm not looking for anywhere, I have money in my hands, I can't find what kind of girl!

After the breakup, while I worked diligently, I fell into myself again and again in bars and bathing centers.

"Have you played this before?"

Xiao Peng, my college roommate, is a close friend. He works as a modeler in a game company, and his family is well-off, so he will come to my aid when he has nothing to do, and talk about some nonsense stories by the way.

"Dude told you, isn't it just a woman, call Dad, and arrange it for you in minutes."

"Get out! I don't like those professions. ”

"Who told you that it is a profession, these are all serious school girls, they have fallen into the clutches of online loans, and they urgently need people with lofty ideals like you and me to save them."

He's talking about a certain app.

I'm skeptical, but I'm curious to sign up.

"Su A, 97 female college."

"Anhui B, flyable."

Don't say it, it's really like that, but what am I, there are too many such Internet scams, buddy is not fooled, it is better to go to the bubble bath to be reliable.

In the following days, the project was a bit rushed, and it was already late after returning every day, and I didn't have much energy to take a bath again.

When you are bored, you can brush up on the circle of friends.

One of the dormitory's roommates, Junjie, went to a small company and is now the team leader. Another Jian Jian became a photographer, with a single break, 9 in the morning and 6 in the evening.

Chen Yao, who has been broken up for more than a month, is now traveling in Hangzhou, well, with her new boyfriend.

stayed awake all night and drank a bottle of unpleasant Jiang Xiaobai.

Chen Yao was always in my mind.

I opened the app, and I was still bored.

"Yay 6, the first time for a newcomer."

"There are newcomers in this business? Place.? ”

I sneered dismissively.

I didn't expect her to reply to me so quickly.

"Su E"

Maybe it was the stimulation of alcohol, and I actually sent her a private message.

"Su E?"

"Hmm."

"When is it empty?"

"There's an exam this week, will it be okay on Saturday?"

"Saturday, XXXX" I was fooling around on the one hand, and I seemed to have something to look forward to on the other.

"Okay, a deposit is required."

Oh, liar, I decisively quit and went to sleep.

.....

However, although I don't think it's reliable, I still hang out in the bar a lot.

Not for anything else, just for that fleeting benefit.

It was a Friday night, and I was bored scrolling through my phone when I suddenly noticed that there was an extra red dot in the private message.

"Brother, do you still need it, you don't need a deposit, but you have to transfer it first."

Scammers are so persistent?

Ma Dan, I'm a big man, what is there to be afraid of, if you don't see anyone, you don't pay, dare to jump, Lao Tzu will call the police!

"Okay, seven o'clock on Saturday night, send me a message when you get to the door."

"Okay."

◇

How can you say it, both expectant and afraid?

On Saturday, I went to the hotel early to open the room, and the room card was in hand, and I could prevent the cactus jumping.

Then, I waited anxiously in my room.

"Go downstairs."

A little nervous, I took a deep breath, looked in the mirror, and went downstairs.

After meeting her, I admit that my previous opinion was too presumptuous.

I was even thinking, what such a beautiful girl needs to do here? A little more vigilant than even the surprise at the beginning.

I looked around first, but I didn't seem to see anyone.

"Let's go up." I pretended to be familiar with the road, but I actually kept an eye on her hand, for fear that she would take out her mobile phone and secretly send a location.

All the way into the elevator, in the mirror opposite the elevator, I took a closer look at her.

Very good-looking, tall, well-proportioned, the only thing I can give a bad review may be that she doesn't have so fair skin?

However, for me, who has been separated from Chen Yao for a long time, my sensibility is greater than my ideal at this time.

She kept her head down, didn't take out her phone, and entered the room.

She said very stiffly: "Brother, you have to transfer money first." ”

No, if you want to lie to me, what should you do if you take the money and run.

Besides, how can there be a transfer transaction for those who do this.

"Cash I carried." I showed her my little bag and hung it by the window.

"You can take it when you go."

She hesitated for a few moments, and then didn't refuse.

In fact, compared to it now, she is really a newcomer and can't be newer.

She didn't even check if the money in my small bag was enough, was it true.

She said that she wanted to take a shower first, but she didn't seem to be too embarrassed to show me, so she silently took the bath towel and walked to the bathroom.

I'm a decent gentleman, in fact, if I don't peek, I will never peek.

I only know that the sound of water is dripping, as if it is dripping on my restless heart.

She came out wrapped in a towel and politely asked me which side of the bed I was lying on.

I jokingly told her to stop lying down and stand, and she stood at the head of the bed with some trembling.

"Okay, just kidding, you can lie wherever you want, I'll rush too."

She nodded, and slipped into the bed before throwing the towel out.

I came out of the bathroom and saw her lying on the bed with her lips pursed, a little afraid to look at me.

I thought to myself, is this really a newcomer?

On the bed, she subconsciously closed her eyes.

Of course, I'm not a man who doesn't understand amorous feelings, and I don't want to rush into the beauty of this night.

Sometimes, chatting is the best way to alleviate embarrassment.

"Don't be so nervous, I'll eat you."

"Hmm~"

"How old are you?"

“21。”

"Four years younger than me, junior, or senior?"

"It's a junior."

While chatting with her, her body trembled slightly all the time, which made me have fun.

We pass by the things that can't be described.

But I must say that nothing happened to us that night.

Because, a gentleman like me tends to mess up when he sees a woman crying.

Her sudden two lines of tears caught me off guard.

"What's wrong?"

"No, it's okay, it's okay, brother, I just can't hold back."

A woman who was also born in northern Jiangsu, has two younger brothers, her father is begging for a living on the construction site, and her mother is working as a farmer at home.

My father fell and injured himself at the construction site, and at the end of the year, he met the contractor again as a scoundrel. After borrowing relatives, she could only rely on odd jobs, and she really couldn't help her family.

Well, this story may be more credible than the one in the bathhouse, perhaps because of the green face and tearful eyes.

"Forget it, you go to the supermarket to buy me a bottle of Jiang Xiaobai, the money is in the bag, take it yourself."

I shook my head, I have been a kind person since I was a child, and this time is no exception.

"No, brother, I'm really sorry, I can."

"Forget it, you go and buy the wine first."

In fact, I also wondered briefly at the time whether this would be a new type of fraud. It is the soft-hearted people like me who have been deceived.

However, when she put on her clothes and only took out a red grandfather from her bag, I think she was probably real.

......

She went out, and I was not interested in going through such a play.

brushed up on Chen Yao's dynamics, she seemed to be about to get engaged.

The object is the son-in-law of the Suzhou Finance Bureau, well, it seems to be very powerful.

Compared with a loser like me, he is indeed more worthy of Chen Yao than me.

Just as she was thinking, she knocked on the door.

"Brother, liquor hurts your body, drink some beer."

She bought me two bottles of Budweiser.

I smiled helplessly, it's okay, it's good to be a wine.

"Let's go, the money in that bag is only four thousand, leave a WeChat for me, and I'll give you the rest."

She froze, as if she hadn't thought I'd make such a move.

"No, brother, I can't ask for it."

I looked at her crampedness, and that kind of green face was very similar to the appearance of Chen Yao when I first met her in college.

"It's okay, brother doesn't miss a few dollars, take it, and then turn off the light."

She didn't leave, but lay down next to me and listened to me tell Chen Yao's story.

It's strange, I'm obviously not drunk,

Even when I'm drunk, I never talk about Chen Yao to others.

She is the dream rooted in Suzhou, and the most perfect person I have met in the best era of my life.

I hate her and I love her.

I've dreamed countless times in my sleep that she knocked on my door and said she was back.

But waking up from a dream only makes me more uncomfortable.

I wandered the bars and clubs, trading my momentary cheerfulness for forgetting her.

In the middle of the process, she went to buy me a few bottles of beer, and she didn't even know where she got a pack of peanuts from.

I had a good amount of alcohol, but that day I was unexpectedly drunk with a few beers.

My head hurt and I slept in bed.

I only heard her say, "Actually, Sister Yaoyao doesn't want you to be like this." ”

◇

Her name is Han Qian, a native of Xuzhou.

What's more, she's barely my schoolgirl.

We became friends that night.

I gave her 30,000 yuan out of the 100,000 yuan I had saved in Suzhou.

And through Haozi, she found a job as a tutor.

Actually, we may not be able to call them friends.

I can't tell how I feel about her, I'll call her to come and pick me up after a late-night work dinner.

He would also rush back from the park to take her to the hospital when she had a high fever.

I went to Xuzhou to visit her father, a very honest middle-aged man, and there seemed to be a bit of a different taste in his eyes when he looked at me.

I started to work again, I was appreciated by my leaders, I had the opportunity to lead the group, and of course, there were more and more dinner parties and more drunken days.

During this period, I learned the news of Chen Yao's marriage, and that day I was like a reckless man at the dinner table, and I drank Party A until I was a brother!

My salary finally seems to have made a breakthrough, and the house I rented has changed from the edge of Suzhou to the park.

Although I still can't afford to buy a house, I always feel that this kind of life is very promising.

However, the wonder of life often comes inadvertently.

The project went wrong, although it was a common tool in the industry.

But existence doesn't mean it's reasonable, and it's my fault that I missed such an item in the review.

It's also a matter of luck that both projects happened to be spot-checked.

As the team leader, I resigned, and the foundation that I had worked hard for four years in Suzhou collapsed.

I came up with the idea of leaving Suzhou, perhaps, I should really follow my family's advice and return to the county seat, although it is not so prosperous, but it can be comfortable.

My mother is the person I value the most, and in the past few years, I have rarely gone back, and it seems that her gray hair has become more and more.

Compared to my failures, Han Qian is very different.

She is a smart and serious girl, she has no worries, she passed the high school teacher qualification in the first half of the year, and now tells me to prepare for the national examination for public officials in the second half of the year.

That day, I booked my ticket home.

She called.

"Brother Chen, I want to invite you to dinner!"

"I said what's wrong?"

She told her the good news.

I said that such a good thing really needs to be celebrated.

In a small shop in Shantang, we booked a table against the window on the second floor.

Speaking of which, this restaurant was still Chen Yao's favorite food at that time, but I was gradually led astray by her later.

Han Qian was wearing a delicate floral dress.

The embarrassment when I first saw her was long gone, and at this moment, her face was just confidence.

"Look at what I brought you!"

She grinned and took out two bottles of Dream 3 from behind her, to be honest, I didn't expect her to have such a big hand.

"It's enough to buy two bottles of Niulanshan, where am I used to drinking this thing."

"Oh, don't worry about it, buy it for you to drink."

In fact, it was raining in Suzhou that day, the smoke and rain were hazy, and there was a bridge outside the window.

She poured me a glass first, then another for herself.

I tried to snatch the cup, but she wouldn't.

"Hmph, I'm a girl from Xuzhou, and I've been drinking since I was a child."

She picked up her glass and clinked glasses with me, then gulped down so hard that I was startled.

Sure enough, no matter how good Dream 3 is, it is not something she drank in such a sip, and the tears choked out looked particularly good on her face.

The dishes were unhurried, and the speed at which I drank was deliberately unpleasant to her.

It was really clever, like the plot of the novel, and we chatted about what happened this year, and she shared with me interesting stories about her life and how happy her parents were when they found out that they had passed the UGC interview.

Then, we all wanted to say something to each other.

"You say, Brother Chen, I'll listen."

In front of me, she has always been willing to sit in the audience, but when the words came to my lips, seeing how happy she was today, I didn't know where to start.

In such a celebratory atmosphere, it is not worth saying anything to spoil the atmosphere.

"Brother Chen, forget Sister Yaoyao, is it okay to be with me."

In fact, since the last hotel experience, we have gotten along very much like friendship, and lovers are not full.

Admittedly, I don't deny that I like her.

In the days after Chen Yao left, I seemed to be used to her presence.

And I even understood that she liked me, perhaps more than I liked her.

I didn't speak, I just said that you eat vegetables and eat vegetables, you drank too much.

She was a little stiff, she just continued to look at me, saying that I was not drunk, I just like Brother Chen, I want to be with you.

She just looked at me like that, with expectation in her clear eyes.

I took a sip of wine.

Actually, I didn't want to be with her.

It's just that I'm not the Chen Ling who can come to Suzhou over and over again for Chen Yao and just graduated.

As a result of the project, I was no longer able to mingle in the Suzhou design community.

No company will ask me again after a background investigation, and my years of hard work have been in vain.

It meant I had to start all over again.

And I, what to do to compete again.

When I first graduated, I could show up at the door of the company with an enthusiastic heart, rain or shine, just to make a good impression in front of the leaders.

Suzhou, Suzhou, it is said that there is heaven and Suzhou and Hangzhou, but it is more like a goddess who can only be viewed from a distance and cannot be blasphemed.

I didn't have the courage or the energy to start all over again to stay in the city for a woman.

◇

"Actually, do you know, Brother Chen, I really like you so much."

"You're the best person I've ever met in my life, and I want to be with you!"

"I can make money now, now I am admitted to the high school teaching qualifications, and when I graduate next year, when I have a stable job, we can save money together, I will cook for you, and then we will buy a house in Suzhou."

"Let's be together, okay?"

It's rare to see her so flattering to me.

But what can I say?

I'm afraid, I'm afraid she will be the second Chen Yao.

I was also afraid of going through another period of depravity.

If I were still Chen Ling, who had just graduated, if nothing happened to the project......

But how can there be so many ifs, Chen Yao has not yet entered the society, she may still be the simple Chen Yao on campus.

But I don't know when this cannibalistic society will turn her into like Chen Yao.

After all, when Chen Yao and I walked out of campus, we also looked forward to the future.

I didn't speak, she just kept looking at me.

As I said, I have always had no resistance to a woman's tears, and seeing that she was already biting her lip, I nodded.

Actually, maybe you shouldn't be deceived by this kind of lie.

But that was the only thing I could say at the time.

If I told her that I had booked a ticket to go back tomorrow.

If, I told her, I would never stay in Suzhou again.

Will she be hot-headed, give up her family roots, and leave with me?

I don't want that, she still has a bright future, she still has a family to bear,

And I also have the expectations of my parents, and the age when I am gradually growing up.

I nodded, and she was as happy as a child asking for candy.

She couldn't wait to take my hand.

"I'm going to post a circle of friends."

"I'm finally with my brother Chen."

What a Xuzhou girl, it's not the same when you're drunk.

◇

A few months of drinking has already upgraded my already large amount of alcohol.

I helped her out of the hotel.

Listen to her chant my name along the way.

The rain is still falling.

I took a taxi to take her back.

The driver is a talkative Suzhou big brother.

"Yo, little couple? Going to the hotel? ”

"No, go XX"

"Howler. Buckle up your seatbelts. ”

In the car, Han Qian hugged my hand like an octopus.

She was humming in the car, and she could hear the joy.

The driver asked her what was wrong, and she said proudly.

"I have a boyfriend, this is my boyfriend, Chen Ling!"

Then he looked at me with a slightly drunken face.

"Kiss it."

The traffic outside the window, the neon flashing, shone on my dilemma.

In fact, to be honest, Han Qian and I actually kissed,

On the day she and I first met, in the hotel bed.

It's just that she was obviously young and nervous that time

And this time, it's me who is afraid.

All her feelings melted into the kiss of this day

I didn't have any scruples at all, and the driver's eldest brother had a look that I understood.

The sound of the rain outside is still,

it, that's my last thought.

Intense kisses can often arouse the desire in a person's body.

I was never a saint, more often than not, I was honest about my body

What's more, alcohol is that strong catalyst

Back at the house in the park, she was already drunk, almost hanging on top of me into the room

I want to make her some honey water, which is a habit I've cultivated over the years.

She grabbed my hand stiffly, "Brother Chen, don't go." ”

At that moment, I was shaken.

Xiao Peng is now a middle-level game company, and the master who took me before also wanted to take me with him when he left.

I seem to have a room for it. As long as I am willing to fight hard, perhaps, I may not be able to gain a foothold in Suzhou again.

Han Qian was lying on the bed, and the alcohol made her face flushed.

I bowed my head and kissed her.

The first time I saw her, I wanted to sleep with her,

This time, it was she who wanted to sleep with me.

.....

"What time will I get home tomorrow, I went to the street to buy Muzi chicken and husband and wife lung slices, do you want to eat snow peas, or mix a hundred leaves."

Half past ten in the evening.

WeChat brought my mind back to reality.

In fact, waiting for me is not only Han Qian, but also the mother who is looking forward to my return at home.

Years away from home,

In fact, the county seat that can accommodate me the most is still that county.

I don't smoke because Chen Yao said she doesn't like the smell of smoking

I sat on the edge of the bed and watched Han Qian all night.

I edited a long list of messages for her and then deleted them word by word.

People who are leaving, no matter how much they say, it seems like an excuse, doesn't it?

"I'm going back, take care."

At six o'clock in the morning, I cautiously walked out of the house

When Chen Yao left, she left behind a rental house that was renewed for another year

When I left, I was left with Han Qian with a rental house for three months.....