"What?"

The moment this thought appeared, Xiao Huan suddenly woke up, and he was covered in cold sweat.

He was almost the most sluggish for the first time in his life, but after reacting, he entered the state of thinking explosion in the most panic, quickly analyzed his current spirit and psychology, and then became more and more shocked: "Why did I suddenly have such a thought?" Naturally, there was an idea that maybe dying would solve all the problems......"

The mood has been extremely gloomy, and I actually feel that death has become the only thing that still has color.

"I'm being affected in some way?"

"Is it this influence that has made me feel the difference I have now?"

"This is the power that can make me lose all my joy, liveliness, and pleasure, and only my dark mood?"

“……”

Xiao Huan quickly analyzed in his heart, and even hesitated whether to continue to move forward.

At this moment, his mobile phone suddenly rang, and he almost needed to muster up a lot of motivation before he was willing to pick up the phone, as if he knew that the information from the mobile phone was very important at this time, but he didn't bother to look at it, because he felt that there was nothing in the world that he needed to care about or care about: "You have entered the radiation range, please act carefully." ”

"When necessary, you can quit."

“……”

Xiao Huan only noticed at this time that there were no more living people in the wards on both sides of the surrounding area.

It seems that it is precisely because of this that Mr. Ye cannot communicate with himself with the help of other people's mouths, and can only send messages.

"Do you want to quit?"

Xiao Huan hesitated, but continued to walk forward.

He also determined the horror of this radiation power, but the ability to explode thoughts could help him alleviate it a little.

The power of this emotional radiation is like polluting a blank sheet of paper.

A long time ago, Xiao Huan found that the explosion of his thinking was like endlessly stretching this blank paper, so that it would not be completely covered.

So he tensed his mind and went deeper step by step, clearly feeling his emotions falling into the endless abyss.

Gradually, even though he had reacted and begun to deliberately fight against this invisible pollution, he still felt that his mood was becoming more and more depressed, and everything he could perceive became gray and pale, and everything was tasteless, but instead piled up into a thick, terrifying cloud, cutting off all the sunshine and rain, leaving only a gloomy gray and gloomy pressure on his heart.

Death became the only temptation.

It's like being locked in an airtight dark room, and every second becomes as long as ten years and a hundred years.

Death is the only key out of this dark room.

After he took a few steps, he even stepped backwards, untied his silver pistol and dagger, and placed them in the corner.

I didn't dare to move on with these things, for fear that this thirst for death would lead me to shoot myself.

In this way, he endured an endless sense of repression, against the "desire for death" that had become a real and only desire, and walked towards the end of the corridor little by little, before that, he could not even understand that "death" could become as strong as "hunger" and "sexual desire", occupying the most important position of his soul, as if forming a "redemption" meaning.

The gloom that had accumulated in my heart had turned into complete darkness.

He even felt that every time he moved, it was so difficult, and his body felt like it had been taken over by the darkness, stiff and cold.

Even the body is already longing for death, but the spirit is still supporting it in pain and suffering......

The nosebleed slowly came out.

This is a phenomenon that Xiao Huan has even used his ability to explode his mind to the extreme.

If it weren't for the ability to explode his mind, he didn't know how long he would have lasted, and he might have shot himself a long time ago.

But it was at this point that he finally came to the end of the hallway.

Turning stiffly, he saw a person sitting in a chair in the center of an empty room on the left.

The door to the ward was not opened, or rather, it was torn down.

It was just open, and in the empty room, there was only a plastic chair, on which the figure sat quietly.

He was wearing a black dress, but strangely, Xiao Huan was sure that he was a man.

His slender arms, resting on top of his knees, were covered with knife marks.

[Forbidden Things: Death Favorers]

[Hazard Level: Class A]

[Description: In the gray and boring world, death has become the only sweet candy]

【……】

"A-grade?"

Xiao Huan couldn't help but be slightly shocked in his heart.

It was the first time he had seen an A-class special item.

No, it's not the first time, it seems that the little girl from the Rotten Kingdom I saw before is also A-grade.

But for Xiao Huan, when she saw the little girl at that time, because she didn't understand, she was not afraid enough, and the sense of impact she brought to herself at that time was far less than the deep depression and gloomy sense of despair exuded from the man in front of her.

"This is the woman you are talking about? But he's obviously a man......"

He muttered to himself and asked Mr. Ye.

At this moment, the mobile phone rang, located next to this woman, the mobile phone ringtone was extremely dull and sluggish, as if hearing this ringtone across the sea, Xiao Huan picked up the phone with his clumsy limbs, and only then did he hear Mr. Ye's words:

"Yes, it's her, there's nothing wrong with that."

"He is the only A-class aberrant creature in Blackgate City in recent years that has not been cleaned up."

“……”

"A-class aberrant creatures?"

Xiao Huan was even more surprised: "Even the Rotten Kingdom is only a B-level aberration thing. ”

"Yes."

The microphone was obviously close to his ear, but Mr. Ye's voice seemed to come from the sky: "The elder and I discovered her a long time ago, but we didn't clean her up, because of some special circumstances, she controlled herself and didn't release the distortion effect, but because of this, she became the biggest threat to the entire Black Gate City, not only to us, but also to the Hell Organization." ”

"It's just that she's too uncontrollable, so I don't have the ability to take advantage of her threat."

“……”

Xiao Huan sighed deeply and said, "So, you want me to try?" ”

Mr. Ye said, "You are the president, and you are qualified to decide whether to use her or get rid of her. ”

Xiao Huan was slightly silent, countless thoughts quickly flashed through his mind, and then made a decision in a very short time.

There was no word, just three eyes of the Seeker, and they quickly glanced at the man.

The ability of the insightful person was undoubtedly revealed at this moment, as the three eyes observed, and then overlapped, he saw the little spiritual power released under the huge emotional radiation on this man's body, and then began to analyze this spiritual power, as in this man, began the dual flow of space and time, but there would not be so much pressure.

Under normal circumstances, Xiao Huan will have great load and pressure to exert this ability in reality, or at the city level, because he is looking back at the time and space of the entire city, but for a single person, the load and pressure are much less.

One of the third stage of the Insight's abilities, perhaps called it: Mental Profiling?

Looking back at the city level, I am profiling the spiritual power of this city level, and now, I am profiling the individual.

……

……

Everything around him suddenly became illusory, and Xiao Huan saw a period of life:

In this nursing home, where the facilities are already a little backward, some special patients are often sent, there are middle-aged men who can always hear fantasies and auditory hallucinations, and there are women who always can't control their temper, but as nurses in this hospital, they are all used to it, especially a girl who always loves to laugh and seems to be bathed in the sun, and she is the most patient with them.

The girl always smiled at everyone, especially the boy who was still young.

For some reason, the boy fell into deep depression, he was sent here by his family because he repeatedly cut his wrists or swallowed sleeping pills, and the responsibility of the hospital is to take care of him, cure him, and avoid one day, he really succeeded in committing suicide.

The young female nurse took good care of him, chatted with him, brought him small gifts, and talked to him about movies.

The boy knew that she wanted to arouse his desire to survive, and he also explained to the girl very calmly, explaining that he had always been gloomy in the spiritual world, explaining that in this world, there was no longer anything worthy of his concern, not hypocrisy, but really could only feel this gloomy thing, and he tried all the methods, but he couldn't make himself happy, and he was depressed.

"It's so painful, I just want to finish."

He explained it all calmly, not even asking her to understand.

"I understand."

The girl replied with a smile: "Depression, that's it, as long as you take the medicine on time, you can always cure yourself, and after curing yourself, you can feel happy again, these gloomy emotions, the tide of despair, will disappear." ”

The boy remained silent and did not hold out hope.

Because even if he came to the hospital, he had several suicide attempts, so the hospital also treated him as a thorn in the head, staring at him all the time, so the girl could only use a killer trick on him after persuading him a few times, she pitifully held his palm, and said: "Now you are under my control, you can't harm me, if you die, my hope of promotion and salary increase will be ruined." ”

The boy closed his eyes silently, he really couldn't bear to ruin her future.

Because this sunny girl has a clear plan for her life, she wants to go to work, she wants to make money, she wants to marry a particularly handsome husband in the future, have three children, raise a dog, raise a cat, and live the happiest and beautiful life......

He envied this warm and bright life, and he couldn't bear to destroy it.

So he is also enduring it, even if the desire for death always quietly comes out of his mind, he also endures.

Can't be sorry for this girl, she has always been good to herself.

However, this kind of patience is powerless, the world is getting darker and darker, so gray that I am always out of breath, the gray precipitation is a little bit, and even begins to become darkness, a strong darkness that cannot be dissolved, controlling my body, so stiff, numb, as if even breathing has become a luxury, as if every second of despair is enough to weigh a ton, and it is accumulating.

Death became the only sweet candy.

That temptation gradually overwhelmed everything, and it still made him want to chase it impatiently.

After another attempt, he almost fell into a peaceful sleep, but he was still found and rescued.

When he was lying on the hospital bed, he saw the girl again, the girl changed into civilian clothes, a small black dress, her face looked very pale, he only realized after seeing this girl, he realized that he seemed to have not seen her for a long time, she became thinner.

"Why do you want to die?"

She held his palm with an angry expression: "So many people want to live, why do you have to seek death?" ”

He was powerless to explain because he lost the desire to explain.

Then the girl looked at his expression and suddenly reached out and plucked her hair.

She originally had thick and beautiful hair, but at this time she actually became a bald head, and tears welled up in her red eyes: "I want to live, I haven't married yet, I don't have my own children, I only know overtime and work every day, I haven't even raised a puppy of my own, but I'm going to die, the doctor said that my disease can't be cured, I'm going to die......"

He hadn't felt shocked for a long time, and his emotions were like a lake of stagnant water, never wavering.

But at this time, there was a ripple uncontrollably, and he looked at the girl in disbelief.

"How I want to live......"

The girl held his palm, and tears of fear flowed from her eyes: "But I don't have a chance to live anymore." ”

"You have a chance to live, but why don't you?"

"This is the last time I'll come to see you, will you promise me?"

"Don't look for death again, just think of it, fulfill that desire to live for me, okay?"

“……”

“……”

He hasn't seen a girl since.

I asked other nurses, but all I saw was regret.

But whenever the night's surging despair came, he could always see the girl's red eyes, and see her crying and begging him to let him live her share of life, so he felt an unprecedented pressure, and could only hold on.

It's painful to be alive, but you don't have the power to end it.

Because he promised that girl, he could only keep his promise and live in this world for her.

This sanatorium has found a turning point: "The most difficult one in the hospital is the guy who thinks about suicide at every turn, as if he lives to commit suicide, and now he seems to have become well-behaved, he used to make trouble every once in a while, which made everyone unable to prevent it, but now he asked the doctor for a small black dress, and every time he is sick, he will wear this dress." ”

"Then he won't commit suicide again, just sit there quietly and wait for the urge to die to pass."

"That little skirt is more useful than a restraint belt......"

(End of chapter)