Chapter 196: Maybe I'm a Monster (6,000 words)
Mr. Ye's words made Yang Jia stunned for a while, not knowing what to say, and even felt a little absurd.
Aboriginal, foreigner......
After waking up, isn't it a stranger?
She didn't even understand why Mr. Ye would say such strange things, after all, she had never noticed that Xiao Huan was different from others...... Except for the occasional behavior that he can't understand, he occasionally seems to have a bit of mental health problems, but this phenomenon is very common among strangers, especially Xiao Huan discovered it himself and led it into this world.
What is the problem for those who have personally brought in, personally guided, and grown up under the watchful eye?
"Before that, everyone thought that it was the stranger who woke up."
As if he understood that Yang Jia would have doubts in this regard, Mr. Ye said softly: "That's because no one has ever encountered this situation." ”
"But can you recall what it was like when you woke up?"
“……”
As soon as Yang Jiawei was silent, she immediately remembered the details of the beginning.
No stranger can forget the wonderful feeling of that time.
"Like waking up from a big dream, suddenly realizing that you are different from other people, realizing the falsehood of this world, and even having a serious sense of rejection, from the moment of awakening, the feeling of being out of place has always existed, and the loneliness of strangers penetrates deep into the soul, until you meet your own kind, until you learn to get along with the aborigines with a false face, and only slightly alleviate your ......"
“……”
"That's probably the problem."
Mr. Ye slowly explained in a gentle electronic voice: "We rarely doubt our own cognition, even if there are people in Dante's organization who take the aboriginal perspective as the main body and understand the world, they are only trying to find some loopholes, and the ultimate purpose of their doctrine is actually to falsify, just to prove the falsity of the world from the perspective of the aborigines." ”
"But what if it's actually because our perception has been distorted?"
"What if there is another kind of person, someone who has really entered a foreign land from the identity of the aborigines, who can see the same things as us, feel the creep of the city, and use the strengthening elements, but what if he has always been a member of the aborigines?"
"All strangers are awakened after being chosen by a mysterious source."
"But what if there is a person who enters our world while maintaining his own will?"
“……”
Yang Jia has always been a very firm and rational image.
But now listening to Mr. Ye's words, she couldn't help frowning, and suddenly interrupted, "What do you want to say?" ”
"I want to tell him what is different from us."
Mr. Ye said: "He is fundamentally different from a foreigner. ”
"With my current understanding of the will of the city and the strangers, I can't clearly explain the difference, but I can feel a sense of crisis, I don't know what he will bring, but when I saw that the mysterious guide helped him awaken and sent him to our circle, I realized that maybe the fate of Black Gate City is different from what we thought."
“……”
Yang Jia suddenly realized the key: "You recognized him when you first met him, which means that you already knew him?" ”
Mr. Ye was slightly silent: "I knew him when the Black Forest Pioneer Program began. ”
“……”
Yang Jia's face changed drastically in an instant.
What Mr. Ye said, if you refer to the four years ago when Xiao Huan started to have headaches, the problem is even more terrible than he thought.
Four years ago, the old president was still alive, and he hadn't even woken up yet.
And Mr. Ye is so loyal to the old president, which means that four years ago, Mr. Ye knew about this plan and knew that there was such a person as Xiao Huan in this plan, so the old president, the old president he respected the most, must also know this.
She didn't even notice it, and her voice trembled a little: "What does the old man want to do?" ”
"As you know."
Mr. Ye said, "The old man's idea has always been to build a Noah's ship and take everyone out. ”
"He thought so four years ago, and four years later, he still thinks so, but when the elder found the mysterious path a year ago and learned more about the truth about this world, I think he should have discovered something that shook him, but before he could tell me, before he could adjust his plan, he was forced by the Hell Group to destroy himself."
"It is precisely because he has concealed some secrets, so even if he leaves a complete plan after his death, we cannot carry out this plan in his place, so we can only wait, waiting for the mysterious path to send us a new president......"
"But on the contrary, I found out that this new president is the product of the most regrettable event that the old president participated in back then."
“……”
After saying this in one breath, Mr. Ye paused slightly, and there seemed to be a sigh in the electronic voice.
"That's what I'm going to tell you."
"I have to admit that now I feel very lost!"
“……”
“……”
"I'm a monster indeed......"
Xiao Huan looked at his father's frightened eyes, and only a complicated, emotionally unknown smile appeared on his face.
He had seen this frightened expression on many people's faces, but he didn't care, and even enjoyed it, but now, it was his father who showed this expression to himself, so he also had a feeling of confusion, hated this expression, and felt that his angry scolding was a little harsh, but there were countless words to say, and he could only laugh: "But who made a monster like me?" ”
"You ......"
Seeing Xiao Huan face such a curse, a smile appeared on his face, and Xiao's father became scared like chaff.
He seemed to have lost all his spiritual energy at once, and pleaded bitterly:
"Anyway, please, I'm sorry for you, but your brother has nothing to do with it......"
"Please, spare your brother......"
“……”
"Brother......
The feeling of annoyance in Xiao Huan's heart was even stronger, and he almost let himself lose control of his expression.
Why is there always a situation where both sides can't even talk properly and can always push themselves to the point of collapse?
He could hear himself laughing and asking, "If I'm a monster, then what brother do I have?" ”
"If I'm human, why do you ask me such a question?"
“……”
"What the hell do you want?"
Father Xiao also shouted, with a kind of hysterical madness on his face: "I'm your father, do you really have to kill me, kill your brother?" You killed Ming Ming without blinking an eye, he is also a living person, but you killed his uncle in front of your brother like that, you don't treat people as human beings at all, and you still say that you are not a monster? ”
"I understand why the Black Goat Club is afraid of you......"
"They were so scared that they wanted to expel me because you became a monster......"
"You still look like a human being on the outside, but inside you have long since become a monster, a crazy monster."
"You even want to kill your father, and you want to kill your innocent brother......"
“……”
"I haven't yet......"
Xiao Huan tried hard to explain, still with that chaotic expression on his face: "Who can make this kind of decision so quickly?" ”
"Why are you rushing to make a decision now?"
"You sold me without asking me at the beginning, and now you want to force me to make a decision?"
“……”
Father Xiao gasped deeply, probably, probably, just because he was not an insight, so he couldn't feel Xiao Huan's pain and chaos at this time, in his eyes, the smile on Xiao Huan's face, and even the pain in his eyes, was just a terrible and distorted expression, his reason had already collapsed, and now it was all of a sudden, completely slid into the abyss.
He thought of his son, and even the most difficult decision in his heart suddenly became easier.
"Monsters, monsters, madmen, madmen......"
He yelled, "You're not my son, you're just a monster in my son's human skin, you're a monster!" ”
He shouted loudly, frantically, something like that.
Then he stared at Xiao Huan with his eyes dead, and slapped a button on the top of his office drawer.
In the process of doing this action, his eyes kept staring at Xiao Huan.
Brutal pleasure can be seen faintly.
Father Xiao has been in pain lately.
He made that decision four years ago, although in his understanding, he has never had the right to choose, and he has been worried and worried for a long time in his heart, but, because there were no consequences for a while, he almost forgot about these things, he just saw that Xiao Huan felt a little headache during that time, but other than that, it didn't seem to be a big change.
When he was taken to the Black Forest, the other party only told him in disappointment that the potion did not react and that the plan was aborted.
And he successfully divorced, formed a new family, and successfully avoided this son, and occasionally heard news from him, but only said that this son, who had good grades, had suspended school and only hid at home to play games every day, and the whole person was abolished.
I don't care too much, after all, I have a young son.
Time passed like this, and it seemed that everything could be diluted.
He didn't even mind meeting his eldest son on his birthday, although this meeting was also because his ex-wife kept talking on the phone, and he also felt that it was a bit too much for him not to see his eldest son for four years, so he agreed...... Of course, a more important reason is that the Black Goat Club is asking him about the old house, and he needs to ask the mother and son......
The Black Goat Club's request can't help but agree, after all, their current business and connections are all related to them.
But it was this meeting that vaguely made him feel a little wrong.
At the beginning, this eldest son seemed to have nothing to do, except for being silent, there was nothing unusual about ordinary people, but it wasn't until a real gun fell out of his body that he suddenly became alarmed, and the feeling of fear emerged little by little.
Then, after the misunderstanding in the hospital, he saw the mysterious ability shown by this eldest son, and learned that this eldest son did not hesitate to kill, and he suddenly realized that there was really some terrible change, which came from the cause four years ago.
He began to be afraid, hid in the Black Goat Club, and began to understand the fear of this eldest son, he learned that this eldest son, who had not been out for four years, in a very short period of time, joined the underground dark world from a dock worker, and even mixed into a gang leader, he ignored the law, killed people like hemp, and even unknowingly, mixed into the top of that mysterious organization.
This sense of fear has accumulated in my heart day and night.
The Black Goat Club was originally his last sense of security, and when the Black Forest staff directly stated that they were completely unable to protect themselves, the promise of the Black Goat Club was always his last hope, until the owner behind the Black Goat Club suddenly drove himself out with the smell of schadenfreude and faced this terrible monster by himself.
He knew that the eldest son had sent a lot of people to look for him, and he couldn't hide it.
Therefore, he also had to prepare.
Against someone neither the Black Forest nor the Black Goat Club could play against, he was not prepared for anything else.
I can only think that I can just keep my little son.
Therefore, his preparation was only to put a bomb in his drawer, and use what he learned in the Black Goat Club, as well as some small objects, to place some equipment next to the bomb that can disturb electromagnetic waves so as not to be discovered.
He didn't really mind detonating.
Because he was at the Black Goat Club, he heard a lot about these people.
In their hands, death will be the most painful outcome.
Anyway, this madman won't spare himself, so, in order to protect his children, this result is already perfect, right?
……
……
The moment the bomb was activated, Xiao Huan saw his father's eyes.
As an insight, he saw fear, determination, and fatherly love in his eyes.
Of course, the last emotion has nothing to do with me.
After his father pressed the button, the eye of the discerning person had already seen the bomb and the numbers beating rapidly on it, and his heart naturally immediately understood his father's intentions, and there was an unimaginable sense of absurdity, which appeared in the bottom of his heart......
What did this long-lost conversation tell me?
told yourself that you became a stranger, but there is actually a reason behind it?
Telling yourself about becoming a stranger, even from the perspective of aborigines, is there a reasonable logic?
So, is it true that what you see as an aboriginal represents reality, or does it mean that what you see as a foreigner represents reality?
The bomb jumped quickly towards the critical point of the explosion, but Xiao Huan entered a state of mental explosion.
Everything seemed to have come to a standstill, including the digital bounce of the bomb, and the roar of the father.
In this stagnant time, Xiao Huan silently pondered:
According to Yang Jia, the world has always been false, just a pile of meaningless flesh and blood, I could have not cared about these at all, but sometimes I can't control my emotions, I am good to my mother because my mother is good to me, this father is not very good to me, but at this moment, why do I still feel empty in my heart?
It doesn't seem to matter if it's real or not......
He listened to the sound of the bomb beating for a long time, and his heart was silently relieved:
If everything I have experienced is just a collective fantasy of madmen, then, in reality, I am actually powerless to change the logic of reality, and this bomb explodes so close to me, there is no doubt that I will die.
After all, the power of fantasy can pollute others, but it cannot change reality.
But if the world of strangers is real, everything in this world is just an extension of flesh and blood.
Then I can survive.
Because, that means, whether it's this room or this bomb, the essence is just flesh and blood, and living matter.
"Hoo ......"
Xiao Huan exhaled slowly, his eyes became confused, and he began to feel the city.
When the Hell Organization began to attack Black Gate City, the city gave itself a privilege, as a lord, he could become the center of the city for a short time, and he could transfer the flesh and blood under his feet, change, and send himself to another place, and now, it was less than two hours before the Hell Organization retreated, this privilege still exists, and he still has the ability to transfer himself.
So, in the state of explosive thinking, he took advantage of this ability after thinking about it for a long time.
And in the normal flow of time, the floor under Xiao Huan's feet, and the surrounding walls, suddenly began to melt.
Everything in reality has become wriggling flesh and blood, and the rules of physics can be easily broken in front of the essence of flesh and blood, Xiao Huan sat still, but the flesh and blood under his feet already had the ability to send him out of this office and out of the office.
And this also shows that the city is just a lump of flesh and blood for itself.
The aborigines are just puppets, and everything they think and think is essentially meaningless.
Feeling these changes, Xiao Huan relieved himself and reached out to grab his father's arm.
Before the bomb exploded, he still had to take him out.
But his face suddenly frightened.
He grabbed his father's arm, but suddenly found that he was unusually heavy and solid, and he couldn't pull him, even the butcher's chainsaw could chop everything, but in the face of that perverted boy's sports car, he was a little powerless, and now he felt that it was easy to do everything, but he couldn't pull his father who was shouting madly in front of him.
It's like a ghost that can't move the living.
Like the people in fantasy, they can't affect the slightest thing in reality.
The next moment, Xiao Huan immediately focused his attention on the bomb, wanting to turn the bomb into a mass of flesh and blood.
Equally unable to succeed, everything is proceeding with a logic of reality that cannot be interfered with.
Xiao Huan closed his eyes in pain, and the next moment, he suddenly disappeared from the office and was sent outside the building by flesh and blood.
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"Bang!"
A violent explosion suddenly sounded from that office, the terrifying explosion power and air flow tore through the surrounding walls and table halls, the entire office was torn to pieces, huge flames gushed out of the windows, and even the other floor of the building, Xiao's father's wife and his son, who were sitting in panic in the conference room at the very end, closed their eyes in horror in this huge shaking.
It took them a long time before they realized what had happened and rushed out of the conference room.
only saw that the office had been blown to pieces, and the flames were burning spontaneously, without the slightest breath of life.
Only outside that office, I saw Xiao Huan sitting on an office chair with wheels, silently bowing his head.
"Old Xiao ......"
"Daddy......"
She and the child both screamed in horror, heartbreaking, this moment of fear almost made them break through the fear of Xiao Huan, this woman actually wanted to rush towards Xiao Huan, desperately screaming: "What did you do? You're really crazy, you can kill your father...... You're the devil, you monster, how dare you do such a thing to your father......"
Xiao Huo was loud for a long time before he raised his head, just glancing in her direction.
The eyes are red.
He didn't have any expression on his face, just looked at her for a long time, and then suddenly showed a weird smile and nodded lightly:
"yes, I do ......"
“……”
The woman and the child were shocked by this smile at the same time, as if they had lost their souls.
Even these thugs who were hired as helpers were frightened by Xiao Huan's smile at this time, and no one dared to say a word.
As for Xiao Huan, he seemed to suddenly become interested, he pursed the corners of his mouth, didn't say a word, and didn't even look at the fat man in Tang costume who greeted him, just got up directly and pressed the downward button of the elevator in front of him...... The elevator did not react, and was hit by the explosion just now, and there was a malfunction, but Xiao Huan's expression suddenly became angry, and he slapped the elevator button.
The elevator suddenly ran normally and soon appeared in front of him.
Xiao Huan entered the elevator and went straight down, never looking back at the scene of the explosion or at anyone.
……
……
"He killed Xiao Zhigong?"
In the secret stronghold of a club in Blackgate, the shepherds and the special investigators of the Black Forest Biolaboratory learned the news, and they all fell into a stunned stupor, and after a long time, they sighed in a terrifying tone: "It's crazy......"
"Does the power of the mother have such a deep impact on people?"
“……”
"How could he be so cruel?"
The voice of the short-haired woman in the suit was full of fear: "How can such a person be controlled as you wish?" ”
"I would even argue that he was the most failed drug tester in the history of the Black Forest......"
“……”
"How is that possible?"
The shepherd also reacted for a long time before he laughed and said, "I don't think it's anything compared to the pain he endured." ”
"Perhaps, only such a person can really find his fourth element......"
“…… Got higher privileges from the mother, right? ”
“……”
“……”
"Where are you now?"
When Yang Jia called, Xiao Huan was walking aimlessly on the street, letting the horn around him sound chaotically.
"Me?"
He could hear the nervousness in Yang Jia's voice, but he was a little powerless to care where the nervousness came from.
Some mechanically replied, "I just met my dad." ”
"Your dad?"
Yang Jia was obviously taken aback, and subconsciously said, "What did you say?" ”
"It was just a fight."
Xiao Huanmu said: "Just like many quarrels between fathers and sons, no one can convince anyone. ”
Yang Jia listened to his calm tone incomprehensibly: "And then?" ”
Xiao Huan was slightly silent, and replied slowly: "He's dead." ”
(End of chapter)