Lu Zhiyuan was a little confused, why could Gu Ziyu see him? How can a two-year-old child, who has never seen his father since he was a child, recognize him? Gu Ziyu frowned, "I fell off the horse and came back." ”

Lu Zhiyuan was surprised, and wanted to hug him, but found that he still couldn't touch Gu Ziyu, for fear of making noise to Gu Ci, he took Gu Ziyu to the outside of the courtyard, Gu Ziyu sat on the steps, stroking the scars on his arms, the knife wounds healed relatively slowly, he was young, and his pain tolerance was not good, he only felt very painful, and he could only comfort himself.

"Do you come back often?" Lu Zhiyuan asked.

Gu Ziyu nodded, "I don't know why, I always come back frequently, occasionally in a dream, occasionally faint suddenly, and come back here." ”

He looked around at the familiar courtyard, where he had lived for many years, and who was familiar with every plant and tree, and every time he came over, he would repeat what he had experienced as a child, and if he wanted to change something, or say something, he would leave immediately.

Gu Ziyu basically found the law.

Even if he comes back, he can only passively bear the pain here, and he can't resist, once he resists and leaves, he feels sorry for Gu Ci, and he becomes powerless because of his weakness, so he can't see it many times, and he doesn't want to relive the nightmare of his childhood, so he always leaves resolutely.

Childhood is like a huge net, trapping his past and present lives, he has no way to change it, and he doesn't want to suffer again, he can't do anything if he wants to save the people in the abyss, he can only flee, hide, he can't change anything, he can only watch Gu Ci suffer.

"Mom must be worried." Gu Ziyu said with annoyance, "We are all here, there must be unconscious over there, my mother must be in a hurry, I want to go back, Dad, what about you?" ”

Lu Zhiyuan glanced back at the bedroom on the second floor, Gu Ci was lying there like a puppet, the walking dead, he couldn't turn a blind eye, he wanted to do something.

He also wanted to know what had happened to Gu Ci during these days.

"I can't find my way back." Lu Zhiyuan said lightly, "Ziyu, has your mother always abused you like this?" ”

He has seen the scars on Gu Ziyu's body, the scars accumulated over the years are permanently engraved on his skin, he can't erase it, and he can't hide it, Gu Ziyu not only has to suffer from Gu Ci's abuse, but also Gu Chuyun's, he has to experience everything that he shouldn't have experienced at a young age.

"Hmm!"

Gu Ziyu lowered his head in frustration, Li Jiang only saw the little young master sitting alone on the steps, lonely, very pitiful, but he didn't see who Gu Ziyu was talking to.

"Don't blame Mom!" Lu Zhiyuan reached out to stroke his head, knowing that he couldn't touch it, he still had an urge to appease his son, "She's sick, don't blame her." ”

Gu Ziyu looked at Lu Zhiyuan with a very confused gaze, and suddenly smiled.

"I really was an accident, my mother is the person you care about the most." Gu Ziyu's smile was a little strange, after his father knew about his injury, the first thing he said was don't blame his mother, she was sick.

"Am I a child born by accident?" Gu Ziyu asked bluntly and calmly, "You are destined to have no children, are you surprised when you know that there is my existence, I guess too, my mother only has you in her heart, if you leave, she will go crazy, she doesn't remember that she has a son at all, she can hurt me wantonly, and you ...... You only have mom in your heart, and you don't love me. ”

Lu Zhiyuan's heart trembled, "Ziyu, you misunderstood." ”

"I wasn't mistaken!" Gu Ziyu said, "Or, you don't love me enough, you see how Gu Chuyun treats me, and you also see how my mother treats me." Back then, you saw the scars on my body, those old wounds, you didn't ask me, whether it hurt or not. Those scars are too old, I can still understand that you don't care at all, after all, it's been a long time. But today, what my mother did to me, how Gu Chuyun treated me, you also saw it in your eyes, Dad, did you care about me? ”

Lu Zhiyuan must admit that love is sorted, and in his heart, it must be Gu Ci first. But this doesn't mean that he doesn't love Ziyu, he also feels sorry for everything Ziyu has suffered, this scene happened under his nose, he could only watch, he couldn't do anything, he was also frustrated and annoyed, but in the face of Ziyu, he couldn't say too sensational words.

"Forget it, I don't really care." Gu Ziyu laughed at himself, "It's hypocritical!" ”

The two-year-old child's voice was very immature, but he pronounced the words clearly, and Lu Zhiyuan listened to it like a knife.

He remembered that Gu Ziyu stretched his head, reluctantly looking at the direction of Ji Hui's departure, he should have longed in his heart for Ji Hui to stay with him and take care of him, his attachment and dependence on Ji Hui was visible to the naked eye.

It was he and Gu Ci's dereliction of duty that caused Ziyu's unfortunate childhood.

"Gu Ziyu, I feel sorry for everything Gu Ci has suffered, I also feel sorry for everything you have suffered, there is no parent in the world who will not love their children, Xiao Ci and you are the most important people in my life." Lu Zhiyuan said in a deep voice, "Dad also loves you, this kind of love may be different for Mom, but Dad is also willing to use everything he has to exchange for your peace and growth." ”

Including his life!

This is the first time Gu Ziyu has heard Lu Zhiyuan say that he loves him.

He always felt that Lu Zhiyuan didn't love him!

When he first knew his identity, Lu Zhiyuan was the third master, he had no emotion, and he had no concept of family affection, he was cold to everything, and when he recovered his memory, although Lu Zhiyuan would cultivate a father-son relationship with him, maybe there would be feelings, but not much!

Lu Zhiyuan's mood is stable and decisive, except for Gu Ci's affairs, nothing can make him mess up, so Gu Ziyu has always felt that his father doesn't love him.

"Ziyu, if you want to go back, you can go back." Lu Zhiyuan said, "Dad wants to stay here for a while, you go back and report to Mom that you are safe, so that she doesn't have to worry about what happened to you and don't have to suffer anymore." ”

If Ziyu comes back repeatedly and encounters these things repeatedly, it is not good for the child!

"What are you doing here, you can't do anything but watch." Gu Ziyu said anxiously, "If you do something and change the direction of your fate, will my mother and I still exist in that world?" ”

Lu Zhiyuan chuckled, "Don't worry, it'll be fine." ”

Gu Ziyu obviously didn't believe it, but Lu Zhiyuan had already made up his mind, nothing he said or did could change his mind, Gu Ziyu was very angry, he wanted to pull Lu Zhiyuan back together, but he didn't know what to do.

Li Jiang walked over, "Little Master, your injury needs to be medicated, I'll take you to the doctor." ”

Gu Ziyu glanced at Li Jiang, got up and went to the medicine with Li Jiang, Lu Zhiyuan turned around and went back to the master bedroom, Gu Ci was stimulated, woke up quietly, thinking of what she had done to Gu Ziyu, she hurriedly lifted the quilt, didn't have time to put on her shoes, hurriedly ran downstairs, shouting while running, "Ziyu, Ziyu......"

"Madam, the young master is ...... medicine," Konoe said.

As soon as Li Jiang gave Gu Ziyu medicine, Gu Ci rushed in, hugged Gu Ziyu suddenly, tears flowed down, sad and annoyed, Li Jiang quietly stepped aside, Gu Ci looked at the red mark on Gu Ziyu's neck, very sad.

"Ziyu, I'm sorry, my mother is out of control again, does it hurt?" Gu Ci stroked his scars, "It must be painful, right?" ”

Gu Ziyu played the role of a two-year-old child, and said cutely, "Mom, it doesn't hurt, Ziyu doesn't hurt at all, mom doesn't cry." ”

He reached out to wipe away Gu Ci's tears.

Gu Ci hugged him tightly, "Li Jiang, next time I lose control, you hold Ziyu farther away, don't let me see him." ”

She didn't want to hurt Ziyu at all, but when she went crazy, she was out of control too much, she couldn't control herself, she was in a daze, she just felt that she was killing, bloodthirsty, she had to do something, otherwise, she would go crazy and collapse.

Why is it that every time it gets out of control, it is Ziyu who is injured?

Li Jiang said, "Madam, if Gu Chuyun sees that you are back to normal, or if you don't hurt the little young master, she will stimulate you even more, and she won't let the little young master go." ”

This is the reason why Li Jiang is a cold observer.

He ensured the safety of Gu Ci and Gu Ziyu to the greatest extent.

Gu Chuyun is a madman, after she sent someone to kill Lu Zhiyuan, how could she put up with Lu Zhiyuan's bloodline remaining in the world, when Gu Ziyu was just born, she moved to kill.

Gu Ci, who had just given birth, went crazy and lost control, and almost fell to death Gu Ziyu, Gu Chuyun felt that it was a good show for their mother and son to torture each other, and she couldn't wait for the day when their mother and son killed each other.

If Gu Ci stopped going crazy and they stopped killing each other, Gu Chuyun would do it herself.

Black Eagle is behind Lu Shijie and Gu Chuyun, they have huge connections and strength, Li Jiang once thought about taking Gu Ci and Gu Ziyu to an island and live incognito, but they can't be foolproof.

And the poison on Gu Ci's body, he has no choice but to delay time and wait for the opportunity.

Gu Ci's emotions collapsed, annoyed and remorseful, Gu Ziyu looked at Lu Zhiyuan coldly.

Daddy, did you see that?

You can't do anything, can you change all that?

If you really change, will the world still be me and my mother in the future?

Gu Ziyu was afraid that one sentence would change the future and change their hard-won good ending, so he has endured everything silently, and never said a word that should not be said.

After Gu Ci's mood stabilized, he took Gu Ziyu out to relax, they were locked up in another courtyard, Gu Chuyun didn't send anyone to monitor them, but Gu Ci couldn't go anywhere.

This courtyard is also very large, and Gu Ci took Gu Ziyu for a quiet walk.

"Ziyu, I'm sorry."

Gu Ziyu actually doesn't remember much about what happened when he was two years old, he was too young at that time, and when he could remember, his mother was already a madman, crazy so badly, that she barely had any time to be sober.

He didn't know that when he was two or three years old, his mother only occasionally lost control, she knew what she had done when she was sober, and she loved him very much, and Gu Ziyu also returned to her two-year-old self for the first time.

The first few times he came, Gu Ci was already dead.

Gu Ziyu could feel Gu Ci's pain, he loved Gu Ci very much, and he wanted to tell Gu Ci that his father was following them, and she could see her father as soon as she turned around, so don't be sad.

But he didn't dare!

He was really afraid that he would change the trajectory of his fate.

"Mom, it doesn't hurt to meet the son."

Gu Ci sat on the stone pier with him in his arms, how could it not hurt, he was covered with scars all over his body, he could cry heartbreakingly when he fell, how could these scars not hurt.

How can his son be sensible when he is so young, Gu Ci blames himself even more.

If she dies, Ziyu won't be hurt anymore.

She kissed Gu Ziyu's cheek, "Mom loves you!" ”

Gu Ziyu's eyes widened, this was the first time he heard Gu Ci say he loved him, it was Gu Ci in this life who said he loved him, this memory had long been blurred, and he couldn't remember it, Gu Ziyu's eyes turned red instantly, and his big black and white eyes were full of tears.

Within a day, Dad said he loved him, and Mom said she loved him.

He is not an orphan.

"Ziyu also loves her mother, loves her very much, loves her mother very much." Gu Ziyu suddenly let go of the harm Gu Ci caused him, this happened, but he couldn't remember the memories that his mother loved him so much.

He saw that her eyes were full of pain.

"As long as my mother is gone, our son will not suffer." Gu Ci said that she didn't expect Gu Ziyu to be a two-year-old soul, so she was saying goodbye to Gu Ziyu, "Ziyu, you have to remember that your mother loves you very much." ”

Lu Zhiyuan was a little flustered when she heard this, what was she going to do?

Gu Ziyu was also a little panicked, Mom, what are you going to do?

"Let's go, mom will take you for a walk!" Gu Ci took Gu Ziyu up the mountain to take a walk, this courtyard was built in the middle of the mountain, the whole mountain is Lu Zhiyuan's private property, the mountain is full of maple and oak trees, and there are many big banyan trees, this is a specially tended mountain, it is particularly beautiful in winter, the red all over the mountain, with a little yellow and green, like a colorful oil painting.

Lu Zhiyuan has always followed their mother and son, Li Jiang and the guards also followed behind them, Lu Zhiyuan also specially checked the guards, the number remained the same, after his death, his guards also loyally guarded Gu Ci and Ziyu.

Gu Ci took Ziyu to climb the mountain, Li Jiang and the guards were also talking about it, and Lu Zhiyuan also knew that this was the first time Gu Ci took Ziyu out to climb the mountain after giving birth to Ziyu.

It was Gu Ci's first time going out in the past few years.

She usually stays in the courtyard, stays at home, and doesn't even leave the master bedroom.

The sunshine in winter is particularly good, there is a little warmth in the cold, the wind in the mountains is not cold, Gu Ci seems to be in a good mood, and he also took a lot of photos for Gu Ziyu, Li Jiang said, "Madam, let me help you take a group photo with the little master!" ”

Gu Ci stroked the scars on his face and lowered his head with inferiority, "No need." ”

Gu Ziyu was distressed and sore, her mother didn't leave a single photo, except for the photo when the marriage was registered, there was none, and she was haunted by the scar on her face.

Gu Ziyu thought of her peerless mother in this life, and felt even more sorry for her.

He was also so sensible that he didn't poke Gu Ci's sore spots, and obediently posed in various poses and asked Gu Ci to take pictures of him.

The two walked around the mountains for a long time until they returned to the annex in the evening.

Lu Zhiyuan remembered that Ji Jue was going to come to burn the mountain tonight, and frowned, Gu Ziyu didn't mention that the courtyard was burned down, did this happen? Gu Ci left when Ziyu was six years old, and he would definitely not die in the hands of Ji Hui.

After Gu Ci returned to the courtyard, she asked the cook to rest first, she wanted to cook for Gu Ziyu, she had been silent for the past few years, she still had scars on her face, and she was very scary when she was expressionless, and the servants did not dare to be disobedient.

Gu Ci made a sumptuous meal, and his skills were not very good, but Gu Ziyu ate very happily.

This should be the only warm and beautiful memory that Gu Ziyu feels in this life, because he is so young, he has forgotten it.

But no one expected that Gu Ci, who accompanied Gu Ziyu after eating this meal, committed suicide by swallowing sleeping pills in the room.

That's more than 4,000 chapters

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