Gu Ci finally calmly asked the doubts in her heart, she had never dared to ask, but she was always worried about the days, so she couldn't feel at ease, and she didn't want to hide it anymore, because after knowing the secret, she had always been afraid that Lu Zhiyuan would leave suddenly.

"Lu Zhiyuan, you didn't know who you dreamed of when you were in the research institute, and you kept talking to him, maybe you thought it was a dream, but I heard everything you said." Gu Ci said, "I heard you arguing with him, hearing your anger, your sadness, I also know that you said that the curse is coming, since then I have regarded every day as our last day together, I had better prepare at any time, you leave suddenly, I hope you can tell me the truth, but you have never said that you are young, but you give all the Black Eagle property to Ji Hui." Lu Zhiyuan, I'm not a fool, people, they all have ambitions and desires, if you really have no worldly desires, why did you become a racing driver and attract global attention? You are born to be a dazzling person, and you also want to stand in the most dazzling place. Although Sanshao and Sanye are half-souls, human nature is figured out, no matter how much you deny it, he is also you, and his thoughts are also your reflections, but you cultivated Ji Hui so early, you have already given up everything, you know, no matter how much you resist fate, it is all a passing thing. ”

Gu Ci was sad and sad, "Why don't you want to tell me?" Lu Zhiyuan, if you are going to leave one day, I hope you can say goodbye to me well, and if there is any way to save you, I hope you will tell me. You have always refused to tell me, it's nothing more than to exchange my life, or Ziyu's life in exchange, if you use Ziyu in exchange, I don't want to, so don't hide it too much, if you use my life in exchange, I'm willing, but if you don't want to, I'll listen, in addition, I don't know why you don't want to tell me the reason, Lu Zhiyuan, I'm different from you, I don't have a memory, I can guess, maybe my life in every life is extremely poor, you want to give me a relief, but people live for one life, death is death, and the things in the next life, who knows? As soon as my eyes are closed, everything is over, there will always be people in the world who suffer, there will always be people who die young, and die alone, why can't it be me? I only seek this life, not the next. For so many years, I have always hoped that you could be honest with each other, I haven't learned, so I have been digesting the news that you are leaving, but in today's Sansheng Temple, I figured it out, Lu Zhiyuan, since fate can't be changed, you can't change it for so many years, why don't you be honest with each other? ”

Lu Zhiyuan was stiff, forgetting the hot tea for a while, his fingers were attached to the porcelain cup, but he was also numb, he didn't expect Gu Ci to hear his words, from the research institute to now, for many months, she has been enduring.

Seeing his depressed expression, Gu Ci walked up to him and hugged him, Lu Zhiyuan's heart set off a tsunami-like discomfort, his cheeks were against her soft waist and abdomen, Gu Ci gently hugged him, as if to soothe all his unwillingness.

She had told him what she wanted and thought, and there was nothing to hide, Lu Zhiyuan closed his eyes and covered the pain in his eyes.

"I'm not going to force you." Gu Ci's eyes were red, and he stroked his hair over and over again, "I'm just afraid of a sudden parting, I just want to ...... If there is really someone who wants to leave, I can say goodbye well, whether it is you or me. ”

Lu Zhiyuan, in fact, I am not so fragile and need your protection.

I can bear your departure.

"Do you really want to know?" Lu Zhiyuan's voice was slightly hoarse.

Gu Ci lowered his head and looked at his reddish eyes, "I want to know, Lu Zhiyuan, you are not Lei Feng, do good deeds without leaving a name, you have to repay your kindness, you have done good deeds silently, and you will go to your clothes when you do it, that is a saint, I don't want my third brother to be a saint, and I won't be grateful to you." ”

For so many years, many things have pressed on his heart, and they have long become scars over the years, and there is no one to talk to, Lu Zhiyuan pulled her to sit on his lap.

"That day at the research institute, I did see the priest again, he was not a specific person, but more like ...... It's a nightmare in my heart. When the curse is fulfilled, he will always appear and laugh at me viciously, no matter how hard you try, you can't change your fate. Xiao Porcelain, you don't care about the afterlife, but I care, because I know that people have an afterlife, not only this life. I want you to be safe and happy, to meet your loved ones, and to be happy in every life, not ...... died young, and there is always a fate with the person you love. ”

Gu Ci kissed his eyes gently, "Someone's life is a hundred years old, someone's life is short of thirty years, if I can love you and stay together, thirty years will be thirty years, how do you know that I don't want to." ”

"I don't want to!" Lu Zhiyuan looked away, got up and walked to the window, his emotions fluctuated, his red eyes were like a fierce beast that had been trapped for thousands of years, "Why don't you die well, why do you have to die young, life is bumpy, the world suffers, why can't you enjoy the joy of family." Xiao porcelain, my fault, you shouldn't bear it, this should be my fate, when I was elected to the temple, I should have been banned in the temple for the rest of my life, I shouldn't have delusions, know my mistakes and make mistakes. These punishments should have fallen on me, but on you, I am not reconciled, I just want to set things right and exchange the life that should have belonged to you back. ”

"It's okay, Lu Zhiyuan, if those bad lives are yours, I'm willing to change them."

"I don't want to!" Lu Zhiyuan roared, "Little porcelain, I don't want to!" ”

If you don't want to, what can you do?

He was helpless.

When the punishment came, the little porcelain incense died, and the punishment that belonged to him fell on Gu Ci, Gu Ci's life was originally his, he was going to be punished for the rest of his life, and Xiao Porcelain should have had a good life.

But the priest put all the punishment on Xiao Porcelain.

Back then, he knelt in the hall and begged him to raise his noble hand and let go of the little porcelain.

The priest asked three times in a row, did he know that he was wrong?

Lu Zhiyuan refused to admit his mistakes, seven emotions and six desires are human nature, everyone is born with affection, why is there a mistake, he is not willing to enter the temple, because of his fate, he was forced to be separated from his family since he was a child, and his kinship is weak, who asked him if he was willing, why was he wrong, why did he admit his mistake.

But after so many years, Lu Zhiyuan knew that he was wrong.

If you had happily admitted your mistake back then, maybe everything would have been different.

There was a rare bit of grievance and sadness in his eyes, and his eyes were moist and looked at Gu Ci steadily, "Xiao Ci, I was wrong, I was really wrong." ”

Gu Ci felt a lot of pain in her heart and hugged him, Lu Zhiyuan's pain for so many years seemed to have some catharsis window, it turned out that the previous life was the fate she should have.

There were many disasters in his life, and he died young.

Gu Ci, if you are like this for the rest of your life, are you willing?

(End of chapter)