Chapter Twenty-Three: Life is Suffering
"What? what did you say?" the distance was so close, but Xu Chengtao didn't seem to hear clearly. Or rather, he didn't get it.
"I'm not you, and what you do doesn't mean I'll do like you. I don't want to be you, so today, I'm not going to kill you. Xu Yunhe said word by word.
"Original...... You're still a good person...... Hehe......" Xu Chengtao finally heard clearly, he raised his heavy eyelids and looked at Xu Yunhe's expressionless face with difficulty, was stunned, and then opened his mouth and laughed. Laughter tugged at the chest of his hand, and the intense pain made him vomit blood and vomit even more violently, but he still laughed, laughing and laughing.
"What are you laughing at?" Xu Yunhe frowned, although he didn't quite understand, he also heard it, what he said just now didn't seem to be praising himself, but more like sarcasm.
"Good guy...... Good guy ......" Xu Chengtao muttered twice, the laughter finally stopped, and laughed at himself, "After living for more than 20 years, I really see a good person for the first time......
"I'm very self-aware, I'm not a good person, and I can't afford this reputation. But you and I are of the same race and surname, even if you have the intention to kill me, but that did not come true after all. So today, I'm not going to kill you. Because, I'm Xu Yunhe!" Xu Yunhe was puzzled by the other party's mocking smile, and couldn't figure out how the other party could still laugh so freely.
"Reputation? Do you really think ...... Good...... Is it a reputation? hahaha...... What a funny joke......" Xu Chengtao was stunned again, and then laughed again, this time he laughed even wilder. Even though the ribs in his chest had made a penetrating "click" sound, and the blood he spat out had turned dark black, he was still laughing, laughing so much that tears flowed out.
"Taotao! Quickly open your mouth to admit defeat! It doesn't matter if you lose once, we can win back when we turn around! Hurry up and speak! Otherwise, it will be too late!" At this time, Xu Deyan's heart-rending cry came from outside the court.
Xu Chengtao turned his head with difficulty, and saw his grandfather waving his hands on the sidelines with an anxious face, and tears seemed to flow on his old face. It seems that after crying helplessly for a long time for Xu Guofan, Xu Deyan finally had a flash of inspiration and thought of the crux of the problem. hurriedly shouted for Xu Chengtao to take the initiative to admit defeat, so that Xu Yunhe would not have a chance to kill again.
Xu Chengtao turned his head with difficulty and glanced at his grandfather, as if he didn't see clearly, blinked his eyes effortlessly, and he slowly turned his head back, his eyes drooping slightly, as if such a simple action had already cost him a lot of energy.
"You throw in the towel. Xu Yunhe lowered his head and looked at Xu Chengtao, who had closed his eyes, and suddenly spoke.
"You also think...... Should I admit defeat?" Xu Chengtao raised his eyes to look at Xu Yunhe, and asked as if puzzled.
"Your grandfather is right, you're so injured now that you can't even stand up. Do you still think you have a chance to turn defeat into victory?" Xu Yunhe said expressionlessly.
"Really? It seems...... That's the case......" Xu Chengtao smiled again, this time the smile was a little bleak.
"Taotao! admit defeat!" Seeing that Xu Chengtao still didn't react, Xu Deyan, who was standing outside the court, was almost crazy, and shouted again.
Xu Chengtao still didn't pay attention, he glanced at Xu Yunhe, and suddenly said, "That's my grandfather." ”
"I know he cares about you. Xu Yunhe nodded.
"Concern, maybe......" Xu Chengtao smiled weakly and muttered, "Before he came, he told me that he had to win today." If he loses, he will never recognize me as a grandson again. I remember everything he said clearly. Why is it that after only a while, why did his words turn upside down......"
"He's your grandfather after all, and he cares about you. You admit defeat, although you are my enemy, but I can't bear to make such a gray-haired old man so sad. Throw in the towel, I'm not going to make a move. ”
"You know what? Since I started my first tournament when I was eight years old, I've participated in a total of 231 tournaments in the past 15 years, and I've won 231 of them. Xu Chengtao shook his head, and actually told Xu Yunhe about his old things.
"You're strong, I can see that. Xu Yunhe's face still had no expression.
"Is it strong? If it's really strong, how can the person lying here now be me?" Xu Chengtao continued to laugh, his laughter full of sadness and mockery.
"I'm better than you, if you hadn't used that kind of martial arts that you didn't use in the first place, the person lying on the ground now would be me. Xu Yunhe didn't know where the patience came from, but you actually talked to Xu Chengtao who was lying on the ground.
"After you are gone, in this family, I will take your place and become the strongest of the younger generation. Do you know what they call me? Genius, just like you back then, it's the same title!"
"I'm not a genius, never have been. Xu Yunhe shook his head firmly.
"You are, you are. It's just that I'm not, I've never been a genius. Genius, genius, they all call me genius, but only I know that God has never given me anything. All my qiē was only earned by myself with sweat and tears. Xu Chengtao closed his eyes, and his voice was very soft, very soft.
Xu Yunhe was silent, he was listening carefully.
After a pause, Xu Chengtao continued to say: "Since I was very young, my grandfather took me away from my parents. Grandpa said that a child hiding in a woman's swaddling clothes will not become a big thing. He took me away and began to train me from a very young age, training me in all kinds of cruel methods. ”
"When I was two years old, I couldn't practice martial arts at that time, and my grandfather bathed me with cold water every day, even in winter. I still remember that at that time, I couldn't stand the crying, the tears were frozen on my body, and even my throat was bitter and hoarse. But grandpa, he still put me outside, watching me cry and shiver outside, and he didn't say a word the whole time. This picture is the only picture in my childhood memory. ”
Xu Yunhe remained silent, he didn't know how Xu Chengtao would tell him this. Just listening to the other party's tragic childhood experience, his heart suddenly felt heavy and a little uncomfortable.
"The first few times, I cried all the time, but after crying a few times, I never cried again. Grandpa's heart was so hard and so ruthless, even when I was so cold and feverish that I was talking nonsense, he didn't waver too much, and he didn't even allow my sad mother to come and see me. Since he doesn't even care about my life, what's the use of just a few worthless tears?" As he spoke, crystal tears oozed from Xu Chengtao's tightly closed eyes.
"You're too extreme, but your grandfather still cares about you. It's just that his expectations of you are too high, and the means he uses may be a little excessive. Otherwise, what if he was crying outside now regardless of his image?" Xu Yunhe sighed and said in a low voice.
"Do you really care? I don't believe it, since the year my mother died when I was six years old, I don't believe in him anymore!" Xu Chengtao Huo Ran opened his eyes, and his eyes burst out with a terrifying light, "From two to six years old, I haven't met my mother once! I don't know how she died, but I can imagine that if it weren't for such a ruthless grandfather, so that mother and son couldn't see each other for four years, how could my mother end up depressed?" I hate that he still won't let me go out at that time, and he has been deprived of the right to be a son of man and even to be filial to his mother!
Xu Yunhe was silent, he could only sigh. Such a heavy topic is really beyond his comprehension.
"You're gone, and the people outside have put the name genius on my head. For more than ten years, I have been accused by him like a puppet, practicing martial arts desperately every day, and then going out to compete with all kinds of people, defeating them, and watching them fall under my hands one by one. At this time, he would look at me with satisfaction, pat me on the shoulder, and praise me. He didn't know, I don't remember what he said, the only thing I remember was one sentence," Xu Chengtao stopped, looked at Xu Yunhe, who had been listening attentively, and asked, "Do you want to know which one?"
Xu Yunhe nodded, at this moment, he didn't want to speak.
"He told me that if you want to live in this world and live well, you have to be ruthless than others. Be ruthless to yourself, and even more ruthless to others. Only by being ruthless can you defeat all the enemies that stand in your way and get all you want. This sentence is something I have always kept in mind. Xu Chengtao stretched out his hand and pointed to his heart.
"Your grandfather is wrong, this world may be cruel, but there are always some people and things that will make you feel that there is still warmth in this world. The figure of Su Liusha appeared in Xu Yunhe's heart, remembering the bits and pieces of the past of the master and apprentice, his heart was warm, and his depressed heart relaxed a lot.
"Yes, maybe there is, but I'm ...... Never seen before. Xu Chengtao coughed hard, and the blood spit out from his mouth was no longer able to spit to the ground. The dark black blood stains were mixed with specks of blood clots, all of which were spit on the snow-white placket on Xu Chengtao's chest, and the white clothes were blue and bloody, which looked shocking.
"You're too badly injured, don't say more, admit defeat. Xu Yunhe persuaded again, after listening to so much, and looking at this person again, Xu Yunhe couldn't give birth to any disgust. Others only see him arrogant, who can know that behind his glamorousness, there is so much bitterness hidden?
Life is suffering, why do you have to suffer so much? Why bother? Why bother......