The night is dark.

The stars fell into the Milky Way, and there was no more light.

The area around the abandoned buildings by the river for more than 1 kilometer has been driven away by the police.

Luckily, there are no high-rise buildings in the area, and there are no densely populated areas.

The population is also sparse.

If you go a little further to the university town, you will be in trouble.

But it's not good news.

The need to drive such a large range of people can be imagined as fierce as the fighting began.

The Ability Division is fighting fiercely with the beasts that come out of the spatial rift.

And the unfinished building.

Li Chenguang hesitated, sat directly on the ground, crossed his legs, and sat quietly looking at the ground.

After a long time, he sighed and said, "To be honest, I'm also confused, I feel like I'm like Zhuang Zhou now, and I'm like a butterfly." ”

I don't know if Zhuang Zhou dreamed of a butterfly, or if a butterfly dreamed of Zhuang Zhou.

"Moreover, my memories have been eaten up a lot, many things are blurred, and I don't know if my previous life is reality, or the world of dragons I experienced a thousand years later is reality, or the world we are in now is reality."

It may be a reality, or it may be a dream.

Who knows.

He can only live in the moment.

"But Gardenia, do you know, in the three worlds I've been in, my first life, I lived to be more than 20 years old, and I died suddenly because of overtime work."

"The second life, that is, the world after a thousand years, lived for more than ten years, was wanted, chased and killed for thousands of miles, and then fled here, so many days have passed, and I don't know if I am still alive in that world."

"And then here, I might be alive when it all adds up, huh...... It's been almost a few decades, but my memory may not even be enough for a year. ”

obviously lived for so long, but Li Chenguang's memory was not much, and he was eaten up by the mirror.

He even felt that some of his memories were not eaten by the mirror, but buried by himself.

I don't know why, but I just feel it.

"A lot of my memories are vague and shadowy, feeling like I can see something, trying to see and seeing nothing, that's really scary."

Li Chenguang showed a somewhat sad look, "What does it feel like to have no memory, it's probably similar to that, I don't even have a proof of my own life, I don't know where I lived, what I have done, and who I have known, nothing, empty." ”

"There was even a time when this month would forget what happened last month, and today would forget what happened yesterday."

Because he was maintaining his sister's mirror at that time, his energy was simply not enough to pay the price, so he could only use his memory to deduct it.

"I don't know what I'm doing every day."

Speaking of this, Li Chenguang paused.

He stared at the ground for a long time.

For a long, long time.

Fang continued.

"I don't know if I've ever lived, I don't know what memories are real, I don't know which world is real, I don't even know my past, but, you know what, Gardenia."

"In my previous life, to a thousand years later, and now, everyone is changing, the world is also changing, the people around me, the things around me, are changing, but only you, all the time."

Li Chenguang looked at the ground blankly and muttered, "I only remembered it recently, only you, Gardenia, you have always been by my side." ”

Gardenia's little head, buried in the crook of her knees, finally moved.

She raised her little face slightly, her red eyes were still full of tears, and she looked at Li Chenguang in a daze.

The delicate little face is also red.

"Me?"

"Hmm."

For the first time, Li Chenguang failed to catch Gardenia and let Gardenia stay in his dream forever, so that he didn't dare to recall it for a long time, for fear of nightmares, Li Chenguang felt that this memory was buried by himself and did not want to recall.

And then there is Li Shuang, a thousand years later.

He could feel that there was a great relationship between the two.

It is likely that Li Shuang is somehow related to Gardenia.

And then there's the present.

"Remember, I saved you on the first day I came back, and I even suspect that the Dragon Balls may have sent me back to fulfill my long-cherished wish."

Moreover, Li Chenguang felt inexplicably kind to Gardenia, although there was Li Shuang's factor here, but he felt that there might be other reasons.

let him even tell such an important crossing thing only to Gardenia alone.

Never mentioned it to anyone else.

Because he only believes in Gardenia.

In his memory, no matter where he is, there will be Gardenia.

"It feels like the world is both familiar and strange."

Familiar are the people around you, the school, the class, the only friend.

What is strange is that the Ability Division, the Space-Time Rift, the teacher Meng Zhang, and so on.

The good thing is that it is.

"Fortunately, you are still here, and now that I think about it, it is great to be able to help you fulfill the dream of my last life, and it is really good to meet you thousands of years ago and thousands of years later."

At least at this strange time, there can be a familiar person.

Don't let yourself seem so lonely.

If Gardenia wanted to die, Li Chenguang would not stop her.

Because Li Chenguang himself has experienced it, he wants to die in pain.

It's hard to live every day, you can't see the sun, you can't see the future.

Feeling dead is a relief.

Unfortunately, he didn't have the courage to commit suicide.

So, he will respect Gardenia's decision.

If she insisted on doing so.

Li Chenguang didn't think he was qualified to stop it.

The encounter is already signed, why should he ask for more.

If, she really feels that it is painful to be alive......

Gardenia Ziwei first glanced at Li Chenguang, then lowered her gaze and asked softly, "Then you, have you found a way to go back?" ”

"I can't, I can't tell the difference, I'm a person a thousand years later, but I'm stepping on the shoulders of history, but think about it carefully, this history is my original life, I think I should find Dragon Ball and go back, but I may never be able to go back."

Who knows.

Gardenia looked at the ground in a daze, and said softly, "Then, if I leave, aren't you left alone." ”

"yes."

Li Chenguang tried to recall, "Actually, I was used to it in my previous life, working alone, going home alone, eating alone, buying the second cup of half-price milk tea alone, and then watching movies alone, eating stinky tofu alone, and sleeping alone." ”

Gardenia opened her thin lips in a trance, paused and asked, "No...... Lonely? ”

“……”

Li Chenguang didn't answer, just stared blankly at the ground.

But that lonely expression, Gardenia has seen it.

From the mirror.

Because she is also afraid of loneliness.

Her health is not good, and she used to sleep with her mother in her arms.

What she was most afraid of was being placed on the cold bed in the hospital, looking at the flickering lights on the ceiling, there were a few mosquitoes flying around the table lamp of "yingying", she opened her painful eyes, and she didn't know when she could fall asleep.

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and have trouble breathing, although I am told that I can call a nurse as long as I press the light next to the bed.

However, the other party will stare at him with a look of disgust, as if to say, why are you not dead.

Yes, it's such a naked look.

At that time, the family's economy was not good, and they were arranged in a very poor hospital, and they didn't know when they were eating.

Every day is an ordeal.

Every day, I desperately want to go home, I want to go back to my mother's arms, be held by my mother, and be cared for by my father.

But she also knows that her parents still have to be busy making money to pay for their expensive medical bills.

A long time ago, she was looked at by her relatives with the eyes of "this child is not saved, and forcibly living will only drag down this family, it is better to die early".

Gradually, she discovered that she could read the inner thoughts of others.

That's just ...... It's hell!

It's best to die yourself.

No one expects their own existence.

No one wants to be alive.

Apart from...... Mom.

No matter what others say, even if it hints at her, it's better to treat it, anyway, if it can't be cured, why spend so much unjust money in vain.

Mom would always smile and reply, "It's going to be fine." ”

Yes, Mom always hugged herself, patted her back gently, and comforted herself, "Vivi will definitely get better, Mom promises." ”

And said that when she made enough money, she would take herself abroad for treatment.

Mom really worked hard.

When I go to work by myself, I have to help my dad deal with things, and I have to come over to accompany me at night.

For a while, she was very happy, feeling that her mother was like Superman, and she was especially looking forward to her mother to accompany her.

That's why my mother fell ill.

It's all your own fault!

The father didn't say anything on the surface.

However, he didn't need to say it, Gardenia could hear it.

It's all my own fault, and I hurt my mother.

Mom is gone, but for Dad's country, the family is getting richer and richer.

But it makes people feel colder and colder.

Dad married his stepmother and had a younger brother.

He also doesn't like himself, because when he sees himself, he thinks of his mother, and he hurt his mother.

So, many times, Gardenia is alone.

The father will give her enough money.

Also...... It's just money.

She often has to go to the hospital for follow-ups.

I have to take a car alone, go to a hospital that is cold and suffocating, full of the smell of disinfectant water, queue up alone, get a number, see a doctor, and then go home alone.

Eat, sleep.

I go to school alone, but fortunately, I still have a few friends at school.

But...... She hated her ability, because of this ability, she could always hear some of the darkness of the people around her, and think badly about herself, and then she would feel that she couldn't communicate with her.

It's lonely.

Gardenia's biggest feeling is loneliness.

She felt that the world was out of place for her.

The world is on this side, she is on the other side.

Mom...... On the horizon.

The feeling of being at home has become colder and colder.

Knowing that he was dying, his father had deliberately ignored him, which was also to reduce the grief of dying in the future.

It's good that you don't have this daughter.

Yes, that's the idea she's heard the most.

A family is not four people, but three of them plus one of themselves.

I am the superfluous one.

It's okay to die sooner.

In this case, he met Li Chenguang.

A simple-minded boy who reads well.

He thinks that this is a secret realm of reincarnation, and when he is gone, the secret realm will be reincarnated, and he will return to live with his mother.

Will start over from childhood.

Keep reincarnating until the next person breaks in.

That's ...... Great, isn't it?

Wouldn't I be able to see my mother again soon?

I only need to close my eyes, and when I open my eyes, I can't immediately see my mother's kind smile, that gentle eyes, and that call full of tenderness, "Weiwei." ”

I can lie in my mother's arms and be coquettish, and I can let my mother feed me porridge, and I can lie in my mother's arms and listen to my mother tell me stories.

…… It seems to be a bit capricious.

Still can't bother mom too much.

Next time, I will definitely make it easier for my mother.

Maybe, it can change the ending.

That's what she thought.

I've always thought so.

Li Chenguang's arrival made her no longer feel lonely and lonely, no longer afraid, and no longer afraid of being alone, because she knew that as soon as she closed her eyes, she could see her mother as soon as she opened her eyes.

It's better to take advantage of the time when you grow up and enjoy it.

Do something you haven't done before.

Fortunately, in order to go out and complete the task, Li Chenguang will also accompany her to do things that she has never done before.

Two people, eating stalls together, eating stinky tofu together, watching movies together, snuggling and chatting together.

It's incredible, and there's a reassuring feeling of leaning on his arms.

It seems to have the smell of mother.

Moreover, his mind is very simple, and he has no bad intentions.

It's all very simple and easy to understand.

There is no nasty feeling.

She originally thought that in the last moment, she could spend time with Li Chenguang, and it was best to help him go out, and then go back by herself and reincarnate to see her mother.

That's what she thought......

But today.

Li Chenguang told her that this is reality, there will be no reincarnation, and it will be over once she dies.

So, whether she is dead or alive, she will never see her mother again......

It's over.

Time is over for her.

Life or anything, it doesn't matter anymore.

Anyway, next year at the latest......

It's all over.

It's time to wake up from the dream.

It's time for me to go back to sleep.

Gardenia said softly, "Loneliness is indeed terrifying, it will be lonely, it will be sad, it will be sad." ”

They will lie in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, not knowing the meaning of their existence.

You will feel that there is no difference between being alive and dead.

Gardenia looked at the ground in front of her, and said tactfully in her unique soft and dense voice, "However, I can't help you, I can't help you out, and I can't, so that you won't be lonely anymore, I would have died next year." ”

Gardenia said, her eyes became even redder, she stretched out her little hand and gently wiped the pearls in her big eyes, tried her best to open her eyes, looked at Li Chenguang who was sitting in the distance, and tried to show a gentle and warm smile like the sun as before.

"I'm sorry, I seem, I'm causing you trouble."

Li Chenguang also raised his head and looked back at Gardenia, "It's okay, just bother me, I'm afraid of everything, I'm not afraid of trouble." ”

Gardenia's lips trembled, and the vision in front of her gradually changed from clear to blurred, she knew that the other party was not lying.

Again, she replied, "Thank you." ”

Li Chenguang's voice gradually became distant, but clear, "Gardenia, if you feel pain, sadness, sadness, loneliness, if you want to seek death, I will not stop you, I am not qualified to stop you, it will only deepen your pain." ”

“……”

"So, if you're really disappointed in the world and can't feel a little warmth, just leave if you want to."

Gardenia's lips trembled slightly, and she murmured, "...... Well. ”

Li Chenguang continued, "I won't stop you,...... However, I will definitely get the Dragon Ball, I will go back in time, back to the day the school building collapsed, no, maybe back to earlier, back to the time when someone made you feel pain, I will go and save you. ”

“……”

"Ten times, a hundred times, a thousand times, ten thousand times, ten thousand times, I will go back to save you! Don't worry, I don't have any other merits, I just do what I say. ”

“……”

Gardenia's eyes widened in surprise, and the figure of Li Chenguang sitting on the ground in the distance in front of her gradually blurred slowly and blurred, and the whole world behind him became more and more blurred.

She pursed her lips and asked, "Why...... Why? Why would you do such a thing! ”

Li Chenguang also looked back at Gardenia, looking at Gardenia with a firm look, and the light in his eyes made Gardenia dare not look directly.

"Because I like it!"

It's as simple as that.

Ten times, a hundred, a thousand, ten thousand times, I will save you, I will pull you from the cold hell to the ground, to feel the warmth of the sun.

I can't stop you from wanting to die, and you can't stop me from trying to save your heart......

Even if in the long river of time, I will save you, don't worry!

Count the chapter at 11 o'clock tomorrow.,Let's change it early.。。

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