Yang Jinnian lifted the corner of the curtain, and a touch of sunlight came in.

The weather is nice today.

"Did you hear what I said?" Voices came from behind her.

Of course, it was impossible for her not to hear her mother speak, but she looked out the window and was silent for a while before her lips moved: "I heard it, how could I not hear it." ”

"Since you heard it, why didn't you react at all?" Mrs. Yang sat on the sofa, her face was very anxious, "I'm really worried about me, I can't sleep for you every day." ”

Hearing this, Yang Jinnian suddenly felt very angry, and at the same time there was some sadness, accompanied by deep suffocation, which was the note of death.

Xia Rou told her to stick to herself and ignore the eyes of others, so she is not a stubborn person, but she has her persistence.

But as it turned out, she was wrong. What she needs is a diverse, inclusive, coexisting environment, and it is clear that this society has not yet developed to this point.

It is difficult for people to live in this world without being coerced by some mainstream values. What she made was not the so-called right choice under the mainstream values, but a choice that she was truly convinced of and suitable for herself.

She thinks that she can live freely without listening or watching, but the reality is cruel, even if you don't understand some things, those words and eyes will come to you like a steady stream of sharp blades.

Whether to marry or not may be a little tragedy for others, because it is small, so the boundary between right and wrong is often like a gossamer, and it is impossible to grasp the praise and disapproval of love and hatred.

But for her, getting married is something that can collapse her life, she is not disturbing herself without illness and asking for trouble, this is just the true feeling in her heart.

She also thought about holding back the pain, not saying a word, knowing the white and the black, and walking through this thorn, but in the daily life events full of hidden worries and hidden pains, and the boundary between right and wrong is not clear, it is difficult for a destroyed person like her to find a soulmate, and even suffer all kinds of misunderstandings, ridicule and criticism.

She was powerless to change, and could only watch herself spend her bleak years of the most ordinary, hardly eventful years, step by step into the swamp, into the catastrophe that had been waiting for her for a long time.

"Did you hear it, or did you not hear it?" Seeing that her daughter was unmoved, Mrs. Yang began to wipe her tears as she spoke, "Isn't a woman just a husband and a child, and if she doesn't marry, she will die of pity." ”

"If you don't get married, what should your relatives think about our family? Your dad and I can't stay with you all the time......"

"You just listen to the words, hurry up and clean up, they are already waiting for you, you go to meet them, maybe you can meet the right one."

"If you don't go to meet again, what can you do when you're old..."

Cold words are like hailstones, and the cracks in Yang Jinnian's bones are cold.

They don't care how bitter and tired she is now, they just care about her in the future, take unknown things, and kidnap her now.

Although she didn't look at her mother, her eyes began to moisten, and she forced the tears not to flow out, and suddenly laughed strangely.

"Mom, I really don't want to get married, are you afraid that I will have no home and no one to accompany me when I am old, isn't that simple? I didn't think about living that long, a few more years would be enough, and I didn't have to worry about being lonely when I got old. ”

Hearing her daughter say this, Mrs. Yang's tears flowed even more. She didn't wipe them anymore and let them run down.

Yang Jinnian smiled like a madman: "Look at what you're crying about, such a big person, how can you look like a child." ”

She laughed for a while, but she felt that the string in her heart, which was already in danger, completely broke at this moment, and let out a mournful cry for help.

She stopped laughing, looked at her mother, and said calmly, "I'm going to meet them, and you can wipe your tears." ”

In front of Yang Jinnian sat several men with successful careers, these people were her blind dates today.

The first time she saw him, she knew that he must have been born in the kind of family with enlightened parents, excellent family education, and good getting along, because his composure and self-confidence emanated from his bones.

She didn't know who he was, but she thought he had a good eye, so she chatted with him and coped with her mother's urging to marry.

The man looked at the woman opposite, very beautiful. Her beauty is flamboyant, a beauty with a lot of aura, and she wears some exaggerated earrings on her ears.

"Hello, my name is Zhang Yu, born in 98, the owner of a self-media company, and I am not yet married."

The man looks talented, has a good family background and character, but Yang Jinnian and he are not cold, on the contrary, the man seems to like her very much, and he is always cautious in his speech and demeanor, for fear that she will not like it.

After Zhang Yu introduced himself on a blind date, Yang Jinnian replied with an "um", and did not want to talk more.

As if he had been prepared for a long time, Zhang Yu exchanged glances with the assistant who was not far from him, and the assistant immediately walked over and handed him a bouquet of flowers, but the bouquet of flowers was scarce.

He took the initiative to open the chatterbox: "I came in a hurry today, and I prepared a little light gift, please Miss Yang must accept it." ”

If Yang Jinnian, who wanted to fall in love, received these flowers from a man, she didn't even look at them, because if she wanted to chase her, she had to at least give her a sea of flowers, but now she had no idea of falling in love, so there was no displeasure on her face.

Zhang Yu saw that she didn't respond, and said to her again: "Miss Yang, please accept it." ”

Seeing that he was so enthusiastic, Yang Jinnian hesitated for a moment, and then took the small bouquet.

"Thank you then." Yang Jinnian held the bouquet of flowers, but his fingers had a metallic touch. She looked and saw a million-dollar watch nestled in the path of the bouquet.

When she didn't see the watch, she wondered how a bouquet of flowers could be so small.

However, she had already collected the flowers, so she didn't say anything more, and the atmosphere between the two fell silent again.

"By the way, Miss Yang, what is your hobby?"

"In addition to dancing and various musical instruments that my parents forced me to learn, I like to study flower planting."

"Wow, isn't that amazing?"

"Don't get me wrong, it's not proficient, it's just relatively more interesting."

"Miss Yang, I remember that you like flowers, and the next time we meet, I will definitely send you all kinds of flowers."

Yang Jinnian wanted to reply with another "um", but felt a little rude, so he replied with the word "thank you".

"If Miss Yang is willing, I can buy a flower garden to grow flowers for you."

"Mr. Zhang, I don't think we're familiar with each other, you don't have to do so much for me."

"Actually......" Zhang Yu said, "Actually, I've seen you before, but you don't seem to have an impression of me." ”

"Have you seen me? When? ”

"I met you at my uncle's anniversary dinner at the hotel early last year, and my father and your father used to be business partners, and I was invited to the dinner party."

Zhang Yu looked a little restrained at this time.

"At that time, you were wearing a white dress, your hair was coiled behind your head, whether it was a smile from time to time, or a casual demeanor, you were polite, dignified and demure, and so beautiful, it was my ideal girlfriend, I wanted your contact information at that time, but I was afraid that it would be too presumptuous, so I didn't bother."

"That's when I started to pay attention to you, but I heard that you never had any intention of falling in love, so I always kept this love in my heart. But to my surprise, I recently heard my dad say that Uncle Yang was preparing for a blind date, so I asked my dad and Uncle Yang to help me introduce you to you, so I sat here, and that's how it looked. ”

After listening to Zhang Yu's almost confessional words, Yang Jinnian did not have any waves in her heart, because the reason why she sat here and chatted with him was purely to deal with her mother.

"Miss Yang, it may be a bit abrupt for me to ask this," Zhang Yu's expression became nervous, "I...... Can I like you?

Yang Jinnian looked at the polite man in front of him, and then looked at the other blind dates.

She had no intention of getting married, so she must not be able to match any of these blind dates, and if she didn't match Zhang Yu in front of her, she would have to follow the next one under pressure from her mother.

Originally, it was a matter of no results, and it was too tiring to toss back and forth.

Thinking of this, she said to him: "It's your right to like me, but I want to know if it's good to be liked by you." ”

"Thank you Miss Yang for saying that, I am a very serious person about feelings, if you follow me, I will do my best to be good to you."

"I didn't expect you to be quite sincere." Yang Jinnian smiled, "We can add a contact information first and try to communicate." ”

Liu Zhong opened the door, and in the dim yellow light, his wife was sitting on the edge of the bed, sorting out some daily necessities in her hands, and there was an open suitcase on the ground.

"What are you doing here?" He pointed to the suitcase on the ground, his voice unusually flustered.

He felt that his wife was becoming stranger and stranger, and since she gave birth to a daughter, he felt that the gentle she he had known before was gone.

The woman ignored him with a straight face and continued to arrange her clothes as if he didn't exist.

"What are you doing with all this stuff!" He raised his voice.

The woman stopped moving her hand and moved her lips to say something, but when she looked at the man's expression, she closed again. She put the folded laundry in the suitcase, moving quickly, as if it had been prepared, and then pulled up the suitcase.

"Where are you going?" He stepped forward and grabbed his wife's arm, but she didn't know where she got the strength to shake him off.

He froze in place as he watched her walk out with her suitcase.

After a few seconds, he yelled at her, "Don't you just think I'm poor?" ”

Hearing this, the woman glanced back at him, and there was not the slightest nostalgia in her eyes.

He was right, he was indeed very poor, and life was difficult after marrying him, but she didn't think he was poor, otherwise she wouldn't have married him.

has been in a relationship with him for more than ten years, and one day suddenly, she had the idea of leaving, and this idea has been ingrained over time, day after day.

But after all, it was a relationship of more than ten years, and before making the decision to leave him, she thought about it for a long time, so she seemed so decisive that there was no room for turnaround.

It's just that what hurts her heart is that she can't afford to take her daughter away. She is an unkind person, she didn't even raise herself, so she hurriedly multiplied.

"Liu Zhong, I'm tired, I want to leave you." The woman said only that, and her steps became firm.

"Don't go." Liu Zhong heard himself yelling at her.

But she had already turned away, and was getting farther and farther away, and she couldn't hear him anymore.

Watching his wife leave, he somehow didn't want to stop him, because he knew that no matter what he said, his wife would not come back.

An indescribable discomfort crept through his chest, and he smelled the bitterness of abandonment in the air.

The daughter came home from school and went back to the house without a wife and a mother.

"Dad, where is Mommy, where is Mommy?"

He lied to his daughter that her mother was away from home.

"And when will Mom come back?"

When will he come back - this question is not even known to him, and how can he answer his daughter.

"Dad, when will Mom come back, tell me quickly."

"Come on, when Dad earns the money, Mom will come back."

"Dad, then you hurry up and earn money, I miss Mom."

On this night, it was already completely dark.

For countless nights afterward, he still sat at the door, staring at his wife's way out of the house that night. Just staring night after night, he had a particularly clear answer in his mind.

He wants to be rich, as long as he becomes rich, he will not be looked down upon or abandoned.

With money, he can buy someone else's groveling, someone else's dignity, someone else's goodies, someone else's secrets, and even someone else's life.

Sadly, he never understood the real reason why his wife left him, it was his negative emotions, his incompetence and his constant complaint.

He only saw his wife abandon him, but he never thought that he would be separated from his daughter a certain year later, and he abandoned him because his daughter couldn't stand his endless complaints.