Today's events made Li Tifu very disappointed. In the past, Li Tifu felt that this factory was noble for him, and it was also a place with a great sense of achievement, or more precisely, a shortcut to realize his ideals. Since the last time I saw and heard the recruitment notice, a series of recent events have slowly made Li Tifu doubt his choice, especially what happened tonight, which made his suspicion more convinced.

Li Tifu began to think about whether it was worth it for him to work in this factory so hard and disregard his health so much!? Is it worth it to work in this factory and not get a little attention? During the five-year work period, no matter how big things Li Tifu encountered at work, even if he was tired, he would be willing, believing that this was an indispensable part of the road to realize his ideals. Since this time, instead of giving a chance to its own local employees, the factory has given a college student who only holds a diploma and has no knowledge of the factory. Li Tifu began to get annoyed. I began to get bored with the factory system and the environment around me. Slowly, as this disgust intensified, some of the little things that Li Tifu didn't care about before began to arouse his disgust and disgust, especially the contempt for his health last night.

At five o'clock in the afternoon, Li Tifu suddenly opened his eyes from his sleep, jumped quickly from the bed to the ground, and walked two or three steps outside the dormitory door before realizing that today was a rest day. Li Tifu stood thoughtfully in place for two or three minutes and then sat down in his chair. Sure enough, I had the same dream just now. In the past few days, Li Tifu has always dreamed that he is at work, very tired and tired, but he is still working hard. Every time he woke up from his sleep, his whole body was wet, and he was covered in cold sweat, and sometimes he couldn't kick his breath, which made him very uncomfortable.

Li Tifu sat on the chair and looked at the lower left, shaking his head constantly, looking regretful, disappointed and disappointed. Yes! I have been struggling for five years, wanting to get a chance, but the opportunity has not come for a long time, and the most hateful thing is that my opportunity is given to those who I don't recognize very much, and everyone will be disappointed!

Li Tifu sat on the chair and pondered for a long time, and sat for half an hour. This half-hour process was painful for Li Tifu, and it was also unacceptable and incomprehensible. The pain is aimed at this environment, and I can't understand the system of this factory, and I don't understand the choice I made at the beginning. The most important thing is what is your persistence for? Why is it so hard to work for? Do you want to stick to it! For Li Tifu, these are unknowns and fatal problems.

Li Tifu slowly stood up and slowly walked to the bathroom. After rinsing his face several times in the sink and feeling much more sober, Li Tifu went back to the dormitory and began to eat his "breakfast". Eating breakfast, Li Tifu would wander from time to time, and he was also trying his best to control himself not to think about these miscellaneous things, trying his best to make his mind clear, and wanting to relax appropriately.

Li Tifu looked at his phone, it was six o'clock! After thinking about it, I decided to go home. Normally, Li Tifu would definitely be at home at this time, but he was too tired today, so he went back to the factory dormitory in the morning when he was supposed to go home. It's just that Li Tifu has the place he wants to go before he goes home. Li Tifu began to take off his overalls, put on his favorite jeans and white shirt and walked outside. This dress is extraordinary for Li Tifu on a daily basis, because Li Tifu usually doesn't care what he wears at all, and it seems that Li Tifu cares a lot about where he will go later.

The place where Li Tifu went, he hadn't been to it once, and as usual, Li Tifu wouldn't think about this place, and even hated this place, just because there was a person. But lately, I've started to have a strong yearning for this place. This person is "Umer", this Umaier is no one else, he is Li Tifu's own father, as for why he hates his father, this is not clear for a while. The story is long and explained slowly. The place he went to was his father's grave. It's been almost six years since Lee's father left him, and his father died of a heart attack.

Li Tifu hated his father so much during his lifetime that this hatred eventually turned into resentment and hatred. But now Li Tifu began to have a unique opinion about his father, coupled with the recent boredom and too many worries, he wanted to find someone to complain to, but he couldn't find a suitable person to complain to, more precisely, he couldn't find someone who knew each other and understood himself, so he had to go to his father's side to complain to him.

This cemetery is called "Nostalgia", and this name Li Tifu has had since he was sensible. The nostalgic cemetery is a big cemetery, and people here will be buried here when they die, so the name is also true, most of the people here, it is no exaggeration to say that everyone's final destination will be here, whether rich or poor will be buried here, so I think it is really worthy of the name, quite a nostalgic holy place.

Li Tifu came to this open-air cemetery with no doors and no walls, and searched for a long time before finding the tombstone with his father's name written on it, fortunately, the name and the time of his life were written on the tombstone, otherwise I don't know how long I would have to look for it, and whether I could find it.

Li Tifu, who was very excited when he was looking for it, suddenly became quiet when he found his father's tombstone. Li Tifu slowly approached his father's tombstone with a very light step, and his whole eyes were focused on his father's tombstone. Li Tifu looked at his father's tombstone very quietly, and his two hands touched every part and corner of the tombstone very gently and powerfully. If he could, he really wanted to hug this tombstone, just like hugging his father's real body, and wanted to transmit his surging and warm heart and true thoughts directly to his father in this way, so that his father's tombstone could feel his own body temperature and feel his warm heart. It's just that in the end, Li Tifu still stopped, stopped that kind of thought, stopped that kind of impulse. Li Tifu felt sorry for his father. His misunderstanding of his father in the past, and his misunderstanding of his father in the past made him dispel that thought.

Li Tifu began to speak, his voice was very low and hoarse, and his eyes began to red, it can be seen that Li Tifu's heart is now mixed, mixed with many emotions.

Father, how are you? Your son is here? Your unproductive son is here, he is not filial to you, he always doesn't understand you, and he will blame your son for coming, how are you doing? How's it going to be over there!?

How do I talk to you? How can I speak to you? What word to start with? I don't have the face to talk to you face to face! And your selfish son, in the end, it is not the time to look at you, but the time when you want to complain, you see how failed your son has been! I'm sorry for you, Father! But I'm really forced to do it now! I can't find someone who understands how I feel, who understands me. I feel lonely and aggrieved now, father! I think only you can understand my current feelings, and you can understand my grievances now.

I've been lonely for a long time in my life, but I've never felt so lonely as I do now. I've had setbacks and difficulties in my life before, and I've been ridiculed, but they don't matter much compared to how I feel now.

It's been five years, father! Five years have passed. My life is still the same, it hasn't changed at all, except for work, it's still work. Life didn't give me a chance, why is my life still so boring, I'm still standing still, it's like there is a big circle, I can only walk back and forth in the planned circle. Every day, apart from work, my life seems to have nothing else, yearning, freedom, laughter, all gone, replaced by an infinite cycle, to put it more completely, a cycle of death. Boring, boring, and without the taste of real life.

Father, you know what? I usually work hard at my job and have not complained once. But it still doesn't get attention, and it still doesn't get a chance, a chance to be promoted. I'm anxious now, father. I have lost patience with my life, the yearning for the future and the desire for freedom, as if this life of stability and toil is slowly draining my will and ambition, Father!

What am I going to do? Father, should I continue, or should I stop? What can I do if I stop? At this age, the things I have to worry about have gradually increased over time. One side is for the family, the other side is for the ideal, I don't know what to do now? I really want to leave this kind of job and pursue my dreams, but I am afraid that once I leave this job, the family will lose its income, and I am also afraid that if it is difficult to find a job with such a good income based on my current situation, I will not be able to support this family. It's just that this work and environment have made me lose patience. I'm so anxious right now! Father.

All I want is a chance, a hope! After working in this factory for so long, I still don't get attention, there is no room for improvement, no promotion opportunities, do I continue like this? Father, what should I do? Am I going to live like this forever?

At the beginning, I thought that as long as I worked hard, I could get what I wanted, and life would surprise me unexpectedly, but instead of surprising me, life destroyed my patience again and again, making me get used to this way of life, and I couldn't think about anything else, the ideal was to fantasize all day long! Well, I can get used to this way of life, I really can, Father! Otherwise, I wouldn't have been able to hold on for so long, as long as I was given a chance, let me see the hope that life can change, I can still live like this, I can continue to live like this, no matter how long it takes, as long as there is a glimmer of hope, I can wait, but it's been five years, and I don't feel the need to continue. Father! It's just what should I do! Should I continue? I don't seem to have such thoughts and patience anymore, want to stop? This doesn't seem to work, I don't know what else I can do after ending such a life and such a stable job! I'm afraid that once I finish this kind of stable work, I will never find such a stable working and living environment, and now it is difficult to find a job outside, and it is even more difficult to find a job of my heart. I'm so anxious, I'm so anxious! Father, what should I do?

Although Li Tifu seemed to be calm and serious on the surface when he spoke, his heart was now extremely tingling and he felt extremely painful. Li Tifu looked at his father's tombstone for a long time, and slowly shed tears. There is unwillingness, which can be clearly seen from his words, as well as from his expression and demeanor at this moment.

Li Tifu looked at his father's tombstone, and after about ten minutes, he began to speak again:

It's time for me to go, Father! Thank you very much!! After listening patiently to my complaints, I will come to visit you whenever I have time.

After Li Tifu finished speaking, he turned around and left.