Chapter 8: Helplessness
As soon as Lin Changsheng talked about the start-up capital, the members of the village team fell one-sided, and fired at the solemn solemn one by one with agitated expressions:
"How can we develop without start-up capital?"
"Before, we either didn't want to grow, or we didn't have the start-up capital."
"It costs money to build a red memorial hall, it costs money to renovate a stone house, it costs money to open a food processing factory, and there are bamboo products processing plants, embroidery processing plants, etc., which one doesn't need money?"
"There's no start-up capital, and it's better to say that it's not the portrait on the wall? It's not useful. ”
“……”
In the face of everyone's reproach to solemnity, Zhuang Su and Lin Desheng bowed their heads and were silent, Lin Xi looked at the old man, looked at the solemnity, and was a little at a loss.
Huo Liang leaned lazily on the ancient tree, looking gloating.
"Alright, alright, I think everyone should disperse. Uncle Zhuang, you always persuade Xiao Yan that going back to Shuizhou to be his big reporter is the right way. We don't blame him for delaying the morning's work, but he can be regarded as listening to a big story. ”
Lin Changsheng was the first to leave the ancient tree, followed by Lin Demin, Lin Dazhi, and Lin Manyue, Huo Liang kicked the ancient tree, and scolded:
"After living for so many years, I am not afraid of being embarrassed here. Go back and eat lunch, sweet potato sake, sweet potato balls, sweet potato glutinous rice, perfect match, sweet potato fart is comfortable, babble, ......"
The fiery dry howl broke his throat and walked to his house.
"Grandpa......"
"Big Daddy......"
Zhuang Yan and Lin Xi saw Zhuang Su and Lin Desheng silently leaving the ancient tree with their hands behind their backs, and they couldn't take a step forward when they wanted to catch up.
Tears rolled in Lin Xi's eyes, she had never seen her beloved Brother Yan so helpless as today.
"Xiaoxi, let's go back for lunch."
Solemnly turned out from behind the ancient tree.
"Big Daddy, I'm ......"
Lin Xi's tears welled up in his eyes.
"Come back, he needs to be quiet too."
Solemn and peaceful.
"Then I'll go back."
Lin Xi pulled up his suitcase and went home.
After Lin Xi left, he solemnly walked to the long stone bench and sat down, did not greet the solemn or look solemn, just sat there motionless and quietly, looking at the Qingshui River flowing under the clear stone bridge.
Although the temples of this young man are gray, his tall figure is still upright, and his bronzed face is obviously more bookish than that of ordinary mountain people.
At noon, Qingshui Bay was clean and clean, and the villagers were eating lunch in the house, and there were only the father and son of the dealer under the ancient tree.
A gust of mountain wind blew, solemnly shuddered, and slowly walked in front of solemnity.
"Dad......"
"Xiao Yan is back? Come home, your mother is waiting for you to have lunch. ”
Standing up with a solemn smile, he reached out and pulled up his solemn suitcase and walked towards the village.
"Dad, when I go back to the village, Mom, she hasn't figured it out yet, right?"
Solemnity follows solemnly behind him, just like when he did something wrong in his childhood, waiting for a solemn punishment.
"Didn't you figure it out, didn't you come back?"
"Dad, you're upset too, aren't you?"
"Xiao Yan, do you think we should be happy?"
"Dad, you and Mom must be disappointed."
"Disappointed? You're wrong. Xiao Yan, if we simply describe our attitude towards you returning to the village in terms of disappointment or happiness, I think you underestimate your mother and me too much. When I resolutely gave up my job in the city and went back to teach in Clear Water Bay, my mood was much simpler than that of you now. ”
"Dad, you mean I don't have to care about everyone's attitude towards me going back to the village?"
"Let me ask you, do you really want to lead the villagers to live the same life as the people in the city when you go back to the village, or do you want to escape because of the pressure and complicated interpersonal relationships in the city?"
"Dad, of course I decided to go back to the village because I wanted to lead the villagers to live like people in the city."
"Xiao Yan, before doing something, you must think clearly why you want to do it? How? Once you've decided, do it without distractions. Thinking too much about what others think will only make you look ahead. ”
"Dad, I see!"
After listening to the solemn words, the solemn lost and helpless heart was raised again, and he walked quickly to his home in the new village.
In the old village, Lin Xi walked home step by step, walked to the door of the house and sat on the stone steps to hide his face and cry.
Qingshuiwan is now the only one in the entire village where Lin Xi's family still lives in the stone house of the old village.
Except for the thatched roof, the walls of this stone house are all made of stone, and no other material is used.
After getting rid of poverty, relying on subsidies and their own fundraising, every family built a new tiled house, but Lin Desheng's family did not build a new tiled house because of the heavy burden, but the thatch on the roof was replaced with tiles.
Lin Xi's love is solemn, this love, when she was a child, was the attachment love of a little girl to a big brother.
Lin Xi is three years younger than Yan Yan, and before the third grade of primary school, she studied with him at Qingshuiwan Village Primary School.
There is only one teacher in Clearwater Bay Primary School, who teaches the children various subjects.
Lin Xi is gifted and intelligent, and he only half a semester in the first grade when he caught up with Zhuang Yan, a top student, and the two became the same grade.
Due to the poverty and malnutrition of his family, Lin Xi was very thin when he was young, and his height was less than 1.3 meters in the fourth grade, and his weight was only about 25 kilograms.
During the three years of studying in her village, although Lin Xi was weak, the children were united and friendly, helping each other, and she did not encounter too many difficulties.
But from the fourth grade, he had to go to the complete primary school in the neighboring village, and Xiaolinxi ran into trouble.
The neighboring village is more than ten miles away from Clear Water Bay, and the children need to get up early to go to school in the dark, and the parents have no time to pick them up.
Zhuang Zhuang went to Lin Xi's door every morning to pick her up and go to school together, and waited for her to go home after school in the afternoon. Knowing that her family was poor and lacked food and clothing, he brought her something delicious every day. In case of rain and snow, the mountain road is difficult to walk, and the solemn back of Linxi goes home.
Although Lin Xi is thin and small, he looks fresh and beautiful, and it is inevitable that he will be pranked by some boys. Zhuang Zhuang always appeared in front of Lin Xi in time to teach the boys who bullied Lin Xi, and the boys didn't dare to look for Lin Xi anymore.
In junior high school, Lin Xi and Zhuang Yan studied together in the town's middle school.
The town is more than 50 miles away from Qingshuiwan Village, and you need to live on campus.
At this time, Linxi had already begun to develop and needed more nutritional security.
Zhuang Yan will always bring more meals every week, and Zhuang Zheng's mother knows that she will always cut a little more of the cured meat saved for the New Year and bury it in the lunch box.
During the meal, no matter how Zhuang Yan made fun of other classmates, he would sit and eat with Lin Xi, basically eating dry rice by himself, and leaving the dishes to Lin Xi.
Girls in middle school began to pay attention to their image, and Lin Xi was definitely the most poorly dressed girl in school.
In addition to helping the family with farm work during the solemn holidays, every morning, noon and evening they would go to the mountains to dig herbs, go down to the river to catch small fish, climb trees and pick wild fruits, and go to the town to exchange money.
In addition to buying a small gift for his family, all the extra money was used to buy clothes and trinkets that girls liked.
At first, Lin Xi resolutely refused to accept it, and solemnly said in the tone of a big brother, you are the only girl in middle school in Qingshui Bay, you must be neatly dressed, and you can't let outsiders look down on you.
In high school, Lin Xi chose to study as a vocational high school teacher, in order to join the work early and reduce the burden on the family.
Zhuang Yan was admitted to Shuizhou Middle School with excellent grades, and although the two were in Shuicheng together, they rarely saw each other.
In order to save the round-trip fare, Linxi usually only goes back to Clear Water Bay once a month.
In addition to bringing vegetables and rice to Lin Xi every week, Zhuang Zhuang will also bring some dried sweet potatoes, sweet potato balls, fried sweet potato chips and small wild fruits from the mountains to Lin Xi as snacks to eat, he knows that girls like to eat snacks, and Lin Xi has no money to buy snacks on the street like other girls.
Solemnly is good to Lin Xi, good to the bones, good to the heart.