Duan Qing was slightly stunned for a moment, then approached Huang Renxuan, and joked with a hippie smile: "Oh...... Are you reluctant to give up on me? ”

Huang Renxuan glared at him, turned her back to her, pouted and muttered, "You are so confident that I can't bear you, not that I just eat it?" ”

Duan Qing smiled slightly, and simply stepped forward to pull her around, "Okay, okay, I know, then let's just go for a walk." ”

Late at night, the two people walked slowly side by side on the sidewalk, and the shadows of the two people were stretched long by the street lamp, sometimes overlapping and overlapping, looking like a hug in one.

After walking for a while, Duan Qingwei suddenly spoke: "Ren Xuan, I want to know about your previous life abroad...... Is it convenient for you to say it now? ”

Huang Renxuan turned her head to look at him, "...... Well? Why all of a sudden, ......? ”

"I just want to understand."

Huang Renxuan was stunned for a moment, and was considering her words, but Duan Qingwei smiled when she saw this, and said, "It's okay, take your time, tell me when you want to speak." ”

Huang Renxuan smiled faintly and shrugged her shoulders, "Are you using this to ask me about Ouyang Huan?" ”

Duan Qingwei couldn't help but be a little surprised.

It turned out that she had already understood what he meant.

Huang Renxuan turned his head, looked ahead, and walked casually, "Since I came to Lisbon, I met Ouyang Huan during college, he pursued me for a long time, whether it is his family background, appearance, these external things are impeccable, although my family does not match his family background, but he doesn't care about this, I didn't have any friends over there at that time......"

Duan Qingwei stopped, slightly stunned, "Lisbon? Originally...... You went to Lisbon to study abroad, and you remember the place where we said we would go on a trip together. ”

"Did you just know that I was studying abroad in Lisbon? I thought you had already looked into ......"

"I don't respect you, since you didn't want to talk to me about your life abroad, how can I investigate......

Huang Renxuan slowly glanced at Duan Qingwei, and said with some complaints: "It was Ouyang Huan who accompanied me through those difficult days, and after a long time, I got used to his company, and it was he who gave me a feeling that I could rely on......"

Duan Qing lowered his eyes slightly and smiled bitterly, he was feeling sad for himself.

"And do you love him?"

Huang Renxuan did not speak.

A momentary atmosphere of low pressure spread between the two.

Huang Renxuan quickly adjusted her emotions again, pretending to be relaxed, tilting her head and asking Duan Qingwei, "What about you?" I've been in love all these years. ”

"How many times do you have to say it before you believe that I am not in a relationship with another woman."

"Hehe, are you so peaceful? Or are your ideals too lofty and you are dedicated to serving the people? Huang Renxuan asked mischievously.

"Knowingly asked."

Huang Renxuan looked embarrassed, and seemed to be reddening, "I...... I don't know what you think......"

Duan Qing glanced at Huang Renxuan slightly, and when he saw her incoherent appearance, his mood seemed to be soothed, and he suddenly burst out laughing.

They happened to pass by a commissary, and Duan Qingwei asked, "Do you want to drink water?" ”

Huang Renxuan nodded.

So, Duan Qingwei went into the commissary, and Huang Renxuan was waiting for him outside.

When Duan Qingwei came out, in addition to buying water, he was also holding a stack of fireworks.

"Hey, you actually bought fireworks......"

"I bought it when I saw it, I think you should like it, let's go to the river in front of us and set off fireworks."

Huang Renxuan's eyes lit up, she was quite interested, and nodded again and again.

In the middle of the night, the river is already empty, and there are no people walking for a long time.

Duan Qingwei lit a firework, the fireworks crackled and burned, and he handed the fireworks to her.

She happily took the fireworks, waved her arms slightly, and drew a series of shining circles of light on her side, and the fireworks in the cold night looked particularly lonely.

Huang Renxuan looked at Duan Qingwei standing aside stupidly, and then gave him the fireworks in his hand, "Let's play together, how boring I am alone." ”

Looking at this faint light and shadow, Duan Qingwei was a little in a trance. This woman in front of her eyes seems so real but unattainable.

Huang Renxuan saw Duan Qingwei staring at herself intently, she blushed slightly, and she approached him.

"What's wrong with you?" Huang Renxuan asked softly and gently.

"Nothing." Duan Qing tilted his head slightly.

Huang Renxuan watched the fireworks in her hand burn shorter and shorter, and said softly: "Qingwei, I always feel that you have a lot of things on your mind, to be honest, you are no longer the cheerful and straightforward teenager in my memory, now you have become a lot more silent, and you are not willing to open up to others, although we can't go back to the past, but more often, I think of you, you are still 18 years old." ”

Duan Qing lowered his head slightly, and his nose was a little sour.

Huang Renxuan also lowered her head, and her voice became lower and lower, "I told you just now that it was Ouyang Huan who accompanied me through the difficult days, but the reason why I can insist on surviving is more ......" She paused for a few seconds, took a deep breath, as if enduring the pain caused by the psychological shadow, raised her head and looked at Duan Qingwei and said: "I resent you countless times before, but I thought about it later, after all, you were only 18 years old at that time." ”

Duan Qingwei's head hung lower, his hands began to tremble, and the mist in his eyes swirled in his sockets.

Huang Renxuan slowly approached Duan Qingwei, but unexpectedly found that Duan Qingwei's breath was sobbing slightly.

She thought about patting Duan Qingwei on the shoulder and comforting him. But when he stretched out his hand, he stopped.

But Duan Qingwei suddenly hugged her, and finally this time, he couldn't hold back any longer, and tears fell down his eyes.

"Ren Xuan, I'm sorry, that night, in fact, I didn't miss the appointment, when I got there, I saw that you were already lying there unconscious, I'm sorry...... It's me who damn it, it's me who didn't protect you. ”

“…… I know. I later found out that you had made the appointment, but I still blame you for all the faults because I was in pain at the time, and I had to do this to make myself better. ”

Duan Qingwei stroked her hair, tears flowed, and said in a trembling tone: "I'm sorry, it's my fault, you didn't blame the fault, if I hadn't insisted on going my own way and not listening to your explanation at that time, something like that wouldn't have happened later." ”

When Huang Renxuan heard this, her tears couldn't stop flowing, and she said slowly: "Qingwei, we can't go back to the past......"

"Then don't go back to the past, I just want the present and the future."

Huang Renxuan hesitated for a while, but still pushed Duan Qingwei away.

"Let's go back. I am tired. ”

After saying that, he turned around and walked away.

The moment Huang Renxuan turned around, she burst into tears again.

We can't go back to the past, and we can't go to the future.

Duan Qing looked at her departing back in a daze, wanting to reach out but couldn't grasp it. He sorted out his emotions and cautiously followed her and accompanied her home.

After sending Huang Renxuan home, he also dragged his tired body back to his home.

Duan Qingwei gently opened the door and accidentally bumped into her mother Cai Meiyuan drinking red wine in the living room.

"Came back so late?" Cai Meiyuan asked.

"Well, there's something going on tonight. Mom, why aren't you sleeping? ”

"I don't know why I've been suffering from insomnia lately."

"Oh. Then you rest early, I'll go take a shower now. Duan Qingwei obviously didn't want to talk much.

Cai Meiyuan immediately stopped him, "Qingwei, are you okay?" Mom sees that you have lost a lot of weight recently, so don't worry too much about work. Mom is worried about you. ”

"I'm fine, you can rest early."

Duan Qingwei turned around and went to the bathroom, and he looked at himself in the bathroom mirror. He looked closer, his short messy hair, broad shoulders, bloodshot eyes, sunken pale cheeks, and a slight stubble on his chin, looking tired and vicissitudes.

Is this really your 25-year-old self?

He suddenly remembered what Huang Renxuan said, "That cheerful and straightforward young man is no longer there, and we can't go back to the past." ”

He choked up a little, and the memories of the past wrapped around him like vines, slowly wrapping around his whole body, and the pain began to spread throughout his body.

He looked at himself in the mirror in a daze, and suddenly said: "I am no longer the 18-year-old me, and the retribution for punishing me all these years should be enough." ”