（7）

I'm still working hard, and I don't seem to have anything interesting to do every day except studying.

After graduating from junior high school, I couldn't hold back and went to H City again.

Baiyin, Rand High School.

I went there, I even climbed over the wall and got into the school.

I didn't know what I was going to do, and I didn't do anything, just sitting on the lawn not far from the school building.

There were a few scattered students, probably in PE class.

I glanced at the names on the grade board next to me, but I couldn't find the person I was looking for.

I found another one.

Xu Siming.

The boy who was mentioned that day.

The top 100 in the grade is exactly at the ninety-ninth.

I laughed in my heart, it's not good.

Is that what she likes?

Vision, it's really not good.

But there are so many additional conditions for liking, liking is liking.

The bell rang for the end of school, interrupting my thoughts.

I moved my eyes to the school building not far away, and the students in it were rushing out, and the quiet school was suddenly full of activity.

"Hey, Xu Siming, are you coming after school to play ball?"

"Come on, for sure."

I followed the sound and looked over, the boy was wearing a simple blue and white school uniform, with a clean hair, smiling and holding a basketball and hooking his shoulders with his friends.

This alone has attracted the attention of most girls.

This attention is nothing more than the nameless throbbing of adolescence.

It's ordinary, it's ordinary.

But I saw her, and she looked at him with that admiration and caution.

It turned out that I had spent an afternoon just telling such a silent joke.

I got up, followed the crowd, and left.

When I went home that night, I looked in the mirror and learned to smile like Xu Siming.

Is it like this to learn to laugh, and when you stand with her, you will be more right?

What does it take for a man to give up?

It's like I wrote a letter, threw it away, threw it away, and H City went back, back.

It took half a year to really hand over the letter.

It's good for her to lie to me, it's good for me to be a pigeon, it's good to forget about me.

I'm just cutting off my thoughts.

（8）

Chop constantly.

I didn't know what my psychology was, so I started going back and forth to H City frequently, like a voyeur, to silently follow her life.

to watch her start to study seriously, watch her climb to the top little by little, watch her and Xu Siming get closer and closer, watch them hug in a no-man's corner......

And I also began to learn to make friends, practice basketball, play racing, and become laughing and cheerful.

I, like Xu Siming, stood in everyone's gaze.

It's just that there is no her in it.

I rejected everyone's confessions and secretly looked forward to an impossible person.

Occasionally, there will be some despicable thoughts, but every time I see her and Xu Siming together, the kind of relaxed smile on her face, I can't bear to destroy it.

It is precisely because she understands what she has experienced over the years that she knows better what she means when she looks at Xu Siming.

She is looking forward to it, longing for Xu Siming's redemption.

Help her escape from that home.

When I was a sophomore in high school, she and Xu Siming were together.

I witnessed the scene.

Maybe it's also the chosen one, but it happened to happen.

I looked at her, so reverently, and kissed Xu Siming's lips.

I was calm that day, just locked myself in my room and drank some wine.

I forgot for a while that I was allergic to alcohol.

When I woke up again, I was in the hospital.

I heard Aunt Wu say that it was Song Yiming who knocked the door open.

He almost thought my depression was coming back again.

Fortunately, the results of the examination came out and everything was normal.

I went back to school and got the guarantee qualification of A University, but it was meaningless.

She got her wish and went to A University.

And I, in my junior year of high school, have been competing in various competitions all year long.

It's time to break it.

City A is very big, as long as I don't deliberately approach her, I can't see her.