Leora didn't know where he was, and in a fiery circle of energy, his wave of consciousness was still retained, but it was hindered.

"Leora, Leora!"

At first, it was Safier's voice, but gradually, Cabe melted into the sound waves, then Michelle, and...

Is that the crucible of the soul? Leola clearly felt that a Force field far more violent than herself had coalesced to form a huge silver sphere. Moreover, it wasn't just Saffier who had them, the silver ball of light contained countless immortal souls, countless provocative and abundant thoughts and desires.

"Leola, come and be with us, we're all one, sharing each other, having each other. We are the other and the other. ”

Now, the sound didn't look like anyone, but Leora knew that his three companions were inside, and they all dwelt in the crystal hive of the vast spiritual stream.

"This is truly the highest species evolution, Leora. We project our memories in waves of light, eternally existing in the original homeland of this universe. The most important thing is that we are no longer suffering. ”

Leora watched as the silvery-white ball of light gradually expanded, saturated like a puff pastry shell membrane in the oven where meringue foam was expanding one after another, and countless tiny dots of light mixed with each other to split into countless new dots of light. He stiffly smiled bitterly, if he joined, would he still be him? And "Leola"?

"Come here, Leola. I no longer feel hollow, angry, and guilty of picking up my inner loneliness with baring my teeth and claws. We care for each other and comfort each other. ”

"Join us, Leora. I don't have to be a victim of pain anymore and never stop accepting the negative waves of others. We unite, share, and even forget our own barriers. ”

"Don't hesitate, Leola. I will no longer be confused and helpless because I can't find true values, this is the eternity where we really end. ”

They, his companions, and many more were calling to him. But why couldn't he happily join it? Why did he hesitate?

A delicate bite burst from the thought of his body, and a strong splitting pain rose from his back to his brain. If the pain and doubt are removed, what is there for him? Is the irreplaceable "self" also lost?

If that was the price, he couldn't afford it—he thought to himself. Without hesitation and deliberation, there was no way for him to step into the Evolution Factory that fused into a superego person.

"Perhaps I may call you Mother Goddess, because you are an infinite power of countless immortal beings. But I refuse to obey you. Within you, all the components that were once individual have obtained what they wanted, but cannot be given meaning by me to identify with.

"I want to keep everything I have, and I can't even be seduced by the joy of forgetfulness. To receive a gift is to pay the same amount of nourishment, and yet, the cavern I dug inside me cannot withstand the chimerism of something other. Loneliness may be the freedom of absurdity, but it is also the original intention of not changing. Goodbye, Saphier, Cabe, Michelle. ”

Leola delivers his initial and final reply to the orb of light. There must be an eternity more meaningful than "fusion", even if he hasn't found it yet.

The ball of light flickered rapidly, as if it had been hit with a strong blow.

"Why do you suffer? Leora. ”

However, it was unable to receive an answer, and Leora had shed her fiery silver glow and quickly reshaped her carbon body. Perhaps the lotus flower on the other side has not yet bloomed, and everything is about to begin, Leora returns to the "Drifter" starship hundreds of light-years away from the aqua blue star.

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The list is endless

He left them and entered the "Wanderer" alone, truly alone and re-entered the endless universe.

He didn't know how long he would have to travel, and he didn't understand why he had to reject that form of eternity and insist on it.

He heard the last thing the ball of light asked him, but he couldn't answer. This kind of haunting was like a dagger of malice, and it had been poking in his heart, and he almost wanted to change his mind at that time.

Suddenly, another phrase from Jasmon L.H. came to his mind: "Eternity in any form is based on independent memory." If we abandon the pain, it is equivalent to throwing away the memory of the self. ”

He burst out laughing. Finally, he clarified the definition of his existence. It is that kind of romance that is close to incomprehensibility that sets him on another eternal path to truly maintain himself, and the price he pays is also the reward.

The "Wanderer" will still travel far and wide, carrying a lonely wanderer who refuses to assimilate with the "gods", through the spinal cord of the universe, towards the pupils of dreams.

Hopefully, one day, he will be able to find his true "hometown" again. Leora smiled and drank a cup of "missing" fluently.