Jiang Qian's hand holding the bowl was extremely stiff.

She couldn't believe it, and suddenly raised her eyes.

But his gaze crashed into Lu Qingshi's eyes that were as heavy as an abyss.

The bedroom window was ajar, the wind poured in from the window lattice, the white gauze curtain was raised, she sat face to face with him facing away from the direction of the floor-to-ceiling window, the white light gauze fluttered behind her, like the wedding dress that had appeared in Lu Qingshi's dream countless times.

Jiang Qian couldn't believe what she heard, she thought that there might be something wrong with her ears, and she was so shocked that she couldn't react.

But Rao was like this, and her eyes slowly turned red.

When Lu Qingshi saw her appearance at this moment, he had a definite answer in his heart, and he couldn't describe what he felt at this moment.

His hand caressed her pale little face, and when his fingertips touched the tails of her reddened eyes, crystal tears rolled down her eyelashes.

Her breath trembled, her misty eyes were drooping with tears, and she still looked at him in disbelief, looking at him for more than ten seconds before she spoke, "Zhiling...... Her name is Lu Zhiling......"

Lu Qingshi's breathing was heavy.

The repressed gentle rolling of the Adam's apple.

Those repeated dreams, which seemed to him to be extremely absurd and vain, were all confirmed as facts under her words.

He looked at her deeply and was silent for a moment, "Why do we have children?" ”

Jiang Qian didn't know why he suddenly had memories of his previous life, and he didn't know how much he remembered, her heart was surging so much that tears burst out of her eyes in an instant, and she couldn't stop it.

Over the years, she really fantasized countless times that if one day he remembered the past, would she not have to love so hard and carefully, but she was worried that if he remembered, he would still choose to push her away as cruelly as in the previous life.

She was afraid that he would remember, and that he would not, so now that he suddenly asked, she was delighted and shocked, and at the same time felt overwhelmed.

"It's because I've loved you since I was a child, and I've been stalking you like now," she sniffed, her throat choked with tears, "but you don't want me, you're going to drive me out of the country, I don't want to live......"

She paused in her tone, and looked at him with tearful eyes, "I want to jump from the airport building, you're mad at me...... I was asked for it, and then I had it......"

Lu Qingshi's eyebrows were very deep.

It was as if he couldn't accept that he would behave like that to her.

“...... Zhiling and I live in China, you introduced me to Professor John, and I stayed at the Pugins Hospital after graduation," she choked up and said softly with tears, "Later, when you came to China to give academic lectures, I knew that you wouldn't love me, but I just couldn't give up on you, even if I was obviously married to someone else, I still lied to myself every day that the person I married was you...... Later, I ......"

Jiang Qian couldn't go on.

She didn't know if Lu Qingshi remembered what happened later, anyway, she didn't dare to say that she committed suicide by taking a mandala in order to indulge in the illusion of having him, she was afraid that Lu Qingshi would blame her.

In her last life, her biggest regret was that she felt sorry for Zhiling, and let Zhiling become an orphan at the age when she needed her mother the most, if it wasn't for her selfish choice to follow Lu Qingshi and leave, Zhiling should also have a happy and healthy childhood.

It's all her fault, and it's all her fault.

She didn't say anything more about the rest of the words, but Lu Qingshi obviously already knew it, and he closed his eyes in silence, covering the emotions that were about to surge out of his eyes.

Although he didn't know the love-hate entanglement he had before that ridiculous night with her, there were many things he didn't have to ask, and he could roughly guess the answers.

"Brother, don't blame me...... I know I'm sorry for Zhiling, I'm sorry for grandpa, but I'm weak and timid, I can't live without you......" Jiang Qian cried quietly, his little hand helplessly pulled his shirt sleeve, firmly clenched in the palm of his hand, "When I know that you are no longer there, I don't have the courage to live at all, if I don't have you for the rest of my life, living will only be more painful than dying, I ......"

Tears couldn't stop falling, and before she finished speaking, the man's slender arm reached over and hugged her in his arms.

His embrace was warm, and his thick palm was close to the top of her hair, and the moment Jiang Qian was hugged, he couldn't control it anymore, and he couldn't cry silently.

"I'm sorry," Lu Qingshi hugged her tightly, his eyebrows were heavy, and his breathing was rarely unstable, "It's my brother who is not good." ”

Jiang Qian's tears rained down and shook his head desperately.

How could it be that he is not good, he obviously got pulmonary fibrosis and lost his life in order to save her, it was she who affected him, no matter in the previous life or this life, she was his burden, if there was no her, he could live a life in the clouds forever, he was the king who overlooked all living beings, but because she had to be contaminated with dust, if you want to say that it is not good, it is all because she is not good, she only hates herself for being useless, she can't save him in her previous life, and in this life he has to worry about her and pay for her.

Lu Qingshi sighed, his dark eyes were as deep as the sea, and he comforted the girl who was trembling in his arms, "If my brother could have remembered it earlier, at least he wouldn't have made you suffer so much." ”

At least he can understand her obsession and possessiveness towards him from the beginning, and he will not refuse and scold him outright, at least he will warn Lu Zhenting's thoughts in advance, and he will not let her be tortured like this by the Lu family's family law.

Jiang Qian choked inhaled, his eyes were red from crying, and he was so sad that he couldn't speak.

It took a while for her to emerge from this desperate pessimism, and the black fawn's eyes were full of tears, and she looked at him pitifully.

She put her hand around his neck, sniffed again, and asked cautiously, "Then you remember now...... Will you push me away and don't want me? ”

Lu Qingshi stroked the tear-wet hair on the side of her face and replied solemnly, "No." ”

This answer would have reassured her for a while, but not enough to reassure her completely, she paused in her voice and asked, "Will you marry me?" ”

She was nervous.

The eyelashes stained with tears couldn't stop fluttering, and the clear eyes were full of helpless panic.

She didn't wait for his answer, she lowered her eyelashes and laughed self-deprecatingly, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that, what to marry or not, in fact, I don't care about any reputation at all, I just want to be by your side, I am already very satisfied to see you accompany you every day, even if you fall in love with someone else in your life, I ......"

Her words stopped there.

Because Lu Qingshi suddenly leaned over, one hand lifted her chin, and her thin lips gently held her lips.