There is no answer.

Lin Yunyan, who asked the question, did not have any answer in her heart, and knew that Xu Jian, who listened to her question, could not give an answer.

The roads are crisscrossed, but no one can say except for the moment when they come to an end.

Tears dripped down and fell on the back of Lin Yunyan's hand.

It is difficult for her to describe the emotions in her heart, those tumbling and silent, mixed together, unable to distinguish and have no heart to distinguish.

Obviously, the words she said just now were all things she had struggled and considered in these days, and even preset some results, Xu Jian's response was not unexpected by her, but when she really listened to him, Lin Yunyan understood that all psychological expectations were not enough.

Xu Jian said it very simply, and it can even be said that it was straightforward, skipping a lot of details, leaving only the most critical information.

But behind the scenes, is it really that simple?

How long does it take for him to go through and how many rights and wrongs he has experienced before he can determine what is inevitable and what is change?

The road is long and winding, and where does each fork in the road lead?

Time is changing, the situation is changing, this time the "right", in the next different situation, is it necessarily "right"?

Luck......

The more you master, the better your luck will be.

In fact, if Lin Yunyan was given another chance and let her go back to more than a year ago, she didn't dare to say that she could rampage out the same result as today.

And what about Xu Jian?

With this "now" in his hand, how long has he been on a rampage?

collided, and he could even calculate his leg injury clearly.

tied Li Shao back to Yumen, let him slip out, and brought the distressed Li Shao back from the crowd in the confrontation with the Xiliang army......

Xu Jian chose the method and severity of the injury, but the risk was by no means something he could pass through with a sentence of "more advantageous".

The battlefield is ever-changing, and how many people are not as good as the sky.

Once Li Shao is a little injured, this is not "advantageous".

It's no wonder that Xu Jian didn't mention it before, but she took the topic away when she asked her several times.

Xu Jian didn't believe her.

Xu Jian just knew her too well, and after knowing that she understood everything, she would be uncontrollable to think about every step he had taken.

It's a long time, it's lonely, it's hard to see the way forward, but it's a failure every step of the way.

And now, they're still on the road, and they're still going to have to make mistakes.

Even the sentence "the county lord is smart", in the final analysis, is just Xu Jian comforting her.

But she stubbornly wanted an answer.

Just like the last time, Xu Jian told her that she "can get through", in fact, it doesn't make sense, but she wants to believe it.

With tears still stained on her eyelashes, Lin Yunyan raised her head and looked at Xu Jian: "I guess, if you want to change, we must change if we want to live well, but you are afraid of change, because I am also there, aren't you?"

Xu Jian lowered his eyes, his eyes staggered, and his throat involuntarily slid up and down.

The little county lord is really too sharp.

Even if the words are rushed forward, there is not much time for Lin Yunyan to think about sorting out, but she can just catch the key point with a sharp point.

He's used to it.

Again and again, chaotic, chaotic, sometimes out of order, and even brainless.

He remembered that for a while, when he opened his eyes, he didn't even know what day it was, every day was changing, the day before yesterday was the twilight of the seventeenth year of Yongjia when the empress dowager died, yesterday was the fourteenth year of Yongjia, Liu Xun's gold list title, and when he asked today, one day in the fifteenth year of Yongjia, he didn't know what he said wrong, Lin Yunyan turned his head and ignored him......

There is no preface and afterword, and the big things can be sorted out, and the small things don't even know where to recall them.

Fortunately, after that, time suddenly stabilized, and he sent Li Shao'an back to the capital safely from Yumen Pass in Yongjia for ten years, he thought he could be stationed at the border pass in an orderly manner, but he was beaten west the next year

Cool man stabbed.

There is no way to avoid it, there is no way to hide it.

Then he walked long in the dark, like a traveler lost in the desert, not hungry, thirsty or cold, but the long road had no end.

Occasionally, there will be mirages, Mrs. Xu's, An Yibo's, Li Shao's, and of course, Lin Yunyan's.

He has also experienced many endings, which is not a good thing.

After getting used to it, he was very open-minded.

He does what he thinks, great is a failure, if he is defeated, he can start again, then he will come again, if he can't, he will pull it down, and it is not impossible to die completely.

It's better than tossing like this.

But now, he is indeed "afraid."

This time, time was steady, every day was in order, and he had to be careful.

Because he had to take Lin Yunyan with him.

Because this is the best "start" he has won in so much chaos, it can even be said that although he did not abolish Li Shao and did not find out the people who were making waves behind him, he occupied part of the opportunity.

In the past, when Xu Jian was more extreme, he might choose the most radical means.

There are so many intersections, so go around, and the more pits you step on, the more opportunities you have when you start over.

But not this time.

He could have messed it up himself, but he didn't want the little lord to be smashed in it like that.

In addition to those changes, Xu Jian retains some "inevitability", and uses these inevitabilities that he repeats over and over again to retain some familiarity, so as not to collapse due to complete unfamiliarity.

"Yes......" Xu Jian opened his mouth, just one word, but he was hoarse and almost couldn't make a sound, and after adjusting it slightly, he added, "Because you're here."

Lin Yunyan lowered her head.

She didn't sit on the chair anymore, just squatted in front of Xu Jian, her forehead against the back of her hand pressed on his knee, and opened her mouth several times and swallowed several times where Xu Jian couldn't see.

Do you want to ask again?

Ask another question that she knows the answer to.

What I couldn't hold back before my throat were tears, which just fell one by one, and suddenly they were connected into a string, and I couldn't help it.

Xu Jian knew that Lin Yunyan was crying, her slender shoulders trembled, and she cried silently.

He couldn't see it, but he knew why.

This is also the most important reason for avoiding these questions again and again.

To be open and honest about this, it is useless for him to hide it.

The question that Lin Yunyan wanted to ask and couldn't open her mouth, that answer, she actually knew.

Xu Jian raised his hand, pressed his palm on his neck, and pressed his fingertips through the Adam's apple, and once and for a while, the skin was red, and the stinging pain could be regarded as opening up the stuck sound, and he called: "Ah Yan......"

Lin Yunyan's body trembled slightly.

"I gave up," Xu Jian pinched her Adam's apple again, "I gave up marrying you."

In those confused times, many times, they were husband and wife, and that was not Xu Jian's choice, but when he was "clear", they had already made a marriage contract and were married.

In the limited opportunity to let go, Xu Jian chose to refuse to give marriage.

If his fate is so chaotic, and he will eventually face Li Shao's suppression and persecution, then there is no need for him to drag Lin Yunyan and the Sincerity Bofu to the Sincerity Mansion.

Lin Yunyan is the heart and soul of the Queen Mother, even if the Queen Mother will eventually pass away, she can still pave a good path for her heart and liver.

It is much better than marrying Xu Jian, the Duke of Fuguo, who will be cut down sooner or later.

It's a pity that the progress after that still gave Xu Jian a head start.

Without this family business, the sincerity of the Bofu was still copied, Xu Jian was ordered to take people there, in a mess, he watched Lin Yunyan supporting his grandmother, in the cold wind, the whole person was shaky.

Lin Yunyan didn't recognize him at that time, but Xu Jian was familiar with her, and she could see her composure and pain and grief.

But he could only do that

Look, that's all.

The taste of that moment was so profound that the world began to crumble, and the entire capital was plunged into chaos, and the flames rose into the sky, and the heat was like purgatory.

Xu Jian didn't escape.

He was engulfed in chaos, and when he opened his eyes again, it was a dreary night.

He lay on the bed, and the people around him slept deeply, breathing long.

With an unstoppable, violent, and disordered heartbeat, he hugged her into his arms, listening to her low murmur as she was woken up in her sleep, and let her heartbeat steady little by little......

At that time, he knew that it was impossible to "give up" anymore.

Giving up is the wrong way to go.

He can't save the little county lord and the sincerity of the Bofu, and he can't save himself.

"Ah Yan," Xu Jian called again, "I'm sorry......

Lin Yunyan cried even more fiercely.

What's there to be sorry for?

Xu Jian acted with his own way of thinking, and it was normal to take a road that could at least "protect" her and Sincerity Bofu among the roads that could not be taken.

In other words, she is Xu Jian, after experiencing so many ups and downs, she will also try to take this path.

It's not about habits, it's not about dependence, it's just "protection".

And when this protection fails, the most heartache is undoubtedly the one who made the choice.

The other is completely ignorant.

She actually knew too little all along.

Suddenly, Lin Yunyan remembered what happened when she was married.

The saint pointed out Xu Jian's marriage, why did he point to her?

Because the little prince of the Xia family told Shengshang that on that summer evening, on the square outside the palace gate, Xu Jian glanced at her from a distance.

It was a glance that couldn't hide his emotions and allowed Xia Xiaogongzi to see the clues.

So, what about that other look?

In the years when she had no memory and couldn't help him, how many times did Xu Jian see her from afar?

Suddenly, the warm palm landed on her head, caressing it gently.

Fingers ran through her long loose hair, again and again, silently reassuring her.

Lin Yunyan bit her lower lip tightly, wanting to put away all her tears.

She had to say a few words to Xu Jian, even if she didn't know what to say, she shouldn't be crying like this.

The fingers between the long hair paused for a moment, and then, along the pinna of the ear and cheek, pressed against Lin Yunyan's jaw.

The fingertips felt not only wetness, but also tightness.

Xu Jian's heartbeat leaked, and his fingers used some strength to force Lin Yunyan to raise her head.

Sure enough, the lower lip had already bitten out blood.

"It's broken," Xu Jian grabbed her arm, made Lin Yunyan stand up, looked up at her, and said, "It's all bleeding."

Lin Yunyan wiped it with her knuckles, and a piece of blush was cut along her lips.

She glanced at her fingers and whispered, "Such a little blood......

Compared to Xu Jian's leg injury, it is nothing at all.

Xu Jian looked at her crying eyes, raised his hand and wiped the corners of her eyes.

Lin Yunyan looked at Xu Jian's raised arm and asked, "Am I still short?"

Headless and brainless, Xu Jian's hand was sluggish, but he laughed out loud.

It's really not very convenient.

If you really want to be more comfortable, you should let Lin Yunyan sit down too, but he doesn't mind his leg injury, the little county lord will never sit.

Lin Yunyan is very stubborn in these things.

Thinking like this, Xu Jian couldn't help but laugh again and sighed, "Ah Yan has grown taller."

Lin Yunyan stared at him, but her eyes were full of tears, not only not fierce, but also pretty.

Xu Jianding looked at her twice, shook his head with a wry smile, and finally used some strength in his hand to press the person on his lap.

Lin Yunyan hurriedly got up.

"Left leg," Xu Jian didn't let go, but added a little more strength, "The left leg is fine."

Lin Yunyan was stunned, subconsciously determined the left and right, and was about to ask "what to do", when the hand that wiped the corner of her eye supported her cheek.

Looking at each other, her vision was blurred, but her senses were sharper, and the warm breath was very close, falling on her broken wound.

It's painful, it's numb, it's hot, and it's also murmuring.

She heard Xu Jian call her "Ah Yan", and she smelled the smell of rust.

The long eyelashes trembled, drooped, and closed.

Between her lips and teeth, Lin Yunyan thought, it was obviously such a gentle kiss, why did the tears that she had suppressed come out again?

Outside, Bang Yue gathered the coat on her body and glanced in the direction of the inside.

She couldn't hear what was being said, only that the night was getting deeper.

Grandpa Guo has been here for a while, and if he doesn't leave, I'm afraid it will be inappropriate.

And the lights inside are dim, and they may soon go out, so isn't it too inappropriate for her to go in and light them at that time?

After hesitating, there was at last some noise inside, and the wind became louder, and after a while it was back to normal, and then she heard the lord call her.

Bang Yue hurriedly went in, looked left and right, and didn't see Xu Jian.

"Grandpa Guo is gone?" She asked.

"Gone." Lin Yunyan walked to the shelf, twisted a handkerchief to wipe her face, and went to the dresser to apply some balm.

Bang Yue found out that the county lord had obviously cried, and there was a wound on his mouth, and his voice was hoarse......

"You, Grandpa Guo, he ......" Bang Yue stammered, not knowing whether or not to ask or how.

Seeing her helpless appearance, Lin Yunyan's heart was relieved, and she pursed her lips and smiled.

Bang Yue was confused, and was much more relieved by the smile of her county lord, so she didn't ask.

In the alley, Xuan Su waited quietly for a long time.

Their grandfather has been gone for too long, but there is no superfluous movement inside, it shouldn't be a problem.

After waiting for a while, hearing the familiar footsteps inside the wall, Xuan Su looked up, and soon, a figure came out of the wall and landed smoothly on the ground.

Xuan Su was about to breathe a sigh of relief, but saw Xu Jian's brows furrowed.

"Grandpa......

Xu Jian shook his head slightly: "It's okay."

It was indeed very uncomfortable to land, but the two stares were far away, and they couldn't see the clues.

"Let's go." He said.