Although Ning Shuyi looks like a fair and well-behaved girl, and most of the time she speaks gently and gently, she is not a sensual character in her bones.

She can even be regarded as a person who is a little overly rational in her bones.

But at this moment, sitting in the pavilion, blowing the cool evening breeze, listening to Huo Yan talk about his past experience in a calm tone, she felt that the wind tonight seemed to be extraordinarily cold, so cold that people wanted to shiver, and even her nose had a soreness like being affected by the wind and cold.

Ning Shuyi didn't know what to say for a while, but a picture suddenly flashed in his mind, which was the time when the two of them went to the hospital to understand the situation in order to investigate Chang Junchao's case.

At that time, there was a bouquet of apricot blossoms in front of the window of the hospital corridor, which was very beautiful in the sunlight.

And it was such a beautiful picture, but Huo Yan not only didn't have any mood to appreciate it, but seemed to feel a little faintly irritated because of it, and found a reason to buy water and walked away, not wanting to see it.

At that time, Ning Shuyi felt that his reaction was very strange, but she didn't know the reason, and she didn't explore, and now she heard Huo Yan take the initiative to talk about the past to herself, which made her think of something at once.

"When you were sent back to the orphanage by that couple, did it happen to be in the apricot blossom season?" She really didn't want to call those two people Huo Yan's "adoptive parents", even if they were "former adoptive parents".

The selfishness and immorality of those two people made Ning Shuyi feel disgusted and even disgusted.

Even if it is a puppy or a kitten, if you raise it by your side for two years, you will develop a deep feeling, not to mention a child, a living person!

These two selfish and irresponsible guys really don't deserve to be called with the word "parent".

Huo Yan was stunned for a moment, and then realized that Ning Shuyi should have made some associations, but he didn't expect that his reaction at that time was actually seen by Ning Shuyi and remembered until now.

The tense muscles in his cheeks loosened slightly, and he nodded: "Yes, there was an apricot tree in the courtyard of the welfare home at that time, and it was just about to bloom, full of buds.

I sat in the yard every day and waited, hoping that one day they would come back to pick me up, until the apricot blossoms bloomed all over the tree, and then the flowers were gone, and my mood went from hope to disappointment, and then to despair when I learned the truth of the matter.

After that, when I saw the apricot blossoms blooming, I couldn't help but think of how I felt back then, so I felt annoyed and didn't want to see it."

"It's also because of this experience that you feel that you are a person who is not accepted or cherished, so you are so open-minded to yourself?!" Ning Shuyi smashed the wording in Huo Yan's words.

When he was a child, he was forced to settle in a welfare home for others, but he was really abandoned by his parents and family.

Some people take themselves too seriously, such as Ning Shuyi's brother-in-law Nie Guang.

Some people don't take themselves too seriously, and they can even give up their lives anytime and anywhere, such as Huo Yan.

Ning Shuyi was in a complicated mood for a while, and he didn't know what to say.

She felt that she was usually very persuasive, but at this moment she only felt a little sad in her heart, and she didn't know what to say.

Many times, if you haven't experienced the trauma of others, you can't experience that kind of pain, and when you speak, you just have a "handle with care" that seems to be more rational and open-minded, but in fact it's just a stone that hasn't hit your own feet.

Ning Shuyi thought about it, if he had met Huo Yan's growth process since he was a child, would he be able to be more positive than him now, and would he be able to become a better person than him.

She couldn't give an answer.

When Dong Da Team asked her about Huo Yan's psychological condition before, he mentioned that he was too open-minded because he lacked enough desire to survive when he was on a mission, and he was persuaded to change jobs by his superiors.

At that time, she didn't understand Huo Yan's mental journey very well, but now she suddenly has a little

I see.

Huo Yan didn't resent anyone because of what happened back then, he just looked down on himself.

And he looks down on himself, not to give up on himself and feel sorry for himself, but to try to do everything he can, wanting to prove his worth, and at the same time, subconsciously because he looks down on himself, he would rather take all the risks himself to protect others who are "more needed by the world".

Thinking of this, Ning Shuyi felt an indescribable sadness in his heart.

Huo Yan heard something strange from her tone, turned his head to look at the people around him, and found that his partner usually had a shallow smile on his face most of the time, and he looked quite serious at this time, and his brows were slightly furrowed.

"It used to be, but not anymore." He didn't want to deny his past thoughts with a clear conscience, but he couldn't wait to explain, "You taught me a lesson earlier, you said that you should be your most loyal teammate.

You're right, I listened to it, so I won't punish myself for other people's faults in the future."

Hearing his words, Ning Shuyi's brows loosened a little, and she felt that after Huo Yan took herself to eat wontons, it seemed that the whole person was a little more relaxed than before, and she was not so depressed and tight.

Fang Cai himself was emotionally affected by his narration, and only then did he realize it.

This is a good phenomenon, seeing that he relaxed, Ning Shuyi's dull heart just now seemed to be relieved.

"But, then again, if I had done something like that back then, even if I met and recognized you by chance, I would have to cover my face and quickly avoid you, and she was so embarrassed to take the initiative to talk to you to confirm her identity?" Ning Shuyi felt that the "ex-adoptive mother's" behavior was a little strange.

"I didn't think about it that much." Huo Yan shook his head, "It's been a long time since I've thought about those, or I try to avoid evoking unpleasant memories and just want to live the present day.

So she ran over unexpectedly and stood in front of me, my emotions were a little out of control, and that emotional out-of-control made me a little angry with myself, and I felt that I was too useless, and after so many years, I could still mess up in an instant because of what happened back then."

"You were injured on a mission before, right?" Ning Shuyi remembered what Team Dong had told him before, "Now that it's a rainy day, will that scar be painful and itchy?"

Huo Yan nodded, his expression was slightly dazed, as if he didn't understand why Ning Shuyi would mention this: "Yes, but I'm used to it, so it's not in the way."