I've been busy these days, and I've stopped changing for a month unconsciously, looking at the outline in my phone and the less and less collections, I have mixed feelings in my heart.

I didn't do anything else during this time, I just kept running in the hospital.

My father was very ill, and the doctor diagnosed him with advanced lung cancer, and it was small cell, which is the most serious type of lung cancer...... To put it simply, it is a terminal disease, the kind that has the most slaps in the face, and it is a disease that normal doctors can never cure.

It's a pity that I'm not the main character, and I can't come up with life-saving medicine or healing magic.....

Hey, at the moment I envy those protagonists, how much I want to be Ron, and I can solve these "little problems" with a wave of my hand, but unfortunately this is a bloody reality.

Yesterday my father suddenly suffered respiratory failure, cardiac arrest, and his heartbeat was gone.

The doctor said that his tracheoesophagus had been completely compressed, and they showed me the CT chart, and the two original round tubes had been completely deflated, and there was no seam.

At that time, the situation was so serious that we even brought the shroud and after-the-fact belongings, and all the relatives came, my mother kept crying, and my whole person was in a state of extreme emptiness, my heart couldn't think of anything, it was all blank, and there was a buzzing sound echoing in my ears all the time.....

But my father was very strong, and the doctor said that he had a strong will to survive when he was rescued in the ICU, and he never gave up after entering the ICU for a day and a night.

The doctors said that he was dead all over again, and it was a miracle that he came back alive.

Yesterday was like a dream, I experienced my father's last farewell, rescue, death.... Then wake up again....... I haven't recovered so far, but fortunately, at the end of the day, we finally met a few reliable doctors like the protagonist, and my father came back to life.

Then today, 6 of us, carrying my father followed by four doctors, a group of people carried my father's hospital bed, pulled over to the oncology department to force radiotherapy, the current situation is relatively stable, wait for the observation period to see if we can continue radiotherapy, the doctor said that if the radiotherapy is ten times, the tumor may shrink a lot, and then it can last a few more months.

Now we are no longer seeking a cure, and small cell lung cancer is currently a terminal disease in the world, and there is no cure, and there are very few targeted drugs.

We just want to delay a little longer and spend more time with him.....

After so much rambling, I suddenly remembered that I hadn't said anything about the update, hey, my mind was messed up.

Thank you for reading this, I have the patience to watch a nonsense kid say this, about the update, the required laptop I have ready, but I really can't write it during my father's radiotherapy these days, but I don't want to use the outline to escape, that would be too confusing, unless it is absolutely necessary, I really don't want to do that.

Finally, I beg you all here, I hope you can give me a little more time to ease this time, so that I can continue to write.

Bow and thanks!

December 18, 2023

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