"Give me the cigarette first! Sorry for you! ”

Hearing Da Renyi's question, Ape Feiri, who had already patted his clothes on the ground and got up, smiled and gestured at him to light a pipe.

Da Renyi laughed and threw the pipe and tobacco box on the table next to him over,

Ape Feiri stretched out his hand to take it, skillfully lit it and took a big sip, the original bitter wrinkled old face instantly stretched out, and he breathed a long sigh of happiness,

Squinting his eyes and enjoying it for a moment, he looked up and seriously recalled his mental journey, probably for the first time without reservation, he said everything in his heart without reservation:

"I'm not a human god like the first Hokage, I'm just a mortal, I can't perfectly fulfill all my wishes, and I can't protect everyone,

As a result, in the face of difficult situations, I can only make my own choices again and again between the bad and the worse;

sacrificing innocent people to protect the interests of the majority, of course, is unfair to the victims,

For example, the Uzumaki clan who couldn't wait for Konoha to be rescued by force, the Uchiha clan who were innocently killed, and many others,

But as the Hokage, in order to avoid accidents and worsen the situation, I have limited ability, so I must make the most conservative and least bad choice.

Just like ordinary people, of course, they want to spend more time with their families, take care of their children, and fulfill the responsibilities of a wife or husband and parents.

But many times they can't do it, in order to live, in order to earn money to support their families, they have to be busy and disappear all day long.

Of course, their wives or husbands, and their children will have resentment and resentment towards them, but there is no way to do it, and this is a rational and painful choice in itself. ”

Speaking of this, Ape Fei Ri paused for a moment, noticing the mocking expression on Da Renyi's face, his old face flushed, he smiled, and added:

"At least at first, that's what I thought!

At that time, I made every choice carefully and after careful consideration.

Even, every time, with a deep sense of guilt and self-reproach for the innocent victims, I reluctantly chose to give up on them.

Every choice I made was painful for me, and then, and then ......"

"And then?"

While listening, Da Renyi took out a pen and paper, carefully made a written record, and recorded all of this.

Ape Feiri's face trembled, this guy, is he planning to take out my confession record and publish it, right?

Although I am worried that I may be "publicly executed", but at the same time, many words are not unhappy in my heart after the ape Fei Ri slashed to the current situation.

Shaking his head, Ape Fei Ri continued to speak, revealing the inner darkness that he had been deliberately avoiding and unwilling to face:

“…… Then, with the pain and the pain got used to it, I slowly became numb and indifferent,

The pain that was once real has become no longer felt, and I am used to the position of the Hokage, and I can no longer feel the pain of the victims,

I showed sympathy and helplessness for them, but my heart gradually became indifferent.

The appearance of kindness and tolerance has become a mask on my face, a hypocritical and formulaic performance,

While accustomed to naturally performing sympathy for them, their own pain and helplessness,

While skillfully pushing them off the cliff, slowly, it seems that there is no one who cannot be sacrificed!

Whether it's the village's hero Konoha White Fang, or the innocent child Naruto Uzumaki,

Especially after the appearance of Tuan Zang and his roots, when I blame myself even more, I have a reason to shirk responsibility.

At first, Tuan Zang hid that I had made a mistake, and I was shocked and angry, but I was reluctant to deal with him with a heavy hand.

To others, he's a ruthless bastard, but to me,

But it is a close friend who grew up with me, a teammate who shares life and death, and on the battlefield, we have entrusted our lives to each other countless times.

So, I forgave him once,

Then, I couldn't help but forgive him for the second and third time......

Later, I began to silently enjoy the benefits brought to me by his selfishness, and he took the initiative to realize all my dark and selfish thoughts for me.

Because I didn't do it, I can deceive myself that I'm a good person!

So, while blaming him on the surface, I actually indulged him.

Countless times, I told myself in the mirror that those dark things were not my fault, they were all caused by Tuan Zang's unauthorized decisions!

I'm not that kind of person, everything is Tuanzang's fault......

Then I can walk into the sun with peace of mind, enjoy the stability and prosperity of the victims, and put all the honor on my head. ”

Ape Fei Ri said as he was stunned, as a big smoking gun, he was unaware of the pipe that had burned out and extinguished in his hand at this time,

“…… Once the mask is worn for a long time, it will grow on the face and can never be taken off again.

In fact, even I couldn't tell what kind of person I was!

In the compromise of reality, friends, and selfishness, and indulgence again and again,

I've become what I couldn't have imagined when I was a teenager!

Once, I thought I could stay true forever, I felt that putting on the mask of hypocrisy was just a temporary compromise, and I was conceited that I would not change.

But in reality, it's all delusion......

Please tell Naruto that he defeated me, defeated me,

Then, don't be me again!

For a mistake like the three generations of Hokage Ape Flying Sun Slash, one of Konoha is enough. ”

Da Renyi put away the notes and papers that were full of notes after his own "processing and polishing", and gave him a thumbs up:

"Your case of error is very convincing and very valuable,

It is very suitable as an important reference material that must be read before the official accession to the throne for every Hokage in the future of Konoha

Rest assured, your story will be known and your mistakes will live on forever! ”

"Uh...... That couldn't be better! ”

Ape Feiri couldn't cry or laugh, rubbed his hands awkwardly, there was an embarrassment of social death, and then, he laughed freely and happily,

Life failure is like him, before the curtain is completely over, he can provide a life reference for the future Hokage,

Eliminate a wrong choice for them, and he is already satisfied.

"Alright, let's go! I'm going to get a good night's sleep! ”

Stretching his somewhat rickety waist, Ape Fei Ri has a sense of relief that he has completely let go of everything.

"One last question, I'll leave after asking it,"

Great Renyi had a smile on his face that Ape Fei Ri Chop couldn't understand, although he couldn't understand it, but Ape Fei Ri Chop felt a malice inexplicably,

"If you're not defeated, when do you think you're going to reflect on your life? Will it be wrong forever? ”