Chapter 50
Tao Tianze then led the topic from philosophical issues to life issues: "Although I think that the theory of 'life is meaningless' is fundamentally wrong, if we are unhappy because we care about too many things that we cannot change, then it will also make our lives meaningless." What do you think? ”
Ji Ping nodded and shook his head, and said for a long time: "I know that the purpose of you saying this is to persuade me. But even I can't convince myself, so how can you persuade me. I also know that there are many things in life that cannot be changed at all, and there is no choice, and I need to face them bravely, but how can I face them with my family. From elementary school to university, I received an education in truth, goodness and beauty, but the environment I lived in had nothing to do with truth, goodness and beauty. I don't know if it's a trick from heaven or a torture of fate. Sometimes, I really want to leave this world, and maybe it's a relief for me. ”
Tao Tianze hurriedly said: "If you die like this, are you worthy of your parents who gave birth to you and your friends?" ”
Ji Ping said coldly: "Parents...... Although the grace of nurturing is greater than heaven, I always feel ...... The purpose of parenting is sometimes far greater than the purpose of parenting itself. As for friends, no one around me will care about my life or death except you, a friend. ”
"Don't you feel alive, enjoying life, and bringing us a lot of joy?" Tao Tianze asked a little anxiously.
Ji Ping didn't seem to understand Tao Tianze's emotions, and smiled indifferently: "All I feel now is happiness, I can't feel what the joy of life is." ”
Faced with such a disheartened woman, Tao Tianze inevitably didn't know what to do and wanted to continue to persuade her, but her thoughts seemed to be deeply rooted. Tao Tianze couldn't help but think of Jia Aiqin, who was like a living treasure. Jia Aiqin is undoubtedly happy all the time, as if pain is a kind of happiness for her. Perhaps, in Jia Aiqin's view, life itself is a kind of perception and an experience, and she is willing to enjoy this perception and experience with her heart, whether it is pain or comfort, she can find the meaning of existence in this perception. Yoshihei sees life as an ordeal, and even if she feels happiness, she thinks that this happiness brings her the pain of loss, and even happiness does not make her happy. This is an attitude towards life, a kind of cognition of life.
The two of them walked slowly, and suddenly it began to drizzle. The rain is slender and soft, falling in the dim street lamp.
"It's raining, let's go back." Tao Tianze looked up at the falling rain.
Ji Ping was silent for a while and said, "I don't want to go back, can you accompany me again, in this rain." ”
Right in the rain! It's so romantic, but after a while, it will become a soup chicken. Tao Tianze thought in his heart, but he couldn't say it, so he took off his coat and covered Ji Ping's head. Ji Ping tore it open and let Tao Tianze put it on.
"Hold me, like a couple, walking in the rain." Ji Ping looked at Tao Tianze and said.
What does it mean to be "like a couple", isn't it a couple when a man and a woman hug each other? But if I had a couple like you, I'm afraid I would have fallen into blood mold for eight lifetimes. Tao Tianze thought in his heart, and gently hugged Ji Ping's shoulder, which could be regarded as a comfort to her.
Even though it was raining, the faint floral fragrance on Jipei's body was still so charming.
Tao Tianze couldn't help but joke: "If every woman is as fragrant as you, I'm afraid that the perfume maker will go bankrupt." ”
Ji Ping may have misunderstood what Tao Tianze meant, and said lightly: "If you like it, I can give you anything." ”
Tao Tianze couldn't help but weaken his legs, and hurriedly stabilized his emotions and said, "Don't get me wrong, I don't mean anything else." I just think you smell so good. I don't think you're going to wear perfume on your body, so it's supposed to be a natural scent......"
After explaining for a long time, Tao Tianze felt as if the more he spoke, the more he couldn't speak, so he had to shut up and take a look at Ji Ping's face.
Ji Ping said without any expression: "You don't have to explain, what I said is true." If you like, I can give you anything! ”
If Ji Ping is a girl like Jia Aiqin, everything can happen at this moment. Jia Aiqin will take the initiative, will start, and even force, but Ji Ping will not, she only has her own attitude, only a heart, and it is impossible to take the initiative, but if she is indifferent, it is undoubtedly contempt and disrespect for her.
Tao Tianze gently hugged her waist and slowly leaned his lips over, and his breathing became rapid at this moment. Ji Ping lightly opened his lips, looked at Tao Tianze affectionately, and at the moment when his lips touched, he slowly closed his eyes, and at the same time his arms firmly hugged Tao Tianze's waist......
Just when the procuratorate was intensively investigating the "313" overpass collapse case, Chen Zijin suddenly committed suicide by jumping from his office on the fourth floor of the complex building. This is something that no one expected. Fan Minghua was even more surprised, because with Fan Minghua's understanding of Chen Zijin, Chen Zijin himself was a timid and afraid of things, and he would never have the courage to commit suicide by jumping off a building, so he asked the Public Security Bureau to block Chen Zijin's office as soon as possible.