"I am a left-behind child, living with my grandfather, my parents do not come back all the year round, and other children often coax me, saying things like 'I have a mother to give birth to a mother and no mother to raise'."

"This caused me to be more introverted and inferior at that time, and I didn't dare to fight back when I was bullied."

Gu Panyan smiled self-deprecatingly, "At that time, although my grandfather had already started to teach me to fight, I had no force, but I didn't have the courage to do anything with them. ”

"Every time, I will cheer myself up in my heart and say, if those people dare to say that I 'have a mother and no mother', I will beat them hard. But when I was really bullied, I still didn't have the courage to resist. ”

"Say, was I useless at that time?" Gu Panyan suddenly asked him.

"It's normal for people to be human." Wang Ge was relieved, "Courage has never been something that is so easy to obtain. ”

“…… You're right. ”

Gu Panyan chuckled, "At that time, I was too timid, I was afraid of too many things, I was afraid of dogs, I was afraid of the dark, I was afraid of being bullied, I was afraid of declining grades, and I was afraid that my grandfather would be disappointed." ”

"And what I'm most afraid of is the ghosts that may lurk in the dark, so I don't dare to turn off the lights when I go to bed every night, otherwise I will be afraid and can't sleep."

"Grandpa, in order to dispel my fears, carved out the demons out of wood and told me to split them with an axe."

Gu Panyan smiled silently, "When I first saw those wood carvings, I was so frightened that I couldn't even hold the axe steadily, and I almost hit my own foot. ”

"But then I found out that they weren't really scary at all, and with a little force, I could split them all."

Wang Ge brought the wood carvings over, raised his eyebrows and asked, "That's how these wood carvings came from?" ”

She let out a "hmm" and laughed sarcastically, "The original purpose of my tattoo was not achieved at all, although it did drive away some flies, but it attracted many more.

It helped me a lot by tattooing it on a whim. ”

"You were most afraid of them before, so you tattooed them on your body......" Wang Ge thought for a while and guessed: "Is it because you want other people to be afraid of you?" ”

"Nope."

Gu Panyan shook his head and said, "It's courage." ”

"Courage?" Wang Ge was puzzled.

"Yes."

She pointed to her tattoo: "All the demons on it were once carved by my grandfather, and then I split them one by one. ”

"I want to remember that feeling forever, the first time I raised my axe, I faced my fear, I fought against my fear, I fought against it, I won it over."

She said, "That's courage." ”

"When Grandpa was still alive, I never had such a thing, even if I was coaxed and rumored, I was still cowardly escaping, which is the root cause of so many flies I would incur."

She smiled mockingly again, "After my grandfather died and I was tortured and went crazy, I finally had the courage I had always dreamed of. ”

Wang Ge didn't say anything, just hugged her gently.

"But that's not enough," Gu Panyan continued, "I began to realize that no matter what I want to do in this world, I need courage, it takes courage to accept my grandfather's death, and it also takes courage to change my current situation. ”

She pointed to the demon sculptures in the king singer, "So I tattooed them on my body." ”

"They can't make me fearless, all they can do is to have the courage to raise an axe and resist when I feel fear."

"When I resist, even triumph, the things that fear me, they can no longer make me afraid."

"Face the suffering of reality and the fear in your heart, accept what cannot be changed, and resist what should be changed."

"That's what courage means and it's the most precious thing I've gained from this experience."

She looked at Wang Ge, the corners of her mouth turned up: "To be honest, I should be grateful for this experience, otherwise I should still be the cowardly and inferior waste I used to be." ”

Wang Ge hugged her softly, shook his head and said, "Suffering is never something worth singing about, if you can, I hope you will never go through that." ”

"I've already experienced it, can I still change it?"

Gu Panyan leaned lazily into his arms and picked his chin with his fingers, "Besides, if I hadn't experienced those, would you still like me?" Will you like that cowardly and inferior me? ”

"Absolutely." Wang Ge said as a matter of course, and then hummed, "In this way, I can turn over and be the master, I don't have to be beaten, I can let you beat my back and pinch my shoulders every day, and I will let you warm my bed at night!" ”

"But I won't." Gu Panyan looked into his eyes, "I'll think you're a scumbag very disgusting, it's better to stay away from me." ”

Wang Ge: "......"

Gu Panyan looked at him, then looked up and kissed him on the lips.

"It takes courage to accept the departure of a loved one, it takes courage to accept the breakdown of a family, and it takes courage to accept that the person I love is a scumbag, and it also takes courage, doesn't it."

Wang Ge's body stiffened slightly.

Gu Panyan hugged him and whispered in his ear, "I can give you a slap on your back and pinch your shoulders, or I can warm your bed, but, little master, you must hide your messy relationships well, and don't let me find out." ”

"Accept what can't be changed, and resist what should be changed. My grandfather is dying, and my parents are not in harmony, and I can't change this. But if I find out about your messy relationship......" she blew softly into his ear, "do you think I'll accept it, or will I rebel?" ”

Wang Ge thought for two seconds, and then said with a look of anticipation: "If I can, I want to experience beating my back and pinching my shoulders first." ”

Gu Panyan was silent for a moment, and then punched him hard in the arm, "You go to die!" ”

Then she stood up, glared at him, and went back to her room.

"It hurts......"

Wang Ge rubbed the place where he was beaten and smiled bitterly.

Although I have been beaten a lot before, I have never hurt so much.

He knew that such an answer might make Gu Panyan angry, but there was no way, how else could he answer.

When he decided to be a scumbag, he was destined to face this kind of problem, and no matter how he answered, it was wrong.

It's so hard to be a scumbag.

Life is not easy, Wang Ge sighed.

No way, who made him greedy and wanted it all.

It's something he has to bear.

……

The next day, Wang Ge got up early in the morning, cooking and cleaning.

Gu Panyan was disdainful of his flattering behavior, but he didn't continue to be angry with him.

In the afternoon, Gu Panyan went out to buy something, and Wang Ge sat in front of the computer to check the results.

He checked his own first, seven hundred and thirty-nine, one point short of seven hundred and four, a little regretful.

But winning the provincial champion should not be a problem.

The corners of his mouth rose slightly.

He turned his head and went to check Gu Panyan's score again, six hundred and fourteen points, which was about the same as expected, not low, and there must be no problem with going to Changchuan University.

The moment he saw Gu Panyan's results, the voice of the system sounded in his ears:

"Ding~"

[Congratulations to the host for completing the mission: saving the bad girl.] 】

[Rewards: Constitution +1, Points +6140, and the special ability "Taught without Class" becomes permanent and takes effect for everyone.] 】

[In view of the fact that during the mission, the host successfully established a romantic relationship with Gu Panyan and received additional rewards.] 】

[Congratulations to the host for obtaining the special ability: the courage of happiness]

[Special Ability: Courage to Happiness]

[Introduction: You will have the courage to achieve happiness that ordinary people can't match, and in fear and suffering, you will have the courage to face, dare to resist, and be invincible]

[Effect: When you choose to face fear and suffering, you gain +1 for all stats and +1 for all skill levels until you overcome this fear and suffering]

[Cooldown: None]

PS: Courage is the most important spiritual core of the role of Gu Panyan, and after paving it for a long time, it was finally written.

Xixi has a towering pursuit of freedom, and Yanbao naturally has to have the courage to be deeply rooted in the ground, so as to compete with it.

Don't say I'm eccentric anymore, I give the same love to both characters.

It's just that compared to Xixi's freedom, Yanbao's courage will be more difficult to understand, after all, courage, it should be a topic that everyone writes badly in junior and senior high school, what is there to write about?

I can understand it, so I didn't write it in too much depth, after all, it's a web novel. It's also a stack of armor, afraid that some people won't understand, or have different views from me, and come and spray me.

Among them, I have borrowed a small part of Adler's ideas from "The Psychology of Courage", if you are interested, you can learn about it.